Blue Moon (22 page)

“W
OULD YOU BELIEVE
I slipped?” Jason asked.

“No,” Richard said. That one word was very cold.

“Get off of me, Jason.”

He rolled to one side but made no move to grab for a towel. Richard threw the towel at him. Jason caught it, and his eyes sparkled with the effort not to smile. Jason had a streak in him that made him enjoy yanking someone's chain. He liked to stir the pot and see what happened. Someday he was going to do it with the wrong person, and he was going to get hurt. But not tonight.

“Get out, Jason. I need to talk to Anita.”

Jason stood and wrapped the towel around his waist. I'd sat up but hadn't stood up. Jason offered me his hand. I almost never let a man help me stand, sit, or do much of anything. I took Jason's hand, and he gave it that little extra pull that made me bump into him when I got to my feet.

“You want me to go?” he asked.

I moved a step back but let him keep my hand. “I'll be all right,” I said.

Jason grinned up at Richard as he walked out the door. Richard closed the door, leaning against it. I was effectively trapped and he was angry enough that the room filled with prickling energy.

“What was all that about?” he asked.

“It's none of your business anymore, is it?” I asked.

“Earlier today I thought you turned me down because you were being loyal to Jean-Claude.”

“I turned you down because it was the right thing to do.” I went to the sink and started trying to clean the bits of black crud out from under my fingernails.

“If Jean-Claude finds out you're doing Jason, he'd hurt him, maybe kill him.”

“Are you going to tell on us? Run home tattling to our master?” I looked at him in the mirror when I said it. My reward was that he flinched. A little too close to home, that comment.

“Why Jason?” he asked.

“Do you really believe that I'm having sex with Jason?” I turned and used the slightly damp towel to dry my hands.

Richard just looked at me.

“Jesus, Richard, just because you're jumping everything in sight doesn't mean I am.” I sat down on the closed stool and tried to blot my jeans dry with the towel.

“So you're not sleeping with him?”

The towel was not helping the jeans. “No, I'm not.” I threw the towel in the corner. “I can't believe you'd even ask.”

“If you'd found me on the floor with a naked woman on top of me, you'd have thought the same thing,” he said.

Hmm, he had me there. “All the women I'd find you with would be strangers who are either dating you, fucking you, or both. What you saw on the floor was Jason being Jason. You know how he is.”

“You used to threaten to shoot him if he touched you.”

I stood. “Do you really want me to shoot him because he made a pass? I thought one of our main problems was that you thought I shot first and asked questions later. I think you called me bloodthirsty.” I pushed past him and where our skin touched power flared like an invisible flame.

He moved back clutching his arm like it had hurt. But I knew it hadn't hurt. It had felt wonderful, a rush of power to make your hair stand on end. It was little touches like that that let us both know what it could be between us.

I walked out. So there was power between us, so there was heat, so what? It didn't change the fact that I was sleeping with Jean-Claude. It didn't change the fact that Richard was sleeping around. The fact that I was jealous of his girlfriends and he was jealous of any man he thought I might be having sex with was just a nasty cosmic joke. We'd get over it.

T
HERE WERE THREE
people in my bed; none of them were me. Cherry and Zane had curled up around Nathaniel like fleshy security blankets. I'd been informed that the physical closeness of your group, whatever the animal flavor, was healing both emotionally and physically. Richard had backed up this bit of werelore, so the wereleopards got the bed, because Nathaniel had hysterics at the thought of being without me.

So the wereleopards got the bed, and I got the floor. I managed to get a blanket and a pillow to go with my bit of carpet. We were in a new cabin. Verne was going to try to clean the old cabin, but the bed and carpet were probably a lost cause.

I apologized for that, but Verne seemed to think I could do no wrong. He was tickled pink, purple, and blue that I'd fried Colin's vamps. I was not so happy. Revenge can be a very scary thing. If someone had done to Jean-Claude's vamps what I did to Colin's vamps, I'd . . . we'd have killed them.

The bathroom door opened and closed quietly.

I sat up, hugging the blanket around me. Jason threaded his way between the two coffins. He was wearing a pair of silk boxers. He'd put them on last night in the bathroom and come out without a word. I'd still been trying to convince the wereleopards that they couldn't all sleep naked.

Jason had wanted to sleep with them, adding his otherworldly energy to theirs, but they refused him. Not because he was wolf instead of leopard, but because Cherry didn't trust him to keep his hands to himself.

Jason paused in front of the bed, staring down at the pile of sleeping wereleopards. He ran his hands through his sleep-tousled hair. His hair was straight enough and baby fine enough
that his hands could smooth the hair into place. He stayed near the foot of the bed, staring down.

I finally stood, wrapping the blanket around me. I was wearing an oversized sleeping shirt that hit me at midcalf. One size does not fit all, but it was still nightclothes, and I wanted something between me and anyone else. At heart, I am a prude. I went to stand next to Jason, covered shoulder to foot in the blanket. It wasn't Jason I didn't trust. It was everyone else who made me uncomfortable.

Cherry lay on her back, sheets tangled around her knees. She was wearing a pair of red bikini underwear stretched tight across narrow hips. Her waist was very long so that she got height from there as well as those long legs. Her breasts were small and firm. She sighed and rolled one shoulder, making the flesh of one breast move, settling closer to the bed. The nipple tightened as if something in the movement or the dream was exciting. Or maybe she was just cold.

I glanced at Jason. He was gazing at her like he was memorizing every curve, the way her breast spilled to the side. His eyes were almost soft as he looked at her. More than lust, maybe? Or the way you look at a really fine work of art, admiring it because you're not allowed to touch.

Neither of the others were giving nearly as good a show. Nathaniel was wrapped in a ball, head pressed to Cherry's waist. He was so bound in covers that all you could see was the top of his head. He whimpered in his sleep, and Cherry's hand touched the top of his head, her other arm flinging out into space, eyes still closed, still asleep. But even in her sleep, she reached for him, comforted him.

Zane lay on the other side of Nathaniel, spooning his body against the smaller man's. But the covers had been dragged off him, showing the blue bikinis he was wearing. The underwear looked suspiciously like Cherry's, as if she'd had to give him something to wear to bed.

Jason had eyes only for Cherry's slender form. I was surprised that she couldn't feel the weight of his gaze, even in her sleep.

I held the quilt in place with one hand and touched his wrist with the other. I crooked my finger at him and led the way to the far corner of the room, as far away from the bed as we could get.

I leaned against the wall to the side of the window. Jason leaned against the wall close enough that his shoulder brushed the edge of the quilt. I didn't protest because we were whispering. Besides, after awhile, complaining about everything that Jason did just got tiresome. It wasn't really personal. He pushed his luck with everyone.

“Did you sense anyone the last watch?”

He shook his head, leaning so close that I could feel his breath against my cheek. “They're afraid of you after last night.”

I turned to look at him and had to move my head back a little to be able to focus on his eyes. “Afraid of me?”

His face was very serious. “Don't be coy, Anita. What you did last night was impressive, and you know it.”

I hugged the blanket around my shoulders and looked at the ground. After the rush of power had faded last night, I'd been cold. I'd been cold all night. It was nearly ninety degrees outside. The air conditioner was whirring, and I was cold. Unfortunately, it wasn't the kind of cold that blankets or heat or even another warm body could chase away. I'd scared myself last night. Lately, that took a lot.

I'd seen the burning vampires in my dreams. They'd chased me with flame-covered arms. Their mouths opened in screams, fangs leaking fire like dragon's breath. The burning vamps had offered me Mira's head. The head had talked in its basket, asking, “Why?” Because I was careless didn't seem like a good enough answer. I ran from the dying vampires all night long, one dream after another, or maybe it was just one long, broken dream. Who knows? Either way, it hadn't been restful.

Richard had turned to me last night with the vampire bodies still glowing like banked fires. He'd looked at me, and I'd felt his revulsion, his horror at what I'd done, like a knife through my heart. If things had been reversed and I'd been the werewolf and he'd been the human, he'd have been just as sickened after the show with Marcus as I had been. No, more so. The only reason Richard hung around with monsters was the fact that he was one.

Richard had gone off to his cabin with Jamil and Shang-Da. Shang-Da and Jamil hadn't been horrified; they'd been impressed. Though Shang-Da had said, “They'll kill us all for this.”

Asher had disagreed. “Colin is a lesser master than
Jean-Claude, yet he demanded the life of Jean-Claude's second, me, and the sanity of one of his wolves, Jason. He overstepped his bounds. Anita merely reminded him of that.”

Shang-Da had looked at the blackened corpses, slowly turning to piles of ash. “You think any master vampire will allow this to go unanswered?”

Asher shrugged. “It is no disgrace to lose against someone who has met the Council and survived.”

“Besides,” Jamil said, “he'll be scared now. He won't come against Anita face-to-face again.”

Asher nodded. “Exactly; he fears her now.”

“His human servant, Nikki, could have enabled the wards just like I did,” I said.

“I believe,” Asher said, “that if his servant had power so similiar to your own, she would not have merely warned him.”

“She'd have tried to keep me from setting the magic free,” I said.

“Yes,” Asher said.

“She lied,” I said.

Asher smiled and touched my cheek. “How can you be so cynical and be surprised when people lie?”

To that, there was no answer. What I'd done was just beginning to sink in then. Now, in the light of midday, not morning—we'd managed to sleep the morning away—I was cold with the knowledge that what I'd done last night hadn't used power from either Richard or Jean-Claude. What I'd done last night had been all me. I'd have been able to do it without a single vampire mark or a drop of extra power.

I hated it when I did something so inhuman and couldn't blame anyone else for it. Made me feel like a freak.

Jason touched my shoulder. I looked at him. There must have been something in my face, because the grin faded from his. His eyes held that world-weary sorrow that peeked through every once in awhile.

“What's wrong?” he asked.

I shook my head. “You saw what I did last night. I did it. Not Jean-Claude. Not Richard. Me. Just little old me.”

He put his hands on my shoulders and turned me to look at him full face. “You saved me last night, Anita. You put yourself between me and those things. I'll never forget that, ever.”

I tried to look away, and he shook me gently until I looked
at him. We were exactly the same height, so it wasn't like looking up at him, just at him. All the teasing was gone. What was left behind was something more serious, more grown-up, less Jason. “You killed to save us last night. None of us will forget that. Verne and his wolves won't forget that.”

“Colin won't forget it, either,” I said. “He'll come after us.”

Jason shook his head. “Asher and Jamil are right. He's scared shitless of you now. He won't come near you.”

I grabbed his arms, letting the quilt slide to the floor. “But he'll hurt the rest of you. He'll try and take you, Jason. He'll give you to Barnaby. He'll break you just to hurt me.”

“Or he'll kill Asher,” Jason said. “I know.” He smiled, and it was almost his usual grin. “Why do you think we both stayed in here with you last night? I, for one, wanted your protection.”

“You know you have it,” I said.

The smile softened. “I know.” He touched my face gently. “What's wrong? I mean really wrong? Why do you look so . . . tormented today?”

“What I did last night wasn't very human, Jason. I felt Richard's horror. I felt him think of me as a monster, and he's right.”

Jason hugged me. I stiffened at first, and he started to let me go, then I relaxed against him. I let him hold me, wrapping my own arms around his back. I buried my face against his neck and had a horrible urge to cry.

There was a soft sound from behind us. I raised my head to look. The wereleopards were climbing off the bed, gliding towards us on human feet but moving as if there were muscles in their legs and hips and torsos that didn't exist in mine. Zane and Cherry writhed and glided, nearly naked, towards us. Cherry held Nathaniel's hand, leading him like a child. But he didn't look like a child as he padded towards us, naked. Undies would have hurt the upper thigh wound. Now, as he came towards us, it was clear that he wasn't completely unhappy to see me. Or maybe it was waking up next to Cherry, or maybe it was just a guy thing. Either way, I didn't like it.

I pushed away from Jason. He didn't fight it, just stepped back. He watched the wereleopards come, but I don't think he was worried about it. In fact, I could feel his energy prickle along my skin. Strong emotions like lust will make a shapeshifter's energy rise. The moment I thought it, I looked without thinking. Jason was happy to see Cherry, very happy.

I looked away, blushing. I turned my back on all of them, arms hugging my sides.

Someone touched my shoulder. I flinched.

“It's me, Anita,” Jason said.

I shook my head.

He hugged me from behind, arms very carefully across my shoulders and no lower. “I'm not sorry you killed them, Anita. I'm just sorry you didn't kill Barnaby.”

“Someone else is going to pay for my bravado, Jason. Like Mira last night. I do things, say things, around you guys, and it all goes wrong.”

Zane moved around in front of me. I stared up at him with Jason's arms still around my shoulders like a bulky necklace. Zane's brown eyes were as serious as I'd seen them on this trip.

He reached out to touch my face, and only Jason's arms tightening ever so slightly kept me from backing away or saying, “Don't.” Touching didn't mean the same thing to lycanthropes as it did to the rest of American society. I would say
human,
but there were a lot of countries that were more into casual touching than ours.

Zane's fingers trailed down my cheek while he studied my face, frowning. “Gabriel was our whole world. He and Elizabeth made us, chose us. As bad as you think he was, Gabriel saved most of us. I was a junkie, but he didn't allow drugs in his pard.”

He leaned into me, sniffing along my skin, rubbing his cheek so that I could feel the fine stubble along his jaw. “Nathaniel was a street whore. Gabriel pimped him out but not to just anybody, not to everybody.”

Cherry was on her knees. She took my hand, rubbing her face against my skin like a cat scent-marking. “I lost a leg in a hit-and-run accident. Gabriel offered me my leg back. He cut it off above the stump, and when I shifted, the leg grew back.”

Zane laid a gentle kiss on my forehead. “He did care for us in his own, twisted way.”

“But he never risked his life for us,” Cherry said. She started licking my hand, again for all the world like a cat. She stopped licking me seconds before I told her to stop. Maybe she sensed my tension. “You risked your life to save Nathaniel. You risked the lives of your vampires for him.”

Zane cradled my face in his hands, leaning back so he could
see my face. “You love Asher. Why would you risk him for Nathaniel?”

I drew back gently from their hands until I was standing alone near the door. I wasn't going to make a break for it, I just needed some room.

Nathaniel crouched in the middle of the room. He was the only one who hadn't touched me.

“I don't love Asher,” I said.

“We can smell your desire for him,” Zane said.

Oh, great. “I didn't say I didn't think he was cute. I said I didn't love him.” My eyes slid to the coffin. I knew he couldn't hear me, but . . .

Jason was leaning against the wall, grinning at me, arms crossed over his chest. The look on his face was enough.

“I don't love him.”

Cherry and Zane stared at me, wearing almost identical expressions, neither of which I could read. “You care for him,” Cherry said.

I thought about that, then nodded. “Okay, I care for him.”

“Why would you risk him for Nathaniel?” she asked. She was still on her knees. She went to all fours as she spoke. Her breasts hung down, moving as she crawled towards me. I'd never had a naked woman crawl towards me, ever. Naked men, but not naked women. It bothered me. Homophobic? Who me?