Blue-Eyed Devil (3 page)

One of his hands came up to my face, fingertips exploring the curve of my cheek. Blindly I reached up and felt the backs of his fingers, searching for the hard band of a ring.

“No,” he murmured, “not married.”

The tip of his little finger found the outside rim of my ear and traced delicately. I found myself slipping into a strange, pleasant passivity. I can’t do this, I thought, even as I let him pull me closer, his hand lucking my hips into his. My head felt heavy, tipping back as he nuzzled into the soft space beneath my jaw. I had always thought I was pretty good at resisting temptation. But this was the first time I’d ever felt the pull of serious lust, and I wasn’t at all equipped to handle it.

” A re you a friend of the groom,” I managed to ask, “or friend of the bride?”

I felt him smile against my skin. “Wouldn’t say I’m popular in either quarter.”

“My God. You crashed the reception, didn’t you?”

“Honey, half the people here crashed the reception.” He traced one of the straps that held my dress up, and my stomach gave an excited leap.

“Are you in the oil business? Or ranching?”

“Oil,” he said. “Why’d you ask?”

“You’re built like a roughneck.”

A laugh rustled in his chest. “I’ve stacked my share of drill pipe,” he admitted. His breath was soft and hot against my hair. “So . . . you ever go out with a blue-collar guy? I bet not. Rich girl like you . . . you’d stick with your own kind, wouldn’t you?”

“You’re wearing a nice tux for a blue-collar guy,” I countered. “Armani?”

“Even roughnecks get to dress up now and then.” He braced his hands on either side of me, lightly gripping the edge of the table. “What’s this for?”

I leaned back to preserve the small but crucial distance between our bodies. “The tasting table?”

“Yeah.”

“It’s for uncorking and decanting. We keep wine accessories in the drawers. Also white cloths to drape over the top, so you can judge the color of the wine.”

“I’ve never been to a wine tasting before. How do you do it?”

I stared at the outline of his head, now dimly visible in the heavy shadows. “You hold the glass by the stem, and you stick your nose right into the bowl and breathe in the scent.”

“In my case, that’s a considerable amount of nose.”

I couldn’t resist touching him then, my fingers stealing up to his face, investigating the assertive line of his nose. I touched the crook near the bridge. “How did you break it?” I asked in a hushed voice.

His warm lips slid over the heel of my hand. “That’s one of the stories I only tell when I’m drinking something a lot stronger than wine.”

“Oh.” I pulled my hand away. “Sorry.”

” Don’t be sorry. I wouldn’t mind telling you someday.”

Doggedly I steered the conversation back on course. “When you take a sip of wine, you hold it in your mouth. There’s a place in the back of your mouth that leads to smell receptors in your nasal cavity. It’s called retro-olfaction.”

” Interesting.” He paused. “So after you taste and smell the wine, you spit out in a bucket, right?”

” I’d rather swallow than spit.”

As the double meaning of the words occurred to me, I flushed hard enough I was certain he could see it in the darkness. Mercifully he didn’t comment, although I heard the flick of amusement in his voice. “Thanks for the pointers.”

” You’re welcome. We should go now. You leave first.”

“Okay.”

But neither of us moved.

And then his hands found my hips, skimming upward, a callus on his finger catching at the fragile fabric of my dress. I was aware of every shift of his weight, the subtle movements of bone and heavy muscle. The sound of his breathing was electrifying.

The long, work-roughened hands didn’t stop until he was cradling my face with a tenderness that made my throat tight. His mouth sought mine, all hot silk and sweetness. But for all the gentleness of the kiss, there was something so raw about it that by the time he drew back, my nerves were pleasure-stung and unbearably alive. A whimper emerged from my throat, the sound embarrassing me, but there was no controlling it. No controlling anything.

I reached up to hold on to his heavy wrists, mostly to keep from toppling over. My knees were shot. I had never felt anything so explosive, or insidious. The world had shrunk to this small wine-scented room, two bodies in the darkness, the ache of desire for someone I could never have. He moved his mouth to my ear, and I felt the moist heat of his breath, and I leaned against him in a daze.

“Listen, honey,” he whispered. “There’ve only been a couple times in my life when something felt so good I didn’t give a damn about the consequences.” His lips slid over my forehead, my nose, my trembling eyelids. “Go tell Nick you’re not feeling well, and come away with me. Right now. There’s a strawberry moon out tonight. We’ll go somewhere and find a patch of soft grass, and share a bottle of champagne. And I’ll drive you to Galveston to watch the sun rise over the bay.”

I was amazed. Men never propositioned me like that. And I never would have thought to be so insanely tempted. “I can’t. That’s crazy.”

His lips caught at mine in a gently biting kiss. “Maybe it’s crazy not to.”

I squirmed and pushed back from him until I’d managed to put some distance between us. “I have a boyfriend,” I said shakily. “I don’t know why I just . . . I don’t know why I let that happen. I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologize. At least, not for that.” His footsteps came closer, and I tensed. “What you should really he sorry for,” he continued, “is that for the rest of my life, I’ll have to avoid wine cellars to keep from thinking about you.”

“Why?” I asked, woeful and shamed “Was kissing me that bad?”

A devil-soft whisper. “No, sweet heart. It was that good.” And he left first, while I leaned against the tasting table with raggedy balance.

I went back out into the clamor and stole away to the grand staircase leading to the second-floor bedrooms. Liberty was waiting for me in the room Gage had occupied in childhood. I had barged in there a thousand times, wanting attention from the one person who always seemed to have time for me. I must have been a royal pain, chattering to him while he did his homework, dragging in my broken toys for him to fix. But Gage had tolerated it with what was, in retrospect, remarkable patience.

I remembered the time I’d been about Carrington’s age, maybe a little younger, when Jack and Joe had dropped my favorite doll out the window and Gage had rescued her. I had gone into Jack’s room, a chaos of toys and books and discarded clothes, and I’d seen him and Joe kneeling by the open window.

“Whatcha doing?” I had asked, venturing nearer. The two dark heads turned at the same time.

“Get outta here, Haven,” Jack had commanded.

“Daddy says you have to let me play with you.”

“Later. Get lost.”

“What are you holding?” I had gone closer, my heart clutching as I saw something in their hands, tied up with strings. “Is that . . . is that Bootsie?”

“We’re just borrowing her,” Joe had said, his hands busy with string and some kind “I plasticky fabric.

“You can’t!” I had felt the panic of the thoroughly powerless, the outrage of the dispossessed. “You didn’t ask me. Give her back! Give her — ” My voice shredded into a scream as I saw Bootsie being dangled over the windowsill, her naked pink body harnessed with a contraption of strings and tape and paper clips. My baby doll had been recruited on a mission as a parachute jumper. “Doooooooon’t!”

“For Pete’s sake,” Jack had said in a disgusted tone. “She’s just a hunk of plastic.” And, adding injury to insult, he’d given me a mean look and dropped her.

Bootsie had gone down like a stone. I couldn’t have been more upset if the boys had dropped a real baby out the window. Howls ripped from my throat as I’d raced from the room and down the big staircase. And I kept howling as I tore outside to the side of the house, paying no attention to the voices of my parents, the housekeeper, the gardener.

Bootsie had fallen into the middle of a massive ligustrum bush. The only thing visible had been the crumpled parachute caught on a top branch, my doll hanging unseen in the green and white thicket. Since I was too short and small to reach into the branches, I could only stand there crying, while the heat from the Texas sun had settled on me with the weight of a wool blanket.

Alerted by the racket, Gage had come and rummaged through the ligustrum until he found Bootsie. He had dusted away the powdering of scurf from ligustrum leaves, and held me against him until my tears were blotted against his T-shirt.

“I love you more than anybody,” I had whispered to him.

“I love you too,” Gage had whispered back, and I could feel him smiling against my hair. “More than anybody.”

As I entered Gage’s room now, I saw Liberty sitting on the bed in a heap of shimmering organza, her shoes on the floor, her veil a rich froth floating on the mattress. It seemed impossible that she could have been any more stunning than she had been earlier at the church. But she looked even better this way, glowing and smudged. She was half Mexican with a butter-smooth complexion and big green eyes, and a figure that made you think of the old-fashioned word “bombshell.” She was also shy. Cautious. You got the sense that things hadn’t come easy for her, that she’d had close acquaintance with hardship.

Liberty made a comical face as she saw me. “My rescuer. You’ll have to help me out of this dress — it has a thousand buttons and they’re all in the back.”

“No problem.” I sat on the bed next to her, and she turned her back to make it easier for me. I felt awkward, struggling with unspoken tensions that no amount of niceness on her part would dispel.

I tried to think of something gracious to say. “I think today was the best day of Gage’s life. You make him really happy.”

“He makes me happy too,” Liberty said. “More than happy. He’s the most incredible man, the most . . . ” She paused and lifted her shoulders in a little shrug, as if it were impossible to put her feelings into words.

“We’re not the easiest family to marry into. A lot of strong personalities.”

“I love the Travises,” she said without hesitation. “All of you. I always wanted a big family. It was just Carrington and me after Mama died.”

I’d never reflected on the fact that both of us had lost a mother while we were in our teens. Except it must have been much scarier for Liberty, because there’d been no rich father, no family, no nice house and cushy life. And she’d raised her little sister all by herself, which I had to admire.

“Did your mother get sick?” I asked. She shook her head. “Car wreck.”

I went to the closet and took down the white pantsuit hanging over the back of the door. I brought it to Liberty, who shimmied out of her wedding dress. She was a vision of sumptuous curves contained in white lace, the swell of her pregnancy more developed than I would have expected.

Liberty dressed in white pants and matching blazer, and low-heeled beige pumps. Going to the dresser, she leaned close to the mirror and neatened her smudged eyeliner with a tissue. “Well,” she said, “this is as good as it’s going to get.”

“You look gorgeous,” I said.

“Droopy.”

“In a gorgeous way.”

She looked over her shoulder with a dazzling grin. “All your lipstick’s gone, Haven.” She motioned me to the mirror beside her. “Nick caught you alone in a corner, didn’t he?” She handed me a tube of something shimmery and pale. Mercifully, before I had to answer, there was a knock at the door.

Liberty went to open it, and Carrington came in, accompanied by my aunt Gretchen.

Aunt Gretchen, my father’s older sister and only sibling, was hands down my favorite relative from either side of the family. She had never been elegant like my mother. Gretchen was country born and as tough as any pioneer woman who ever crossed the Red River on the Cherokee Trace. Back then Texas women had learned to take care of themselves because the men were always gone when you needed them. The modern versions were still like that, iron-willed beneath their coating of Mary Kay cosmetics.

By all rights Aunt Gretchen should have been a tragic figure. She’d been engaged three times, and had lost all three fiancés, the first in the Korean War, the second in a car accident, and the third to an undiagnosed heart ailment. Each time Aunt Gretchen had confronted the loss, grieved, and accepted. She said she would never consider marriage again — it was clear she wasn’t meant to have a husband.

But Aunt Gretchen found all the fun she could out of life. She wore bright shades of coral and red, and always matched her lipstick to  her clothes, and she wore jewelry on every appendage. Her hair was always teased and ratted into a puffy silver-white ball. When I was little, she had traveled a lot and nearly always brought presents for us.

Whenever Aunt Gretchen dropped in to stay for a week or so, it had never been a convenient time for Mother. Putting two strong-minded women in the same house was like setting two trains on one track and waiting for the collision. Mother would have liked to limit Aunt Gretchen’s visits, but she hadn’t dared. One of the few times I  ever heard my father speak sharply to my mother was when she was complaining about his meddlesome sister.

“I don’t give a damn if she turns the whole house upside down,” Dad said. “She saved my life.”

When Dad was still in grade school, his father, my Pappaw, had left the family for good, telling people his wife was the meanest woman who ever lived, and crazy too, and while he could have put up with a crazy woman, there was nothing worse than being married to a mean one. He disappeared from Conroe, where they had lived, and was never heard from again.

A person might have hoped Pappaw’s leaving would have given Mammaw cause for reflection, and maybe inspired her to be a little nicer. Instead Mammaw went the other way. She wore her arm out on her two children, Gretchen and Churchill, whenever she was provoked. And apparently just about everything provoked her. She’d reach for kitchen utensils, garden tools, anything she could get a hold of, and she’d beat her children half to death.

Back then people were more tolerant of such things, so there was no public interference in what was viewed as the family’s private business. Gretchen knew she and her little brother were in for certain death if she didn’t get them both out of there.