Authors: Sam Millar
‘Down these mean streets a man must go who is not himself mean
…
a common man and yet an unusual man. He talks as the man of his age talks, that is, with rude wit, a lively sense of the grotesque …’
Raymond Chandler
, The Simple Art of Murder
T
HIN AS A
line but commandingly tall, Karl Kane squeezed the blob of cream from the fat tube and for such a tall man applied it rather daintily to his tense rear end.
Swearing under his breath, he grimaced as the cream’s coldness reached its target. A few seconds later, his clammy face eased as the cream settled.
Wiping the guiding finger on underwear pooling at his ankles, Karl noticed the tiny red smudge mingling with the residue cream.
“Give me a break …”
Just as he bent to retrieve the battered underwear, the door of his office was flung open.
“Now that’s what I call an early morning smile,” said a grinning young woman wearing ripped Levi’s and a T-shirt bearing the legend:
I Don’t Have A Dick, So I Make The Rules.
Extremely attractive and lissom, she was dark-skinned with large hazel eyes, and wild black hair normally found cascading in every direction. This morning, however, the hair was firmly reined in by a tiny red ribbon. Despite the Northern cadence in her voice, there remained just a slight trace of the South. When jokers mention her size (5’4”), her eyes quickly became skin-strippers, as did her whiplash tongue: “Dynamite comes in a small package, also …”
“For god’s sake, Naomi! I told you not to disturb me for the next twenty minutes,” growled Karl, hastily pulling up his pants. “Can’t I have a second of privacy in my own office?”
“Temper, temper. You don’t want your blood pressure going up again. Besides, it’s not like I haven’t seen that sexy smile before.”
“What the hell’s so urgent?” asked Karl, gritting teeth, docking his large frame cautiously onto a rubber doughnut stationed on a chair behind his desk. Suddenly, his arse felt like forks were embedded up it. Tears stained his cinder-grey eyes.
“A Mister Munday, with a ‘u’, needs to see you immediately.”
“Munday on a Monday? Please, no puns. It’s too early in the day. Has he an appointment?”
“No. Should I tell him to make one, come back some other time, when you’re
less
busy?” Naomi smiled smugly.
“You’re hilarious. Give me five minute before showing Mister Munday with a ‘u’ in – and close that bloody door behind you.”
From a messed tray, Karl extracted a letter. It made his heart beat slightly.
Burrger & Goldsmith, International Publishers
was stamped proudly on the paleness of the envelope. With nervous anticipation, his index finger slit the top of the envelope before two more fingers gingerly extracted the single page held within.
Slowly flowering out the page, he read the words individually, trying to ease the impact of any negativity. He got as far as the third line, before the three dreaded words appeared:
Sorry to disappoint …
“Of course you are …” There was no need to read the rest of the letter. It was a carbon copy of the other twelve smirking in the bottom of
his drawer from numerous publishing houses, all rejecting his previous manuscripts.
Karl’s office had always been a frugal affair with only a few cherished items taking up residency. Directly above his head, a framed and personalised drawing from the much sought-after political cartoonist John Kennedy, gazed down upon the room. It depicted a caricature of Karl, dressed like Sherlock Holmes, magnifying glass in hand, reading the fine print of a publisher’s contract. Three framed photos of his daughter, Katie, were proudly centred on a large mahogany table. But it was an engraved plaque resting on his desk that always gave Karl indigestible food for thought. ‘
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better’. Samuel Beckett.
“I
am
failing better, but I can’t help feeling you were an old cynical bastard, Sam.”
Two more letters were extracted from the tray, both with identical themes: Final Notice. One was from the telephone company stating that his phone line would be cancelled at the end of the week, should no attempt at payment be made on a three-month overdue bill; the other was from the law firm of
Richards & Richards
, demanding more alimony for Karl’s ex-wife, Lynne.
“What a start to the week,” mumbled Karl, flinging the letters back into the messed tray.
“Your secretary told me to go right through. The door was open,” said a man standing between the door’s framework, coat hanging limply over his left arm.
The man was stocky, with the battered, unshaven face of a failed pugilist. Liver spots ran down the side of his face like rusted tears. His skin was as grey as ashtray crust. Decorating his knuckles were thick patches of red hair, making Karl think of an aging orang-utan – or gorilla. But it was the eyes that reigned supreme over all focus points of the man’s face. Static. Disquieting. Beetle-skin dark.
“I’m Bill Munday.” The man smiled but his mouth barely moved.
Karl extended his hand. “I’m Karl Kane, Mister Munday. What can I do for you?”
Munday shook Karl’s hand – a bit too convincingly for Karl’s
liking. To Karl, Munday’s slab of hand felt like the inside of a turkey at Christmas.
“I’m hoping you can help me with a little piece of information, Mister Kane.”
“Won’t you sit down? I’m just browsing through some threatening letters sent to one of my clients from two dicks.”
Pulling up a chair before sitting, Munday said, “I’ve been told you’re one of the best private investigators in Belfast, and very discreet.”
“I never argue with the truth.” From a crushed carton resting on top of his desk, Karl plucked a cigarette from a quickly depleting stock. He fired up a
Zippo
, its flame long and thin, and gave life to the cig before releasing a prayer of smoke from his nostrils. He offered a cig to Munday.
“No thanks. Gave them up a long time ago.”
“Good for you. Wish I could,” said Karl, sucking again on the cig. “Well, what can I do for you … Mister Munday?”
Unrolling a newspaper in his massive hands, Munday tapped page four. “Have you read about the body found in Botanic Gardens, not too far from the museum, yesterday?” he said, handing the newspaper to Karl.
Karl studied the page. “I think I heard something about it, on the radio,” he lied, more concerned about the horse results, twenty pages down, or the obituaries on page thirteen, where he liked to keep tabs on no-show clients. “Would you like some coffee?”
Munday nodded. “Black, with four sugars.”
Pressing a button on the phone’s intercom, Karl requested: “Naomi? Two coffees. Black with four sugars, for Mister Munday.”
“What?” returned the affronted voice of Naomi. “I’m a secretary – unpaid for in the last two weeks – not a waitress. Get off your bloody backside and get it yourself!”
“Coffee machine seems to be out of order at the moment,” mumbled Karl, releasing the button quickly, directing the cig to his lips again. “The body in Botanic Gardens? What of it?”
Pulling his chair closer to Karl’s desk, Munday whispered, “I need you to find out as much information as possible. Who it is; how he died. The usual stuff.”
The cig froze momentarily at the entrance to Karl’s mouth, before
continuing its journey. Karl sucked on the cig, releasing a dragon’s breath. “The
usual
stuff? I don’t
usually
have people walk into my office every day and ask such matter-of-fact questions, Mister Munday.”
Munday smiled a forced grin that spread his seven o’clock shadow across his big battered face. From an inside pocket, he teased out an envelope, before placing it on Karl’s desk. The envelope wasn’t bulging, but Karl knew that thinness can sometimes conceal the fattest of rewards.
“There’s five hundreds in there, Mister Kane. There’ll be another five, once you get me the information –
discreetly
, of course.” Munday edged the envelope tantalisingly closer to Karl’s itchy, tarantula-like fingers.
An envelope with some good news? Whatever next? Two – no, one hundred to scumbags Dick and Dick; one for ungrateful Naomi; one for the extortionist phone company, and the rest for the poker game tonight …
“I swear by discretion,” replied Karl, quickly pocketing the envelope.
“Good. I’ll be in touch,” said Munday, rising.
“Do you have a phone number, in case I need to contact you?”
“I know where to find you,” stated Munday, closing the door gently behind him.
A few seconds after Munday’s departure, the door reopened. “Well?” asked a beaming Naomi, entering the room, her hand outstretched. “My wages, please, thank you very much.”
Shaking his head with disgust, Karl said, “I warned you about eavesdropping on my business transactions. You’ll take one hundred, and make me a cup of coffee.”
“I’ll take two, and you’ll invite me out for a nice lunch at
Nick’s Warehouse.
”
“Whatever happened to loyalty?” asked Karl, handing Naomi her overdue wage.
In return, Naomi gave Karl the kind of kiss that promised a lot more fun to come later. “I’ll get both our coats. I’m starving.”
Picking up the newspaper again, Karl scanned the article for further details on the corpse. Information on the body was sketchy, at best, speculation being king in print. One crucial detail was missing: gender.
Karl’s arse began to itch, again.
âNo one who, like me, conjures up the most evil of those
half-tamed
demons that inhabit the human breast, and seeks to wrestle with them, can expect to come through the struggle unscathed.'
Sigmund Freud,
Dora: An Analysis of a Case of Hysteria
T
HE YOUNG BOY
slithered out of bed, pyjamas soaked right through to his bones. For a full ten seconds he stood, awkwardly, legs apart, before ditching the wet garments, a plethora of goose pimples spreading over his naked body.
The urine stench was becoming sharper in the room as he tried desperately to figure out his next move. The bedclothes? How could he get rid of them without exposing his shameful act to his parents?
It wasn't his father he was worried about, but his mother. She'd take no excuses, believing excuses only led to more excuses and further acts of shame. If only his father â his greatest ally â were home, and not at sea for the next two weeks
â¦
Truth be told, the boy knew he should never have been so greedy last night, with the pilfered lemonade from the fridge. Now God was punishing him for his greed, his thieving. All those poor children in Africa with their fat, swollen bellies belying their starvation. His mother always made him watch those horrible documentaries while he attempted to eat his dinner, twisting his ear verbally and physically.
See? See how lucky you are? You keep sinning, and God'll make you come back as one of those unfortunate children. You mark my words â¦
The cupboard in the spare room housed fresh bedclothes, but it was directly across from his parents' bedroom, on the next floor. He thought about it, calculating the possibilities and the risk factor. If he could only get away with this terrible sin, he promised God that he would never be greedy anymore, would stop pissing himself like the lazy, filthy boy his mother kept accusing him of being; would begin to love his mother as much as he loved his father. Promise.
Cautiously, he opened the door of his bedroom. A tiny but loud squeak whispered accusingly from the hinges. He stopped all movement. Nothing. Peering cautiously into the shadowy landing, he became unnerved by its darkened shapes, but stepped out, gallantly, regardless. Proceeding on bare feet, he crept along the wall, all the while holding his breath.
Outside the house, rain started coming down like nails on tin, muffling any sound he made on the journey up the stairs. God was helping him, he could see that now.
A few more inches and he'd be within the forbidden area of his parents' bedroom. To his left, the cupboard waited patiently with its crisp, fresh sheets. The prize was his for the taking.
I can do this,
he thought.
Win one over on her.
Suddenly, a heart-stopping sound floated in the thick air before resting in his ear. The soft TV sound from his parents' room? The door from their room was slightly ajar, squeezing out dull light like a slice of margarine.
Sneak by quickly. Hurry. She won't hear you. God has put the TV on. Don't you see? He's honouring your promise. He's a good God. Just make sure you keep your part of the bargain and be a good boy. Otherwise â¦
In the harsh glare of the retreating light, lightning hit the outside. The
boy jumped, his heart skittering erratically in his chest. He moved guardedly but with purpose, passing the door, stifling all breathing as he neared.
Suddenly, the margarine light touched the side of his face. He could feel it burning his skin, forcing him to turn in its direction like a rabbit caught in headlights.
Unwillingly, he peered through the door's open spine. The room was fitfully dark, broken only by the spare glow of the television. His damning eyes could see his mother on the bed, sprawled out on her back, naked, her breasts pooling like sloppy yolks. A swirl of pale smoke was provocatively misting over those breasts. He could see her sprouted nipples, and that most private of areas covered by her hair. He was horrified and ashamed, but his eyes didn't move, held there by some invisible, demonic force.
I'll go straight to hell for this. I know that, now. So will she.
The television screen was flickering on her eyes, dancing over the skin of her face like a projection in a dark theatre. Her eyes refused to meet his, as if she had been doing something secretive, something darkly forbidden and wrong.
Mum? he whispered, but the words were not formed, only imagined.
Suddenly, in a flash of clarity, all was revealed. Blood. Brown creases where it had dried in the lines of her palms; red on her fingers like overused nail varnish; blood streaming from the slit throat, bright and dangerous.
His mouth gaped open like a frog's. His stomach heaved. He staggered back, shivering violently, his teeth clattering like castanets.
“It's okay, little boy,” said a soft voice, from the far corner of the room, startling him. The owner of the voice was a big man with a blubbery face and insane eyes. He resembled a very strange baby â one that came out of its mother's womb too late. The big man was naked, plucking at his bloody dick, removing bodily threads, like he hadn't a care in the dark, bloody world. “What's your name, little boy?”
Suddenly, the boy could feel the burdening darkness all around and within, so welcoming to intruders, so generous to murderers.
“Come here, little boy. I want to show you something; something magical and full of wondrous mystery.”
The boy screamed, and ran from the room towards the stairs, seeking shelter. His left foot couldn't get a purchase on a loose step in the middle of the stairs. The carelessness sent him sprawling forward, headlong, arms
wildly grasping for a hold. He barely captured the handrail in time, but he was running again, slightly limping.
The ironing cupboard invited him in. Quiet. So thick and quiet he could hardly breathe, with nothing but darkness pressing tightly against him. He wished his heart would stop thumping in his head. Naked Man would hear it.
“Little boy, come out come out, wherever you are ⦠you can run, but you can't hide ⦔ whispered Naked Man, close. Very close. The voice had its own smell.
The boy held his breath. He could smell the residue of starching powder clinging to the ironing board. It made him think of his mother; it made him feel terribly alone and afraid.
Without warning, the Naked Man's fat leg crashed through the door, barley missing the boy's face.
“You've made me very, very angry ⦔ hissed Naked Man, struggling to extract his fat leg, and it was that split second of chance that the boy took, hoping to reach the front door.
The boy reached the door. To his relief, the door gave in easily; pulling away without protest. The lovely cold night air swathed his face, his entire naked body. It made him feel alive. Fields were suddenly in his vision. The fields flew by and were soon overtaken by trees. He felt a strange momentum hurrying him along. If he could only reach the McMullen farmhouse, he'd be safe.
But he never reached the farmhouse, feeling the filthy knife tearing into him, his mother's blood mingling with his own.
And thus began his hell and all things dark.