Blood Wolf Dawning (4 page)

He cursed, hesitating, then forced himself to write:

I can’t. It’s because of me.

Huh. So what did YOU do? Do I have some psychotic jilted lover coming after me now? Did you accidentally let it slip that you have a mate? Should’ve told the poor woman you want nothing to do with me. She’s wasting her time.

Oh, Jesus. He barked out a dry
laugh, even though there was nothing remotely funny about the situation. Not want her? There were parts of her he wanted so badly he was surprised the need hadn’t permanently damaged him.

Would serve you right
, his beast muttered with disgust, as disappointed in him as everyone else who had ever meant anything to him.

You’re damned right I am. And you sound pathetic.

Irritated that
the animal had just called him out for taking part in an embarrassing private pity party, he started to make his way toward the cabin, ready to face the wrath of Sayre
and
her gun, when he and his beast both instantly realized something was wrong. While the wolf chuffed in his head, Cian lifted his nose and sniffed the mountain air, searching for what had snagged his attention, and promptly finding
it. Two...no, three human males were closing in on Sayre’s cabin from the north, and Cian stealthily headed in their direction, until he could pick up their muted conversation.

“Oh, man, he didn’t tell us she was such a hot little piece. I’m thinking we need to try this one out before we deliver her,” one of them said, obviously eyeing Sayre through the trees.

“I get her first,” argued
a second male.

“Like hell you do,” a new voice cackled. “You always break them and then they aren’t any fun for the rest of us.”

“But I’ve got a thing for redheads,” the second one whined.

“We don’t give a shit. You can wait your fuckin’ turn.”

Cian moved silently through the trees, drawing nearer, every part of him completely focused on his prey. Did these idiots actually
think he was going to let them get close to her? Did they have any idea what they were walking into? Either way, it didn’t matter. Their fates had been sealed the instant they voiced their intentions.

“Let’s spread out, blocking her exits. That asshole who hired us said it might be a few days before he showed up to collect her, and I’d rather spend the time we’ve got with her having fun than
running her down.”

One of his friends snickered. “That’s just because your bum knees don’t hold up anymore. But I kinda like the thought of chasing her down like a bitch.”

In that moment, Cian almost regretted the necessity of killing them quickly. It no doubt made him a brutal bastard, but he would have enjoyed making these assholes suffer long and hard before he finally finished them
off.

He quickly texted Sayre, ordering her to lock herself inside the cabin. Then he shoved the phone in his pocket, and released his long, lethal fangs and claws, the sharp tips piercing through gum and skin with a brief but familiar bite of pain. Without the light of the moon, this was as much as his body could shift form, but it was more than enough. Whatever weapons the humans possessed,
they weren’t going to be any match for his speed and skill.

In normal circumstances, he would have never revealed the deadly, animalistic side of his nature in front of humans, since the Lycan race’s existence was a carefully protected secret from the vast majority of the population. But these weren’t normal circumstances, and these assholes weren’t ever going to leave this mountain.

Relaxing his tether on his beast, Cian allowed the wolf to prowl closer to his surface, the animal’s possessive, visceral need to protect its mate punching deeper into his system, ramping his adrenaline at the same time he shifted into a state of total focus. His objective was extremely simple: destroy the threat by any means necessary. With a deep breath and a flex of his claws, he launched his
attack.

It took only seconds to find the first male in the line of trees behind her cabin, the vile stench of body odor impossible to miss for someone with Cian’s acute sense of smell. He slashed his claws across the human’s throat and swiftly retreated to avoid as much of the thick, crimson spray as he could. Its rich scent had his pulse ramping up, the blackened part of his soul that he
hated with such ferocity awakening with the rush for
more
. For that wet, slick spill to slide down his throat and feed the darkness. Forcing himself to abandon the kill and move on, he quickly closed in on the second human from behind, the bastard never even knowing he was there until he felt the sharp press of Cian’s blood-covered claws tearing across his throat as his body crumpled to the forest
floor.

Two down, one to go.

The third male had made his way around the eastern edge of her property, intending to cut off Sayre from the south. Following the scent of cheap beer and stale sweat, Cian easily found the human standing between two towering trees as the last vestiges of sunlight held on, not yet ready to release its claim to the day. There was a nauseating leer on the bastard’s
face as he stared at her cabin, his tongue slicking across his lips while he tapped the blade of a hunting knife against his thigh. Cian was giving private thanks that Sayre had actually listened to him and gone inside, when she suddenly stepped out from behind the small shed not ten yards away from where the man stood, holding a rifle in her arms. He heard the click of the gun a fraction of
a second before she fired a bullet into the male’s thigh. The force of Sayre’s shot sent the human crashing to the ground, and Cian quickly finished him off with a fatal swipe of his claws before turning toward the headstrong woman who apparently didn’t know how to follow orders to save her life.

It took him six strides to reach her, and while she lowered the gun, she didn’t even try to run.
Retracting his blood-drenched claws, he ripped the gun out of her hold and tossed it aside. Then he quickly gripped her upper arms, yanked her up onto her toes and roared, “What the hell, Sayre? I told you to stay inside the cabin!”

“Like I give a rat’s ass what you told me to do!” she shouted back at him.

“You got a death wish, little girl?” He got right in her face, his voice dropping
to a sibilant hiss. “Because that was the dumbest move I’ve ever seen anyone make.”

Shaking with fury, she began using her power to try and make him release her, but he refused to budge. If he’d been human, the palms of his hands would have no doubt been blistered within a few seconds, unable to endure the searing burst of heat she was generating without letting go. He growled at her, but
she didn’t so much as bat an eyelash, and he realized this female—
his female
—was a woman who would never cower before a man. Raging, intense pride and lust fired through his system, his blood thickening low in his body, while his heart thundered like something trying to break its way free.

With another rough, guttural growl, Cian forced himself to slowly set her back on her feet as he loosened
his grip on her arms. He knew that if he didn’t put some distance between them right then, there was a strong chance he was going to take her to the moss-covered ground beneath their feet and drive himself so deep inside her he wouldn’t ever find his way back out.

“Who were those men?” she demanded, ripping out of his hold.

“My brother,” he grunted, only to realize that his words didn’t
make any sense. “I mean, none of those men were Aedan. But I’m guessing they were working for him.”

She blinked up at him with dark, gold-tipped lashes. “What are you talking about? You don’t have a brother.”

“It’s a long story, but I’ll explain on the road.” Well, he’d explain some of it. No way in hell was he telling her everything.

“Cian.”

“Listen. Next time, he won’t send
a bunch of human thugs. Those guys were just a game to him, Sayre. A message meant to let us know that he’s found you and has you in his sights. But he won’t play the game for long. Eventually, it will be
him
, in the flesh, and I know you don’t trust me, but you can believe me when I tell you that going head-to-head with Aedan isn’t something we could walk away from without paying for it first.
Not here. Not alone.”

She cut her gaze to the side and frowned. “I—”

“Damn it, Sayre, look at me!” He worked his jaw as her narrowed gaze locked with his, then grated out, “I can’t let that happen. I
won’t.
I will throw you in my damn car and tie you up if I have to, though I’d rather you come on your own. I don’t want to hurt you, but there’s no way I’m letting you stay here. He’s
not
getting you.”

She opened her mouth, then snapped it shut. He could see the indecision shadowing her gaze, her intuition battling against her desire to be rid of him. He could understand her anger, but he couldn’t let it get in the way of keeping her alive.

“If not for yourself, then think about Jillian. About Jeremy and their kids,” he told her. Jillian had been pregnant when he’d left,
so he knew the couple had at least one child. “You don’t think he’d go after them if he thought it would hurt you?”

Color leached from her face, making the spray of freckles across her nose stand out in stark relief. “What the hell do me and my family have to do with any of this?”

“He wants to hurt me, and he thinks you’re the way to do that.”

A bitter laugh burst from her pink
lips, and she shook her head in disbelief. “Then he’s a fool. I didn’t even mean enough to you to fuck. I was just a troublesome little girl you wanted out of your way.”

Christ, she couldn’t have been more wrong, but he couldn’t tell her that. And he sure as hell couldn’t let himself think about that four-letter word that had just fallen from her lips—a word he’d never heard her say before.
“Sayre, we don’t have time to argue. We need to be on the road ten minutes ago.”

She stared up at him as the seconds stretched out, each one seeming to last longer than a lifetime while his hands itched with the need to reach out and grab her so that he could get her to safety. “Fine,” she finally agreed, looking as if someone had just thrown her firstborn off a cliff. “I hate it, but I’m
not going to cut off my nose to spite my face.”

“Smart girl,” he murmured with relief.

“
Woman
, Cian. Smart
woman
. I’m no longer a child.”

“Uh, yeah. Got it.” Then he tacked on a “sorry” for good measure.

Jabbing him in the center of his chest with her finger, she said, “You’re damned right you had better be sorry. Because this is
all
.
Your.
Fault!
”

Guilt settled heavily
in his gut, and he knew he needed to tread carefully. “I know, and I’m sorry. But can we please just get on the road?”

Shaking her head, she said, “No.”

“No?” He sucked in a sharp breath, struggling not to shout at her again. “I thought we just went over this.”

“I believe that you’ve landed me in the middle of a freaking problem, but that doesn’t mean I’m running back to the Alley.
However—” her voice sounded like she’d swallowed a handful of razor blades as she held one hand up to him in a hold-it-right-there gesture “—I’m willing to let you come inside and talk to me.”

“I’m not letting you stay here alone, Sayre.”

“Then you had better not piss me off,” she huffed as she walked over to where he’d tossed her gun and picked it up, “because I was planning on letting
you take the sofa until we have this figured out.”

Shit
, he thought, shoving a hand back through his hair. Staying here wasn’t what he wanted. He needed her in the Alley, where he knew it would be easier to protect her. “It’s safer there, Sayre.”

With the gun propped on her shoulder, she turned back to him, her expression impossible to read. “That may be. But I’m not going to let you
rush me into any decisions right now. I will give myself some time to process this, and then I’ll let you know what I’ve decided to do.”

He closed his eyes for a moment, dropping his head back on his shoulders, and counted back from ten.

“While you’re struggling with whatever’s going through that thick head of yours,” she told him, sounding as if she were gloating a bit, “I’ll just run
inside and grab my keys, then take you down the road so that you can grab your car and bring it back here.”

Opening his eyes, Cian lowered his head and watched her walk away, wondering how she made the money to pay for the truck and the cabin, knowing she wasn’t the type to live off her parents. Then again, the truck that was parked beside the shed was fairly ancient, so he knew she hadn’t
unloaded a ton of cash on it.

“You were wrong,” he said in a low voice, when she came back outside, keys in hand.

“About what?” she murmured, keeping her gaze focused straight ahead as she made her way over to the faded blue Ford.

“When I first saw you today,” he muttered, following after her, “you said we’d never lied to each other. But we did.
I
did. I lied to you all the time.”

She didn’t ask what he’d lied about as she opened the driver’s-side door and climbed behind the wheel, and he wondered if she knew.

He’d told her time and again that he didn’t want her.

And each time, it’d been a lie.

In his entire life, he’d never wanted anything like he wanted Sayre Murphy. In his bed. Under him. Completely full of him, his body packed so deeply into hers
she could feel him in every part of her. Every cell and breath and thought.

He just didn’t want the rest of her.

The last thing in the world that Cian needed was a woman’s heart, because he knew exactly what he’d do to it. And while he might not love Sayre Murphy, he liked her too much to want to see her crushed, which is what would happen. It wasn’t arrogance or his ego talking; it
was a simple fact. She was too young to clearly separate sexual need from higher emotion, and he knew that if he touched her, she’d likely end up thinking she was in love with him. Wasn’t there a saying about how hate and love were simply two sides of the same coin? So while she might hate him now, that feeling could be twisted into the other. After everything he’d done, he owed it to her to keep
that from happening.