Blood Secrets (13 page)

“Sure thing, Lieutenant.”

She nodded her appreciation and headed in the opposite direction of both the hearse and the arguing vamps. The internal laughter continued as she rounded the remains of a white panel van.

With shaking hands, she pulled a small flask from an inner pocket of her jacket beneath the Tyvek suit. Tipping her head, she let some of the liquid within burn its way down her throat.

Drinking on the job
, her internal tormentor chided.
Just like your loser parents
.

Memories of her father coming home early because he’d been fired from yet another construction job for showing up intoxicated swept through her mind. Those shifted to memories of how her mother thought nothing of “having one for the road” before climbing behind the wheel of a school bus.

She swore she’d never be like them. Yet here she was—the latest in a long line of pathetic scum that deserved all the shit they found heaped on their heads.

Maybe Caleb was right. If she continued to be a part of Maya’s life, her daughter would be just as screwed up as Tasha’s parents had made her.

Tasha took another swig of the bourbon. As it slid into her belly, she slid down the side of the panel van to sit on the cold, dead ground that was a perfect reflection of her soul.

Alex awoke surrounded by dense forest. What little sunlight filtered through the canopy above gave the ground a dappled effect. A cool breeze shifted the leaves and sent shadows skittering.

She was searching for two shadows in particular and turned in a slow circle, stretching her senses to detect them. The scent of sandalwood and cinnamon wafted to her on a breeze from the left. Movement in that same direction drew her attention.

A shadow darted among the trees, and she gave chase. Her feet flew across the ground, churning to catch up with the fleet figure she could now see running ahead. She burst through a thicket and came to a stop in a small clearing, the figure no longer in sight.

“Damn,” she muttered. She scanned the trees but all was still.

Voices whispered behind her and she spun, finding no one. The voices swirled around her. Snippets of conversations long forgotten rose to a crescendo and then vanished.

“Where are you, you son of a bitch?”

Over here
.

She spun, searching for the source of the voice, and once again found only empty forest.

A hand trailed over her shoulder.

She recoiled from the phantom touch. Her foot snagged on a root and she fell, twisting to land on her back.

A silhouette blocked her view of the dense tree canopy and an uncomfortable weight pinned her. The specter cocked its head, studying her.

“Get off me!”

Alex screamed as a brilliant flash of light left her momentarily blinded. The light disappeared, as did the weight pinning her to the forest floor, and her vision returned. She sat up, looking for her phantom attacker.

The forest remained quiet and still.

“This bullshit is really starting to piss me off,” she muttered. Pushing to her feet, she brushed the ground debris from her clothing. “Varik!”

Her call echoed in the forest.

“Where are you?” She drew a deep breath, preparing another call.

A shadow peeled from the base of a nearby tree and stepped forward.

Alex watched as a young boy—she would guess his age to be no more than four or five—moved into the clearing with her. Black hair framed an angelic face dominated by large warm brown eyes that stared at her with open curiosity.

“Hello,” he said with a hint of an English accent.

“Hi,” Alex responded, uncertain.

“Are you lost?”

“Sort of. I’m looking for a friend.”

“I know.”

She frowned. “How do you know that?”

“I heard you call his name.” He smiled. “My name is Edward. What’s your name?”

“Alex.”

He giggled. “That’s a boy’s name.”

Alex looked at him more closely, noticing the way his clothing clung to his tiny body as if it was soaked through. Other things began to stand out. The ashen color of his skin. Dark circles under his eyes. Water dripping from his hair onto his collar. But it was the hair, the eyes, and the smile that sent her mind reeling. She’d seen them all before, on someone else. “Edward, who—”

The leaves rustled overhead, and the boy stepped back. “I have to go now.”

“No, wait!” Alex followed, but he melded with the shadows once more and disappeared. “Damn it!”

Wind picked up, ruffled her hair, and carried the familiar smell of sandalwood and cinnamon. The breeze settled and a scent of leather wrapped around her, prickling her skin.

Phantom arms encircled her.

She pushed against the unseen force enveloping her. The smell of sandalwood and cinnamon strengthened her. Warmth filled her and she drew on the connection to fight the entity that had her in its grips. She thrust it away from her, leaving the stench of old blood in its wake, and she gagged.

The shadow darted into the trees.

She chased after it, calling to Varik as she ran. His scent grew stronger the farther she ran into the forest.

“Alex!” Varik’s call rang out from somewhere to her right. “Where are you?”

The wraith she chased shrieked in fury and shot heavenward.

She stopped her pursuit. “Over here!”

Varik appeared before her, dashing through the trees. He rushed forward and swept her into his arms. He lifted her from her feet, kissed her hard, and spun her around. Even after he broke the kiss, he continued to crush her to him. “I heard that scream and thought I’d lost you.”

“No, I’m fine. It was the shadow-thing, and you can put me down now. I’d like to breathe again.”

He traded his embrace for a firm grip on her hand. “Where the hell are we?” he asked, looking around at the trees.

Alex’s gaze swept the area. “The Shadowlands. It’s sort of a—”

“Metaphysical no-man’s-land.”

She stared at him. “Yeah. How do you know that?”

He tapped his temple. “Blood-bond.”

She rolled her eyes.

“Plus, you talk in your sleep.”

“I do not!”

“You also have very noisy and vivid dreams.”

“Excuse me?”

He grinned. “I especially liked the one featuring you, me, and the chocolate fountain. Seemed a little messy but I’m willing to give it a shot.”

Her face warmed. “We agreed to stay out of each other’s heads, damn it!”

His arms slipped around her waist, pulling her close. “I’m keeping my end of the bargain. It’s not my fault your brain leaks.”

Alex grunted in disgust and pushed him away. “Whatever. None of this matters right now. We have to get you out of here before that shadow-thing comes back.”

“Me? You mean
us.
”

She ignored his correction and pointed to a distant patch of sunlight. “There’s a break in the trees over there. Hopefully we can reach it before either the shadow-thing or a sweeper finds us.”

“What the fuck is a sweeper?”

“Big tornado that moves through the Shadowlands. It finds unauthorized consciousnesses and kicks them out. You and I qualify as unauthorized.”

“What do you have to do to be authorized?”

“You have to be dead.”

“That sucks.”

“Yeah, so let’s go before one shows up.”

As she strode forward, Varik dug in his heels, his hold on her hand keeping her from leaving. “Hang on. How do
you
know so much about this place?”

“We don’t have time to play twenty questions.”

“I know this isn’t your first time in the Shadowlands. How many times have you been here?”

She chewed on her lip and avoided making eye contact.

He ducked his head into her line of sight, forcing her to look at him. “Alex?”

“I don’t know. I lost count.”

“This is how you’ve been spending your suspension? Wandering the Shadowlands?”

“I wasn’t wandering. I had a purpose.”

“And that purpose would be what, exactly?”

She sighed and then continued in a rush. “I’ve been looking for my father’s killer.”

Varik groaned. “Alex, you know—”

“He’s a lost soul,” she interrupted. “He told me so. I can’t let him roam the Shadowlands forever, and what little information I’ve gotten on—”

“Whoa, back up.” Varik raised his hands to slow her down. “You’ve seen and talked to Bernard? Here?”

She nodded.

He ran a hand through his hair. “Shit. What has he told you?”

“Not much, just answered questions about the Shadowlands and the Hall of Records. It’s not like I’ve been spending
every
waking moment here. Sometimes I see him, but most times I don’t.”

“Hall of Records?”

“It’s not a real place, but—”

“I know what it is.” Anger flashed in the depths of his dark eyes. “Why didn’t you tell me you could access the Hall of Records?”

Her own anger rose to meet his. “I didn’t know I could, and once I
did
know, I didn’t think it mattered! Besides, how am
I
supposed to know
you
know about any of this? It’s not like you’ve been forthcoming with shit from your past.”

“Do
not
try to shift this argument to me. You should’ve told me about Bernard and the Hall from the start.”

“You don’t tell me everything. Why should I tell you anything?”

“Because we’re bond-mates! That’s why!” His eyes shifted from dark brown to molten gold. “I can’t protect you if you don’t fucking
trust
me!”

“Don’t lecture to me about trust, Varik! For your information, I
do
trust you, but it’s a two-way street and you’re making this a hell of a lot harder than it needs to be. And what are you going to protect me from? Sweepers? The Tribunal?” She gestured to the surrounding forest. “That shadow-thing?”

“Yes, all of that.”

Alex scoffed and shook her head, muttering, “You’re as bad as Stephen.” She paced a few steps away then faced him squarely. “I’m not a child. I’ve been an Enforcer for over twenty years. I can take care of myself.
You can’t protect me from everything, Varik. I don’t
want
you to protect me. Don’t you understand that?”

“How can I when you barely talk to me unless we’re working a case?”

“I talk to you,” she whispered, crossing her arms in front of her.

“No, you don’t.” He closed the gap between them. “You keep yourself walled away so I can barely sense you through the bond, except for snippets of dreams. Whenever I try to talk to you about our past, or our future, you shut down.”

She shivered as he slipped his hands up her arms.

His voice softened. “You don’t respond when I say I love you.”

“What do you want me to say?”

“I want you to tell me how you feel.” He leaned forward and his breath warmed her face. “About me, us.”

“I don’t know how I feel.”

“Such a pity,” he murmured and his lips brushed hers.

A primal scream issued from overhead.

They both stepped back, searching the canopy above. “Where is it?” Alex asked. “Do you see it?”

“No.” Varik continued to hold her hand. “You said if we could reach that patch of sunlight, then we could get out of here?”

“I think so.”

“Right.” He tugged on her arm, pulling her along with him. “Let’s go.”

They ran, dodging trees and hurdling fallen logs. Another scream sounded from above, much closer, and it chilled Alex. Questions raced alongside her.

What chased them?

Why did it first attack her in the salvage yard before turning on Varik?

Why was it fixated on him?

As they neared the patch of sunlight, the specter dropped from an overhead branch. Alex lost her footing, stumbled, and smashed headlong into a tree. The impact left her unsteady until she tripped over an exposed root and sat down hard at the base of the tree she’d hit.

Only a few feet away, the wraith had Varik on the ground on his back. Both snarled and growled as they grappled and exchanged awkwardly swung blows.

Although disoriented, Alex pushed herself to her feet, using the tree’s trunk for balance. She added her own rage-filled scream to the chorus and charged the phantom. She pounced on it and her momentum carried them into the underbrush.

They rolled and tumbled, each trying to gain the upper hand. Hissing in anger, the shadow released her and disappeared as the inertia she’d built tipped her over the edge of a steep slope. Her arms and legs worked furiously, attempting to find any purchase that would slow her descent.

She careened off a jagged stump and was pitched into the air. Her sudden flight ended when she crashed into something flat, hard, and cold. She lay for a moment, mentally adjusting to the abrupt termination of motion.

Groaning, Alex lifted her head, expecting to see the forest but was alarmed to find herself lying on a darkly stained hardwood floor in an unfamiliar room. Shelves lined all four walls, even above and below the bank of tall windows. Hundreds of eyes stared at her from the blank faces of dolls lining those shelves.

She sat up slowly.

And then the screaming began.

VARIK FOLLOWED THE WIDE SWATH OF BROKEN TWIGS
and churned-up earth that marked Alex’s and the shadow’s passing. The forest had grown eerily quiet around him, as though it waited, but for what remained a mystery.

He crept through the underbrush, senses on full alert. Reaching the edge of a basinlike hollow, he could see where someone had slid down the steep slope but saw no signs of either Alex or the shadow-thing, as she’d called it. He carefully navigated the slope, tracking the faint smell of jasmine and vanilla—Alex’s personal scent—that abruptly ended next to a jagged stump.

Fear kicked his pulse into overdrive. Casting caution aside, he called to her. “Alex!”

Silence.

“Damn it,” he muttered and used a controlled slide to reach the bottom of the hollow. He inhaled deeply, searching for any trace of her scent, but found none. “Alex!”

“She’s gone,” a voice answered from behind him.

Varik spun, lowering himself into a crouch and baring his fangs. When he spotted the man near a half-dead tree, his tension eased. He sighed as he drew himself up to his full height. “Where is she?”