Blood of Amber (31 page)

Empty, of course, like so many dreams and fears.
 
I tossed in the blue button and lowered the lid again.
 
What the hell.
 
If Sharu wanted it back and could find it here, let him have the message that he was walking close to the grave when he played his games.

I went back outside, leaving my feelings in the crypt.
 
It was time to begin.
 
I’d a mess of spells to work and hang, for I’d no intention of going gently to the place where the wild winds blew.

I stood on the rise above the garden, admiring the autumn foliage below.
 
The wind played games with my cloak.
 
A mellow afternoon light bathed the palace.
 
There was a chill in the air.
 
A flock of dead leaves rushed, lemming-like, past me and blew off the edge of the trail, rattling, into the air.

I had not really stopped to admire the view, however.
 
I had halted while I blocked an attempted Trump contact-the day’s second.
 
The first had occurred earlier, while I was hanging a spell like a rope of tinsel on the image of Chaos.
 
I figured that it was either Random-irritated that I was back in Amber and had not seem fit to bring him up to date on my most recent doings and my plans-or Luke, recovered now and wanting to request my assistance in his move against the Keep.
 
They both came to mind because they were the two individuals I wished most to avoid; neither of them would much like what I was about to do, though for different reasons.

The call faded, was gone, and I descended the trail, passed through the hedge and entered the garden.
 
I did not want to waste a spell to mask my passage, so I took a trail to the left, which led through a series of arbors where I was less exposed to the gaze of anyone who happened to glance out of a window.
 
I could have avoided this by humping in, but that card always delivers one to the main hall, and I had no idea who might be there.

Of course, I was headed that way.
 
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I went back in the way I had come out, through the kitchen, helping myself to a sandwich and a glass of milk on the way.
 
Then I took the back stairs up a flight, lurked a bit and made it to my rooms without being spotted.
 
There, I buckled on the sword belt I had left hanging at the head of my bed, checked the blade, located a small dagger I had brought with me from Chaos-a gift from the Pit-diver Borquist, whom I’d once fixed up with an introduction that led to a patronage (he was a middling-good poet)-and hung it on the other side of my belt.
 
I pinned a Trump to the inside of my left sleeve.
 
I washed my hands and face and brushed my teeth, too.
 
But then I couldn’t think of any other ways to stall.
 
I had to go and do something I feared.
 
It was necessary to the rest of my plan.
 
I was overwhelmed by a sudden desire to be off sailing.
 
Just lying on the beach would do, actually.

Instead, I departed my quarters and made my way back downstairs, returning the way I had come.
 
I headed west along the back corridor, listening for footsteps and voices, retreating once into a closet to let some nameless parties pass.
 
Anything to avoid official notice for just a little longer.
 
Finally, I turned left, walked a few paces and waited the better part of a minute before entering the major corridor, which led past the large marble dining hall.
 
No one in sight.
 
Good.
 
I sprinted to the nearest entrance and peered within.
 
Great.
 
The place was not in use.
 
It wasn’t normally used every day, but I’d no way of knowing whether today was some state occasion-though this was not a normal dining hour either.

I entered and passed through.
 
There is a dark, narrow corridor to its rear, with a guard normally posted somewhere near the passage’s mouth or the door at its end.
 
All members of the family have access there, though the guard would log our passage.
 
His superior wouldn’t have that information until the guard reported when he went off duty, though.
 
By then it shouldn’t matter to me.

Tod was short, stocky, bearded.
 
When he saw me coming he presented arms with an ax that had been leaning against the wall moments before.
 
“At ease.
 
Busy?” I asked.

“To tell the truth, no, sir.”

“I’ll be heading down.
 
I hope there are some lanterns up here.
 
I don’t know that stairway as well as most.”

“I checked a number inside when I came on duty, sir.
 
I’ll light you one.”

Might as well save the energy that would have gone into the fire spell, I decided.
 
Every little bit helps...

“Thanks.”

He opened the door, hefted, successively, three lanterns which stood inside to the right, selected the second one.
 
He took it back outside, where he lit it from the massive candle in its stand partway up the corridor.

“I’ll be awhile,” I said as I accepted it from him.
 
“You’ll probably be off duty before I’m finished.”

“Very good, sir.
 
Watch your step.”

“Believe me, I will.”

The long spiraling stair turned round and round with very little visible in any direction but below, where a few chimneyed candles, sconced torches or hung lanterns flared along the central shaft, doing more for acrophobia than absolute blackness might, I suppose.
 
There were just those little dots of light below me.
 
I couldn’t see the distant Boor, or any walls.
 
I kept one hand on the railing and held the lantern out in front with the other.
 
Damp down here.
 
Musty, too.
 
Not to mention chilly.

Again, I tried counting the steps.
 
As usual, I lost count somewhere along the way.
 
Next time.
 
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My thoughts went back to that distant day when I had come this route believing I was headed for death.
 
The fact that I hadn’t died was small comfort now.
 
It had still been an ordeal.
 
And it was still possible that I could screw up on it this time and get fried or go up in a puff of smoke.

Around, around.
 
Down, down.
 
Night thoughts in the middle of the afternoon.
 
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On the other hand, I’d heard Flora say that it was easier the second time around.
 
She’d been talking about the Pattern moments before, and I hoped that’s what she was referring to.

The Grand Pattern of Amber, Emblem of Order.
 
Matching in power the Great Logrus of the Courts, Sign of Chaos.
 
The tensions between the two seem to generate everything that matters.
 
Get involved with either, lose control-and you’re done for.
 
Just my luck to be involved with both.
 
I’ve no one with whom to compare notes as to whether this makes things rougher, though it massages my ego to think that the mark of the one makes the other more difficult .
 
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and they do mark you, both of them.
 
At some level you are torn apart and reassembled along the lines of vast cosmic principles when you undergo such an experience-which sounds noble, important, metaphysical, spiritual and lovely, but is mainly a pain in the ass.
 
It is the price we pay for certain pawers, but there is no cosmic principle requiring me to say I enjoy it.

Both the Pattern and the Logrus give to their initiates the ability to traverse Shadow unassisted-Shadow being the generic term for the possibly infinite collection of reality variations we play about in.
 
And they also give us other abilities.
 
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Around and down.
 
I slowed.
 
I was feeling slightly dizzy, just like before.
 
At least I wasn’t planning on coming back this way.
 
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When the bottom finally came into sight I speeded up again.
 
There was a bench, a table, a few racks and cases, a light to show them all.
 
Normally, there was a guard on duty there, but I didn’t see one.
 
Could be off making rounds, though.
 
There were cells somewhere to the left in which particularly unfortunate political prisoners might sometimes be found scrabbling about and going slowly out of their minds.
 
I didn’t know whether there were any such individuals doing time at the moment.
 
I kind of hoped not.
 
My father had once been one, and from his description of the experience it did not sound like easy time to do.

I halted when I reached the floor and called out a couple of times.
 
I got back a suitably eerie echo, but no answer.

I moved to the rack and took up a filled lantern with my other hand.
 
An extra one might come in handy.
 
It was possible I would lose my way.
 
I headed to the right then.
 
The tunnel I wanted lay in that direction.
 
After a long while, I stopped and raised a light, as it almost seemed I had come too far.
 
There was still no tunnel mouth in sight.
 
I looked back.
 
The guard post was still in sight.
 
I continued on, searching my memories of that last time.

Finally, there was a shifting of sounds-abrupt echoes of my footfalls.

It would seem I was nearing a wall, an obstacle.
 
I raised a lantern again.

Yes.
 
Pure darkness ahead.
 
Gray stone about it.
 
I went that way.

Dark.
 
Far.
 
There was a continuous shadow-show as my light slid over rocky irregularities, as its beams glanced off specks of brightness in the stone walls.
 
Then there was a side passage to my left.
 
I passed it and kept going.
 
It seemed there should be another fairly soon.
 
Yes.
 
Two.
 
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The third was farther along.
 
Then there was a fourth.
 
I wondered idly where they all led.
 
No one had ever said anything about them to me.
 
Maybe they didn’t know either.
 
Bizarre grottoes of indescribable beauty? Other worlds? Dead ends? Storerooms? One day, perhaps, when time and inclination came together.
 
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Five.
 
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And then another.

It was the seventh one I wanted.
 
I halted when I came to it.
 
It didn’t go back all that Ear.
 
I thought of the others who’d passed this way, and then I strode ahead, to the big, heavy, metal-bound door.
 
There was a great key hanging from a steel hook that had been driven into the wall to my right.
 
I took it down, unlocked the door and hung it back up again, knowing that the downstairs guard would check it and re-lock it at some point in his rounds; and I wondered-not for the first time-why it should be locked that way in the first place if the key was kept right there.
 
It made it seem as if there were danger from something that might emerge from within.
 
I had asked about that, but no one I’d questioned seemed to know.
 
Tradition, I’d been told.
 
Gerard and Flora had suggested, respectively, that I ask Random or Fiona.
 
And they had both thought Benedict might know, but I’d never remembered to ask him.

I pushed hard and nothing happened.
 
I put down the lanterns and tried again, harder.
 
The door creaked and moved slowly inward.
 
I recovered the lanterns and entered.

The door closed itself behind me, and Frakir-child of Chaos-pulsed wildly.
 
I recalled my last visit and remembered why no one had brought an extra lantern upon that occasion: The bluish glow of the Pattern within the smooth, black floor lit the grotto well enough for one to see one’s way about.

I lit the other lantern.
 
I set the first one down at the near end of the Pattern and carried the other one with me about the periphery of the thing, setting it down at a point on its Farther side.
 
I did not care that the Pattern provided sufficient illumination to take care of the business at hand.
 
I found the damned thing spooky, cold and downright intimidating.
 
Having an extra natural light near at hand made me feel a lot better in its presence.