Blind Rage (10 page)

“BRACE YOURSELF,” SHE SAID, CRACKING OPEN HER APARTMENT
door and flipping on a ceiling light.

He ran his eyes over the messy room. “I suppose it doesn’t help if your roommates are sloppy.”

“I live alone.”

“Open mouth. Insert foot.”

She sighed. “Don’t worry about it.”

“You sound tired,” he said.

“Long day.” She took off her vest and tossed it and her purse onto a chair. “Can I get you something?”

He took off his coat and draped it over the back of the chair. “Sit. I’ll get
you
something.”

“Seriously?”

“Seriously. Sit. I mean it.”

She kicked away some empty Chinese takeout cartons, picked a cat off the sofa, and lowered herself onto the cushions. “The kitchen is bad.”

“I’ll manage.”

“Be afraid. Be very afraid.”

“I’m going to use your bathroom first.”

“Down the hall,” she said, pointing.

She bent to pull off her boots. Heard the toilet flush and the bathroom door pop open.

“How about I pour you a glass of wine?” he asked as he headed to the kitchen. “Do you have any?”

She chewed her bottom lip. “I really shouldn’t, but I guess a little would be all right.”

“After all,” he said, “it is a special occasion.”

“You’re right. If you can find it, go for it.” Because of her meds, she didn’t react well to alcohol. She became dizzy and drowsy. She didn’t want to think about her illness tonight, however, and told herself a single glass couldn’t hurt. She heard him opening and closing drawers and hollered, “Corkscrew’s in the drawer to the right of the sink!”

After a few minutes, he reappeared with a tall tumbler filled to the top with red wine. A paper towel was wrapped around it. “I filled it a little too full.”

“Good thing I don’t work until tomorrow afternoon,” she said, taking the drink from him.

He went back into the kitchen. “Now I’ve got to find a second clean glass.”

“Good luck with that,” she said after him. She took a sip. She hadn’t had booze in a while, and it tasted off to her. It was also flooding her body with warmth, however, and that couldn’t be a bad thing. Putting the glass to her mouth, she tipped it back and swallowed hard.

SHE AWOKE
on the floor, with him on top of her. Her jeans and sweater were off. How had that happened? She couldn’t remember. She was dizzy and felt out of control—like one of her
up
days.

He reached around with both hands and cupped her buttocks under her panties. At the same time, he lifted his right knee and pressed it into her crotch. “Do you like that?”

“Oh, God,” she moaned.

“Excellent.” His mouth went to her breasts.

“That’s good,” she panted.

He rolled off her, reached down, clamped his hand over the waist of her panties, and ripped them down. “You won’t need these.”

“This is not how I expected things to go tonight,” she said.

“Are you complaining?”

“Hell, no,” she said, and gave a short, hysterical laugh.

“Stop talking,” he said.

“Why?”

“You’re ruining the moment.”

She watched while he unrolled a condom over his erection. “You came prepared.”

He crawled back on top of her. “Please stop talking, Kyra dear.”

She gasped as he entered her and wrapped her legs around his hips. “You’re a horse.”

As he pumped, he cupped his hand over her nose and mouth. “I instructed you to stop talking.”

Only after he climaxed did he remove his hand.

Shoving him off her, she panted a question to the ceiling. “Were you trying to suffocate me or what?”

“Who are you kidding?” he asked, sprawled out next to her. “You loved it.”

She closed her eyes, trying to make the dizziness dissipate. “So what if I did?”

A cat walked across his legs, and he kicked at it, but it danced out of the way. “Cutting off oxygen at precisely the right moment during intercourse heightens the orgasm.”

“I’ve read about that,” she said, her eyes still shut. “People hang themselves. Autoerotic something.”

“Autoerotic asphyxia.”

“Yeah. I’ve always wanted to try that. It sounds so hot.”

“It is hot.”

She opened her eyes in time to see him reach down, remove the spent condom, and slip it inside the front pocket of his discarded pants. She found that behavior odd but didn’t question him. “I’ve heard it’s dangerous. People have accidentally died that way.”

“There are lots of variations on that theme,” he said.

She went onto her side to look at him. “What do you mean?”

He reached over and outlined her lips with his index finger. “How about a warm soak in the tub before we go another round?”

She locked her lips over his finger and sucked hard while he slowly withdrew it. “What have you got in mind?”

“A variation on a hot theme.”

She hesitated. “I don’t know.”

With the tips of his fingers, he combed through her spiky hair. “You are so beautiful, Kyra.”

“You are so full of shit.” She grabbed his caressing hand and brought it to her mouth. She chewed on the heel of his palm.

“There’s a lovely frailty about you that I find…arousing.” He tipped her onto her back and went down on top of her. “Your life has been so—”

“I don’t want to talk about my life,” she said, her lashes lowered. “My life has been horseshit, but I’m getting it together.”

“I didn’t mean to bring up bad memories.” He kissed her on the mouth. “Let me run a bath for you, beautiful.”

She looked up at the face hovering over hers and was embarrassed by his attention. She couldn’t stop herself from rambling. That out-of-control feeling again. “That tub’s bigger and deeper than you’d think, and we could both fit. I’ve got scented oils in there. Bubbles, too, if you want to get real fancy. Don’t use the lavender bath salts, though. They’re in the jar with the purple ribbon around it. I keep them on the counter for decoration.”

“No lavender bath salts. Got it.”

She was glad she’d kept the bathroom clean and organized. “Candles,” she said. “The matches are in the medicine cabinet.”

“I hope I can remember all this.”

“You’re a smart man,” she said. “You’ll figure it out.”

“You’re right.” He reached up, snatched an afghan off the couch, and draped it over her. He took down a throw pillow and slipped it under her head. “Don’t exert yourself, unless it’s to masturbate.”

“Yes, sir,” she said.

He got on his feet. “Think salacious thoughts while I draw you a bath.”

“That won’t be difficult.” She rolled over onto her stomach and watched his muscled body move and flex as he went down the hall to her bathroom. The guy was a surprise. Under his clothes he was built like a professional athlete. She listened as the water started to drum the porcelain. A man had never before run a bath for her. She heard him opening and closing the medicine cabinet. He was going to go for the candles. Great. Maybe she could get him to shut off all the lights and make love by candlelight. Despite his flattering words, she felt as fat as a pig, and scrunching up in the tub wasn’t going to make her gut look any prettier. She hoped like hell he opted for the bubbles. Every woman looked better buried in bubbles.

He came back into the front room and stood over her with his hands behind his back. He was unabashedly proud of his body, and he should be, she thought. “What do you need?” she asked.

“What do
you
need?”

“I can’t think of a thing.”

“More wine,” he suggested, and went back into the kitchen.

“More wine!” she yelled after him, and laughed. She sat up, pulling the afghan over her midriff but continuing to expose her breasts. The best part of her, she figured. He returned with another overflowing glass. She accepted the tumbler and dropped the paper towel on the floor. “I’m starting to enjoy this.”

“There’s more to come,” he said with a small smile.

“You’d better check on the tub. I don’t want
that
filled to the brim.”

“Right,” he said, and headed back to the bathroom.

Her back propped against the couch, she sighed and took a drink of wine. Wondering what water recreation he had in store for her, she was anxious for the tub to fill.

She was half-asleep by the time he came for her, and she could barely hold her head up as he tore the afghan off her. “What took you so long? Is the water still hot?”

“The water is perfect,” he said, wrapping an arm around her and lifting her to her feet.

The room started spinning. Her head flopped backward and she felt herself going down, falling into a black pit. “I’m tired.”

“No wonder,” he said, scooping her into his arms. “The meds you take, mixed in with all that wine, a dangerous cocktail. You trying to kill yourself or something?”

“No, no,” she said. Her head was resting against his bare skin, and she liked it. He smelled like perspiration and the remnants of good cologne. His words were confusing her, though, and she told herself to stop listening to them. Stop remembering and replaying them.

“How about I pour you a glass of wine?”

“I filled it a little too full.”

“You trying to kill yourself or something?”

A wave of nausea rolled over her as he carried her down the hall, and she groaned. “I don’t feel so good.”

“Don’t get sick on me, Kyra,” he said, stepping into the bathroom and adjusting his hold on her. “That would be very unladylike.”

She blinked in the blinding whiteness of the walls and tile work. There were no candles lit, and all the lights were on. “Too bright,” she said, and buried her face in his chest.

“Here we go,” he said, carrying her over to the tub.

She turned her head and looked down into the water. The tub was filled to the top, just like the wine-filled tumbler. “Too full.”

“Stop your complaining, Kyra.”

She suddenly noticed his gloves. He was naked, except for his hands. Had he been wearing them all night? “You’re going to wreck the leather,” she mumbled.

“I suppose I am.” He leaned over and dropped her into the water, sending waves splashing over the sides and onto the floor.

The water was cold, and even in her drunken, drugged stupor, she realized something was terribly wrong. She gasped one word—“No!”—and started to sit up, but he pushed her back down. Her torso was under water while her feet were sticking out and banging frantically against the faucet and the wall.

Eyes closed and holding her breath, she flailed her arms and kicked her legs, but the only object she was certain she struck was the unyielding hardware of the tub’s taps. The water and the meds and the booze all worked to muffle her senses and weigh down her limbs. It was as if she were fighting and dying in slow motion. After a minute or two, she couldn’t feel his hands on her anymore; all she sensed was something heavy pressing against her chest and keeping her from sitting up. Was he even there? She opened her eyes, but everything above her was blurry. The water rushed inside her mouth and nostrils. Was it real or a bad dream? She tasted something flowery. Her final thought:
Bastard used the lavender bath salts.

Chapter 10

RETIRED HIGH SCHOOL SHOP TEACHER HUDSON BLACK
scratched his backside over his flannel boxers as he shuffled down the hallway of his apartment. Eleven in the evening, it was the usual hour for the first of his four late-night visits to the toilet. As was his habit, he silently cursed his enlarged prostate and promised himself he’d make a doctor’s appointment in the near future to deal with the problem.

He stepped into the bathroom and flipped the light switch up, but nothing happened. “Fuck,” he grumbled to the dark cell.

Whenever he sat on the john to get his stingy stream going, he passed the time with a crossword puzzle. That required enough light to read. He flicked the switch up and down four more times, each time issuing a curse.