Between the Devil and Desire (4 page)

She could hardly believe the desperate measures to which Lovingdon's death had brought her. He'd been only fifty-one. When she'd married him six years ago, he'd seemed so frightfully mature, but in death he'd suddenly seemed so terribly young, taken before his time. She'd hardly had a spare moment to think about him, about what life would be like without him. And if she had, she'd have certainly never envisioned it taking the turn it had tonight. Still, she had responsibilities and she would see to them as best she could. Duty did not have the luxury of taking time to mourn.

Once everything was ready and Henry was properly attired, Olivia took his hand and led him down the stairs. Her lady's maid was waiting for her in the foyer.

“The footmen have loaded our things into the boot of the coach,” Maggie told Olivia.

They'd packed very little because a hasty retreat was required in order to gain an effective escape. Escape. Not a word she'd ever thought to associate with her
life, but there she was, fleeing into the night as though she were a thief. If she weren't so tired, perhaps she could think of another strategy, but at that moment she wanted only to be away from the madness. “Good. Let's be off.”

With a footman carrying a lantern and leading the way, and another carrying her son, Olivia dashed out into the night. Down the grand steps that led up to the home she'd fallen in love with. Scurrying off into the darkness of night left a crushing ache in her chest. If she were a weaker woman, she thought she'd succumb to tears, but they wouldn't change her circumstance. She had to remain strong for Henry. She had to protect him at all costs. She knew Jack Dodger's sort. He wanted everything easily, without effort. Once they were gone, he'd not bother to come after them. He would have the residence and its contents, which she was convinced was all he truly wanted.

She hurried across the cobblestone drive, aware of the thick fog absorbing and muting the echo of her footsteps. This night seemed perfectly designed for stealing away.

A liveried footman opened the door to the waiting coach and assisted her inside. As she settled onto the plush bench, she became aware of a familiar scent—

“Going somewhere, Duchess?”

She released a blood-curdling scream at the unexpected smoky voice reverberating from the shadowy corner of the coach. She might have continued to scream if not for the infuriatingly dark chuckle that quickly followed. She now knew the echo of Satan's laughter, and it was not a sound that invited others to join in the merriment.

“Your Grace?” one of the footmen questioned.

“She's fine,” Jack Dodger said as he grabbed the lantern from the footman and hung it from an inside hook, the lantern's golden glow illuminating the confines of the coach, illuminating him. He somehow managed to look amused and irritated at the same time. And so very, very dangerous.

Just inside the doorway, still held by the other footman, Henry had yelled when she'd screamed and now he was crying forcefully. Reaching out, she took him and pressed her trembling child to her quaking bosom. “Shh. Henry, it's all right. Mummy just had a fright, that's all. But this man will not harm you, darling. I promise you that.”

As though reassured by her words, Henry stopped his crying and began to noisily suck his thumb. It was a habit of which Olivia wasn't particularly fond, but neither she nor his nanny had encountered any success in breaking it. At that particular moment, it didn't seem worth the bother of worrying over. She had much larger concerns to address.

If she were prone to using obscenities, Olivia thought, now would be a good time to spew a few. Jack Dodger appeared larger than before, and more ominous. She liked him even less and decided she'd had quite enough of him for the evening.

“What are you doing here?” Olivia demanded, in her most officious voice, the one she used when she caught servants slacking at their duties.

“The question, Duchess, is what are you doing? According to this book”—he tapped the ledger he held up as though its contents were gospel—“this coach is my property. Are you seeking to steal it from me?”

“How can it be your property? It bears the ducal crest.”

“I suppose you make a valid point. I should have the crest removed posthaste as it does create confusion.”

“It was the duke's coach.”

“But unfortunately for you, it was purchased with non-entailed funds.”

“You read that in the dark?”

“No, I read it in the library. I have an astonishingly good memory. I have but to read something once and it is as though a picture is drawn in my mind. But I doubt you truly have any real interest in my talent, so let us return to my original question. Are you seeking to steal from me? Do I need to send 'round for a constable?”

“Don't be ridiculous. I was just taking Henry to the countryside.”

“In the dead of night?” Mr. Dodger asked.

“It's a cooler time to travel, and Henry is prone to sleeping when we travel at night. As I don't then have to keep him entertained, it makes for a much more pleasant journey for all involved, and I'm not sure why I'm explaining myself to you.”

“I've found people usually go to the bother of explaining when they realize they're at fault.”

“I've done nothing wrong.” But her words sounded defensive and weak even to her own ears.

“Here's the problem as I see it. I'm Henry's guardian. If he's in the country then I cannot effectively guard him.”

She could have sworn she heard humor laced through his voice. Did he think this was all some grand joke, that tonight's revelations had been designed for his amuse
ment? She bit back harsh words that would gain her nothing except his anger. “As guardian, you don't have to actually
guard
him. You simply oversee his welfare, and you can do that by entrusting him to my care and letting me take him to the country.”

“I'm not certain that's in his best interest.”

“How can it not be?”

“You're raising a pansy. He screamed louder than you did.”

“I resent that implication. You frightened us, lurking about in the shadows where you weren't expected—like some miscreant. Why weren't you standing outside the coach, as any decent person would? I think you deliberately sought to unsettle me.”

“I think you're well aware that I'm hardly
decent
.” He had the audacity to smile, all the while tapping that blasted ledger.

“You find this situation amusing?” she snapped.

“I find it vastly challenging.”

Challenging was an understatement. “You and I can compromise. Take everything. Say you are his guardian. Let Henry and I leave.”

“Unfortunately for you, Duchess, I'm a man of my word. I promised to see to the care and upbringing of the child, and so I shall. And I will do it here in London as that is where my business interests lie. Now, you are correct. Compromises need to be made and matters between us settled. I suggest we retire to the residence, where we may discuss them in more comfort.”

“It's almost ten o'clock, long past a decent hour for visiting. Surely you're not implying that you intend to stay in the residence.”

“It's my residence. The child is my ward. So, yes, I will be moving in.”

He spoke so casually about something that was completely inappropriate. She had little doubt that he'd grown up accustomed to sleeping amongst strangers. “This is ludicrous. You and I are not related. We can't live in the same residence.”

“You're a widow, not a maiden. No chaperone is mandatory. Although I assume you have female servants who see to your numerous needs. Let them watch over you if you fear you'll be tempted to come to my bed.”

Olivia gasped with indignation. “You pompous beast! I would never come to your bed.”

“And as I have no interest in coming to yours, I fail to see the problem. Besides, most of my business ventures require my attention at night, so more often than not I'll be at my club. Nothing untoward will happen.”

Olivia refused to acknowledge the sting of rejection she'd felt when he admitted he had no interest in her. She didn't want to appeal to him. Still, it was painful to realize a man who no doubt was in the habit of chasing many a skirt had no plans to chase hers. It had wounded her terribly when Lovingdon had never returned to her bed once she was with child. Perhaps men found her unappealing. She supposed she should take comfort in knowing she was safe from Jack Dodger. Instead she felt an overwhelming need to weep.

“I beg of you, for the love of God, let us go.”

He studied her thoughtfully, and she snatched onto her last remnant of hope that this ordeal would end in her favor. If he possessed only a shred of decency, it could be enough—

“I'm afraid I can't do that.”

“Why ever not?”

“I grow weary of repeating myself. Leaving is not in the boy's best interest and I am his guardian. Now, you may either return to the residence like a proper lady—by walking—or over my shoulder. The choice is yours. But the time is now.”

“Toss me over your shoulder? As though I was a common doxy? You wouldn't dare.”

“I've told you before, challenging me will only make me do it.” He reached for her—

She released a tiny screech, held Henry close, and pushed so hard against the back of the coach she was surprised she didn't break it and find herself tumbling into the boot. “Enough. You've made your point. You're a tyrant. I'm perfectly capable of taking myself to the house.”

“A pity.” He shifted on the seat. “I'll carry the boy.”

“I'd rather you didn't.”

For the briefest of moments, it appeared she'd hurt his feelings. She didn't know how that could even be possible when nothing except animosity existed between them.

“As you wish, Duchess,” he said, his mocking tone reverberating around them.

“Will you please quit calling me that?”

“It's appropriate is it not?”

“Not the way you say it.”

“Perhaps you can teach me to say it properly and in exchange I can share with you some improper things,” he said in a low voice that caused her to tingle in places she'd never tingled. “We'll discuss the possibilities in the library.”

“I have to read to Henry first. He can't go to sleep without my reading to him.”

“That sounds like a ploy to put off the inevitable.”

“I'm offended you doubt my words. Still, ask any of the staff. They'll confirm that I read to him every night. Not that I should need the staff's confirmation.”

“I suppose you're right. I should treat you as an equal.”

“An equal? You're a commoner.”

“I was referring to the fact that we're both thieves. Although I must admit to being more successful at it. I'd have not gotten caught.”

“I daresay you overestimate your abilities. At some point you did get caught. I noticed the mark upon your hand.”

“Yes, rather unfortunate business that. Lucky for you, they no longer brand criminals.”

She didn't see the point in telling him once again that she was not a thief. How was she to have known he'd inherited the coach? She needed to take a look at his ledger or study her son's more closely. “You're incredibly irritating, Mr. Dodger.”

“It's part of my charm. Meet me in the library when you're finished reading to my ward.”

With that he leaped out of the coach, causing it to rock with his movements, and announced to the servants who were still standing about, “The duchess has decided to cancel her journey to the country. Please see that everything is put back where it belongs.”

Then he strode off into the darkness, leaving her on a spiraling descent into hell.

L
ounging on a couch in the library, Jack drank his whiskey, grateful he'd had the foresight to bring a couple of bottles from Luke's. He'd planned to return to his new residence to discuss the arrangements with the widow, and he'd decided they'd both need a good shot of the devil's brew to fortify themselves for what was certain to be an arduous process of working out the particulars regarding the care of her son. He didn't expect her to agree with anything he suggested.

He'd been quite surprised when he'd arrived and discovered the coach being readied for the duchess's hasty retreat. It had been a long time since the devil had possessed him, and he was not in the habit of frightening women, but he'd not been able to refrain from settling himself in the coach and awaiting her arrival. Unfortunately, he'd not taken into account that she'd have her son with her. Irritating her was one thing. Terrorizing the child was another matter entirely. He didn't hold with the notion of harming children. They lost their innocence all too soon as it was.

Damnation, he
should
just let her take the lad to the country. Simply pretend he was the guardian. He'd
spent a good deal of his youth pretending one thing or another in order to swindle someone out of something. When he picked pockets, he'd often dressed in fancy stolen clothes so when he walked among wealthy folks he appeared to belong with them—someone's child just meandering about. All of Feagan's children were skilled at mimicking their surroundings, appearing to fit in, even when they didn't.

Was Beckwith going to check up on him, make sure he saw to his duties? Not bloody likely. He'd survived the delivering of his message, seen that the proper forms were signed. He'd earned his coin. Jack certainly had no plans to give him any more. He was out of their lives. At least until the time came for him to hand over the final item.
Its value immeasurable.
The words echoed through Jack's mind as though sung by a chorus of angels. All of this and then something more.

He glanced at the clock on the mantel, and then shifted his attention to a table where an assortment of clocks was arranged. The duchess had been reading to her son for almost an hour. What in the hell was she reading? One of Dickens's novels?

Then a horrid thought took hold. She was a clever wench, as she'd proven by sizing him up rightly enough. He'd cut off one avenue of escape. Perhaps she'd found another.

“Damnation!” he rasped as he surged to his feet, spilling good whiskey on his favorite waistcoat. He cursed the waste, and then downed the remaining contents of the glass before storming out of the library.

A footman lounging against the wall in the hallway came to attention, fear of reprisal over his lack of dis
cipline evident in his expression. Jack cared little about how straight a man could stand. He cared only that a man furnished results and was there when needed.

“Have you seen the duchess since she went upstairs?” Jack demanded.

“No, sir.”

He cursed again. Escape was definitely a possibility. Jack remembered seeing enormous trees near the house. She could open a window, leap across to one, and shimmy down it with no trouble at all. Jack had done that often enough when he'd lived at Claybourne's. The old gent had forbidden them to visit with Feagan if they slept beneath his roof. Jack had always assumed what the old gent didn't know wouldn't hurt him. And he'd refused to totally abandon Feagan. So he'd straddled both worlds. In many ways, he still did.

He rushed up the stairs, taking them two at a time. No other servants were about. He strode to the nursery, opened the door, and paused…

She had escaped—they both had, she and her son—into slumber. Jack's stomach knotted as the vague memory of sleeping nestled against his mother fought to become more vivid. He didn't want to think about her tonight, didn't want to consider everything a mother might sacrifice for her child, didn't want to wonder about what the duchess might sacrifice. Her devotion to her son had taken him by surprise. He'd somehow always assumed the aristocracy was above emotion. It wasn't often he misjudged a situation or people. But in this instance, he may have.

He glanced quickly around the room. The nanny was asleep on a small bed on the far side. He didn't know if
that was common practice or just another example of the overprotective nature of the boy's mother. He wasn't familiar with a great deal concerning the particulars of a household. Lovingdon had set him a daunting task. He was baffled by his determination to see it through. He gave his attention back to the duchess.

She was sitting up on the bed, her head at an awkward angle, the open book on her lap. The boy was curled on his side, sucking on his thumb, snoring softly. One of his mother's hands rested on his head, her fingers lost in his blond curls, as though she could protect him with so simple a touch.

Yes, he should let them go. What did he know about boys? Oh, he'd protected a few in his time and had the scars to show for it, not all of them visible. But he was accustomed to teaching boys how to survive when they had no one to protect them. Several boys worked at his club: running errands, fetching drinks for gentlemen, carrying their chips for them. Jack wondered if Lovingdon had observed the confidence growing in the lads he hired. They were always fearful, not trusting their good fortune, suspicious of his motives when he first took them in. But in time they came around: began to walk with a swagger, speak without hesitating, understood their worth. Was that the reason Lovingdon had come to the club and not partaken of its offerings—to watch, to learn, to decide who could best prepare his son for the world?

A scoundrel like Jack Dodger?

If the boy were a street urchin, perhaps. But the son of a lord? Jack hardly knew where to begin. So why had he not accepted the easy way out of his dilemma when
the duchess had offered it to him? Take everything and let them go. It made no sense to force them to stay, and yet he was reluctant to release them.

Jack shifted his attention back to the lady in question. In repose she possessed an unexpected, ethereal beauty, as all her worries faded away while she drifted into dreams. He wondered briefly what it was like to dream. He never did. Possibly because he so seldom slept. He was obsessed with obtaining all the wealth he could, burning the midnight oil as often as possible. He knew the true value of money. It protected a person from having to do things he didn't want to do.

Usually. He didn't particularly want to serve as the lad's guardian, and if the boy wasn't sucking his thumb, if he hadn't screamed louder than his mother, Jack might not have questioned the need for him to remain. A boy shouldn't be that frightened. No one should. What had caused him to have fears? And how did Jack begin to give him the confidence he required to honor his title? With late night talks before a coal fire, while gin warmed his belly and a pipe warmed his lungs? He didn't think the duchess would approve of that—which made the idea worth considering. Pricking her temper could become his latest vice. She irritated him for reasons he didn't understand. He was aware of her in ways he'd never been with other women.

The duchess was crammed into the small child's bed, her shoes resting nearby. Although she wore stockings, he could see that she had small, delicate feet. They made her seem vulnerable, and he had a sudden irrational urge to protect her. He could well imagine she'd object to that notion. She'd probably purposely remained there
until she fell asleep, hoping to avoid another encounter with Jack. Silly woman. Eventually everyone had to face the devil and give him his due.

Tomorrow she'd learn that lesson; for tonight, he'd let her rest in innocence—but not in this bed. Waking up after an uncomfortable night would only serve to keep her out of sorts and make her more difficult to deal with, and she was difficult enough. He doubted they'd ever agree on anything.

With care he slid his arms beneath her, one at her shoulders and the other at her knees. His back would no doubt protest the abuse, but when he lifted her, he discovered she was as light as his own touch when he slipped his hand into another man's pocket in order to relieve him of his possessions. She made a little mewling sound as her head rolled into the nook of his shoulder. A scent wafted up that he recognized: laudanum. Maybe she slept no easier at night than he did.

Jack looked back at the boy, who was staring up at him. He mustered a smile, winked, and said in a low voice, “Go back to sleep. I'll hold the monsters at bay tonight.”

The boy closed his eyes. Jack walked from the room and down the hallway to the door that led into the duchess's bedchamber.

Please don't go into my bedchamber.

He released a rough curse. What did he care about her wants and desires? What was she hiding in there? Her not wanting him to see it made him want to all the more. And why shouldn't he? The residence was his, which meant that legally her room was his. He had every right to open that door—

He cursed again and walked to the door that led into the master's bedchamber, a room that had once belonged to her husband and now belonged to Jack.

Bending his knees slightly, he managed to reach the knob, turn it, and shove open the door. The room was cast in shadows. The light from the lamps in the hallway and coming in through the window—from the gas lamps that lined the front drive—provided him with enough illumination to make out the silhouette of the large bed. He walked over to it and very gently laid her down.

She whimpered and mumbled, “I'm sorry. Forgive me.”

Jack crouched down. “For what, Duchess?”

Her response was only a soft breathing. One hand rested near her hip, the other curled on the pillow. She'd removed her widow's cap—a silly bit of frippery—and he had a clearer idea regarding her hair. It was not as brown as he'd originally deduced but more a shade of auburn. A bit of the devil visited him again. Using deft fingers and the light touch of a pickpocket, he located a hairpin. Very gingerly, he pulled it out. Then found another and another and another, until her hair was free of its constraints, thick and heavy in his hand. Soft and silken. He rubbed several strands between his fingers. He didn't know why he felt this overwhelming compulsion to know the texture of her hair.

And to know something more.

He lowered his face to the curve of her neck and slowly inhaled the heady fragrance of her perfume. The scent was stronger there, as though a secret spot rested just behind her ear. Where else might she seek
to tease a man? For she would tease—of that, Jack had no doubt.

Unfolding his body, he stared down on her. He wondered how many nights she might have lain in this bed, replete and sated. Had the duke held her afterward? The women Jack had bedded didn't require any special care, but he thought it would be different with a woman who wasn't bought. She'd expect more when coins didn't fill her palm. She'd require courtesies that filled her heart.

He backed up a step. There was something very pleasing about the sight of a woman in bed, especially when it was now
his
bed. For all the women he'd pleasured and been pleasured by, he'd never watched one sleep. Even in slumber, a woman was seductive and alluring.

He spun on his heel and headed for the door, refusing to be seduced, even by one as lovely as the Duchess of Lovingdon.

 

Jack strode into his gentlemen's club and relished the sights, smells, and sounds. The well-dressed men at the gambling tables. The rich aroma of good whiskey and expensive cigars. The clack of dice and the click of wooden chips. Piano music wafted from another room, where his girls danced with the gents, sometimes ushering them off to a corner for an enticing kiss, sometimes leaving the room for something a bit more illicit. Jack paid the girls well for entertaining the gents with dance and conversation within that room. Anything they earned on the other side of those doors was theirs and theirs alone. He didn't provide whores, but neither
did he judge if a girl wanted more—as long as it was her choice. Everyone knew Jack Dodger didn't look the other way if his employees were mistreated.

He walked around the perimeter, studying the tables, the players, how the games seemed to be progressing. He noted the volume of noise. Rowdy men tended to spend more freely. He passed by one of the card tables where a game of brag was being played. A time existed when Luke spent a good deal of his evening there—not only because he was a partner but because he enjoyed a good game of cards. Since he was married, however, he was spending his nights with his wife. Not that Jack could blame him for that. She was quite a delectable piece.

As Jack passed by the cage where chips were bought, the man inside gave him a nod and quick grin, which meant business was good. He neared the room where women offered solace to the gentlemen who'd not been so lucky at the tables—or perhaps a woman was their choice of sin for the night. Standing in the doorway, he gave his eyes a moment to adjust. The room was dimly lit on purpose, to offer the illusion of secrecy. But no true secrets resided there. If Jack was of a mind, he could blackmail every man within these walls—but his business acumen was sharper than that. He provided a safe haven for men to indulge their whims. He'd learned at an early age that a person would pay almost anything for a safe haven.

A woman sitting on a gentleman's lap caught his eye. Prudence had been with him the longest. Youth was beginning to fade from her features, but a good deal could be said for experience. She whispered to the man, then
unfurled her lithe body and sauntered enticingly over to Jack. She wore her blond hair loose and flowing down her back. Having always lacked modesty, she wore little more than silk draped over her body.

“'ello, love.” She greeted him saucily. “Lookin' fer me?”

Jack gave her a long look mixed with appreciation for what she offered physically as well as regret. It was always a good idea not to let a woman know that he didn't desire her. Let her think it was something else that turned him away. “Not tonight, Pru.”