Belgarath the Sorcerer (5 page)

And he took my crooked little flower and held it between his hands. ‘I thank thee, my son,' he said. It was the first time he'd ever called me that. ‘And this flower shall be thy first lesson. I would have thee examine it most carefully and tell me all that thou canst perceive of it. Set aside thine axe and thy broom, Belgarath. This flower is now thy task.'

And that task took me twenty years, as I recall. Each time I came to my Master with the flower that never wilted nor faded - how I grew to hate that flower! - and told him what I'd learned, he would say, ‘Is that
all
, my son?' And, crushed, I'd go back to my study of that silly little flower.

In time my distaste for it grew less. The more I studied it, the better I came to know it, and I eventually grew fond of it.

Then one day my Master suggested that I might learn more about it if I burned it and studied its ashes. I indignantly refused.

‘And why not, my son?' he asked me.

‘Because it is dear to me, Master,' I said in a tone probably more firm than I'd intended.

‘Dear?' he asked.

‘I
love
the flower, Master! I will
not
destroy it!'

‘Thou art stubborn, Belgarath,' he noted. ‘Did it
truly
take thee twenty years to admit thine affection for this small, gentle thing?'

And that was the
true
meaning of my first lesson. I still have that little flower somewhere, and although I can't put my hands on it immediately, I think of it often and with great affection.

It was not long after that when my Master suggested that we journey to a place he called Prolgu, since he wanted to consult with someone there. I agreed to accompany him, of course, but to be quite honest about it, I didn't
really
want to be away from my studies for that long. It was spring, however, and that's always a good season for traveling. Prolgu is in the mountains, and if nothing else, the scenery was spectacular.

It took us quite some time to reach the place - my Master never hurried - and I saw creatures along the way that I'd never imagined existed. My Master identified them for me, and there was a peculiar note of pain in his voice as he pointed out unicorns, Hrulgin, Algroths and even an Eldrak.

‘What troubles thee, Master?' I asked him one evening as we sat by our fire. ‘Are the creatures we have encountered distasteful to thee?'

‘They are a constant rebuke to me and my brothers, Belgarath,' he replied sadly. ‘When the earth was all new, we dwelt with each other in a cave deep in these mountains, laboring to bring forth the beasts of the fields, the fowls of the air, and the fish of the sea. It seemeth me I have told thee of that time, have I not?'

I nodded. ‘Yes, Master,' I replied. ‘It was before there was such a thing as man.'

‘Yes,' he said. ‘Man was our last creation. At any rate, some of the creatures we brought forth were unseemly,
and we consulted and decided to unmake them, but UL forbade it.'

‘UL?' The name startled me. I'd heard it quite often in the encampment of the old people the winter before I went to serve my Master.

‘Thou hast heard of him, I see.' There was no real point in my trying to hide anything from my Master. ‘UL, as I told thee,' he continued, ‘forbade the unmaking of things, and this greatly offended several of us. Torak in particular was put much out of countenance. Prohibitions or restraints of any kind do not sit well with my brother Torak. It was at his urging, methinks, that we sent such unseemly creatures to UL, telling them that
he
would be their God. I do sorely repent our spitefulness, for what UL did, he did out of a Necessity which we did not at the time perceive.'

‘It is UL with whom thou wouldst consult at Prolgu, is it not, Master?' I asked shrewdly. You see? I'm not
totally
without some degree of perception.

My Master nodded. ‘A certain thing hath come to pass,' he told me sadly. ‘We had hoped that it might not, but it is another of those Necessities to which men and Gods alike must bow.' He sighed. ‘Seek thy bed, Belgarath,' he told me then. ‘We still have far to go ere we reach Prolgu, and I have noted that without sleep, thou art a surly companion.'

‘A weakness of mine, Master,' I admitted, spreading my blankets on the ground. My Master, of course, required sleep no more than he required food.

In time we reached Prolgu, which is a strange place on the top of a mountain which looks oddly artificial. We had no more than started up its side when we were greeted by a very old man and by someone who was quite obviously
not
a man. That was the first time I met UL, and the overpowering sense of his presence quite nearly bowled me over. ‘Aldur,' he said to my Master, ‘well-met.'

‘Father,' my Master replied, politely inclining his head. The Gods, I've noted, have an enormous sense of propriety. Then my Master reached inside his robe and took out that
ordinary, round grey rock he'd spent the last couple of decades studying. ‘Our hopes notwithstanding,' he announced, holding the rock out for UL to see, ‘it hath arrived.'

UL nodded gravely. ‘I had thought I sensed its presence. Wilt thou accept the burden of it?'

My Master sighed. ‘If I must,' he said.

‘Thou art brave, Aldur,' UL said, ‘and wiser far than thy brothers. That which commands us all hath brought it to
thy
hand for a purpose. Let us go apart and consider our course.'

I learned that day that there was something very strange about that ordinary-looking stone.

The old man who had accompanied UL was named Gorim, and he and I got along well. He was a gentle, kindly old fellow whose features were the same as those of the old people I'd met some years before. We went up into the city, and he took me to his house. We waited there while my Master - and his - spoke together for quite some time. To pass the long hours, he told me the story of how he had come to enter the service of UL. It seemed that his people were Dals, the ones who had somehow been left out when the Gods were selecting the various races of man to serve them. Despite my peculiar situation, I've never been a particularly religious man, so I had a bit of difficulty grasping the concept of the spiritual pain the Dals suffered as outcasts. The Dals, of course, traditionally live to the south of the cluster of mountains known only as Korim, but it appeared that quite early in their history, they divided themselves into various groups to go in search of a God. Some went to the north to become Morindim and Karands; some went to the east to become Melcenes; some stayed south of Korim and continued to be Dals; but Gorim's people, Ulgos, he called them, came west.

Eventually, after the Ulgos had wandered around in the wilderness for generations, Gorim was born, and when he reached manhood, he volunteered to go alone in search of
UL. That was long before I was born, of course. Anyway, after many years he finally found UL. He took the good news back to his people, but not too many of them believed him. People are like that sometimes. Finally he grew disgusted with them and told them to follow him or stay where they were, and he didn't much care which. Some followed, and some didn't. As he told me of this, he grew pensive. ‘I have oft-times wondered whatever happened to those who stayed behind,' he said sadly.

‘I can clear that up for you, my friend,' I advised him. ‘I happened across them some twenty-five or so years ago. They had a large camp quite a ways north of my Master's Vale. I spent a winter with them and then moved on. I doubt that you'd find any of them still alive, though. They were all very old when I saw them.'

He gave me a stricken look, and then he bowed his head and wept.

‘What's wrong, Gorim?' I exclaimed, somewhat alarmed.

‘I had hoped that UL might relent and set aside my curse on them,' he replied brokenly.

‘Curse?'

‘That they would wither and perish and be no more. Their women were made barren by my curse.'

‘It was still working when I was there,' I told him. ‘There wasn't a single child in the entire camp. I wondered why they made such a fuss over me. I guess they hadn't seen a child in a long, long time. I couldn't get any details from them, because I couldn't understand their language.'

‘They spoke the old tongue,' he told me sadly, ‘even as do my people here in Prolgu.'

‘How is it that
you
speak my language then?' I asked him.

‘It is my place as leader to speak for my people when we encounter other races,' he explained.

‘Ah,' I said. ‘That stands to reason, I guess.'

My Master and I returned to the Vale not long after that, and I took up other studies. Time seemed meaningless in
the Vale, and I devoted years of study to the most commonplace of things. I examined trees and birds, fish and beasts, insects and vermin. I spent forty-five years on the study of grass alone. In time it occurred to me that I wasn't aging as other men did. I'd seen enough old people to know that aging is a part of being human, but for some reason I seemed to be breaking the rules.

‘Master,' I said one night high in the tower as we both labored with our studies, ‘why is it that I do not grow old?'

‘Wouldst thou grow old, my son?' he asked me. ‘I have never seen much advantage in it, myself.'

‘I don't really miss it all that much, Master,' I admitted, ‘but isn't it customary?'

‘Perhaps,' he said, ‘but not mandatory. Thou hast much yet to learn, and one or ten or even a hundred lifetimes would not be enough. How old art thou, my son?'

‘I think I am somewhat beyond three hundred years, Master.'

‘A suitable age, my son, and thou hast persevered in thy studies. Should I forget myself and call thee “boy” again, pray correct me. It is not seemly that the disciple of a God should be called “boy”.'

‘I shall remember that, Master,' I assured him, almost overcome with joy that he had finally called me his disciple.

‘I was certain that I could depend on thee,' he said with a faint smile. ‘And what is the object of thy present study, my son?'

‘I would seek to learn why the stars fall, Master.'

‘A proper study, my son.'

‘And thou, Master,' I asked, ‘what is thy study - if I be not overbold to ask.'

‘Even as before, Belgarath,' he replied, holding up that fatal round stone. ‘It hath been placed in my care by UL himself, and it is therefore upon me to commune with it that I may know it - and its purpose.'

‘Can a stone
have
a purpose, Master - other than to be a stone?' The piece of rock, now worn smooth, even polished,
by my Master's patient hand made me apprehensive for some reason. In one of those rare presentiments that I don't have very often, I sensed that a great deal of mischief would come about as a result of it.

‘This particular jewel hath a great purpose, Belgarath, for through it the world and all who dwell herein shall be changed. If I can but perceive that purpose, I might make some preparations. That necessity lieth heavily upon my spirit.' And then he lapsed once more into silence, idly turning the stone over and over in his hand as he gazed deep into its polished surface with troubled eyes.

I certainly wasn't going to intrude upon his contemplation of the thing, so I turned back to my study of the inconstant stars.

In time, others came to us, some seemingly by accident, as I had come, and some by intent, seeking out my Master that they might learn from him. Such a one was Zedar.

I came upon him near our tower one golden day in autumn after I'd served my Master for five hundred years or so. This stranger had built a rude altar and was burning the carcass of a goat on it. That got us off on the wrong foot right at the outset. Even the wolves knew enough not to kill things in the Vale. The greasy smoke from his offering was fouling the air, and he was prostrated before his altar, chanting some outlandish prayer.

‘What are you doing?' I demanded - quite abruptly, I'll admit, since his noise and the stink of his sacrifice distracted my mind from a problem I'd been considering for the past half-century.

‘Oh, puissant and all-knowing God,' he said, groveling in the dirt, ‘I have come a thousand leagues to behold thy glory and to worship thee.'

‘Puissant? Quit trying to show off your education, man. Now get up and stop this caterwauling. I'm no more a God than you are.'

‘Art thou not the great God Aldur?'

‘I'm his disciple, Belgarath. What
is
all this nonsense?' I pointed at his altar and his smoking goat.

‘It is to please the God,' he replied, rising and dusting off his clothes. I couldn't be sure, but he looked rather like a Tolnedran - or possibly an Arend. In either case, his babble about a thousand leagues was clearly a self-serving exaggeration. He gave me a servile, fawning sort of look.
‘Tell me truly,' he pleaded, ‘dost thou think he will find this poor offering of mine acceptable?'

I laughed. ‘I can't think of a single thing you could have done that would offend him more.'

The stranger looked stricken. He turned quickly and reached out as if he were going to grab up the animal with his bare hands to hide it.

‘Don't be an idiot!' I snapped. ‘You'll burn yourself!'

‘It must be hidden,' he said desperately. ‘I would rather die than offend mighty Aldur.'

‘Just get out of the way,' I told him.

‘What?'

‘Stand clear,' I said, irritably waving him off, ‘unless you want to take a trip with your goat.' Then I looked at his grotesque little altar, willed it to a spot five miles distant, and translocated it with a single word, leaving only a few tatters of confused smoke hanging in the air.

He collapsed on his face again.

‘You're going to wear out your clothes if you keep doing that,' I told him, ‘and my Master won't find it very amusing.'

‘I pray thee, mighty disciple of most high Aldur,' he said, rising and dusting himself off again, ‘instruct me so that I offend not the God.' He must have been an Arend. No Tolnedran could possibly mangle the language the way he did.

‘Be truthful,' I told him, ‘and don't try to impress him with false show and flowery speech. Believe me, friend, he can see right straight into your heart, so there's no way you can deceive him. I'm not sure which God you worshiped before, but Aldur's like no other God in the whole world.' What an asinine thing
that
was to say. No two Gods are
ever
the same.

‘And how may I become his disciple, as thou art?'

‘First you become his pupil,' I replied, ‘and that's not easy.'

‘What must I do to become his pupil?'

‘You must become his servant.' I said it a bit smugly, I'll admit. A few years with an axe and a broom would probably do this pompous ass some good.

‘And then his pupil?' he pressed.

‘In time,' I replied, ‘if he so wills.' It wasn't up to
me
to reveal the secret of the Will and the Word to him. He'd have to find that out for himself - the same as I had.

‘And when may I meet the God?'

I was getting tired of him anyway, so I took him to the tower.

‘Will the God Aldur wish to know my name?' he asked as we started across the meadow.

I shrugged. ‘Not particularly. If you're lucky enough to prove worthy, he'll give you a name of his own choosing.' When we reached the tower, I commanded the grey stone in the wall to open, and we went inside and on up the stairs.

My Master looked the stranger over and then turned to me. ‘Why hast thou brought this man to me, my son?' he asked me.

‘He besought me, Master,' I replied. ‘I felt it was not my place to say him yea or nay.' I could mangle language as well as Zedar could, I guess. ‘
Thy
will must decide such things,' I continued. ‘If it turns out that he doesn't please thee, I'll take him outside and turn him into a carrot, and that'll be the end of it.'

‘That was unkindly said, Belgarath,' Aldur chided.

‘Forgive me, Master,' I said humbly.

‘
Thou
shalt instruct him, Belgarath. Should it come to pass that he be apt, inform me.'

I groaned inwardly, cursing my careless tongue. My casual offer to vegetabilize the stranger had saddled
me
with him. But Aldur was my Lord, so I said, ‘I will, Master.'

‘What is thy current study, my son?'

‘I examine the reason for mountains, Master.'

‘Lay aside thy mountains, Belgarath, and study man
instead. It may be that the study shall make thee more kindly disposed toward thy fellow-creatures.'

I knew a rebuke when I heard one, so I didn't argue. I sighed. ‘As my Master commands,' I submitted regretfully. I had almost found the secret of mountains, and I didn't want it to escape me. But then I remembered how patient my Master had been when
I
first came to the Vale, so I swallowed my resentment - at least right there in front of him.

I was not nearly so agreeable once I got Zedar back outside, though. I put that poor man through absolute hell, I'm ashamed to admit. I degraded him, I berated him, I set him to work on impossible tasks and then laughed scornfully at his efforts. To be quite honest about it, I secretly hoped that I could make his life so miserable that he'd run away.

But he didn't. He endured all my abuse with a saintly patience that sometimes made me want to scream. Didn't the man have any spirit at
all
? To make matters even worse - to my profoundest mortification - he learned the secret of the Will and the Word within six months. My Master named him Belzedar and accepted him as his pupil.

In time Belzedar and I made peace with each other. I reasoned that as long as we were probably going to spend the next dozen or so centuries together, we might as well learn to get along. Actually, once I ground away his tendency toward hyperbole and excessively ornamental language, he wasn't such a bad fellow. His mind was extraordinarily quick, but he was polite enough not to rub my nose in the fact that mine really wasn't.

The three of us, our Master, Belzedar, and I, settled in and learned to get along with a minimum of aggravation on all sides.

And then the others began to drift in. Kira and Tira were twin Alorn shepherd boys who had become lost and wandered into the Vale one day - and stayed. Their minds were so closely linked that they always had the same thoughts
at the same time and even finished each other's sentences. Despite the fact that they're Alorns, Belkira and Beltira are the gentlest men I've ever known. I'm quite fond of them, actually.

Makor was the next to arrive, and he came to us from so far away that I couldn't understand how he had ever heard of my Master. Unlike the rest of us, who'd been fairly shabby when we'd arrived, Makor came strolling down the Vale dressed in a silk mantle, somewhat like the garb currently in fashion in Tol Honeth. He was a witty, urbane, well-educated man, and I took to him immediately.

Our Master questioned him briefly and decided that he was acceptable - with all the usual provisos.

‘But, Master,' Belzedar objected vehemently, ‘he cannot become one of our fellowship. He is a Dal - one of the Godless ones.'

‘Melcene, actually, old boy,' Makor corrected him in that ultra-civilized manner of his that always drove Belzedar absolutely wild. Now do you see why I was so fond of Makor?

‘What's the difference?' Belzedar demanded bluntly.

‘All the difference in the world, old chap,' Makor replied, examining his fingernails. ‘We Melcenes separated from the Dals so long ago that we're no more like them than Alorns are like Marags. It's not really up to you, however. I was summoned, the same as the rest of you were, and that's an end on it.'

I remembered the odd compulsion that had dragged me out of Gara, and I looked sharply at my Master. Would you believe that he actually managed to look slightly embarrassed?

Belzedar spluttered for a while, but, since there was nothing he could do about it anyway, he muffled his objections.

The next to join us was Sambar, an Angarak. Sambar - or Belsambar as he later became - was not his real name, of course. Angarak names are so universally ugly that my Master did him a favor when he renamed him. I felt a great
deal of sympathy for the boy - he was only about fifteen when he joined us. I've never seen anyone so abject. He simply came to the tower, seated himself on the earth, and waited for either acceptance or death. Beltira and Belkira fed him, of course. They
were
shepherds, after all, and shepherds won't let
anything
go hungry. After a week or so, when it became obvious that he absolutely would
not
enter the tower, our Master went down to
him
. Now
that
was something I'd never seen Aldur do before. He spoke with the lad at some length in a hideous language - old Angarak, I've since discovered - and turned him over to Beltira and Belkira for tutelage. If anyone ever needed gentle handling, it was Belsambar.

In time, the twins taught him to speak a normal language that didn't involve so much spitting and snarling, and we learned his history. My distaste for Torak dates from that point in time. It may not have been entirely Torak's fault, however. I've learned over the years that the views of any priesthood are not necessarily the views of the Gods they serve. I'll give Torak the benefit of the doubt in this case - the practice of human sacrifice
might
have been no more than a perversion of his Grolim priests.
But
he did nothing to put a stop to it, and that's unforgivable.

To cut all this windy moralizing short, Belsambar's parents - both of them - had been sacrificed, and Belsambar had been required to watch as a demonstration of his faith. It didn't really work out that way, though. Grolims can be so stupid sometimes. Anyway, at the tender age of nine, Belsambar became an atheist, rejecting not only Torak and his stinking Grolims, but
all
Gods.

That was when our Master summoned him. In his particular case, the summoning must have been a bit more spectacular than the vague urge that turned
my
face toward the Vale. Belsambar was clearly in a state of religious ecstasy when he reached us. Of course he
was
an Angarak, and they're always a little strange in matters of religion.

 

It was Belmakor who first raised the notion of building our own towers. He was a Melcene, after all, and they're obsessed with building things. I'll admit that our Master's tower
was
starting to get a bit crowded, though.

The construction of those towers took us several decades, as I recall. It was actually more in the nature of a hobby than it was a matter of any urgency. We did use what you might call our advantages in the construction, of course, but squaring off rocks is a tedious business, even if you don't have to use a chisel. We
did
manage to clear away a lot of rock, though, and building material got progressively scarcer as the years rolled by.

I think it was late summer one year when I decided that it was time to finish up my tower so that I wouldn't have it hanging over my head nagging at me. Besides, Belmakor's tower was almost finished, and I
was
first disciple, after all. I didn't think it would really be proper for me to let him outstrip me. We sometimes do things for the most childish of reasons, don't we?

Since my brothers and I had virtually denuded the Vale of rocks, I went up to the edge of the forest lying to the north in search of building materials. I was poking around among the trees looking for a stream-bed or an outcropping of stone when I suddenly felt a baleful stare boring into the back of my neck. That's an uncomfortable feeling that's always irritated me for some reason. ‘You might as well come out,' I said. ‘I know you're there.'

‘Don't try anything,' an awful voice growled at me from a nearby thicket. ‘I'll rip you to pieces if you do.'

Now that's what I call an unpromising start. ‘Don't be an idiot,' I replied. ‘I'm not going to hurt you.'

That evoked the ugliest laugh I've ever heard. ‘
You?
' the voice said scornfully, ‘
You?
Hurt
me
?' And then the bushes parted and the most hideous creature I've ever seen emerged. He was grotesquely deformed with a huge hump on his back, gnarled, dwarfed legs, and long, twisted arms. This combination made it possible - even convenient - for
him to go on all fours like a gorilla. His face was monumentally ugly, his hair and beard were matted, he was unbelievably filthy, and he was partially dressed in a ratty-looking fur of some kind. ‘Enjoying the view?' he demanded harshly. ‘You're not so pretty yourself, you know.'

‘You startled me, that's all,' I replied, trying to be civil.

‘Have you seen an old man in a rickety, broken-down cart around here anywhere?' the creature demanded. ‘He told me he'd meet me here.'

I stared at him in absolute astonishment.

‘You'd better close your mouth,' he advised me in that raspy growl. ‘You'll catch flies if you don't.'