Beauty and The Best (Once-Upon-A-Time Romance) (42 page)

She squared her shoulders and turned around, reaching for the back of one of the chairs as the heel of her new kicky yellow pump got stuck in a groove between the terra cotta tiles.

The door she’d come through slammed outward.

“
Thank God. You’re still here.” Todd’s hair was mussed, those laugh lines at his eyes were decidedly frowning, and he pulled a big, paper-covered something in front of his heaving chest.

“
Yes, I’m still here.”

“
Give me a chance to explain, Jolie.”

“
Like you gave me?” Sorry Todd. She might still love him, but she loved herself, too. And she’d never be heart-whole if she didn’t stand up for herself.

His eyes closed for a second, then opened, all emerald and pained.

It hurt her to intentionally hurt him. Almost as much as he’d hurt her. “I’m sorry. I guess that was a low blow.”

He leaned the object against one of the curved benches. “No, it wasn’t. It was well-deserved, actually.” He straightened, shoving his hands into his pants pockets. “Can we talk?”

There were two arguments there. She could A) say No and that’d be the end of anything—pain, hope, love, et cetera—or B) say Yes and see what happened.

Was there really any question?

She nodded and he swept a hand toward the bench and sat at one end.

Now, common sense would dictate she sit as far away from him as possible in, say, Nova Scotia, but nope, not her. She chose the other end of his bench.

She felt his gaze on her, yet hers was anywhere but on him. The
fleur-de-lis
top of the fence, the prism of color dancing through the cascading water, a cricket peeking out from the bamboo as it serenaded them—anywhere.

Unfortunately though, she’d gotten rather adept at her peripheral vision honing in on Todd while he’d painted her, so she saw every fidget and pant-leg-brushing he was doing.

“
Jolie, I want to explain.”

As much as she wanted him to, now that the moment was here, her new bravado faded. What if it was just another relationship blown in her life? Again. Did she really want to take that chance?
What-ifs
were nice because she didn’t have to face the reality of a situation.
What-ifs
allowed the possibility to live on. The hope.

“
You know what, Todd? It’s not necessary. I get it.”

“
I don’t think you do, Jolie. I want you to understand why.”

She walked over to the stained-glass doors. The image beyond was distorted, but she saw a soft light shining somewhere inside. “Really, it’s okay. I get it. It’s a charity benefit and you had all of those paintings just hanging around, reminding you of the liar you lived with. I’d get rid of them, too.”

She turned, plastering some kind of a smile on her face as the cricket quieted down. She was going for a light-and-breezy, no-hard-feelings type of thing. “Don’t worry about it. I was surprised at first, but it makes sense.” Moonlight shone on his face and she turned back because she couldn’t keep up the pretense when those eyes that had burned into hers while they’d made love were burning still. “I’m over it. No big deal. I hope the church makes a lot of money from them.”

If she’d actually been looking in the door’s reflection as she was pretending to, she would’ve seen him approach. As it was, she jumped when she heard him behind her and looked up to see his eyes in the amber piece of glass.

“
Don’t you ever stop being flippant? How can you just rattle off these little quips, Jolie? Don’t you feel anything?”

She spun around before better judgment kicked in. “
Feel
anything? I don’t
feel
? Are you out of your mind?” She put up her hand to ward him off. “I’ve always felt everything. Every little slight that’s ever come my way, every lonely night, every agony of a skinned knee with no one there to kiss it to make it better. Of course I feel. I am human, you know. But I can’t let it get to me. I’d be a mass of quivering flesh wrapped around a bruised and battered heart and I’d never get anywhere.”

She choked on the tears she refused to let fall. “And, yeah, I feel a lot about tonight. I have so much damn feeling it’s threatening to strangle me. But I’ve got to survive somehow. So don’t stand there and ask me if I feel anything, because let me tell you, mister, I feel everything so much it could overwhelm me. And if I let it, I might never recover.”

They stared at each other, and, Oh God, her heart felt like it was stopping. Something was squeezing her chest and she couldn’t breathe.

She had to get away from him. Put some distance. Gain some clarity.

She took a step around him back the way they’d come, but he grabbed hold of her arms and hauled her up against him. His mouth covered hers and, suddenly, she was breathing in the scent of him and she knew she was going to live.

Oh God, she shouldn’t do this, she shouldn’t, but she just couldn’t seem to help herself. She slipped her arms around his waist and hung on, literally for dear life, drowning in her own insecurities and fears and he was the one thing holding her afloat and safe.

And then he was holding her, all of her. She was swept up in his arms and he carried her back to the bench and somehow they were there together.

“
God, Jolie, I couldn’t believe it when I saw you in there. I wanted to tell you beforehand, but I was finishing the pictures, framing them, arranging the details, and time got away from me. I was going to come see you yesterday, tell you, invite you, but I didn’t know where to find you. I even called Chloe but she wouldn’t tell me where you were.”

Because Chloe knew exactly what disenchantment did to a person. Jolie loved her friend for trying to protect her. “But you promised, Todd.”

His hand was shaky as he swept her hair from her face. The cricket serenade started again, softly this time, as if the moment was being orchestrated. “I know I did. And I regret that more than anything. I regret not discussing it with you.”

She shook her head. “You knew how I’d feel.”

He cocked his head. “Did I? You were the one who thought it’d be neat to be famous, to have everyone know who you are.”

“
No. You don’t get to blame me.”

“
You’re right. I don’t. And I’m not. But you’ve got to believe me. I didn’t do this to hurt you.”

She looked into his green eyes, which were open and honest and blazing. He meant what he said. It was who he was; every word was the truth.

Which was what he deserved as well.

“
And I didn’t want to hurt you either, Todd, which is why I wasn’t going to get that book published.”

His eyebrow lifted. “Really.”

“
Yes, really.”

His eyebrow didn’t settle back into place.

“
Fine. Don’t believe me.” She squirmed, but he refused to let go.

“
No way. You’re not walking away from me until we get this settled, Jolie.”

She stopped squirming.

She glared, but she stopped trying to get free. Running wasn’t going to solve anything. Not talking wouldn’t either. “Fine.”

His grip loosened. “So, if you had no intention of publishing the book, why did you? To spite me? To get your money’s worth after you left?”

“
What are you talking about? I didn’t publish the book.”

“
Really.”

“
We’ve been through this.”

“
Then what—” he pulled something from his back pocket—“is this?”

He handed her a thin paperback bearing the picture of a man with his arms around a woman on the cover. A golden haired man and a long-haired brunette. The title was
The Best Man
. The author was—

Her
.

Her mouth dropped and she pushed to a sitting position next to him on the bench. Sure enough, the copyright page listed Jolie Gardener as the author.

She thumbed to the first page and wanted to die as she recognized every single word in the opening paragraph. Annie and Tom.

She flipped through more of the pages and scenes jumped out at her. Scenes she’d invented, wrote. There was Tom/Todd’s speech about a rose about to bloom, his “she never gave up on me,” and that big ol’ gnarled apple tree with the tree fort and rope swing.

She flipped the book over to read the blurb on the back, but then she opened it back again to that scene with the rope swing.

She’d never added that last part. She’d thrown the manuscript out without moving Annie and Tom off the bow of the boat.

“
I don’t understand this.” She looked at him.

“
That’s not your story?”

“
Well, yes, I guess it is, but I didn’t do this, Todd.”

His eyebrow went sky-high.

“
Really, Todd. I didn’t. I threw the manuscript in the trash that afternoon after I left.”

“
So you’re saying a garbage collector went through the trash, found your manuscript, submitted it to a publisher, listed you as the author, and let you get the credit and royalty payments?”

“
That’s what must have happened because I haven’t seen this since then. Honest.” It was as if she were in the Twilight Zone. “And, the ending is different.”

“
That’s not the one you wrote?”

“
No, and here’s something even more bizarre. This is the ending I was
going to
write. When I came up to my room and found you reading it, I was on my way to change the ending to this. But I never did.” She flipped a few more pages and shook her head. “I can’t figure this out.”

“
So if what you’re saying is true—”

“
It is.”

“
Then how did it happen?”

“
I have no idea.” She touched the cover. Totally surreal. Incredibly so. “Where’d you get it?”

“
Your friend, Mr. Griff, gave it to me when I returned the Holbein book.”

“
Mr. Griff
gave you this?”

“
Yes. Why?”

She tapped the spine against her mouth. Something wasn’t right. “I’m not sure, but I promise you I did not do this. I knew how you’d feel.” She set the book on the bench beside her, because, really, the physical book wasn’t what was important. “I knew, Todd, before I ever wrote that resolution between Annie and Tom. I knew you’d hate for me to use you as the model, but I had to finish the story.”

“
But why, Jolie? Why did you use
me
? Us?” His eyes were full of hurt and she couldn’t let him think she did it out of spite.

“
Because of how much in love you and Trista were. I wanted that kind of love in my life.”

A waft of honeysuckle drifted past them and his eyes widened. “But you didn’t even know Trista and me then.”

“
That’s where you’re wrong, Todd. The newspapers were always writing about you. They wrote about your art shows and your company and your successes. And they wrote about what a lovely and loving couple you two were. Every time there was a mention of you, Trista’s name was right there. And I just thought it was so wonderful how in love you two were. And when she died, my heart ached for you.”

“
So you found a way to hire on as my help and use my life for your story.”

“
It’s not as sordid as it sounds.” Again with the eyebrow. “Honestly, Todd. When I found out where I’d be working, who I’d be working for, the idea just kind of gelled. I’d been writing the story beforehand. You know how I like my happy endings.” She actually got a smile with that. “But the story wasn’t working. I didn’t find it strange because my whole life was like that, but when I found out I’d be working for you, I thought, maybe I could get to know you, see what there was in you that made Trista love you and you love her back, and give that to my hero. That’s all. I wasn’t trying to exploit you at all. I… admire you.”

He was mulling it over. And he was back to playing with the ends of her hair, so maybe he was losing some of his anger and hurt.

“
I never meant to hurt you, Todd.”

“
I believe you.”

He believed her
.

“
But it still doesn’t explain the book,” he added.

“
I know. And I can’t. I honestly have no idea how that happened. Maybe we should buy up the rest in Mr. Griff’s store before anyone else sees it.”

Todd shook his head. “He only had the one. I went in and checked after I saw what it was. After I’d read it.”

He’d read it? “This just keeps getting weirder and weirder.”

“
I know. Kind of like my show tonight.”

“
Really? What’s weird about it?”

“
Mr. Griff was the one who mentioned the church benefit to me.”

“
What’s odd about that?”

“
When I called the lady at the church office, Angie someone, she seemed, I don’t know, confused maybe, and had her boss call me back. I wondered at the time why she wouldn’t know about it, if it was such a big deal, but then her boss was all over it, so that put an end to my questions. Plus, I was suddenly too busy to really concentrate on anything else.”

“
But why
those
pictures, Todd?”

He took a deep breath. “When I was passing your room that afternoon, I thought I’d heard someone talking. But it was just your cat having a daydream. I petted him to settle him down, but the damned thing ran from me and knocked your story off the shelf and onto the floor. When I picked it up, the words jumped out at me. Socked me right in the gut.