Beautiful Disaster (14 page)

“Parker,” I whispered.

He beamed. “You like it?”

“I do,” I said holding it in front of my face in awe, “but it's too much. I couldn't accept this if we'd been dating a year, much less a week.”

Parker grimaced. “I thought you might say that. I searched high and low all morning for the perfect birthday present, and when I saw this, I knew there
was only one place it could ever belong,” he said, taking it from my fingers and clasping it around my wrist. “And I was right. It looks incredible on you.”

I held up my wrist and shook my head, hypnotized by the brilliance of colors reacting to the sunlight. “It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. No one's ever given me anything so …” expensive came to mind, but I didn't want to say that, “elaborate. I don't know what to say.”

Parker laughed, and then kissed my cheek. “Say that you'll wear it tomorrow.”

I grinned from ear to ear. “I'll wear it tomorrow,” I said, looking to my wrist.

“I'm glad you like it. The look on your face was worth the seven stores I went to.”

I sighed. “You went to seven stores?” He nodded, and I took his face in my hands. “Thank you. It's perfect,” I said, kissing him quickly.

He hugged me tight. “I have to get back. I'm having lunch with my parents, but I'll call you later, okay?”

“Okay. Thank you!” I called after him, watching him trot down the stairs.

I hurried into the apartment, unable to take my eyes off of my wrist.

“Holy shit, Abby!” America said, grabbing my hand. “Where did you get this?”

“Parker brought it. It's my birthday present,” I said.

America gawked at me, and then down at the bracelet. “He bought you a diamond tennis bracelet? After a week? If I didn't know better, I'd say you have a magic crotch!”

I laughed out loud, beginning a ridiculous giggle-fest in the living room.

Shepley emerged from his bedroom, looking tired and satisfied. “What are you fruitcakes shrieking about in here?”

America held up my wrist. “Look! Her birthday present from Parker!”

Shepley squinted, and then his eyes popped open. “Whoa.”

“I know, right?” America said, nodding.

Travis stumbled around the corner, looking a bit beat up. “You guys are loud as fuck,” he groaned, buttoning his jeans.

“Sorry,” I said, pulling my hand from America's grip. Our almost moment crept into my mind, and I couldn't seem to look him in the eyes.

He downed the rest of my orange juice, and then wiped his mouth. “Who in the hell let me drink that much last night?”

America sneered, “You did. You went out and bought a fifth after Abby left with Parker and killed the whole thing by the time she got back.”

“Damn,” he said, shaking his head. “Did you have fun?” he asked, looking to me.

“Are you serious?” I asked, showing my anger before thinking.

“What?”

America laughed. “You pulled her out of Parker's car, seeing red when you caught them making out like high schoolers. They fogged up the windows and everything!”

Travis's eyes unfocused, scanning his memories of the night before. I worked to stifle my temper. If he
didn't remember pulling me from the car, he wouldn't remember how close I came to handing my virginity to him on a silver platter.

“How pissed are you?” he asked, wincing.

“Pretty pissed.” I was angrier that my feelings had nothing to do with Parker. I tightened my robe and stomped down the hall. Travis's footsteps were right behind me.

“Pidge,” he said, catching the door when I shut it in his face. He slowly pushed it open and stood before me, waiting to suffer my wrath.

“Do you remember anything you said to me last night?” I asked.

“No. Why? Was I mean to you?” His bloodshot eyes were heavy with worry, which only served to amplify my anger.

“No you weren't mean to me! You … we …” I covered my eyes with my hands, and then froze when I felt Travis's hand on my wrist.

“Where'd this come from?” he said, glaring at the bracelet.

“It's mine,” I said, pulling away from him.

He didn't take his eyes from my wrist. “I've never seen it before. It looks new.”

“It is.”

“Where'd you get it?”

“Parker gave it to me about fifteen minutes ago,” I said, watching his face morph from confusion to rage.

“What the fuck was that douchebag doing here? Did he stay the night?” he asked, his voice rising with each question.

I crossed my arms. “He went shopping for my birthday present this morning and brought it by.”

“It's not your birthday yet.” His face turned a deep shade of red as he worked to keep his temper under control.

“He couldn't wait,” I said, lifting my chin with stubborn pride.

“No wonder I had to drag your ass out of his car, sounds like you were …” he trailed off, pressing his lips together.

I narrowed my eyes. “What? Sounds like I was what?”

His jaws tensed and he took a deep breath, blowing it out from his nose. “Nothing. I'm just pissed off, and I was going to say something shitty that I didn't mean.”

“It's never stopped you before.”

“I know. I'm working on it,” he said, walking to the door. “I'll let you get dressed.”

When he reached for the knob, he paused, rubbing his arm. As soon as his fingers touched the tender splatter of purple pooling under his skin, he pulled up his elbow and noticed the bruise. He stared at it for a moment and then turned to me.

“I fell on the stairs last night. And you helped me to bed …” he said, sifting through the blurry images in his mind.

My heart was pounding, and I swallowed hard as I watched realization strike. His eyes narrowed. “We,” he began, taking a step toward me, looking at the closet, and then to the bed.

“No we didn't. Nothing happened,” I said, shaking my head.

He cringed, the memory obviously replaying in his mind. “You fog up Parker's windows, I pull you out of the car, and then I try to …” he said, shaking his head. He turned for the door and grabbed the knob, his knuckles white. “You're turning me into a fucking psycho, Pigeon,” he growled over his shoulder. “I don't think straight when I'm around you.”

“So it's my fault?”

He turned. His eyes fell from my face to my robe, to my legs, and then my feet, returning to my eyes. “I don't know. My memory is a little hazy … but I don't recall you saying no.”

I took a step forward, ready to argue that irrelevant little fact, but I couldn't. He was right. “What do you want me to say, Travis?”

He looked at the bracelet and then back at me with accusing eyes. “You were hoping I wouldn't remember?”

“No! I was pissed that you forgot!”

His brown eyes bored into mine. “Why?”

“Because if I would have … if we would have … and you didn't … I don't know why! I just was!”

He stormed across the room, stopping inches from me. His hands touched each side of my face, his breathing quick as he scanned my face. “What are we doin', Pidge?”

My eyes began at his belt and then rose over the muscles and tattoos of his stomach and chest, finally settling on the warm brown of his irises. “You tell me.”

“Abby?” Shepley said, knocking on the door. “Mare was going to run some errands; she wanted me to let you know in case you needed to go.”

Travis hadn't taken his eyes from mine. “Pidge?”

“Yeah,” I called to Shepley. “I have some stuff I need to take care of.”

“All right, she's ready to go when you are,” Shepley said, his footsteps disappearing down the hall.

“Pidge?”

I pulled a few things from the closet and slid past him. “Can we talk about this later? I have a lot to do today.”

“Sure,” he said with a contrived smile.

It was a relief to escape to the bathroom. I quickly closed the door behind me. Two weeks left in the apartment and no way to put off the conversation—at least, not for that long. The logical part of my brain insisted that Parker was my type: attractive, smart and interested in me. Why I bothered with Travis was something I would never understand.

Whatever the reason, it was making us both insane. I had been divided into two separate people: the docile, polite person I was with Parker, and the angry, confused, frustrated person I turned into around Travis. The entire school had witnessed Travis going from unpredictable before to damn near volatile.

I dressed quickly, leaving Travis and Shepley to go downtown with America. She giggled about her
morning sexcapade with Shepley, and I listened with dutiful nods in all the right places. It was hard to focus on the topic at hand with the diamonds of my bracelet creating tiny dots of light on the ceiling of the car, reminding me of the choice I was suddenly faced with. Travis wanted an answer, and I didn't have one.

“Okay, Abby. What's going on? You've been quiet.”

“This thing with Travis … it's just a mess.”

“Why?” she said, her sunglasses pushing up when she wrinkled her nose.

“He asked me what we were doing.”

“What are you doing? Are you with Parker or what?”

“I like him, but it's been a week. We're not serious or anything.”

“You have feelings for Travis, don't you?”

I shook my head. “I don't know how I feel about him. I just don't see it happening, Mare. He's too much of a bad thing.”

“Neither one of you will just come out and say it, that's the problem. You're both so scared of what might happen that you're fighting it tooth and nail. I know for a fact that if you looked Travis in the eye and told him you wanted him, he would never look at another woman again.”

“You know that for a fact?”

“Yes. I have the inside track, remember?”

I paused in thought for a moment. Travis had been talking to Shepley about me, but Shepley wouldn't encourage a relationship by telling America. He knew she would tell me. This led me to the only
conclusion: America had overheard them. I wanted to ask her what was said, but thought better of it.

“That situation is a broken heart just waiting to happen,” I said, shaking my head. “I don't think he's capable of being faithful.”

“He wasn't capable of carrying on a friendship with a female, either, but you two sure shocked the whole of Eastern.”

I fingered my bracelet and sighed. “I don't know. I don't mind how things are. We can just be friends.”

America shook her head. “Except that you're not just friends,” she sighed. “You know what? I'm over this conversation. Let's go get our hair and makeup done. I'll buy you a new outfit for your birthday.”

“I think that's exactly what I need,” I said.

After hours of manicures, pedicures, being brushed, waxed, and powdered, I stepped into my shiny yellow high heels and tugged on my new, grey dress.

“Now that's the Abby I know and love!” she laughed, shaking her head at my ensemble. “You have to wear that to your party tomorrow.”

“Wasn't that the plan all along?” I said, smirking. My cell phone buzzed in my purse, and I held it to my ear. “Hello?”

“It's dinner time! Where the hell did you two run off to?” Travis said.

“We indulged in a little pampering. You and Shep knew how to eat before we came along. I'm sure you can manage.”

“Well, no shit. We worry about you, ya know.”

I looked at America and smiled. “We're fine.”

“Tell him I'll have you back in no time. I have to stop by Brazil's to pick up some notes for Shep, and then we'll be home.”

“Did you get that?” I asked.

“Yeah. See you then, Pidge.”

We drove to Brazil's in silence. America turned off the ignition, staring at the apartment building ahead. Shepley asking America to drive over surprised me; we were just a block from Shepley and Travis's apartment.

“What's wrong, Mare?”

“Brazil just gives me the creeps. The last time I was here with Shep, he was being all flirty.”

“Well, I'll go in with you. If he so much as winks at you, I'll stab him in the eye with my new heels, okay?”

America smiled and hugged me. “Thanks, Abby!”

We walked to the back of the building, and America took a deep breath before knocking on the door. We waited, but no one came.

“I guess he's not here?” I asked.

“He's here,” she said, irritated. She banged on the wood with the side of her fist and then the door swung open.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” the crowd inside yelled.

The ceiling was pink and black bubbles, every inch covered by helium balloons with long silver strings hanging down in the faces of the guests. The crowd separated, and Travis walked approached me with a broad smile, touching each side of my face and kissing my forehead.

“Happy birthday, Pigeon.”

“It's not 'til tomorrow,” I said. Still in shock, I tried smiling at everyone around us.

Travis shrugged. “Well, since you were tipped off, we had to make some last minute changes to surprise you. Surprised?”

“Very!” I said as Finch hugged me.

“Happy birthday, baby!” Finch said, kissing my lips.

America nudged me with her elbow. “Good thing I got you to run errands with me today or you would have shown up looking like ass!”

“You look great,” Travis said, scanning my dress.

Brazil hugged me, pressing his cheek to mine. “And I hope you know America's Brazil is Creepy story was just a line to get you in here.”

I looked at America and she laughed. “It worked, didn't it?”

Once everyone took turns hugging me and wishing me a happy birthday, I leaned into America's ear. “Where's Parker?”