Baptism in Blood (2 page)

“All the weather news is bad,” David said. “You shouldn’t be here this late. Even I shouldn’t be here. There’s going to be a hurricane.”

Ginny waved this away and turned back to her typing. Her hair cascaded down her back in a curling ponytail. Her hands were full of rings, so full that her only real one—her wedding ring—seemed to get lost.

“There isn’t going to be a hurricane for hours yet,” she said confidently. “I know. I’ve been through them. I’ve got plenty of time to get this done before I have to head into town.”

“I’d still feel safer if you headed into town.”

Ginny tapped impatiently at the computer. “Besides,” she said, “you know what I’d have to do if I left here now?”

“No.”

“Go up to that camp,” Ginny said. “That’s what I’d have to do. I promised that Miss Meyer. Ms., she wants to be called. My husband says they’re worshipping the devil up at that camp. Did you know that?”

“No,” David said. “I didn’t know it. I don’t think it’s true, Ginny. They’re not devils up there. They’re just a lot of middle-aged women whose lives haven’t worked out so well.”

Ginny wrinkled her nose. “They won’t let me put my pictures up out there,” she told him. “My cross and the picture of my Lord. They won’t even let me use my own pencils because they have Jesus’ name written on them. Their hearts are hardened against the Lord.”

“Their hearts are hardened against a lot of things, I expect.”

“They’re lesbians, too,” Ginny said. “They say so right out. They don’t care what anybody else thinks. Homo­sexuals are an abomination in the sight of the Lord.”

“Somehow, I have a hard time thinking of Zhondra Meyer as an abomination. A nag, maybe, but not an abomi­nation.”

Ginny looked back over her shoulder again and grinned. “I know,” she said, giggling. “They’re just like a bunch of old maids up there. It’s terrible. But Bobby’s the one who went to Bible college. He’s the one who knows. So he must be right about it, don’t you think?”

Bobby was Ginny’s husband. David shifted Tiffany from one shoulder to the other. Tiffany was asleep.

“Right about Zhondra Meyer?” he asked. “Well, Ginny, I don’t know. By now you must realize that I don’t put much credence in—”

“Put what?”

“That I don’t believe in God,” David said.

“You just say you don’t believe in God,” Ginny said quickly. “It’s Ms. Meyer who really doesn’t believe in Him. You let me keep my pictures up. You even let me listen to the PTL Club when I stay late. They don’t even have a television up there at that camp.”

“They probably can’t afford one.”

Ginny turned back to the terminal screen and frowned at it. “Bobby says it’s a dangerous thing, denying God and worshipping Satan. He says it can get out of hand and start affecting everybody. And I know what he means. I went to college myself for a while. Out at North Carolina State. I went for two years.”

“You should have stayed.”

“I saw it in some of the people I met out there,” Ginny went on. “It’s a terrible thing, to lose your faith in the Lord. People get—crazy.”

“People get crazy with the Lord just as well as with­out him, Ginny.”

Ginny shook her head. “Bobby says people don’t really think about Hell anymore. That’s the problem. If we really thought about Hell, if we really understood what it meant, we’d never do anything wrong. We wouldn’t want to risk for even a second going down to the fire. The fire that lasts for all of eternity.”

“Ginny—”

“But some people actually like Hell. Bobby says that’s what most people don’t understand. Some people get committed to Satan, and then when they do they like Hell, it makes them happy, and it makes them happiest to see souls in torment, you know, souls that haven’t been saved but haven’t been committed to Satan, either. Do you see what I mean?”

“I see that this baby needs changing.”

“You’ve got the kind of soul that ends up in tor­ment,” Ginny went on. “You only think you don’t believe in God. I read this stuff you give me to type. It’s just silly, Dr. Sandler. All this stuff about how old the rocks are. Nobody can know how old the rocks are. That’s just a lot of silliness they taught you at your college, and now you think the Bible isn’t true. But the Bible is true. It’s God’s word from beginning to end. And it’s trying to talk to you.”

“Ginny, the baby needs—”

Ginny reached out and took the baby. “It’s not the same as what goes on up there at the camp,” she told him seriously. “They hate everything about God up there. They hate everything God does, especially saving people. They want everybody on earth to go to Hell with them and keep them company. They’re bad people, Dr. Sandler. I know. I spend hours and hours up there, typing for Ms. Meyer, even though Bobby wants me to quit. It’s a job and we need the money.”

“I know you do.”

Ginny took the baby over to the couch and laid her down on the black leather cushion. Her face was turned away from him. He couldn’t see her eyes. She found her tote bag on the floor and began to take out diapers and wipes.

“There’s something else,” she said. “Something I haven’t even told Bobby about. It worries me.”

“What’s that, Ginny?”

Ginny shuddered slightly. “They’re doing things out there, Dr. Sandler. I wasn’t supposed to see them, but I saw them. They’re doing things in the woods with candles.”

“Candles?”

“Stark naked, too,” Ginny went on. “Sitting in cir­cles in the leaves. I thought they were, you know, doing something private, but then I heard them chanting. To the goddess. I don’t know which goddess. It sounded like hun­dreds of goddesses. There were so many names. They were calling up the spirits of the earth. I heard them say it. And they had knives.”

“Knives?”

“Big long ones. I didn’t see what they did with them. I got out of there as fast as I could. I didn’t want them to know I’d been there. But I’ve been thinking about it. Calling up the spirits of the earth. I figure that has to be the same as the Prince of This World. Don’t you?”

David cleared his throat. He didn’t know where to start with this. “I don’t think so,” he told Ginny carefully. “I think the idea is, they believe that God is in everything and everything is God, even rocks and trees, so the whole earth is holy, even the leaves and the ground—”

“But the earth isn’t holy,” Ginny argued. “The earth has been corrupted. That’s what happened at Adam’s fall.”

Tiffany was twisting and turning on the couch. Her clean new Pampers looked shiny along the waist. Her eyes were bright and round and curious, taking the world in. David wanted to pick her up and take her somewhere where she wouldn’t be taught this kind of nonsense before she could even read.

Instead, he went to the window of the study and looked out. The sky looked even worse than it had when he was on the deck. The wind was doing hard, erratic things to the weather vane that sat on the roof of the next house down the beach. The world looked cold and dirty and wet.

“It really is getting bad out there, Ginny,” he said. “I’m going to go into town now. You ought to go, too. Once this storm hits, there’s going to be a mess.”

“I’ll be praying for your house, Dr. Sandler. I’ll be praying that the Lord preserves this house intact. You re­member that when the storm is over and it’s still standing.”

“I will remember it.”

“Maybe that will be the miracle that brings you to the Lord.” Ginny had been kneeling on the floor beside the couch. Now she stood up and brought Tiffany with her. “You were destined to be saved,” Ginny said fervently. “I knew that the minute I saw you. You were destined to be saved, and no matter what you do, the Lord is going to get you in the end. So you might as well give up and come over right now.”

“I’ll think about it, Ginny.”

“You do that,” Ginny said.

Then she stomped away across the study, to get her pocketbook, to pack up her cross and her pencils and her picture. David watched her move, with that funny bouncy lightness so many of the young women down here had. Her ponytail shivered and jumped. Her eyes seemed to be looking at nothing at all. If she had been born in the North instead of the South, David thought, she would have be­lieved in cheerleading and therapy instead of God and Christ Jesus.

Ginny put Tiffany into her Snugli carrier and slipped the carrier on her back.

“You take care now,” she told him. “I’ll see you in the morning.”

It was morning, but David didn’t bring that up. It was barely eleven o’clock. He watched Ginny leave the study and all the while he was wondering what fool nonsense Zhondra Meyer and her band of merry ladies were getting up to up at the camp.

T
HE TEMPERATURE DROPPED SHARPLY
at just about eleven o’clock, but Rose MacNeill didn’t notice it. Rose MacNeill was having a hot flash, the worst she’d had yet, and to make sure nobody caught her at it she had locked herself in the little storage room that had once been the kitchen pan­try of her big Victorian house. It was the only Victorian house in all of Bellerton, North Carolina. All the other big houses in town were pre-Civil War Greek revival. There was a little square window in the pantry that Rose could look out of, down Main Street to the old Episcopal Church. She could see the trees being bent by the wind. She could see Maggie Kelleher nailing boards across the plate glass windows of her bookshop and Charlie Hare folding up the plywood display tables he usually kept feed and fertilizer on. Rose had known both of these people all their lives, and most of the rest of the people in town as well, and it sud­denly struck her that she hated them all with a passion.

There was a plaque hanging on the wall next to the little square window that said:
Jesus Loves You.
Out on the street, Jim Bonham stopped to help Maggie Kelleher with her boards. Bobby Marsh went by without talking to any­body. Rose closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against the wall. Her head hurt. Her whole body was hot. She could feel rivers of sweat running down the sides of her spine. She had spent her entire life in Bellerton, North Carolina, and all she had ever really wanted to do was get out. Even back in high school, when she was president of the best school sorority and the steady date of the nicest boy in town, all she had been able to think about was other places, other people, going north to live in New York City or out over the ocean to stay in Paris. Instead, she had stayed here to be safe. She had learned to wear very high heels with very tight skirts and to pin her blond hair into a French twist. She wore enameled tin pins on her dresses that said things like
Let Go and Let God.

She was supposed to be safe.

Once she stopped feeling hot, she was suddenly cold. She stepped away from the window and squinted through the glass. Maggie Kelleher was mostly done with her win­dow. Bobby Marsh was gone. Jim Bonham was talking to Charlie Hare. Rose wondered where all the rest of them were. Had they all taken care of their places early, and ridden out to stay with relatives inland? And what about those women up at the camp? They didn’t have any rela­tives. That was why they were up at the camp. That was what the paper said. Rose thought for a moment of the women up there. Then she tried to think of what they did with each other, and her mind went blank. Lesbians. The word was a hard crystal rock in Rose’s head. There didn’t used to be lesbians in places like Bellerton, North Carolina. Rose had been nearly forty before she even knew what the word meant. There were lesbians here now, though, and an atheist, too, and with all the publicity they got, Bellerton was getting to be famous. For all the wrong things.

There was a sharp rap on the pantry door.

“Rose?” Kathi Nelson asked. “Are you in there? I need to talk to you.”

Kathi Nelson was Rose’s assistant in the shop. She was seventeen years old and not very bright—and not very popular, either. Rose would have preferred to hire the kind of girls she had been herself at seventeen, but those girls didn’t come asking for jobs in a Christian gift shop. Those girls took cram courses for the Scholastic Aptitude Test and went away to Chapel Hill for college. Things had changed a lot since Rose’s day, when a girl who wanted to go away to college was assumed not to want to get married at all, ever, no matter what.

“Rose?” Kathi asked again.

Rose pulled herself away from the little square win­dow. She was surrounded by shipping boxes: one thousand blue enamel angel pins; thirty-four engraved brass desk plaques reading
Christ Is the Only Answer You Need;
forty-two copies of a book called
Help, Lord! The Devil Wants Me Fat!
Rose shook her head, hoping to clear her eyes. She didn’t want to rub them, because she had makeup on them and she didn’t want to smear it.

“I’m here,” she called out to Kathi. “I’ll be right out.”

“Are you feeling okay, Miss MacNeill? Is there any­thing I can get for you?”

“I’m fine.”

“Lisa Cameron came in here just a little while ago and bought that great big angel statue to take to her niece’s christening—can you imagine? In this weather. In my church, we don’t believe in people getting baptized until they’re all grown up and know what they’re doing. I mean, what does a little baby know about resisting the snares of the Devil?”

Rose’s eyes went to the Methodist Church on the other end of Main Street. They baptized little babies there, and teddy bears, too, if someone wanted them to. Women wore good dresses and little hats. The organist knew how to play Bach. It was the most liberal church in town, and Stephen Harrow was the most liberal minister.

Rose smoothed her hair again, opened the pantry door, and went out into the hall. Kathi was standing in the dim light, wearing a denim overall jumper and a T-shirt. She was plump and overeager, like a badly trained dog. Rose could hear the roof creaking above her head and the whistle of the wind. If it was like this now, before the storm had really started, it was going to be a very bad day.

“We should lock up and head over to the high school,” Rose told her. “This is going to be awful”

“Oh, I know,” Kathi said breathlessly. “I know. I’ve been packing things away in cupboards all morning.”

“Good.”

“It seems like everybody in town has been working and working,” Kathi said. “Boarding up windows. Do you think we ought to board up some windows?”