Authors: Stephen King
“Stinky-phew!”
the little girl said, still waving a pudgy hand at the air in front of her face. “Scoutie
stink
!”
Where Scoutie's bathing suitie?
I thought, and then my new girlfriend was snatched out of my arms. Now that she was closer, my idea that Mattie was the bathing beauty's sister took a hit. Mattie wouldn't be middle-aged until well into the next century, but she wasn't twelve or fourteen, either. I now guessed twenty, maybe a year younger. When she snatched the baby away, I saw the wedding ring on her left hand. I also saw the dark circles under her eyes, gray skin dusting to purple. She was young, but I thought it was a mother's terror and exhaustion I was looking at.
I expected her to swat the tot, because that's how trailer-trash moms react to being tired and scared. When she did, I would stop her, one way or anotherâdistract her into turning her anger on me, if that was what it took. There was nothing very noble in this, I should add; all I really wanted to do was to postpone the fanny-whacking, shoulder-shaking, and in-your-face shouting to a time and place where I wouldn't have to watch it. It was my first day
back in town; I didn't want to spend any of it watching an inattentive slut abuse her child.
Instead of shaking her and shouting “Where did you think you were going, you little bitch?” Mattie first hugged the child (who hugged back enthusiastically, showing absolutely no sign of fear) and then covered her face with kisses.
“Why did you do that?” she cried. “What was in your head? When I couldn't find you, I died.”
Mattie burst into tears. The child in the bathing suit looked at her with an expression of surprise so big and complete it would have been comical under other circumstances. Then her own face crumpled up. I stood back, watched them crying and hugging, and felt ashamed of my preconceptions.
A car went by and slowed down. An elderly coupleâMa and Pa Kettle on their way to the store for that holiday box of Grape-Nutsâgawked out. I gave them an impatient wave with both hands, the kind that says what are
you
staring at, go on, put an egg in your shoe and beat it. They sped up, but I didn't see an out-of-state license plate, as I'd hoped I might. This version of Ma and Pa were locals, and the story would be fleeting its rounds soon enough: Mattie the teenage bride and her little bundle of joy (said bundle undoubtedly conceived in the back seat of a car or the bed of a pickup truck some months before the legitimizing ceremony), bawling their eyes out at the side of the road. With a stranger. No, not exactly a stranger. Mike Noonan, the writer fella from upstate.
“I wanted to go to the beach and
suh-suh-swim
!” the little girl wept, and now it was “swim” that
sounded exoticâthe Vietnamese word for “ecstasy,” perhaps.
“I said I'd take you this afternoon.” Mattie was still sniffing, but getting herself under control. “Don't do that again, little guy, please don't you ever do that again, Mommy was so scared.”
“I won't,” the kid said. “I really won't.” Still crying, she hugged the older girl tight, laying her head against the side of Mattie's neck. Her baseball cap fell off. I picked it up, beginning to feel very much like an outsider here. I poked the blue-and-red cap at Mattie's hand until her fingers closed on it.
I decided I also felt pretty good about the way things had turned out, and maybe I had a right to. I've presented the incident as if it was amusing, and it was, but it was the sort of amusing you never see until later. When it was happening, it was terrifying. Suppose there had been a truck coming from the other direction? Coming around that curve, and coming too fast?
A vehicle
did
come around it, a pickup of the type no tourist ever drives. Two more locals gawked their way by.
“Ma'am?” I said. “Mattie? I think I'd better get going. Glad your little girl is all right.” The minute it was out, I felt an almost irresistible urge to laugh. I could picture me drawling this speech to Mattie (a name that belonged in a movie like
The Unforgiven
or
True Grit
if any name ever did) with my thumbs hooked into the belt of my chaps and my Stetson pushed back to reveal my noble brow. I felt an insane urge to add, “You're right purty, ma'am, ain't you the new schoolmarm?”
She turned to me and I saw that she
was
right purty. Even with circles under her eyes and her blonde hair sticking off in gobs to either side of her head. And I thought she was doing okay for a girl probably not yet old enough to buy a drink in a bar. At least she hadn't belted the baby.
“Thank you so much,” she said. “Was she right
in
the road?” Say she wasn't, her eyes begged. At least say she was walking along the shoulder.
“Wellâ”
“I walked on the line,” the girl said, pointing. “It's like the crossmock.” Her voice took on a faintly righteous tone. “Crossmock is safe.”
Mattie's cheeks, already white, turned whiter. I didn't like seeing her that way, and didn't like to think of her driving home that way, especially with a kid.
“Where do you live, Mrs.â?”
“Devore,” she said. “I'm Mattie Devore.” She shifted the child and put out her hand. I shook it. The morning was warm, and it was going to be hot by mid-afternoonâbeach weather for sureâbut the fingers I touched were icy. “We live just there.”
She pointed to the intersection the Scout had shot out of, and I could seeâsurprise, surpriseâa doublewide trailer set off in a grove of pines about two hundred feet up the little feeder road. Wasp Hill Road, I recalled. It ran about half a mile from Route 68 to the waterâwhat was known as the Middle Bay. Ah yes, doc, it's all coming back to me now. I'm once more riding the Dark Score range. Saving little kids is my specialty.
Still, I was relieved to see that she lived close byâless
than a quarter of a mile from the place where our respective vehicles were parked with their tails almost touchingâand when I thought about it, it stood to reason. A child as young as the bathing beauty couldn't have walked far . . . although this one had already demonstrated a fair degree of determination. I thought Mother's haggard look was even more suggestive of the daughter's will. I was glad I was too old to be one of her future boyfriends; she would have them jumping through hoops all through high school and college. Hoops of fire, likely.
Well, the high-school part, anyway. Girls from the doublewide side of town did not, as a general rule, go to college unless there was a juco or a voketech handy. And she would only have them jumping until the right boy (or more likely the wrong one) came sweeping around the Great Curve of Life and ran her down in the highway, her all the while unaware that the white line and the crossmock were two different things. Then the whole cycle would repeat itself.
Christ almighty, Noonan, quit it,
I told myself.
She's three years old and you've already got her with three kids of her own, two with ringworm and one retarded.
“Thank you
so
much,” Mattie repeated.
“That's okay,” I said, and snubbed the little girl's nose. Although her cheeks were still wet with tears, she grinned at me sunnily enough in response. “This is a very verbal little girl.”
“Very verbal, and very willful.” Now Mattie did give her child a little shake, but the kid showed no fear, no sign that shaking or hitting was the order of most days. On the contrary, her smile widened. Her
mother smiled back. And yesâonce you got past the slopped-together look of her, she was most extraordinarily pretty. Put her in a tennis dress at the Castle Rock Country Club (where she'd likely never go in her life, except maybe as a maid or a waitress), and she would maybe be more than pretty. A young Grace Kelly, perhaps.
Then she looked back at me, her eyes very wide and grave.
“Mr. Noonan, I'm not a bad mother,” she said.
I felt a start at my name coming from her mouth, but it was only momentary. She was the right age, after all, and my books were probably better for her than spending her afternoons in front of
General Hospital
and
One Life to Live.
A little, anyway.
“We had an argument about when we were going to the beach. I wanted to hang out the clothes, have lunch, and go this afternoon. Kyra wantedâ” She broke off. “What? What did I say?”
“Her name is Kia? Didâ” Before I could say anything else, the most extraordinary thing happened: my mouth was full of water. So full I felt a moment's panic, like someone who is swimming in the ocean and swallows a wave-wash. Only this wasn't a salt taste; it was cold and fresh, with a faint metal tang like blood.
I turned my head aside and spat. I expected a gush of liquid to pour out of my mouthâthe sort of gush you sometimes get when commencing artificial respiration on a near-drowning victim. What came out instead was what usually comes out when you spit on a hot day: a little white pellet. And that sensation was gone even before the little white pellet struck the dirt
of the shoulder. In an instant, as if it had never been there.
“That man spitted,” the girl said matter-of-factly.
“Sorry,” I said. I was also bewildered. What in God's name had
that
been about? “I guess I had a little delayed reaction.”
Mattie looked concerned, as though I were eighty instead of forty. I thought that maybe to a girl her age, forty
is
eighty. “Do you want to come up to the house? I'll give you a glass of water.”
“No, I'm fine now.”
“All right. Mr. Noonan . . . all I mean is that nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I was hanging sheets . . . she was inside watching a
Mighty Mouse
cartoon on the VCR . . . then, when I went in to get more pins . . .” She looked at the girl, who was no longer smiling. It was starting to get through to her now. Her eyes were big, and ready to fill with tears. “She was gone. I thought for a minute I'd die of fear.”
Now the kid's mouth began to tremble, and her eyes filled up right on schedule. She began to weep. Mattie stroked her hair, soothing the small head until it lay against the Kmart smock top.
“That's all right, Ki,” she said. “It turned out okay this time, but you can't go out in the road. It's dangerous. Little things get run over in the road, and you're a little thing. The most precious little thing in the world.”
She cried harder. It was the exhausted sound of a child who needed a nap before any more adventures, to the beach or anywhere else.
“Kia bad, Kia bad,” she sobbed against her mother's neck.
“No, honey, only three,” Mattie said, and if I had harbored any further thoughts about her being a bad mother, they melted away then. Or perhaps they'd already goneâafter all, the kid was round, comely, well-kept, and unbruised.
On one level, those things registered. On another I was trying to cope with the strange thing that had just happened, and the equally strange thing I thought I was hearingâthat the little girl I had carried off the white line had the name we had planned to give our child, if our child turned out to be a girl.
“Kia,” I said. Marvelled, really. As if my touch might break her, I tentatively stroked the back of her head. Her hair was sun-warm and fine.
“No,” Mattie said. “That's the best she can say it now.
Kyra,
not Kia. It's from the Greek. It means ladylike.” She shifted, a little self-conscious. “I picked it out of a baby-name book. While I was pregnant, I kind of went Oprah. Better than going postal, I guess.”
“It's a lovely name,” I said. “And I don't think you're a bad mom.”
What went through my mind right then was a story Frank Arlen had told over a meal at Christmasâit had been about Petie, the youngest brother, and Frank had had the whole table in stitches. Even Petie, who claimed not to remember a bit of the incident, laughed until tears streamed down his cheeks.
One Easter, Frank said, when Petie was about five, their folks had gotten them up for an Easter-egg hunt. The two parents had hidden over a hundred colored hard-boiled eggs around the house the
evening before, after getting the kids over to their grandparents'. A high old Easter morning was had by all, at least until Johanna looked up from the patio, where she was counting her share of the spoils, and shrieked. There was Petie, crawling gaily around on the second-floor overhang at the back of the house, not six feet from the drop to the concrete patio.
Mr. Arlen had rescued Petie while the rest of the family stood below, holding hands, frozen with horror and fascination. Mrs. Arlen had repeated the Hail Mary over and over (“so fast she sounded like one of the Chipmunks on that old âWitch Doctor' record,” Frank had said, laughing harder than ever) until her husband had disappeared back into the open bedroom window with Petie in his arms. Then she had swooned to the pavement, breaking her nose. When asked for an explanation, Petie had told them he'd wanted to check the rain-gutter for eggs.
I suppose every family has at least one story like that; the survival of the world's Peties and Kyras is a convincing argumentâin the minds of parents, anywayâfor the existence of God.
“I was so scared,” Mattie said, now looking fourteen again. Fifteen at most.
“But it's over,” I said. “And Kyra's not going to go walking in the road anymore. Are you, Kyra?”
She shook her head against her mother's shoulder without raising it. I had an idea she'd probably be asleep before Mattie got her back to the good old doublewide.
“You don't know how bizarre this is for me,” Mattie said. “One of my favorite writers comes out of nowhere and saves my kid. I knew you had a place on
the TR, that big old log house everyone calls Sara Laughs, but folks say you don't come here anymore since your wife died.”