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BOY IN THE CABINET

By Jeremy C. Shipp

Live anywhere long enough, and eventually the space becomes a home.  And maybe if I keep thinking at you hard enough, someday you’ll become more than a Styrofoam cup.  Maybe you’ll sprout a brain, or at least a nerve cluster, and you’ll hear me.

And when that happens, you won’t confuse me or disagree with me all the time.  You’ll be an ideal companion, unlike a certain creature I know.

Speak of the feline devil.  The Death Cat won’t stop scratching the wood until I open the door, so I obey her command.  “What do you want?”

Holly hacks up a ball of carnage onto the table.  “Happy birthday, Boy.”

“It’s not my birthday.”

“Yes, it is.  I have a seventh sense for these things.”

So I study the notches on the cabinet wall.  Holly’s right.  Today’s the anniversary of my life.  Not to mention my mother’s death and my father’s transformation.

Trembling, I almost drop my mason jar filled with tears.  “I told you last year.  I don’t celebrate birthdays.”

“Well, I do.”  With her claws, the cat sifts through the wad of hair and clothes.  “Here we go.”

My eyes widen.

Holly licks the permanent marker clean, then sets the gift on my palms.

“You stole this from someone,” I say.  “Didn’t you?”

The Death Cat washes her face with a paw.  “It doesn’t count as stealing if you eat the person first.  Then the person’s part of you, and you can’t steal from yourself.”

“Killing humans is even worse than stealing from them.”

“I was hungry.”

“That’s not a good enough reason to murder somebody.”

“So with a good enough reason, I’d be able to justify to you the killing of one of your kind?”

“Of course not.  And maybe that proves what you’re doing is wrong.”

“Wrong for you, Boy.  Not for me.”

“How can you be so cruel?”

Holly sighs.  “How many times do I have to tell you?  I’m incapable of cruelty, because I don’t empathize with my prey when I’m hunting them.”

“You’re a monster.”

“Monsters don’t have hearts.  But me, I love my food.  Just not the way you want me to.”

“You shouldn’t hurt the ones you love.”

“Can’t we agree to disagree?”

“No.”  I grab the doorknob.  “Thanks for the present, cat.”

“Wait, you—”

I close the door.

And by the light of my tiny sun, I draw you a smiley face and a prominent pair of ears.

Finally, you’re real enough for a name.  And while I’ve never met a Salvador, you definitely look like one.

“Can you hear me, Sal?”

My muscles ache with hope and the power of my birthday wish.

But you only grin in silence, a best friend waiting to happen.

Maybe next year.

***

Holly never visits after my sun burns out, so the scraping must be caused by some horrible fiend come to rape and pillage.

I imagine my body ripped in two, and I know I should embrace my fear.

But this fiend could be my father.

So I open the door.

“Holly,” I say.  Disappointed.  Relieved.

“Hello, Boy.”  The Death Cat taps my chin with the top of her head.

“What are you doing here so late?”

Holly sits.  “It’s your birthday.”

“Didn’t we already have this conversation?”  I try to sound sarcastic, but in truth, I’m not sure of the answer.  My memories can be a little temperamental.

“Today’s supposed to be special for you,” the cat says.  “You deserve more than a permanent marker.”

“I’m sorry if I seemed ungrateful earlier.  I really do like the gift.”

“Whether you like the marker or not isn’t the point.  You deserve more.  You need more.  More than I could ever give you.”

“If you can’t help me, then what are you doing here?”

“I didn’t say I was useless.  I can still affect your choices.”

“But you always say you don’t like to involve yourself with the way other creatures live their lives.”

“That’s true.  But you’re not living.  Not really.”

I check my pulse, just to make sure.  “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“No, you don’t know what I’m talking about.  There’s a difference.”

“Then what are you talking about?”

“You need to get out of the cabinet.”

I laugh, for the first time in ages.  “But I’m the Boy in the Cabinet.  If I leave here, I’ll cease to exist.”

“Or you’ll change.”

“That’s even worse.”

“Transmogrification can be a good thing.”

“Tell that to my father.”

The Death Cat touches my leg with her paw.  “I understand your reservations, and I can’t promise you that you’ll live happily ever after in the world outside.  But I can assure you that there’s nothing worse than a wasted heart.”

“I’m not wasting anything.”  And I hold you in front of the cat’s face.

“That’s a Styrofoam cup.”

“For now.”

Holly sighs.  “You can’t create life on your own, Boy.”

“What do you know about life?  You’re just a stupid Death Cat.”

“Death isn’t separate from life.”

I almost laugh again, but the swell of sorrow in my throat prevents me.  “If that’s true, then where’s my mother?  Why isn’t she here?”

“No matter what I say, you’re not going to believe the truth about death until you die.  So we might as well drop the subject and move on.”

“Fine.  But you should know, you’re not going to talk me into leaving here.  Every word you say makes me want to throw up.”

“Then I’ve failed you.”

“Yes.  You have.”

I slam the door, and my jars clink together.  And I hold on to my fury for as long as possible, but the feeling soon dies away.  Because in spite of what happened to my mother, I don’t hate Holly.  I don’t know how.

So I create a crack in my door, and find the cat curled up and crying.

“What’s wrong?” I say.

“I want to help you,” she says.  “But I don’t think I can.  I’m sorry.”

“Sorry?  But I thought you can’t feel any empathy.”

“I never said that.”

And as the cat continues to weep for me, a haze of faith spreads through my mind and clouds my thoughts.

Maybe she really cares about me.

Maybe I need to escape this place.

“You’re trying to trick me,” I say.  “As soon as I leave the cabinet, you’ll eat me.”

Holly unfurls herself and looks at me with sparkling eyes.  “If I was meant to eat you, do you really believe the cabinet could protect you?”

“Yes.”

“Just because you feel safe somewhere doesn’t mean you are.”

I clutch you close to my chest.  “I don’t believe you.”

“I’m afraid your beliefs don’t have the power to shape this aspect of your reality.  Sooner or later, death will find you in the cabinet.”

“How?”

“I’m not destined to eat you, so I don’t know.  Maybe a monster or another Death Cat.  Of course, if you survive long enough, your food and water jars will eventually run out.”

I examine my supply with frantic eyes.  “But they’ve never run out before.”

“Be that as it may, only love can last forever.”

Once again, the stupid Death Cat’s ravaged my mind beyond recognition.  And I can’t seem to think the same thoughts anymore.

I don’t want to die.

But if that’s my only choice, I want to die with love in my heart.

And for the first time in my short life, the cabinet feels too small.

So I say, “How do I do it?  How do I leave the cabinet?”

“Well,” the cat says.  “You step out.”

The concept seems more than a little ridiculous, but I follow her direction anyway.

And in an instant, I find myself on the table.

And I collapse, shaking all over.

Holly curls up beside me.  “I know you feel especially vulnerable, but you’re in just as much danger as you always were.”

“That’s supposed to make me feel better?” I say.

“Hmm.  Good point.  Pet me, and I’ll give you some of my strength.”

I don’t hesitate.

And as she purrs, my body warms and tingles.

“That’s enough,” she says.

So I remove my hand.  “What do I do now?”

“Move on.”

I scan the hundreds of exits in the room.  “But which door is the right one?”