Avador Book 2, Night Shadows (20 page)

"Yes, and I also recall that Stilo Mongan cast a spell on you once and nearly succeeded a second time. I recognized your disorientation the last time you visited me here–"

"I wasn't disoriented!" Yet he spoke the truth, a truth she feared to accept. She had come so close to succumbing to Stilo's malignant magnetism a second time. Afraid their discussion would soon degenerate into an argument, she raised herself and leaned across his chest. "Please, dear, let us not disagree in the little time we have together. Let's make the most of these hours we have with each other." She lifted her head and kissed him on the lips, her breasts cushioned against his chest. Her kiss deepened, a heavy passion inside revealing how much she had yearned for him all these moonphases since first meeting him. She tangled her fingers in his long, curly hair, letting her hand linger on his neck.

"Ah, yes!" Moaning, he wrapped his arms across her back and eased her closer. Through his tunic, she felt the movement of his muscles, the pressure of his arms drawing her nearer. A deep hunger blazed inside her, a craving so long denied during their separation when she suspected him of evil.

Pressing ever closer, she feathered kisses on his chest and throat while he changed position, his fingers and hands caressing her breasts, moving downward to cup her buttocks, his breath coming in gasps. She wanted their lovemaking to go on and on, but they must stop. Besides, she told herself with righteous justification, he was sick. With a reluctance that bordered on despair, she withdrew from him and once more settled next to him. She was still on fire from wanting him, waiting for her passion to subside. She breathed deeply, a throbbing in her feminine core.

A short laugh rumbled in his throat. "See, I told you I would get better. All I needed was you. I still have a long way to go, mind you, and I don't yet have the strength to stand." He sighed. "If only I could go to Magh Eamhainn in your place. The thought of you putting your life in danger . . ."

She turned his way. "How can I be in danger? If I start out tomorrow night, it won't take me long to get to the well. I'll arrive there several days before the next moonphase." She leaned over to place a light kiss on his mouth. "Don't be concerned about me. Haven't I said, time and again, I can take care of myself. Yes, I know you saved me from Stilo's ensnarement, but since then I've learned to fight him, resist him. I'm safe from him now."

"What about the man who wants to marry you?"

"The man I don't want to marry.  So what if he comes after me? What's he going to do, drag me back to Ros Creda? I won't go," she said simply. "I'm my own person."

"We must discuss these things more," Gaderian said, his voice slurring. "But not now."

"One more quick question." She nodded toward the torchlight. "Does that light never go out?"

"Magic," he murmured. "Magic keeps it lit." He lay silent, his eyes closed, his body rigid. Fianna sensed it was daylight outside, his time for sleeping.

Hungry now, she sat up and unwrapped her linen cloth and bit into the honey cake, its rich texture thick with almonds. She ate every bit of it, thankful she had remembered to bring food. While its almondy taste lingered in her mouth, she brushed her hands off and bit into the apple, the sweet juices running down her chin. Dabbing the cloth across her mouth, she regretted not having more food with her. This small repast would have to last until tomorrow night, when Moreen returned. She wished she'd brought more food with her, but her anxiety to see Gaderian had blotted out every other consideration.

Drowsy from her aborted slumber of the previous night, she closed her eyes and fell asleep immediately. As her sleep deepened, she dreamed of a deserted well, where a horde of demons crawled out from its depths. The fiends chased after her, brandishing bottles and screaming, "Poison! Poison!" Frightened beyond thought, she ran from them, becoming tangled in weeds and thickets of earthberry bushes. Just when she thought she was safe, another demon menaced her. His long ears extended out from his head, his furry hands ending in talons. She looked up at his face and–Stilo!

Her heart pounding against her rib cage, she jerked awake and glanced frantically around.  Perspiration dampened her dress. At first, she didn't recognize where she was, and feared her dream had become reality. She breathed a long sigh of relief to see she still lay in the cave, Gaderian asleep beside her. Thoughts crammed her head, mostly of Gaderian's offer to have her come live with him. No obligations, he'd said, but she knew she couldn't resist him and wondered if he could resist her. Did he want her only for her body? No matter what, there could be no future for them, a fact painful to accept. She would grow old and gray while he stayed young and handsome. In time, he would want another woman, either vampire or mortal. A man as handsome as Gaderian could attract any woman he wanted. She clenched her hands, never wanting to accept that possibility, but she had no choice. And how could he stay in one place for any length of time? Others would wonder how he remained young while they grew old.

These problems segued to more immediate ones. What if Moreen failed to obtain the poisons at the apothecary? So many things might go wrong with their plan, rendering the whole scheme a disaster. She had spoken confidently to Gaderian and Moreen about trekking to Magh Eamhainn, but life didn't always go as planned, a hard lesson she'd learned long ago. What if her horse went lame? What if a robber overcame her, despite her denial of that possibility? What if? What if? She sat up straight, then levered herself to her feet, resolved not to think about her journey. In the semi-darkness, she braced herself along the limestone wall, feeling her way carefully to the spot where water dripped from overhead. Catching the water in her cupped hands again and again, she slaked her thirst.

Needing to exercise muscles sore from lying so long on the hard stone, she stepped within the space lit by the torch, then twisted from side to side. It would be hours before Gaderian awoke again and a long time before Moreen returned. In the meantime, she intended to catch up on her sleep.

* * *

Moreen came the following night while Fianna lay dozing. At least it must be night, Fianna surmised as she slowly came awake, but time meant nothing inside the cave, where perpetual darkness prevailed, relieved only by the flickering torch whose range stretched but a few yards. Yet she considered the time spent with Gaderian a blessing, their chance for learning more about each other, for strengthening the love between them. And what will become of our love? she agonized, while her mind struggled with conflicting emotions and desires. If she came to live with him–a possibility that beckoned like a siren song–she would become a woman without a purpose, a piece of driftwood floating on the river of regret. Perhaps the day would come when she welcomed his protection, but for now, she didn't foresee that occurrence

Gaderian's hand in hers, Fianna was lying next to him when Moreen approached in the cave's dim interior, her face and body a blur in the faint illumination.

They both looked up as the vampiress sank down next to them. Fianna slowly came awake, then sat up and shimmied into a comfortable position, eager to hear what Moreen had to say.

"First of all," the vampiress said without preamble, "I got the poisons, the right mixture as Gaderian suggested, combined in a flask. No easy job, that, searching for containers in a strange apothecary, mixing them with a funnel. It's a good thing I have such excellent night vision. So that's done," she said with a satisfied smile.

"Where is it?" Fianna looked around frantically, not seeing the flask or her satchel, or any evidence that Moreen had succeeded in her mission.

"Outside the cave." With a toss of her head, Moreen gestured in that direction. "It's a glass flask, of course, so I tucked it in your saddlebag. Which reminds me, it seemed a saddlebag would suit your purpose better than a satchel, easy to carry while riding, so I, uh, procured one for you. Also packed food and clothes for you, everything you'll need for your journey. Compared to that task, it was a simple matter for me to sneak into your room. As for the horse, don't worry," she said in response to Fianna's frown, "no one will steal the horse or your saddlebag. I placed a protective spell around both mares." She took a deep breath. "Now, another thing . . . do you go by the name of Angharad Cullain in the tavern?"

A spurt of alarm jolted Fianna. Fear tingled along her spine and down her legs. "Yes, but why–"

"A man has been asking for you, giving that name. Wouldn't give the tavern owner his own name, but I heard some of the tavern patrons talking about you. Everyone has been asking about you.  I fear it's only a matter of time before the tavern owner and everyone else discovers your real name. The tavern owner–Cedric?–told them you went to stay with a sick friend. The truth. Too bad I didn't get the name of the man who's been asking about you."

"Angus Kendall!" Fianna pressed her hand to her mouth. A myriad of troubles coiled inside her, painful and intense.

Gaderian squeezed her arm, a trace of urgency in his voice. "The man who wants to marry you?"

"The same. But I won't marry him." She tried not to think of this new development, a dilemma she'd tried to convince herself would never happen. Yet the very real possibility that Angus would come for her had always lurked in the back of her mind, like a nightmare waiting to burst free.

Moreen waved her hand. "We will have to let this problem of your would-be lover go for another time. As important as it is, we have more pressing things to undertake. Or rather, you do," she said with a smile.

"Yes," Fianna agreed, putting a brave face on her predicament, refusing to deal with it now. "Never mind Angus. I'd better be on my way." She leaned toward Gaderian while Moreen turned aside.

Fianna kissed him long and passionately, striving to hold back the tears, convincing herself he would be recovered by the time she returned. Despite her efforts, tears trickled down her cheeks and fell on his hand.

"Don't cry, sweetheart." He brushed her tears away with one finger. "I will be better when you return. This I promise you."

"Oh, yes!" She had to believe him.  

He clasped her hand one last time. "Take care of yourself. May the Goddess watch over you." He eased her closer. "I love you," he whispered.

She murmured in his ear. "And I love you." After one last embrace, she stood and took Moreen's hand, her linen cloth in her other hand. They left the cave together, Gaderian's whispered words echoing in her ear. I love you. Her eyes brimmed, and she fought to suppress her tears. Now was not the time to break down and cry.

As they emerged from the cave, Moreen gave her a frank look. "Gaderian will be recovered by the time you return. Recall when I said other forces were at work here?" At Fianna's nod, she continued. "Knowing that you care for him makes so much difference."

Suppressing her tears, Fianna merely nodded again. Overhead, a plethora of stars flickered in a cobalt sky, a full moon casting a glow on the ground. Slightly cooler weather had settled over the land, a strong wind rustling bushes and tree branches. Her hair blew across her face, and she tucked the locks behind her ears.

"Well," Moreen said briskly, "we'd better see you on your way." She patted the saddlebag. "Packed your things in this bag." She opened it and brought out the leather belt with the sheathed dagger. "Put this on now, and I have your vest that will conceal the dagger as long as you keep the vest closed. Clothes and food for you here, too." She held up a leather bag and shook it with a jingling sound. "Money, if you should need it for any reason. And the flask," she said, emphasizing the last word. "Guard it with your life."

"Believe me, I will." Fianna wrapped and secured the belt around her, then drew on the vest. She fastened the frogs on the vest, then slipped the cloak around her shoulders and fastened it with a silver brooch. She looked around, as if there was more she wanted to say.  "That's it, then. Best I leave now." While Moreen held the reins, Fianna hitched up her dress and placed her foot in the stirrup, then swung around to ride astride. It would be a lonely ride, for there were no inns along the way.

She bent low to clasp Moreen's hand. A tremendous swell of affection for the other woman rose inside her, this vampiress she had known for such a short time. "Moreen, I can't thank you enough for procuring all the necessities for me."

Moreen stared at her wide-eyed. "It is I who must thank you. Gaderian and I and all of the undead. You are doing us a great favor." She was silent for a moment, her forehead creased in thought. "If you return at night, meet me here. I'll be looking for you. If it's during the day when you come back, I'll meet you later at the tavern and bring you here. After it's dark," she said with a knowing smile.

Now that Fianna was mounted and ready to ride, doubts buffeted her. Could she really carry this off?  She assumed a stalwart face, never once wanting to reveal her misgivings. She bade Moreen goodbye, then trotted the horse down the rocky cliff. She followed a narrow path that bordered a stream, heading away from Moytura and south toward Magh Eamhainn. Mindful it would take her at least two days–probably more–to reach the deserted hamlet, she decided to keep at a steady pace, allowing enough time for her and the horse to rest. 

After a few twists and turns of the dirt path, she joined up with the
Royal South Road, a wider and more heavily-used throughway, but still a dirt road. The night remained quiet, the horse's hooves pounding on the ground the only sound as she gradually increased her speed to a gallop. Her cloak billowed behind her, and her hair streamed in the wind. The moon hung low in the west, a sign of the approaching dawn. The land became hillier the farther south she rode, elevations the horse took in its stride, slowing down to clamber up the rocky cliffs. Then onto level ground again, once more following the stream that meandered southward.  She passed isolated huts, and a few large farmhouses, grandiose even in the darkness, adding a note of charm to the countryside. She caught the aromas of wheat and ripened crops and reminded herself to stop at one of the farmhouses later to buy a few apples or carrots for the horse. Bouncing in her saddle, she tried to catch the horse's rhythm, for she had a great distance to cover.