Authors: Catherine Hapka
“Sure.” I felt a rush of warmth, immediately followed by an unpleasant lurch in the pit of my stomach. On the one hand, it was cool that he already counted me in as one of his friends. But it only reinforced the fact that he clearly
didn't
see me as anything more. Let alone as The One.
I forgot about that as he put his hand on my arm. It was like a bolt of electricity shot through me at his touch, and for a second I sort of forgot to breathe.
He was pointing to one of the tunes in the jukebox. “How about that one?” he said. “Seems like your kind of vibe. Am I right?”
I did my best to focus on the words on the little card. The song he'd indicated was one of my favorites.
“You're so right,” I told him, feeling a little breathless but doing my best to hide it. “You know me pretty well for someone who's only known me a week.”
I'd meant it as a joke, one of those cute throwaway lines that Britt always produced so effortlessly. But maybe I didn't pull it off. In any case, he didn't crack a smile as he glanced over at me.
“Yeah,” he said, his eyes thoughtful as they caught my own and held them. I stopped breathing again. “It's weird. I really do feel like the two of us are on the sameâ”
“Riley!” An impatient, giggling female voice interrupted, shattering the moment. “Hurry up and put on some music. You promised me a dance, remember?”
I fell back a few steps, feeling as if I might hyperventilate. That moment between Riley and me had been brief but intense. What had the questioning look in his eyes meant?
I felt hopeful for a second. But only a second.
“Here, let's play this one!” The girl who had interrupted us, a toothy brunette with an obviously fake tan, punched a button on the jukebox. The strains of a treacly Top 40 ballad poured out of the speakers.
“Ugh,” one of the girls on the couch said, looking up from her PlayStation controller. “Did you pick this piece of crap, Riley? Lame.”
Riley shot her a sheepish smile and shrug, but Tanny McTannerson ignored the
comment. “Come on,” she ordered, grabbing him by the arm. “Let's dance.”
Apparently, to her, “dance” was pretty much synonymous with “grind.” She pushed herself up against Riley until you couldn't have fit a sheet of tissue paper between them. He looked a little uncomfortable but made no move to push her away.
I didn't want to watch but was too horrified to turn away. It was like a train wreckâa terrible, bloody train wreck with lots of casualties. As I stood there frozen in place, another girl came over to stand beside me. This one was a cute redhead in a form-fitting halter dress.
“I can't believe how pushy she is,” the redhead commented, staring at Riley and the brunette.
“Yeah, me either,” I said numbly.
The other girl looked me over. “My name's Kelsey,” she said. “Who are you? One of Riley's friends from Grove?”
What was the point in lying? All of a sudden I was feeling pretty tired of pretending to be someone I wasn't. Or maybe that should be pretending
not
to be someone I
was
.
“No,” I told the other girl wryly. “I'm the girl from the planetarium.”
Kelsey rolled her eyes. “Aren't we all, sweetie.”
Another girl had just wandered close enough to overhear us. She let out a sniff, looking me up and down.
“
You're
trying to pass yourself off as Planetarium Girl?” she said. “Get real. If you're going to be serious about this, at least you could cut your hair or pull it back or something.”
“Good point,” Kelsey agreed with a nod. “Everyone knows that Planetarium Girl didn't have all that crazy long hair.”
“They do?” I said, perplexed.
The second girl stared at me as if she'd just realized she was talking to a complete moron. “Riley posted an update about that this morning. Didn't you see it? I guess he's trying to weed out the fakers⦠.” She paused to glare around at all the other girls in the room. “So he put down everything he remembered about her. Like how tall she wasâabout five foot six or so ⦔
Kelsey narrowed her eyes, looking the other girl up and down. “Yeah. Come to think of it, you look a little short to be Planetarium Girl yourself. Sure there's not something you want to confess?”
The other girl ignored her. “And that her hair seemed kind of short and sleek from what he could tell in the dark and all.” She patted her own dark brown pixie cut.
My hand wandered up to my own long, wavy locks. For one crazy, confused second I wondered if this was all a big misunderstandingâif Riley had met some other, short-haired Planetarium Girl that day at the museum⦠. It would certainly explain why he was so certain I wasn't her⦠.
Then I remembered. I'd had my hair pulled back into a bun because of that stupid cockpit experience. Duh. It hadn't seemed like a particularly important detail at the time. But now I wondered if my long, wavy hair was what was holding him back from seeing that I was the real Planetarium Girl.
I've got to go tell him!
I thought frantically, my gaze shooting back to Riley.
He was still dancing with Ms. Fake Tan. I couldn't see his face, only hers. Her eyes were closed, and her orange-tinted face wore a blissful expression. She still had her body pressed up against him and was now running the tips of her fingers up and down his spine in time to the slow beat of the song.
What was I doing? Suddenly I felt like the world's biggest loser. Here I was, all dressed up and looking my best, mooning over a guy who clearly didn't see me
that
way at all. Talk about pathetic⦠.
“Excuse me,” I said to the other two girls, who had just started arguing with each other about how tall they were. “I've got to go.”
I turned to make my way toward the stairs, wanting nothing more than to find Britt and escape before I turned into an entirely different person. A desperate, needy person who was throwing herself at a guy because of a few pings and a BFF with romantic delusions.
When I was halfway to the stairs, the song ended. Riley pulled away from Orange Glo Girl and looked around, spotting me right away.
“Yo, Lauren,” he called, hurrying over.
What could I do? I didn't want to be rude or anything. So I stopped, turning to face him with a forced smile.
“Hey,” he said, skidding to a stop in front of me. “Um, are you having fun?”
“This is quite a party,” I hedged.
He laughed. “Yeah. Mikey's parents go out of town a lot, and he never fails to
throw a kick-ass bash.” Running one hand through his dark hair, he glanced around the rec room, an uneasy expression wandering briefly across his face. “This one's maybe a little weirder than most, though.”
I wasn't sure what to say to that. For one crazy second I was tempted to channel Britt and just blurt out something blunt, maybe along the lines of
Hey, doofus, it would be a lot less weird if you'd get your head out of your butt long enough to see that I'm the girl you're looking for
⦠.
Before I could decide whether I had the guts to actually say something like that, I heard a chorus of giggles from over by the jukebox. A moment later another song started; it was another slow jam. At least this one didn't suck as hard as the previous song. In fact, I kind of liked it.
“My turn!” Kelsey sang out, hurrying over. Completely ignoring me, she started pawing at Riley. “Come on, sexy. Let's dance.”
Riley smiled, looking uncomfortable. “Uh ⦔ He shot a look at his two female friends, but they were bent over their controllers and completely caught up in their game.
“What are we waiting for?” Kelsey
stretched up, draping her arms over Riley's shoulders. “The song's half over!”
Riley did a quick little sidestep, neatly escaping from her embrace. “Maybe later, okay?” he told her with a winning smile. “Sorry. But I already promised Lauren she could have this dance.”
Kelsey looked just as surprised as I felt. Before I knew what was happening, Riley had taken me by the hand and pulled me gently after him to an open spot in front of the jukebox.
“Sorry about that,” he whispered as we started to dance. “I just couldn't deal with another one of them right now.”
“N-no problem,” I stammered, too busy focusing on the way his arms were wrapping around me to spit out anything more coherent than that. It was making me flash back to that moment in the planetarium when I'd crashed into him and felt those same arms hold me. Did he feel it too?
Apparently not. He was peeking over my shoulder at the other girls. I could only imagine the looks they were giving us, especially Kelsey⦠.
“Guess I owe you double for saving me,” he said quietly. “You're a sport, Lauren.”
That brought me down to earth with a thud. A sport. Yeah. Just what I wanted to hear from him.
“At least this time those girls picked a better song,” I commented, determined to hang onto my dignity if at all possible. And the best way to do that was to survive this dance and then leave before I had some kind of pathetic emotional meltdown in front of him.
He nodded. “I like this one too.” He started humming along with the music.
That distracted me from my angst. “Wow, you have a good voice,” I said.
“Thanks.” He smiled down at me, then switched from humming to actual singing, crooning the words into my ear. I felt a shiver start somewhere around my ear canal and travel through my entire body.
This time he seemed to feel something, too. Still singing softly, he tightened his hold around my waist, pulling me closer. Then he went back to humming again, swaying more and more slowly.
I could feel his heart beating against my body. His hands started moving, tentatively exploring my back. Was something happening here?
When I tilted my head back to look at him, I found him already staring down at me. Our eyes met, and once again I saw a question in his. I just held his gaze, not really caring much about the whole Planetarium Girl thing right then.
He wet his lips, and his eyes fell shut for a second. Then he opened them and started moving his face closer to mine. My lips parted of their own accord, already tingling in anticipation of the kiss⦠.
“Hey, everybody!” A sudden commotion over by the stairs drowned out the music.
Riley jumped back. He didn't quite let go of me, but the spell was definitely broken. I was left with dry lips, a pounding heart, and a racing mind. When I looked over at the stairs, I saw Marcus bounding toward us.
“Dude,” he exclaimed, pounding Riley on the back. “Is this a party, or what?”
Riley gulped, then barked out a quick laugh. “You run out of girls upstairs, or what?” he asked Marcus. “I don't want you to, like, go into withdrawal or anything. Why don't you cut in, bro? Lauren's a good dancer.”
He stepped back. Marcus moved forward
to take his place, holding out his hands to me with a smile. He said somethingâprobably something witty and charming. But I had no idea what it was.
That was because I was too busy watching as Kelsey swooped in and grabbed Riley. He turned away to dance with her, not quite meeting my eye.
It seemed that the Momentâif that was what that had beenâwas over.
The next few minutes passed in a haze. Before I knew it, I'd danced with Marcus for several songs. After the first one they were all fast songs. Riley had somehow extricated himself from Kelsey and was once again controlling the jukebox.
I kept sneaking looks at him over there, but he wasn't looking my way. In fact, he wasn't really looking at anyone. He was keeping his head down, poring over the jukebox's song list as if it held the meaning of life.
What was he thinking? Had he felt what I'd felt while we were dancing? I was pretty sure that he had. In fact, I was 99.9 percent confident that he'd been on
the verge of kissing me when Marcus had interrupted. So why was Riley acting like this now? Why had he made a break for it as soon as he got the chance?
At first such questions were wistful. But the more I turned them over in my head, the more annoyed I got. Riley wasn't stupid. So why couldn't he just get over himself and admit that I was the real Planetarium Girl? Surely he was smart enough to figure out the hair thing on his own⦠.
Luckily, Marcus didn't seem to notice how preoccupied I was, or at least if he did notice he didn't care. He was a good dancer and seemed to be enjoying himself. He grabbed my hand and spun me, then dropped me again and did a little spin of his own.
“Nice moves,” I said, finally focusing on him.
“Thanks. You're not so bad yourself.” He twirled me around one more time. “By the way,” he added in a too-casual voice, “I've been meaning to ask you. What's the deal with your cute friend?”
For a second I thought he was talking about Riley. I almost blurted out something stupid to that effect.
But I caught myself just in time. “Wait,” I said. “What cute friend? You mean Britt?”
He nodded. “The girl you came with. You pointed her out earlier, remember?”
Now that he mentioned it, I had. Britt's name had come up while I was talking to him and Rachel in the dining room.
“I know you said she came here to meet Tommo,” Marcus went on. “Do you know if she's, like, serious about him?”
I was surprised. Only not. Guys always went for Britt. Why should this one be any different?
“Um, no,” I told him. “She's definitely not that serious. They only met like a week ago.”
“Oh! Cool. So do you know what her type is?”
The song ended and I stepped back. “She doesn't exactly have a type,” I told him. “Go talk to her. I'm sure she'd love to meet you. You can tell her I sent you if you want.”
I couldn't help smiling as Marcus thanked me and took off. It figured. Hadn't I thought all along that he reminded me of Britt? I couldn't imagine what Britt was going to do with the male version of herself, but I was looking forward to hearing
all about it later. If only I had something equally fun and juicy to tell her about my own evening⦠.