Ann Brashares - The Last Summer (of You and Me)

(of You and Me)

Ann Brashares

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New York Praise for

The Last Summer (of You and Me)

A People magazine pick for a "Great Beach Read"

A Boston Herald pick for a "Hot Summer Read"

"[Those with] a hankering for a breezy summer read will easily relate to Brashares's restless threesome of lost souls." --People

"Ann Brashares's new book will delight all of her Traveling Pants fans--now grown-up and ready for this very adult novel of love, loss, and the beauty of intense family bonds." --Anita Shreve,

New York Times bestselling author

of The Pilot's Wife and A Wedding in December

"The author of The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants tries a heavier wardrobe. Two twentysomething sisters and Paul, their troubled, rich pal, grapple with serious issues: sex, career, and illness. . . . Brashares's writing is natural, insightful, and affecting."

--Entertainment Weekly (A-)

"She weaves a tale full of delicious plot twists and revelations that will surprise and enthrall you. Riley and Alice are sisters; their relationship is as potent and complex as the real thing. Funny, deep, and true, this one will keep you reading long after the sun has gone down." --Adriana Trigiani,

New York Times bestselling author

of Big Stone Gap and Lucia, Lucia

continued . . . "The page-turning pace of Ann Brashares's The Last Summer (of You and Me) makes it a perfect beach read." --Redbook

"This debut adult novel from Brashares . . . will please her innu merable fans [and] win over readers who enjoy a thoughtful coming-of-age story." --Library Journal

"In Ann Brashares's first novel for adults, she sticks to what she knows best, writing a coming-of-age story about everlasting friend ship. . . . Brashares is able to paint a beautiful picture of these troubled young people, who are at the beginning of their lives but are stuck at a crossroads, not knowing how to move on from their memories of Fire Island. . . . Readers will have trouble holding back a flurry of emotions. Because of that, this is a perfect summer novel. Take it to the beach with a box of tissues."

--The Vancouver Sun

"More thoughtful than Traveling Pants and most chick lit, The Last Summer is as much a treatise on loyalty and letting go of childish ways as it is on a summer of love." --USA Today

"Brashares, known and worshipped for her teen Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants series, casts her eye toward more grown-up dilem mas in her first novel for adults and comes up with the quintessen tial summer story involving a beach, an island, romance, loss, life, etc. . . . The Last Summer (of You and Me) is a weeper: If you don't grow misty there's something a bit shifty about the state of your heart." --The Miami Herald The Last Summer

(of You and Me)

Ann Brashares

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with love

u The Last Summer

(of You and Me) No one ever gets over the first unfairness; no one except Peter. He often met it, but he always forgot it. I suppose that was the real

difference between him and all the rest.

-- J. M . B A R R I E One

Waiting

A lice waited for Paul on the ferry dock. He'd left a crackly

message on the answering machine saying he'd be coming in on the afternoon boat. That was like him. He couldn't say the 1:20 or the 3:55. She'd spent too long staring at the ferry schedule, trying to divine his meaning.

With some amount of self-hatred, Alice had first walked out onto the dock for the 1:20, knowing he wouldn't be on it. She'd looked only vaguely at the faces as they emerged from the boat, assuring herself she wasn't expecting anything. She 'd sat with her bare feet on the bench at the periphery, her book resting on her knees so she wouldn't have to interact with anyone. I know you're not going to be on it, so don't think I think you are, she'd told the Paul who lived in her mind. Even there, under her presumed control, he was teasing and unpredictable.

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For the 3:55, she put Vaseline on her lips and brushed her hair. The boat after that wasn't until 6:10, and though Paul could miss the so-called afternoon ferry, he couldn't call 6:10 the afternoon.

How often she did attempt to process his thoughts in her mind. She took his opinions too seriously, remembered them long after she suspected he'd forgotten them.

It was one thing, trying to think his thoughts when he was close by, his words offering clues, corrections, and confirmations by the hour. But three years of silence made for complex interpolations. It made it harder, and in another way it made it easier. She was freer with his thoughts. She made them her own, thought them to her liking.

He had missed two summers. She couldn't imagine how he could do that. Without him, they had been shadow seasons. Feel ings were felt thinly, there and then gone. Memories were not made. There was nothing new in sitting on this dock, on this or that wooden bench, watching for his boat to come. In some ways, she was always waiting for him.

She couldn't picture his face when he was gone. Every summer he came back wearing his same face that she could not remember.

Absently, she saw the people on the dock who came, went, and waited. She waved to people she knew, mostly her parents' friends. She felt the wind blow the pounding sun off her shoulders. She slowly dug her thumbnail along a plank of the seat, provoking a splinter but caking up mold and disintegration instead.

When it came to waiting, Riley always had something else to do. Paul was Riley's best friend. Alice knew Riley missed him, too, but she said she didn't like waiting. Alice didn't like it. Nobody did.

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But Alice was a younger sister. She didn't have the idea of not doing things because you didn't like them.

She watched for the ferry, the way it started out as a little white triangle across the bay. When it wasn't there, she could hardly imagine it. It was never coming. And then it appeared. It took shape quickly. It was always coming.

She stood. She couldn't help it. She left her book on the bench with its paper cover fluttering open in the wind. Would this be him? Was he on there?

She let her hair out of its elastic. She stretched her tank top down over her hips. She wanted him to see all of her and also none of her. She wanted him to be dazzled by the bits and blinded to the whole. She wanted him to see her whole and not in pieces. She had hopes that were hard to satisfy.

Her legs bounced; her arms clutched her middle. She saw the approach of the middle-aged woman in a pink sarong who taught her mother's yoga class.

"Who are you waiting for, Alice?"

Exposed as she was, the friendly question struck Alice as a cruelty.

"No one," Alice lied awkwardly. The woman's tanned face was as familiar to Alice as the wicker sofa on the screened porch, but that did not mean that Alice knew her name. She knew the lady's poodle was named Albert and that her yoga class was heavy on the chant ing. In a place like this, as a child you weren't responsible for the names of grown-ups, though the grown-ups always knew yours. If you were a child, relationships here began asymmetrically, and there rarely came a specific opportunity for reevaluation. You bore the same age relationship to people here no matter how old you got.

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The woman looked at Alice 's feet, which told the truth. If you were getting on the 3:55, you wore shoes.

Alice self-consciously straggled over to the freight area as though she had some purpose there. She didn't lie easily, and doing it now conferred an unwanted intimacy. She preferred to save her lies for the people whose names she knew.

She couldn't look at the boat. She sat back down on the bench, crossing her arms and her legs and bowing her head.

It was a small village on a small island with customs and rules all its own. "No keys, no wallet, no shoes" was the saying that expressed their summer way of life. There were no cars and--in the old days, at least--nobody locked their house. The single place of commerce was the Waterby market, mostly trading in candy and ice cream cones, where your name was your credit and they didn't accept cash. Shoes meant you were coming, going, or play ing tennis. Even at the yacht club. Even at parties. There was a community pride in having feet tough enough to withstand the splintering boardwalks. It's not that you didn't get splinters--you always did. You just shut up about it. Every kid knew that. At the end of each summer, the bottoms and sides of Alice's feet were speckled black with old splinters. Eventually they disappeared; she was never quite sure where they went. "They are reabsorbed," a knowledgeable seven-year-old named Sawyer Boyd told her once.

Everyone 's business came through this ferry dock, with rhythms and hierarchies unlike other places. You saw the people as they came and went and waited. You also saw their stuff piled on the dock until they loaded it onto their wagon and rolled it home. You knew what kind of toilet paper they bought. Alice still rated two

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ply a luxury more subtle and telling than a person's bag or shoes. You knew that the people with the Fairway bags and the paper products were getting off here in Waterby or in Saltaire. The people getting off in the town of Kismet always had beer.

Cars were conveyors of privacy. Without them, you lived a lot more of your life out in the open. Where you went, who you went with. Who you waited for at the ferry dock. Who you brushed your hair for. You were exposed here, but you were also safe.

The carlessness of the place had always appealed to certain utopian types, even shallow ones. "Get rid of cars and you get rid of global warming, oil wars in the Middle East, obesity, and most crime, too," her father liked to say.

The ferry put an extra emphasis on coming and going. Adults went back and forth all the time, but there had been many summers when Alice and Riley had come and gone only once. They came with their pale skin, haircuts meant to last the summer, their tender feet, and their shyness. They left with brown, freckled, bitten skin; tangly hair; foot bottoms thick like tires; and familiarity verging on rudeness.

She remembered the hellos, and she remembered the good-byes even more. End-of-summer tradition dictated that whoever was last to leave the island saluted departing friends by jumping into the water as the good-bye ferry pulled away.

Now she heard the boat grinding up behind her. She loosened her arms and pressed her hands against the wood. She heard the slapping of the wake against the pilings as the boat came around. She untucked one leg and bounced her free heel on the plank in front of her.

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Alice would have liked to do the arriving instead of the waiting. She would have rather done the leaving than the getting left, but that was never the way it happened. For some reason it was always Alice who waited and Alice who dove in.

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The ferry was like a time capsule, in a way. A space capsule. It sent you and your fellow canvas-bag travelers through a wormhole, the same one every time.

Paul stood on the top deck in the wet wind as the monstrous coastal houses of Long Island's south shore gave way to dark, briny water.

The thick feeling of the air began when you stepped onto the ferry. The stickiness over every surface. His hair blew around and he thought of Alice, fishing in her backpack for an elastic. He could picture her anchoring various things in her mouth as she braided her hair. He'd had short hair then, and though he admired her skill at braiding in wind--what boy wasn't mystified by a braid?--he'd thought it was needless. Now his hair was long.

The first sighting was the Robert Moses obelisk, and second was the gangly lighthouse. Well, it wasn't gangly really. In truth, this lighthouse set his standard for all others, and the others looked stout and dumpy by comparison. You loved what you knew. You couldn't help it. He couldn't, though he did try.