And Eternity (35 page)

Kane had learned early and painfully: all adults were brutal, all children were taunting, and all girls were garbage.

Except Laurel. She alone was pure. Without her, his life would not have been worth living.

When he was ten, and she fifteen, she had run away from home. The father had beaten him, sure that he knew where she had gone, but Kane had not spoken. Indeed, he had known her plan, for she had wanted to take him with her, but had realized that it would be impossible to manage. So she had decided to go alone and to return for him when she could, so that they could both be happy. She had to get established, she explained; she had to get some money, and a house, because the street was no place to live. It would take time, but she would do it.

So Kane had endured, sustained by his faith in her. Laurel would come for him! That alone gave him strength. His life was nothing, but then it would be everything.

She had never returned. Thirty years had passed, and he had escaped by joining the military, and later by deserting that, and running drugs and anything else that offered; there was always work for the unscrupulous. He could never bring himself to condemn Laurel, for she was the one perfect woman, but his disappointment remained as a leaden weight upon his soul. When he could, he caught and punished bad women, hiding their bodies and moving on so that he was never caught. The police, he had long since learned, didn’t understand about the need to punish bad women.

Time had passed during Jolie’s investigation. Now Ilka’s shoes and dress were off, and she was about to roll down her panty hose. Jolie now knew that this must not happen; the visible nipples were bad enough, but the rest would be disaster. She wrenched herself from the man and sailed across to the girl.

Leave the hose!
she thought as she entered.
He must not see your flesh there
! For she now had a notion how to balk the killer. It would take some doing, but it was possible. He sees the madonna as beautiful but sexless, no genitals. The whores have genitals. He won’t kill you until he has sex with you, proving you are bad.

But he’ll kill if we stop undressing!
Vita responded.
These freaks are touchy! Do one thing to balk them, and they explode. We won’t balk him, we’ll talk to him.

What about? Orlene asked nervously.
I think all he has on his mind is sex and murder, in that order.

We’ll tell him a story. I’ll start it off.

“Get it off, bitch!” Kane snapped. He knew what panty hose was, of course; he had already forgotten, by involuntary suppression, the image of the madonna’s clean juncture. It had been fleeting in any event; Jolie had been lucky to catch the thought. He knew this was a dirty woman, because they all were.

Give me the mouth!
Jolie pleaded.
I know what to say!

Ilka, still thoroughly frightened, retreated, letting Jolie assume control. She was very much afraid she was going to die; any promise of rescue, however farfetched, was welcome.

“You must let me say something,” Jolie said.

Kane was startled, because this was the first time she had spoken to him. “That’s right, bitch!” he agreed. “Talk dirty! Say the words! Prove what you are!” That was part of it, of course; the girl had to demonstrate her corruption, so that he felt truly justified in destroying her. She had to beg for sex in gutter language. It hardly mattered whether she cursed him or welcomed him, so long as she showed her nature clearly.

“In a moment,” Jolie said. “I have to work up to it, you know.” He hadn’t known any such thing, of course, but since she was going along with his demand, only qualifying it slightly, and in the process extending the experience, he was able to accept it.

“Yes, work up to it!” he agreed. His right hand held the knife; his left hand went to his fly, opening it. He would not undress any more than he had to, so as not to be contaminated, but this much was necessary.

“There was once a girl,” Jolie said. “She was different from all other girls, because she was nice. She was the only nice girl in all the world. Her name was-” She hesitated momentarily. Would it be too obvious to name his lost sister? Perhaps a close compromise. She had to hold his attention without invoking his critical faculty. “Her name was Lorelie. She lived in a bad family, with a cruel father and a mean mother. The only good thing about it was her little brother, who was the only person in the world who recognized her perfect nature. He worshipped her and did everything he could to help her, though their father beat him for it. She would have done anything for him, but they were both captive in the bad family, and it wasn’t fun for either.’’

She looked at Kane. Was he buying this? It was pretty obvious, but his twisted emotion ran deep. He had built a philosophy on illusion, and she was tuning in on that illusion.

He was listening, his hands still. She had succeeded in getting his attention. He could identify with what she was saying.

“Sometimes the bad girls in the schoolyard teased her little brother,” Jolie continued, elaborating now that her ploy seemed to be working. “Lorelie couldn’t stop that, because she was in a different school. The bad girls made him show his thing, and then laughed at him. They didn’t show theirs, but he knew theirs was bad, because they were bad girls.” As she spoke, Jolie remembered her own childhood, in medieval France, when something similar had happened. The villain girls had at times been cruel in their games, in retaliation for the cruelty of the boys’ games. Sex had been known, even in childhood; few made it virginally to maturity. Jolie had been one of the few, as much by chance as by design. She had been smarter than average, and so had had the wit to mask her dawning prettiness, and to stay clear of celebrations unless close to her mother. One of her friends had not been careful enough, and four boys had grabbed her and done it; she had pretended to like it, rather than get beaten, and then had kept her mouth shut, but the word had circulated anyway, and she had been blamed, not the boys. Jolie had escaped, but she well understood who was to blame for such things: the boys. It galled her to reverse the issue in this story, but it had to be done-and certainly some men were decent, and some girls were not. There had been Parry . . .

“So she brought him food, and comforted him, and tried to ease his welts,” she continued. “There was little she could do, but she tried her best. She knew then that they could not stay in that family; they had to get away, to find someplace where there were no bad people. So she started making plans for them both to run away.”

Kane was paying close attention, frozen where he stood. She was retelling his childhood, from the view of the madonna figure, offering a rationale that he had to accept. But would her story make him forget entirely what he had been about to do? The longer she stalled him, the more likely it was that someone else would come, but she had little confidence in rescue. She had to talk him out of it, and for that she needed a truly persuasive conclusion-and she didn’t have one. She just had to keep talking, and hope that one of the four of them could come up with what was needed. A life was at stake!

“But there were so many things they needed. Money, to buy tickets on a rocket or saucer. Identification, so that the cruel father could not track them down. A place to stay. Food. Clothing. The list was endless. She wouldn’t steal money, because she was pure and good, and without money she couldn’t arrange the rest of it. Finally she realized that it could not be done; there was no way for the two of them to escape together. If they tried it, the police would catch them in no time and bring them back, and things would be worse than before. She realized that she would have to go alone, and somehow get some money and all the things they needed. Only then could she rescue her brother.”

Kane’s jaw was slack; he was mesmerized by the story, so true to his memory. But how was she to conclude it? The consort Scheherazade of Arabian Nights fame had told stories for a thousand nights, extending her life, but Jolie had no confidence that this would work here, even if her voice and imagination held out.
Think of a conclusion!
she thought to the others.
Something that will make him let us go!

Meanwhile, she continued the story. “So she explained this to her brother, who was very understanding. ‘I will wait for your return,’ he said bravely. ‘Don’t tell them what I am doing,’ she cautioned him, and he promised not to. Then she kissed the dear boy on the forehead and slipped out the window. She had only the clothes she wore, and a few dollars she had managed to save from baby-sitting, and a few scraps of food her brother had given her. She did not know how she would get them a good situation, she only knew that somehow she would do it.”

She has no chance!
Vita thought.
She’ll have to whore, just to survive, and then what will her brother think of her? And this garbage about him being a ‘dear boy’, obviously he had the hots for her even at that age, but didn’t know it.

You are not being very positive, Orlene reminded her.
She has to succeed! Don’t you see, this is this man’s madonna!

Who never returned, Jolie thought.
He was terribly disappointed, but he can’t quite give up hope, even thirty years later. It’s the one decent aspect of his sordid personality.
Then she had to resume speaking aloud.

“So she went quietly from that awful house, her eyes wet with tears for her brother, whom she knew would be treated even worse because of her absence, but she had faith he would endure, and give her a chance to elude the police search.”

I’m going to throw up!
Vita thought.
Her brother grew up to be a rapist and murderer!

Try to help Jolie! Orlene thought.
Or this host is done for!

And I’m the host! Ilka thought.
Will you tell me who you are, now?

I’m Vita, a girl like you. The others are ghosts, helping me stay out of trouble. Now they’re helping you.

“She walked a long way,” Jolie continued, trying not to be distracted by the introductions going on in the background. She knew Vita was probably right about the fate of the girl, but she couldn’t put that in the story! She had to show that Lorelie was still alive, still planning on returning. However ludicrous that might seem at this late date, it was necessary to the man’s secret philosophy. “Her feet got tired, but she could not stop, because if she failed, it would be the end not only of her dream, but of her brother’s. She could have endured her own humiliation, but the thought of doing that to her wonderful brother brought renewed tears to her eyes.”

You know, I can see it
. Ilka thought. My pa’s long gone,my mother’s pretty mean. If she’d just let me go to a dance, even! The way I sneaked out tonight, it’s like Lorelie.

That gave Jolie a notion. “Then a car stopped beside her. ‘Can I pick you up?’ the driver asked. She looked at him, and she wasn’t sure, but she was very tired now and she still wasn’t far enough away from the house, so she got in. The driver’s name was Frank, and he was a handsome man. She didn’t dare tell him that she was running away from home, so she said she was going to visit friends in the next state, but her carpet had gotten a glitch in its spell. Frank said he was going that way, so he zoomed along. But then he turned onto a desolate country road and drew to a stop in the forest.”

“No!” Kane said, well knowing the sort of thing that was in store for her.

“But although Lorelie was a good girl, she wasn’t foolish,” Jolie continued quickly. “She opened her door and jumped out of the car and ran into the forest. Frank chased her, but couldn’t see her in the darkness. Finally, disgruntled, he returned to his car and drove away.”

Kane relaxed. He was really into the story. But where could it lead now? Jolie was running out of inspiration.

Snow White!
Vita thought.
She finds the seven dwarfs in the forest!

But less obvious. Orlene thought.
Make it one old man, no, better an old woman, no lechery there, who takes her in.

But she is sick. Ilka added, getting into it herself.
Maybe so sick she loses her memory!

That’s it! Vita agreed.
That’s why she doesn’t return!

What a relief! They had come up with a viable continuation. “Lorelie stumbled on through the dark forest, her tender flesh raked by the brambles. She had gotten some rest in the car, but not enough. She lost her slippers in the muck, and her pretty dress was torn, but she kept on, afraid that Frank would return with cruel friends and search for her. At one point she splashed through a stream. She didn’t know it was polluted, and the pollution infected the scratches on her feet, starting a sickness in her. Finally she could go no more; she fell headlong, and hit her head on a rock on the ground, and was unconscious.”

Kane remained frozen, avidly listening. He seemed to have forgotten the circumstances, or the supposed nature of the teller of this tale. He was lost in the vision of the perils of Lorelie.

“In the morning a kind old woman found her. The woman had been a sorceress of little note, and was now retired on a meager stipend. She knew immediately that this poor girl had been poisoned by the bad stream, and furthermore had hit her head when she fell. Fortunately the woman retained some ability with healing herbs and spells. She dragged the girl into her hut and ministered to her. ‘She is like the granddaughter I never had and always wanted,’ she said to herself as she undressed the girl and washed her clean. ‘So lovely, so pure. Probably one of those mean young men was after her, and she got lost when she fled him.’ She put herbs on the girl’s bad scratches, and treated her as well as she could for the stream pollution. It was going to be a close thing, she knew, for the girl was very sick.”

So sick she can’t remember
. Vita reminded her
. But how’s that going to get us out of this scrape? I mean, when the story ends.. We have to work on that
, Orlene said.
Before Jolie gets much further, we’ll have to come up with an idea for the ending. Now let’s get to work!