An Inner Fire (11 page)

“I guess…well…you know I’ve been on a few dates that might qualify.”

“When you get back from LA, I can make it happen. It is pretty amazing to watch Henny work.”

“I love watching the trusting relationship between handlers and dogs. Oops, here’s Hollie. My client must be here.”

“Have a great time in Hollywood meeting movie stars. I’m so impressed.”

“Don’t be, or you’ll start to sound like James.”

They both laughed.

“Really need to go. Thanks for calling.”

“See you Thursday, Dr. Walters.”

He hung up. He liked the way he had ended the conversation. Impersonal. Who was he kidding? His palms were sweating from holding the phone. He didn’t feel anything impersonal about Grayce Walters. He was intensely drawn to her. A glimpse of a chaotic household, filled with children and stray animals flashed through his mind. He took a deep breath and blew it out in one burst. He had never in his life connected a woman with the idea of children. Definitely off his game. Children were an abstract idea, a someday, just like marriage.

Davis refocused on his computer. He checked whether the fire scene pictures had finished downloading. Download icon still showed 47 percent. He clicked the
cancel
button with his mouse and nothing happened. Damn, the computer had crashed. Nothing was flowing in this investigation.

His only suspect was nowhere to be found. Benson’s cell was disconnected. The last address he had given the personnel department was a motel on Aurora Avenue. Davis had checked with the motel. Benson hadn’t stayed there in months, not since he had been fired from the department. He was married or had been married, but Davis had had no luck locating his wife.

And he still hadn’t been able to have an off-the-record chat with his friend, Zac, from the FBI. He hoped his friend would have time for coffee since Grayce didn’t. The Federal Bureau of Indolence—FBI agents were never busy.

Chapter Nineteen

The first thing Grayce noticed when she entered Elizabeth Marley’s Malibu Beach house was how cold it was. Like a mausoleum. Icy pinpricks beat a fast tempo up and down her body. Neither the bright sunlight nor the sound of the crashing waves coming through the open French doors could mask the deep gloom.

With her signature blonde hair flowing, the movie star looked exactly like she did on TV. In cutoffs, a white T-shirt and flip flops, she was the epitome of a California girl, not a Hollywood star. Elizabeth’s weariness, etched in the lines of her wan face, showed through her weak smile. A rotund grey schnauzer barked incessantly at her feet.

“Welcome to California. I hope your flight wasn’t too difficult.”

“Thank you. The flight was easy.”

Grayce bent to acknowledge Frank who kept barking and circling Elizabeth. “And you must be Frank.” The dog didn’t approach her, but he had stopped barking. Grayce didn’t try to touch Frank whose pointed dark ears and stubby tail signaled he was on alert.

“I knew he would act all energetic once you got here.” Elizabeth Marley attempted another smile, but failed. The woman was in pain. It was raw and close to the surface and penetrated right into Grayce’s being.

“Frank is trying to protect you.”

“Where do you want to treat him? Do you need a table?”

“Wherever you and Frank are most comfortable. I don’t need a table.”

“I guess that would be the couch. We spend a great deal of time there. Come this way.”

Grayce followed Elizabeth and the dog into a living room lined with expansive windows. The room was designed for the viewer to experience the grandeur of the ocean, but Grayce couldn’t enjoy the beauty. She couldn’t shake the pall that hung in the air. Stark loneliness pervaded the space. “Why don’t we sit on the couch and you can hold Frank on your lap.”

“Can you treat me too?” Elizabeth asked in a joking manner, but there was a hungry edge to the question.

“I’m not good at treating anyone without a tail.”

Elizabeth sat on the pale yellow overstuffed couch. Everything in the space spoke of a calculated style of relaxation and warmth, much like the movie star’s finely honed image as comfortable and unassuming.

“Come Frank.” The small dog jumped into the arms of his owner.

“Tell me more about Frank. How long have you had him?”

Another pained swallow. “Four years.” Elizabeth hung on the four years, the length of her marriage.

“Any health problems?”

“No, he’s never been ill.”

Grayce moved to the couch and sat within easy reach of Frank. The dog watched her take the needles from her pocket, his nose twitching in the air. She presented the needles, still wrapped in their paper package, in front of his moving nose.

“What do you think, Frank?” She used her most soothing voice, a tone that engendered trust. She waited for Frank to become curious. The schnauzer left Elizabeth’s lap and moved closer to the hand with the needles.

“He has a great nose,” Elizabeth said.

Grayce patted the dog’s head. “You are a wonderful dog. What an incredible companion.”

Grayce moved her hand along Frank’s body, allowing him to adjust to her touch. He had tucked himself between his owner and Grayce, still protecting, doing his job. Canine devotion always made her heart lighter. If only Elizabeth Marley’s husband had possessed one ounce of Franks’ loyalty.

“What a faithful critter you are,” Grayce whispered to Frank.

“He hasn’t left my side,” Elizabeth said.

Grayce slowed her breathing, making it synchronous with the sound of the breaking waves. She ran her hand an inch above the dog’s back, concentrating on the depleted energy, assessing the acupuncture points along the dog’s spine—definitely deficient lung points, the organs associated with grief. She continued to touch, connecting from her quiet spot to Frank’s sadness. He was siphoning his owner’s grief, absorbing it into his body. He offered his soul to Elizabeth, healing through his constant devotion.

Grayce visualized harnessing the ocean’s power to fill Frank and renew his lung points. She placed the first needle into the crown of his head. As she expected, he showed no reaction. She then placed a needle at Bai Hui point, the bottom of the spine. She needed to balance Frank’s top-to-bottom energy, the yin-yang, encouraging his stagnant Chi to flow, like the high tide crashing outside his front door.

Grayce heightened her vibrations for Frank’s deficient Lung Chi. She rotated the needles while Frank slept. His black lips curved upward as if smiling. He usually was a happy dog. She had seen this condition many times as devoted pets depleted their chi trying to comfort their owners. Grayce looked up and saw tears in Elizabeth’s eyes.

“I’m amazed you could do this. I’ve had acupuncture. Honestly, I didn’t think Frank would let you. I didn’t know what to do for him.” A sob punctuated her recitation.

More than a husband’s abandonment, a deeper desolation plagued this woman. Her primitive anguish seeped through Grayce’s defenses, stirring up an unexpected wave of grief.

Sorrow pressed on Grayce making it hard to draw air, the same heavy feeling of dread after Cassie’s death; like a boulder that would never budge, a despair that would never end. Why this woman, why her pain?

Grayce repressed the churning emotions and returned to the treatment. Frank needed the lung points to stay longer. She rotated the needles allowing the heat to dissipate. The schnauzer continued to rest between the two women.

“How long will Frank stay relaxed?”

“Once I take out the needles, he’ll wake up. He won’t want to miss any of the action.”

Elizabeth gave a genuine radiant smile, the one that made her one of Hollywood’s most admired actresses. When Grayce had contemplated the trip, she expected this woman to be a narcissistic Hollywood cliché. She couldn’t have been more wrong.

Grayce removed the needles. Frank remained asleep, a whisper of a snore vibrating through his soft, relaxed body.

“I’ll plan to come down next week to treat him again.”

“What’s wrong with him?”

“Frank’s an empath. He’s responding to your stress.”

“You have an amazing gift,” Elizabeth spoke in a low, gravelly voice.

Their eyes met—such a strange bond. She was revisiting the loss of her sister through a famous movie star’s loss. It didn’t make the pain any less or any better.

She removed the last needle. “The acupuncture will lighten the tension and give him back his spunk.”

The schnauzer awoke slowly, looking toward his owner. He licked her hand. Elizabeth Marley rubbed his head. “I love you, boy.”

Frank slowly thumped his tail, making both women smile.

Grayce brushed her hand along the dog’s head. “Frank is going to be fine. His big heart can carry the load.”

The dog stood and stretched.

As was her practice, she acknowledged the hard work Frank was performing. “You’re a loyal companion.”

When they stood, Grayce realized she was taller than the star—an unusual experience since she was usually the shortest person in the room.

The slight woman looked up into Grayce’s eyes. “Your light is strong. Don’t be afraid to use it.”

Hearing the words, the words that Cassie used, was like a kick to her solar plexus. No air moved in or out of her body. She waited for her lungs to start working, her heart to return to beating.

“Thank you for coming to treat Frank.” The actress reached for Grayce’s hands and squeezed them tight. Elizabeth’s soft hands worked like a balm, spreading warmth, soothing Grayce, as if Cassie was there holding her hand.

Leaving the beach house, Grayce gulped the moist air, taking her first deep breath since Elizabeth had spoken Cassie’s message.

She squinted in the bright light and pondered the unplanned instant, the serendipitous moment which can alter one’s life. This California trip to treat a dog was an illusion. Cassie was here, forcing Grayce to peel away another layer of the profound loss she allowed no one to glimpse.

Grayce inhaled, tasting the hint of salt in the air. Elizabeth Marley had recognized Grayce’s hidden pain because of her own acute state, as if fellow grievers shared a secret handshake.

When she had entered Elizabeth’s house, Grace felt the same hopelessness, the same dark void that she had felt after Cassie’s funeral. Her sister was killed at the age of seventeen in a car accident. Less than two years apart, she and Cassie shared every confidence. Cassie was the only person who had understood Grayce’s sensitivity to people and animals. Grayce never had to explain how she was different. Cassie understood and accepted. Grayce struggled to forgive herself, for despite her intuitive gifts, she had been unable to prevent her sister’s death. She had worked hard to develop her skills to save animals in part because of guilt.

She stepped into the chauffeured car and tried to remember the happy moments. She thought of Cassie’s quip that Grayce’s light was so bright that she glowed in the dark.

Grayce understood that if Cassie had lived, she would’ve wanted to shelter Grayce from a world that wouldn’t understand or accept Grayce’s uniqueness. Cassie was still trying to protect her baby sister with premonitions and dreams.

She gazed out the window at the endless ocean. Today was a giant nudge from her sister to move on and forgive herself.

“Back to Shutters, ma’am? Excuse me, ma’am.” The driver broke her reverie.

“Oh, sorry.”

“Back to Shutters?”

“Yes, thank you.”

Grayce thought about another person who had learned to keep his emotions hidden. She wondered how Davis would react if she divulged her worries about his safety and how she came to her concerns. His warrior response to the assault was proof of his unwillingness to admit to something as fragile as feelings.

Chapter Twenty

“Dr. Walters, Mitzi and Mr. Davis are here.” Hollie entered Grayce’s office ahead of Davis and Mitzi.

What was with the
Dr. Walters
? Hollie was definitely in her watch dog mode when Davis was in the office.

Grayce stood up from her desk. She tried to ignore the familiar surge of vital, male energy that accompanied Davis when he entered the room. Davis’ second chakra, the life force center, was strong and potent.

Mitzi made a dash toward Grayce. Leaping forward, the poodle placed her paws on Grayce’s shoulders and licked her face. Up on her hind legs, Mitzi was almost as tall as Grayce. Surprised by the poodle’s enthusiasm, all she could do was laugh at the greeting.

“Mitzi, get down.” Davis’ deep baritone resonated in the spacious room. He moved forward trying to grab Mitzi by her lead.

Grayce couldn’t stop laughing. Her eyes met Davis’. Their connection hit her with a turbulent force, like getting smacked by a tidal wave. Her heart started the same gallop, the same palpitations, the same thumping against her chest. She had never responded to anyone like she did to Davis. His second chakra disrupted her balanced chakras, throwing them into chaos.

He shook his head. “I’m sorry. She is obviously glad to see you.”

“I’m glad to see her, too.”

All three of them stood in the middle of the room. She was aware of Davis’ accelerated breathing, a perfect match to her short, staccato breaths. He smelled fresh, clean, of the outdoors. His large, rough hand was curled around Mitzi’s leash.