All Hope Lost
Authors: Samantha Dorrell
All Hope Lost
By Samantha Dorrell
Published by
Samantha Dorrell
Copyright © 2012
by Samantha Dorrell
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Reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or
by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or by
any information storage and retrieval system, without written permission from
the author, except for the inclusion of brief quotations in a review.
This book is a
work of fiction; however some characters are based upon real people and their
real experiences from the Noisy Neighbour website. All other characters and
events are fictitious and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead is
purely coincidental.
I would firstly like to thank
those incredible people from the noisyneighbours.net forums for allowing me to
use their personal experiences in this story. Although this book is fiction,
the references to the neighbours from hell, is based upon real experiences and
fact. This book may shock many as to what thousands of us endure every day,
every night. The relentless torture is something many will not have ever had to
be personally subjected to. I hope this story opens eyes and minds to what our
governments and authorities of countries around the world is allowing, and to
ultimately bring to light this injustice; to change the laws and help the
victims for the better.
Know that there
is always hope,
Even if it is
only a tiny spark,
Keep hold of
it, for once that spark has gone,
Then and only
then, is all hope lost.
Samantha Dorrell
Darkness squeezes in from all sides, threatening to consume me in my own fear.
I check the closest lamppost, and spy the shattered glass around its base. The
bulb had been smashed, probably shot out again. I sigh and shake my head, my
long blonde hair falling in waves around my shoulders. The alley before me is
usually my shortcut home on a normal day after work. Today, however, I was made
redundant. It was my final day at work, and my colleagues had decided to throw
me and a few others a leaving party, which was nice, if not a little “in your
face, loser” type of moment. I had made the most of it though, and drank as
much alcohol as I could muster without falling over. They wanted rid of me,
they can pay for the drinks, the food and clearing up the mess in the morning,
I decided. The problem I had now, was that it was mid-November, after 8pm. It
was dark. The lack of lighting on the estate where I lived certainly wasn’t
helping. However the alcohol took over, and ignoring my common sense to walk
the most lighted route, I forged ahead into the darkness. I just wanted to get
home as quickly as possible and cry into a bottle of beer.
The alley itself was fairly
long, and stretched the entire length of 1980’s built terrace houses in an old,
gated community. My own house, was towards the end of the row, and I often used
the back door rather than the front; one, because it was quicker to get too,
and two, I could avoid the intimidating stares of my horrible neighbours and
unruly kids at the front. I call it a house; it’s more like a pile of bricks
barely holding back the rain. Typical council houses here, never upgraded,
forgotten about, at the bottom of the scum heap. But not everyone who lived
here is scum mind you. Many of us have pride with our homes, our lives, our
jobs, for those of us lucky enough to still have one. It’s just those odd few
who make our lives hell, day in, day out. Being in a terrace house, I have a
neighbour either side. One is home to a lovely old lady, widowed, with two
cats. The other side however, is a bunch of noisy idiots who can’t seem to have
one night off from a loud noisy party, bass music blasting through my walls
every night. So loud sometimes, my elderly neighbour is woken by it.
I could hear people on the other side of the fence, which, once again, had been
spray painted full of graffiti that meant absolutely nothing to me, or anyone
with an ounce of brain matter. My footfalls sounded heavy, echoing on the
floor, partly from my four inch heels, but also from my heavy,
drunken-footedness. I fume as I stumble along, one hand outstretched on
the fence beside me, trying to help keep me upright and walking in a straight
line. Difficult in four inch heels, right? Well, right about now, the amount of
alcohol had numbed the pain in my feet so long ago it felt like I was walking
on squishy cushions of gel. My head however, also felt fuzzy, and the dark
alley was also adding to the overwhelming urge to sit down and sleep right
here. I cringe at the thought. Clearly some of my pride remained. I stumbled on
in the darkness, not hearing the other footfalls gradually closing in from
behind me. Until it was too late.
“Give us yer money, bitch!” a
voice snarled suddenly appearing in front of me, “and we’ll let you go free.” I
peered up through my lashes, frightened, to see a skinny, sneering young lout
of a man, a scar across the bridge of his nose.
Another male voice from behind chuckled deeply. “Not
until I ‘ave some fun with ‘er first.” He grabbed my arms roughly causing my
bag to slide off my shoulder to the ground. He spun me round to face him. Still
groggy with drink, but somehow aware of what was happening I fall clumsily
forward into his large chest, my high heels causing me to wobble unsteadily,
and try to cry out for help. Instead a small whimper emits from my dry throat,
and I silently curse myself for my stupidity.
Thoughts quickly run through
my half-alert mind.
What were you thinking coming this way home, you idiot!?
You should know better! But what can I do? I’m scared. What are they going to
do to me?
Images of beaten women raped and murdered spring to the forefront
of my brain.
“No, no, no, no, no, no, no” I
cry into the man’s chest, who then pushes my struggling frame backwards into
another pair of waiting arms. As I was pushed back, I caught a glimpse of him,
he was large, not fat, but stocky, and a goatee forming on his chin; his eyes
too close together. The man who caught me wasn’t Scarface; he was standing
alongside sneering still, his crooked front teeth, yellow from tobacco.
“Oh yes, yes, yes, my dear”
the hidden voice whispers. I could not see the man from my view line.
Three
men, oh god.
Scarface, reaches for my fallen bag, and tips the contents to
the floor. He takes my purse, phone and keys. “Now for some entertainment. Oh
and look lads,” he jangles the keys in front of my face. “The lady has invited
us to her home!” He spies my key ring bearing the house number, and beckons for
the other two to bring me along.
Laughing, the two men grab a hold of me roughly either side and half dragged,
half pushed my struggling body down the alley towards my house. I try to scream
again, but the brute of a man on my right, punches me in the jaw. The alley
spins as they reach my garden gate, helpfully donning my house number for the
thugs to see. Scarface opens the gate and ushers the rest of us inside. As my
head adjusts itself from the punch, I try to scream again, but instead of a
punch, the brute slaps a meaty fist over my mouth, muffling me. I kick futilely
as they wrestle me through the unlocked door.
“Now, now, none of that; you
could ‘urt someone!” Scarface scolded. We are in my kitchen. It’s not large,
but big enough for a small dining table. It’s clean, has working appliances,
plain white tiling, and a black and white diamond vinyl floor. Basic; but
clean, my home, my haven, or was.
I’m pushed into the table, the edge winding me. The
larger man, grabs the back of my head and slams me into the table top, making
my eyes water. Scarface walks round the table so he is in front of me, and pins
my shoulders to the table with his hands. I wriggle trying to free myself.
I hear the other man whoop to the side of me, as he opens
my fridge and I hear the beer bottles tinkle against each other as he removes
one for himself. He flips the bottle top off against the edge of the table, and
it rolls past my head, startling me.
The brutish man behind me
lifts my skirt, then grabbing my woollen tights, pulls them down savagely,
ripping them apart, my underwear vanishing with them. Using a knee to push my
legs further apart, he plunges a bulky finger into my sex.
Oh god it’s going
to hurt.
I try to block him out, to shut myself down, praying that he might
change his mind and see sense for what he is about to do. I cry out. It hurts.
He does not see sense though,
and pulls his finger out with a flourish. He sticks it in his mouth, sucking
the taste off, and nodding his approval slams his full length, thick and eager,
deep into me. I scream and he slams into me again. Over and over he slams
against me, each time I cry out, my eyes watering.
I cannot stop them,
I
realise.
I’m not strong enough. Oh god, help me please.
I prayed a
silent prayer as the man slams into once more, grunting as he finds his release
inside me.
He pulls out of me quickly, leaving me sore and shaken. He slaps my behind and
shouts joyfully, “NEXT!” My eyes widen with alarm. “No, please, stop!” I cry to
my captors. They laugh cruelly in response and the man holding the beer
replies, “Oh, I want my turn love,” his voice was hoarse, like from smoking too
many cigarettes. He chugs back the remaining dregs of beer, then breaks the
bottle against the counter top, leaving a jagged neck in his hand. “I think you
need to loosen up a bit more, whore!” he sneers at me and walks up behind me.
I begin to shake uncontrollably, terrible thoughts rush through my mind, my
heartbeat pounding hard in my chest, echoing in my ears. “No please! Please
just take me, please don’t hurt me!” I cry. The sharp pinch of glass is a
sudden shock as he pushes it against my behind. Pain lances through my body,
and a scream escapes my mouth.
“That’s it love, scream for me
baby!” He stabs my behind again and again, each time I scream and the tears
flow. The music from next door is loud, the bass thumping throughout my home in
time with my heart. I don’t feel him as he pushes himself into me. A sudden
numbness has overtaken my head from the pain. I lay there, glassy-eyed as my
body is jerked by the man pleasuring himself inside me. The blood warming my
backside as it trickles over my legs to the floor.
“Oi! Don’t you go to sleep on
us, bitch!” The man in front of me shouts. “We want you to enjoy this too.” The
first man who had his way with me, takes over from the man in front of me and
pins me down at my shoulders as the other man moves out of my field of vision.
I hear a drawer slide open, and the tinny sound of metal upon metal as he finds
the cutlery. I panic, my heart beating so fast it feels as though it is about
to burst from my chest. The pain from this alone is agony, but I cannot move, I
am still pinned down, and my back, legs and ass are sore, numb and tired. I
start to cry once more. “Oh god, please no. SOMEBODY HELP!” I shout with as
much force as I have left, hoping that someone, anyone will hear me.
