All Clear (63 page)

But not Alf and Binnie
, she thought.
Or Colin, no matter what sort of world he’s born into. They’ll never go along with it
.

Hitler would have to kill them first. And he would.

“Oh, God,” Polly murmured. “Mike was right. We lost the war. We ruined everything.”

“No,” Mr. Dunworthy said. “I did.”

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN, YOU DID IT?” POLLY SAID, STARING
at Mr. Dunworthy sitting there by the pub’s fire with her coat over his knees. He had stopped shivering, but he still looked chilled to the bone. “You can’t have lost the war. How? By coming to fetch me? Or something you did since you’ve been here?”

“No,” he said. “I did it before you and Michael and Merope were even born. When I was seventeen years old.”

“But—”

“It was the third drop we’d done to World War Two and the first to the Blitz. We were still refining the net coordinates, and all I had to do was to verify my temporal-spatial location and go back. I’d come through in the emergency staircase of a tube station, and when I found out I’d come through to the seventeenth of September 1940 instead of the sixteenth, I was frightened I might be in Marble Arch.” He stopped and stared bleakly into the fire. “Perhaps it would have been better if I had been.”

“Which station were you in?” Polly asked.

“St. Paul’s,” he said. “And when I found that out, I thought taking a side trip to see the cathedral couldn’t hurt.” He smiled bitterly. “I’d been fascinated by it since I first saw the fire watch stone as a boy. And here St. Paul’s still existed. So I ran up the street to look at it, just for a moment.”

He put his hands to his head. “I wasn’t looking where I was going—an apt metaphor for the entire history of time travel. I collided with a
young woman, a Wren, and knocked her bag off her shoulder, and all of her belongings spilled out and onto the pavement.” He stared blindly ahead as if he was seeing it happen. “Coins scattered everywhere, and her lipstick rolled into the gutter. She was carrying several parcels, and those flew out of her hands as well. Two other people—a naval officer and a man in a black suit—stopped to help, but it still took several minutes to gather everything up.”

“And then what?” Polly asked.

“And then the sirens went, and the Wren and the two men hurried off, and I went back to St. Paul’s Station to my drop and to Oxford.”

“And?”

“And a Wren was killed in Ave Maria Lane that night.”

“And it was the Wren you collided with?”

“I don’t know. I never knew her name. I don’t even know if she was the one I affected. It might have been the black-suited man. There’s no record of a naval officer being killed that night, so I don’t think it was him, though my delaying him might have set in motion a sequence of events which killed him the following day, or the following week.”

“But you don’t know for certain that you killed any of them, or that the collision altered anything at all.”

“That’s true. It may not have been the collision. I gave two children a shilling to tell me the name of the tube station, and had a conversation with a station guard. And I interacted with a number of other people in the station, pushing past them or making them go round me. I might have delayed any of them a critical few moments, and the difference might not have resulted in anything till much later on.”

Mike had said the same thing about the Dunkirk men he’d saved—that the alteration might be invisible for months, even years.

“In which case,” Mr. Dunworthy was saying, “it would be impossible to trace the initial altering event back to its source.”

“But from what you’ve said, you don’t know that there was an altering event at all,” Polly argued. “There’s no proof you did anything.”

“Yes, there is. Up till then there hadn’t been any slippage. It began on the very next drop. Unfortunately, that was a drop to the Battle of Trafalgar, and the one after that was to Coventry, and we drew the erroneous conclusion that the slippage made it impossible to alter events.”

“But you said you came through a day later than you were supposed to.”

Mr. Dunworthy shook his head. “I’d made an error in the coordinates. I checked it as soon as I returned. The net was set for the seventeenth.”

“What about locational slippage? You said you thought you’d gone through to Marble Arch.”

“No, I said I
might
have. We couldn’t do specific locations back in those days, only a general area.”

“Then there
might
have been locational slippage.”

“But if there had been, it would have prevented me from colliding with the Wren.” He smiled bitterly at her. “No, I caused the slippage and then misinterpreted that cause. And we proceeded to wander through history,” he said bitterly, “gawking at wars and disasters and cathedrals, with no thought of the consequences of what we were doing.”

Polly looked at Mr. Dunworthy sitting there. Mr. Humphreys had said he looked like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders.
And he does
, she thought.

“For the past forty years, we’ve been blundering through the past like bulls through a china shop, fondly imagining that it was possible to do so without bringing about disaster, till it finally came crashing down on us. And on you.”

“But there was no way you could have known,” Polly said, reaching out to pat his arm.

He drew his arm back violently. “There were dozens of clues,” he said furiously, “but I didn’t want to see them. I wanted to go on believing we could insert ourselves into a chaotic system without altering its configuration, even though I knew that was impossible. That our very presence, even if we did nothing more than breathe in and out, had to change the pattern and alter the outcome.”

“But if that’s true, then we all did it, and every historian who’s ever gone to the past is to blame.” She frowned. “But why weren’t there indications up to a few months ago? Why did it take forty years?”

“That I don’t know. In a chaotic system, not all actions have significant consequences. Some are damped down by other events or absorbed or canceled out. It may have taken that long for enough changes to accumulate for a tipping point.”

Like the vases and china and crystal in the china shop
, Polly thought.
Each crash of the bull against the table, each pounding step, brings them nearer and nearer to the edge, till one last minor nudge takes them over it. That’s what Mike and Eileen and I did, that one last tiny nudge. And it brought the continuum crashing down
.

But Mike had tried to go back through his drop
before
he saved Hardy’s life. Why hadn’t it let him?

“Why didn’t—?” Polly began, and realized Mr. Dunworthy was in no
condition to answer any more questions. He looked dreadful, and in spite of the fire, he’d begun to shiver again.

“Time to go home,” she said. She put money down for the tea and brandy, removed her coat from his knees, and put it on.

When she took his arm, he didn’t resist, but let her lead him out of the pub, onto the wet, now-dark street and into a taxi. His hand, as she helped him in, was hot to the touch. “You’ve a fever. I think I’d better take you to hospital. St. Bart’s,” she said to the driver.

“No,”
Mr. Dunworthy said, clutching her arm. “They were very kind to me. They don’t … Please, not the hospital.”

“All right, but when we get home I’m telephoning the doctor.”

And I’m going to go in first so I can give Eileen some warning, so she won’t think he’s the retrieval team and get her hopes up
.

But he
is
the retrieval team
, she thought bleakly.
He came through to rescue me, and now he’s as stuck in this morass as we are
.

They pulled up in front of the house. “I need to run inside and fetch your fare,” she told the driver. “I’ll be back straightaway,” but he was shaking his head.

“I’d best ’elp you take ’im in, miss,” he said. “You’ll never manage ’im by yourself.” And before she could say anything, he was out of the taxi and helping Mr. Dunworthy out, so she had no opportunity to warn Eileen.

But Eileen seemed to size up the situation instantly. “Can you help us get him into bed?” she asked the taxi driver.

“Who’s ’at?” Alf asked, emerging from the kitchen with a slice of bread in one hand and a spoon in the other.

“Mr. D—” Eileen began.

“Mr. Hobbe,” Polly said.

“Is ’e soused?” Binnie asked.

“No, he’s ill,” Polly said.

Binnie nodded wisely. “That’s what Mum allus—”

“Binnie, go turn down the bed,” Eileen said.

“Not Binnie. Rapunzel. I’ve decided my name’s Rapunzel.”

I am going to kill that child
, Polly thought, but Eileen said calmly, “Please go turn down the bed, Rapunzel.”

She did, tossing her perpetually untied hair ribbon as if it were Rapunzel’s braid, and Polly helped Mr. Dunworthy out of his wet coat and shoes while Eileen ran down to the corner to phone the doctor.

She’d been afraid Alf and Binnie would come in and ask annoying questions, but after a minute of standing in the doorway whispering to each other, they disappeared.

When she came out to hang Mr. Dunworthy’s wet shirt on the oven door and put the kettle on, Alf asked, “ ’E ain’t a truant officer, is ’e? Or a tube station guard?” Which meant they thought they recognized him from somewhere. She hoped they hadn’t tried to rob him as he walked to St. Paul’s.

“No,” she said. “He’s Eileen’s old schoolmaster.”

Schoolmasters were apparently as frightening as truant officers. The two of them didn’t even attempt to follow her into his room, though by the time the doctor arrived they were back to their old selves.

“It ain’t measles, is it?” Binnie asked. “We ain’t gonna be quarantined, are we?”

We already are
, Polly thought.

“Is ’e going to die?” Alf asked.

Yes. On or before May first
.

“He’ll be perfectly fine,” the doctor said heartily. “All he needs is to be kept warm and to rest, and he’s not to worry over anything. He needs building up, so he’s to have beefsteak and eggs—whole, not dried—every day.”

“But how?” Eileen said. “The rationing—”

“I’m writing a prescription. Take it to the ration office, and they’ll give you the necessary coupons.” He handed her the prescription and a paper packet. “And he’s to take this powder, dissolved in a glass of water, at bedtime.”

“Just like in an Agatha Christie novel,” Eileen said, looking at the packet after the doctor’d gone. “That’s always how the victim’s murdered.”

“
Who’s
been murdered?” Alf asked eagerly.

“No one. Go do your lessons,” Eileen said, still examining the packet. “But I doubt whether there’s anything in this powder for a fever. Aspirin’s the only thing which will help.”

Nothing will help
, Polly thought, but she offered to go to the chemist’s for the tablets. “I need to ring the theater and tell them I’m not coming in. I can do that while I’m at the chemist’s.”

“Oh, I forgot all about your rehearsal,” Eileen said. “You could still go. I can care for Mr. Dunworthy.”

“It’s too late. By the time I got there, the performance would be over. And someone’s got to go for the aspirin.”

And she needed to get away for a few moments, to think out how she was going to tell Eileen. She would not be upset on her own behalf, but Polly couldn’t bear the look Eileen would have on her face when she told her they weren’t getting out. And worse, that she wasn’t the only one with a deadline. That Mr. Dunworthy had one, too. Soon.

As soon as she reached the chemist’s, she rang up the Alhambra. “Your luck’s in,” Hattie said. “Canning Town got it last night, so Tabbitt hasn’t made it in either, but he’ll be here tomorrow, so
you’d
better be. And if I were you, I’d think of a different excuse in the meantime. He’ll never believe the one you just told me.” There was a pause. “Oh, I’ve got to go. I’m on. Victory number. Ta.”

But there won’t be any Victory numbers
, Polly thought, feeling her way back to the house through the darkness of the blackout.
And what will happen to Hattie when we lose the war? And to the other girls in the chorus
?

You know what will happen to them
, she thought.

But perhaps it wouldn’t come to that. Mr. Dunworthy had said he didn’t know if the continuum was collapsing or correcting itself. And there were things in his theory which didn’t fit. If their actions had been a threat, why had they been allowed to come through at all? Why hadn’t they been prevented from coming in the first place, like Gerald?

And once they were here, why hadn’t they been allowed to leave? Mr. Dunworthy had said it was to contain the infection, but if Polly’s drop had opened, she wouldn’t have stumbled, shell-shocked and stricken, into Townsend Brothers, and Marjorie wouldn’t have ended up in Jermyn Street, wouldn’t have become a nurse, and if the people on the beach watching the smoke from Dunkirk hadn’t prevented Mike from going to his drop, he wouldn’t have fallen asleep on the
Lady Jane
and ended up in Dunkirk and saved Hardy’s life. And if Eileen’s drop had opened, she wouldn’t have been able to keep the
City of Benares
letter from Mrs. Hodbin; she wouldn’t have been there to drive the ambulance on the twenty-ninth and save her passengers’ lives.

That was the cruelest irony of all, that they had undone the future out of a desire to help—Eileen’s giving Binnie aspirin to bring her fever down and tearing up the letter to keep the children from drowning, Mike’s unfouling the propeller because he couldn’t stand the thought of fourteen-year-old Jonathan being killed and pushing the two firemen away from the collapsing wall.

Even the act which had set it all in motion had come not from malice but from an innocent desire to see something beautiful. It seemed impossible that compassion and kindness should be the weapons of destruction, that just the opposite should be true. It was true that in a chaotic system, good actions could have bad consequences, but why—?