After Obsession (14 page)

My voice is tiny. “I’m really scared and there’s … there’s more I should tell you …”

“Okay. I’m coming over.”

My phone beeps to let me know I have a text message.

I’M HERE.

I am so glad the phone is working tonight. One minute later he’s outside my window. I pop off the screen. He wedges himself through.

“Tell me Blake never did this,” he whispers.

“Blake never did this.”

Alan hugs me to him, kisses the top of my head. I try to mold myself into him, like we’re two pieces of sculpting clay meant to return back together.

“Aim …” My fingers stretch out across his back. He pushes away a little so that he can see my face. “Aim … you want to tell me what’s going on?”

I pull away from him. Even though it’s hard, I pull away, and go sit on my bed. He comes across the room, trying not to make noise as he steps. He sits next to me, holds my hand. The bed sinks down with his weight, but it’s good.

He points to the painting. “That you and your mom?”

I nod. I try to breathe.

“Aim?”

He makes my name a question and I know I have to answer. I know he deserves an answer after driving here in the middle of the night. I try to give him one. “I’m afraid of him, but that’s not what I’m most afraid of.”

“What are you afraid of then?”

I point to the painting.

He pulls in his breath. His fingers tighten around my fingers. “That you’re like your mother?”

The word comes out all by itself.

The word comes out even though I don’t want it to.

The word comes out and it is “Yes.”

“Aimee.” He soothes quiet words into my hair, rocks me back and forth, back and forth like a baby while I cry. “Aimee, it’s going to be okay. You’re okay. You’re okay.”

“I know.” I hiccup. “I know.”

I wipe at my face with my hands. I try to breathe normally, but what is normal? I try to breathe. Gramps’s snores hammer through the walls. Once in a while, a mouse scampers over the roof, scratching, searching for food to eat, places to hide.

“Courtney thinks I’m crazy or something. She implied it in AP English the other day.”

“That wasn’t her, that was him. You know that. It’s just him working at your fears.”

“I don’t want to be crazy,” I say. My dad implied it, too.

“You aren’t crazy.” Alan’s lips tighten together. Then he opens them again. “ ‘Crazy’ is a stupid word.”

“I know. Actually, ‘stupid’ is a stupid word.”

“You’re okay, Aim.”

I make my fingers relax, trying to understand. I glance at the painting across the room; me and my mom. It’s too much. I hide my face in his shirt. He smells like toothpaste and clean.

“I don’t think I’m crazy,” I say.

“Okay.”

I push away from him. He is not mad. His eyes hold my eyes. “Whatever happens, we will deal with it, Red.”

The story everyone knows is that my mother killed herself. She had an ax. She walked into a river. She had a mental illness called bipolar disorder. Sometimes she was regular. Sometimes she wasn’t. But that might not be the truth, not the whole of it, at least. But either way—either way, one thing is sure.

“She left me,” I say. “My mother left me.”

“I know,” Alan says. “But she didn’t have a choice. You have a choice, Aimee. You can choose. We can manage this.”

I half laugh. “ ‘Manage this.’ You sound like a lawyer.”

He wiggles his eyebrows. He is trying so hard. “I know.”

I swallow. I swallow five times at least. He just tucks me against him. He presses his lips against my hair, and it’s like he’s pressing promises there. “Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For finally trusting me.”

“Alan, that is so sappy.”

He shrugs. He pulls me back into him. “It’s true.”

I play punch him, but my heart’s not really in it. “Are you going to freak out about all this?”

He sniffs in. “Not till tomorrow, probably, when I’m home and you don’t need me. Cool?”

I snuggle in closer. “Cool.”

“I’ll stay until you fall asleep,” he whispers. “Then I’m going to sneak out.”

We flatten ourselves down against the mattress. He puts one arm beneath my shoulder, curls into my side, and pulls his other arm across my lower rib cage, holding on.

“It’ll be okay.” He is sleepy voiced.

“Are you sure?”

I dream all night. I dream of an upturned kayak, hands ripping me apart, water, Alan crumpled on a floor. I dream and dream and dream, and the River Man’s voice echoes through it all, telling me that we will all be his.

In the morning it’s Alan’s gasp that wakes me up. Sunlight fills the room.

“Crap!” he mutters. “Crap. Crap. Crap.”

I sit up straight, trying to figure everything out. He’s throwing open the window, about to slide outside, but something across the room catches his eye.

“Aim …” His voice is a warning sign.

I don’t want to look. But I look and my heart stops, really. It stops. Then starts again, hard, painful, pounding. He grabs my arm and pulls me into him, but I’ve already seen.

Someone—something?—has thrown paint all over the picture of my mother and me. The red of it oozes across our faces, dripping like horror-movie blood. But worse than that is the message printed in scratchy style over the whole thing.

HE SHOULD NOT BE HERE.

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ALAN

“I really, really wish I could believe Benji snuck in here and did that,” I say as I hold Aimee pressed hard against my chest. She shakes her head.

“He wouldn’t.”

“No.” This seems way too much for an ornery little brother. At the same time, as weird as it is, it seems kind of tame for the thing that attacked us in the tree house. “Aimee, is it possible that was done by somebody else?”

“Gramps? No, he wouldn’t—”

“Not Gramps. I was thinking … well, maybe your mom?”

She raises her head, her big green eyes wide, but doesn’t say anything.

“If it was our friend from the river, don’t you think he would have done something … I don’t know, more physical? Like in the tree house? This is messed up, no doubt, but maybe it’s your mom’s spirit telling you something.”

“I’ve been thinking the same thing,” she says. “But I don’t see why she’d say you aren’t supposed to be here. Plus, red paint looks like blood. I wish she’d used blue or something.”

“Well, you did leave the red tube open. I saw that when I came in.” She just stares at me, and it’s so obvious that she’s trying really hard not to freak out, so I try to ease the tension. “Maybe she knows that I have to get out of here before I get you in trouble. My mom’ll have a cow, too, if she wakes up first and I’m not home. I saw a doughnut shop. I’ll take some doughnuts home, eat, and come back to get you.”

“School?” Her perfect little nose wrinkles up and I almost laugh out loud.

“I think we need to carry on as close to a normal routine as we can so the parental units aren’t hovering over us. They probably won’t like what we’re going to try to do. We need to be normal, get Courtney home, and then we can fight this thing.” I go to the window.

“Okay.” She’s still looking up at me. “Maybe she means him—the River Man thing isn’t supposed to be here.”

“You should put that painting away so no one sees it,” I say, then move as lightly as I can over the short stretch of roof to the edge and jump to the ground below. I stay low and run from the yard, hoping none of Aimee’s menfolk look out their windows at that particular moment.

I drive to the little doughnut store and buy a dozen assorted doughnuts, then race home. Mom and Aunt Lisa are both up when I get there, but it looks like they haven’t been up long. “Alan, where have you been?” Mom asks. “I thought you were still in bed.”

“Couldn’t sleep. I got up early and went out. Thought I’d take care of breakfast today.” I put the doughnuts on the table. Aunt Lisa’s face is pale, with dark circles under her watery eyes. “Any news?”

“She was awake this morning,” Aunt Lisa says. “She talked to me a little, and she seemed like the old Courtney. She asked about you.”

“She did?”

“Yes.” Aunt Lisa hesitates, like she isn’t sure she should say anything more.

“What did she say?”

Aunt Lisa looks to Mom, then back at me. “She asked me to tell you to be strong. To do what needs to be done.”

That stands up the hairs on my arms. “She said that?”

“Alan, what’s going on?” Mom asks. “What did she mean? What are you doing?”

I think about it. I tried to tell her already, and she wanted no part of it. Would she believe me now, with Courtney’s cryptic message? Probably not. I shrug and shake my head. “I don’t know what she means. She probably had some kind of dream.”

“That’s what the nurse said,” Aunt Lisa tells me.

“Are you going to work today?” I ask. Both women nod.

“Lisa, you shouldn’t,” Mom says. “You should take a nap. Go to the hospital.”

“They told me there’s nothing I can do there,” she says. “We need the money. If—if something is seriously wrong … well, I might need my sick leave then.”

“Aunt Lisa, she’s going to be okay,” I promise.

She nods, then comes around the table and hugs me.

“Thank you, Alan. Thank you.” Her voice is husky and thick in my ear. “What would I do without you and your mom here?”

“Move to Oklahoma and watch me play football, probably,” I say, trying desperately to lighten the mood while I hug her back.

I grab a couple of doughnuts and a bottle of OJ from the fridge and run out the front door, pretending I don’t hear Aunt Lisa telling Mom what a great kid I am.

Aimee’s dad meets me at the front door of the house. He’s not a big man. I mean, he’s tall, but average build. I suppose the intimidation factor comes from just knowing he’s Aimee’s dad. He opens the door and waves me in.

“Come on in, Alan,” he says. “I’m sorry I didn’t get to see you last night. I heard you choked down one of Aimee’s veggie burgers, though. It must be love.”

“Uhh.” Okay, I wasn’t ready for that, and he has a good laugh over my dumbfounded look before holding out a hand. I shake it, and it’s probably the weakest handshake I’ve ever given. He laughs at me again.

“I was only kidding,” he says. “I’ll tell you, though, Aimee really seems taken with you. I appreciate you coming up to the house to pick her up and being here to meet the family last night.”

“I, umm, was glad to do it,” I manage to stammer out. “She’s a great girl.”

He nods, then his face gets serious. “She’s having a bit of a rough spot right now. Bad dreams and stuff. I don’t know what she’s told you about her mother. We lost her a while back, and it’s been pretty hard on Aimee.”

“She told me,” I say.

He looks at me in a weird way, like he’s surprised Aimee would have already mentioned that. “She told you, huh?”

“Yes, sir. We’ve, well, we’ve talked a lot.”

“I see. Well, okay then.” He pauses, and his forehead wrinkles up. He’s wearing a white dress shirt and dark slacks. I suppose he’ll have a tie and suit coat on pretty soon. “Alan, will you promise me something?”

“Sure.”

“Be … be good to Aimee, okay?”

“Yes, sir, I will. I mean, I would never do anything to hurt her.”

“It’s just that, you’re new here, and I don’t know you,” he says. “It isn’t personal. I trust Aimee’s judgment, and, like I said, she’s really taken to you, so I have to trust you’re a good kid. You seem like a good kid. Just, please understand, she’s still my little girl.”

“I know,” I say. “I promise, nothing will hurt her while I’m with her.” He gives me a really strange look then, and I realize how dumb that was. Not at all what I meant to say. He just wants me to promise to stay out of her pants. “I just mean, you don’t have to worry about me, Mr. Avery. Aimee is safe with me.”

“That’s what I wanted to hear,” he says, and offers his hand again. This time I grip it hard, like a man is supposed to, and pump it quickly a couple of times.

“What did you two just agree on?” Aimee asks from the stairs. “Dad, did you just sell me for a goat and a couple of chickens?”

“You’re worth much more than that, honey,” he says, releasing my hand and turning to face her.

“I had to throw in a whole cow,” I say. “Gramps wanted it for the steak.”

Her dad gives a short bark of laughter that he covers up real fast with a hand while winking at me. Aimee just sticks out her tongue.

“Your colon will thank me for that veggie burger, you know,” she says. “And for all the ones to come.”

“You two better get to school,” her dad says.

“Sir, can you tell me anything about my cousin? Aunt Lisa said she was awake and talking this morning.”

“Sorry, Alan, there’s not much I can say. Regulations and all.” His face tells me he really is sorry he can’t give me any news. “I promise we’ll do everything we can to help her, though.”

By now Aimee is off the stairs and standing beside me, her backpack strap held loosely in one hand. I scoop the pack off the floor and throw it over my shoulder.

“I can carry my own backpack,” she protests.

“I know,” I say. “But that veggie burger gave me so much energy that my colon said I have to carry your backpack to say thank you.”

Her dad laughs again and says, “I think he’s going to keep you on your toes, Aim.”

She gooses me in the side and I can’t help but flinch. “I think I can handle him,” she says. “Now let’s go, Alan. I heard Benji brushing his teeth. Or sharpening them to get whatever Dad left of you.”

“It was nice to meet you, Mr. Avery,” I say, then open the door for Aimee. She doesn’t seem to consider that an affront to her feminist side, but her dad notices and smiles at me. I give him one more wave, then follow Aimee to my truck.

I want to put an arm around her shoulders as we back out of the driveway, but instead I ask if she’s okay.

“I am now,” she says.

“Well, Aunt Lisa told me Courtney was talking this morning.”

“She was?”

I tell her what my aunt reported.

“Do what needs to be done?” she asks.

“Yeah. That was freaky.”

“Do you think she knows what’s going on?”

“Probably. I don’t know. Maybe. I think she knows there’s some kind of spirit taking possession of her sometimes. Has it told her to stay away from me? Does she know that it believes I’m some kind of threat? I don’t know. From what she said, I think so. I think she senses something.”

“It might try to hurt you?”

We pull into the school’s parking lot and I start looking for an empty space. “You mean it might try to throw me across the school cafeteria or something?”

“Or something worse.”

“I’m more worried about you.” I ease the truck into a slot between a Camaro and a Saab. I kill the engine and we sit quietly for a minute.

“I’m not going to be able to concentrate on school today,” she says.

“Me, neither. But we’re running a little late, so we better do the best we can.” I open my door to get out. We’re almost to the front door when I hear a voice behind us.

“It’s the slut and her Injun chief who skipped practice yesterday.”

Aimee and I stop in our tracks. We both know who it is.

“Ignore him,” Aimee says in a whispery hiss. “He’s not himself. I’m positive. He would never say that, not normally.”

“Aimee, it’s going to come to fists eventually,” I say. I start to turn around, but her grip on my arm becomes frantic. It turns out that I don’t have to go to them; Blake and two of his friends come around in front of us.

“What’s the matter, Parson? Your slutty white squaw already got you whipped?” he asks. His friends laugh. I recognize one of the guys from my algebra class. The other one might be in German with me; he’s a bigger guy with broad shoulders and a square jaw. The algebra guy is like Blake, tall and lean.

“Shut up, Blake,” Aimee says. “I can’t believe you’ve turned into such a jerk. What happened to you?”

The air vibrates with something hard and evil.

“Aimee, you just sick of white guys or something?” the algebra guy asks. Blake grins real slow, and I visualize my fist busting those lips wide open. There would be so much blood.

“You’re being an idiot, Chris,” Aimee says. She whispers to me. “He’s normally nice. Really. They aren’t acting right.”

“You not speak English today, Tonto?” Blake asks.

“Don’t do it, Alan,” Aimee warns, obviously sensing the tension in my body.

“Not here,” I promise. It’s the best I can offer. Getting suspended from school wouldn’t bother me. It’s happened before. But I can’t do that to Mom. Not so soon here in a new place. Not with Courtney in the hospital.

“He speakum English!” Square-jaw exclaims.

“Does Lauren know you’re acting like a dumb-ass, Noah?” Aimee asks him. “Or are you just worried she might decide she likes Alan better than you, too? Jealous?”

“I don’t have to be jealous of anybody, especially some stupid Indian,” Noah says with an edge in his voice that tells us he’s lying.

“Come on, Alan.” Aimee pulls on my arm. I glare at Blake, ignoring his henchmen, and take a reluctant step behind Aimee. Back in OKC the girls I knew would have demanded I fight in this situation. All this is more than a little confusing and frustrating. I know I could take Blake, probably without breaking a sweat.

Aimee thinks she can push right between them and on toward the school. They move to let her pass, but the three of them close around me and I’m convinced we are going to get physical right here and now, until another voice stops everyone.

“You young men better not show up in the office needing a tardy slip,” Mr. Everson announces. At some point he’s come out of the school and is just ten yards from us. I see Blake’s face flush up to his hairline. He steps away from us.

“We won’t,” Blake says. His friends look like sheep caught on a highway.

Aimee is still pulling at me, so I follow her. We pass the vice principal, who turns and falls into step with us. He opens the door and follows us in.

The first bell rings and neither of us have our books for first hour. “Go to class,” she says, pushing me away. “I’ll see you in bio. But that was not normal. They’re not usually like that.”