Starr's report suggested that there were eleven grounds for impeachment, including perjury, obstruction of justice, and abuse of office. The word
sex
was used 581 times in its pages.
In the case of Richard Nixon, the independent counsel had made no suggestions about impeachment or any other matter entrusted to the Congress under the Constitution. Rather, he had submitted the voluminous factual findings of his investigation without extraneous comment or recommendation.
John Podesta, the deputy White House chief of staff, worried that defection by someone high in the administration could bring the house down in terms of political support on the Hill and among ordinary citizens. On September 10, Clinton gathered cabinet members and a few selected members of the White House staff in the Yellow Oval Room of the residence to apologize for lying to them and the public. Bill said he would atone for the rest of his life for what he had done. He also talked at length about his enemies. The response from the cabinet was mixed. Some followed Bill's lead and quoted scripture; others wanted to bolt from the room; still others rebuked the president, most severely Donna Shalala and, obliquely, Madeleine Albright, the two women in the cabinet who had defended him the previous January, saying they believed his explanation.
According to Albright, Clinton said that “the reason he had done it was that he had been in a rage for the past four and a half years. He had been a good actor and had put on a smile but had been angry throughout. He talked in that vein for some time without making eye contact, with me or anyone elseâthen stopped. As he spoke I felt lostâ¦. I wasn't sure he had really apologizedâ¦. I also didn't understand the rageâ¦. It felt weird and typical.”
“I thought the meeting was about confronting him and making it very clear that what he did was wrong,” Donna Shalala said. “And he seemed to think that he could just come in and apologize and that was it. And I suddenly realized thatâ¦he thought that his behavior was private, and that you separate the twoâ¦. I just think public figures have to be extremely careful about their private actions and that they set the tone, and I told him that. I just told him that I wanted him to reassure me that he understood that leaders were also moral leaders. He gave me a strange answer. He said, âBy your standard we should have elected Nixon instead of Kennedy.' And I think everybody was mortified at his answer, but most people didn't say a word because they weren't quite sure what the meeting was aboutâ¦. Not many people seemed willing to look him straight in the eye and say that.”
Shalala said that Hillary did not speak to her about the episode but that “I wasn't sure she got it eitherâ¦. Within two weeksâ¦she and everybody else around her were still talking conspiracies. They were still convinced it was a conspiracy. I'm convinced to this day that they don't get it,” she said in 1999. By 2006, said Shalala, “They got it.”
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ILLARY WAS PREPARING
for the worst, based on Kendall's assessment that Starr's report would contain a detailed narrative of what had happened between Bill and Lewinsky. Starr, and now Henry Hyde, had refused to let Kendall see the report in advance of its public release. On September 10, the House Rules Committee unanimously recommended its release. Just after noon the next day, the full House voted 363 to 63 to release the full report and the supporting documents. Within an hour it was posted on the Internet.
Starr wanted the most explicit report possible, he said, to demonstrate how much work the investigation had done. He was proud of the narrative. A few members of Starr's staff had resisted the kind of report that was transmitted. Brett Kavanaugh, one of his principal deputies (later named a federal judge by President George W. Bush), had argued that “the narrative shows how pathetic Clinton isâ¦. He needs therapy, not removalâ¦. Our job is not to get Clinton out. It's just to give information.” But Starr's purpose was transparent, and many of his deputies agreed; a few even said it aloud: they wanted to humiliate the both of them, Hillary and Bill,
and
drive them from town. They believed there was sufficient evidence to impeach Clinton for perjury and obstruction, but if the Congress wasn't willing to impeach and convict him, the full tale was so abhorrent and disgusting, Starr was banking, the country would be repulsed and demand that Clinton go.
That afternoon, the country was transfixed: the contents of the report were beyond the wildest expectations of the White House lawyers, the network anchors, Democratic members of Congress who had been kept in the dark (unlike Hyde and a few Republican leaders who knew what was coming), and certainly the millions of Americansâincluding Chelsea Clintonâwho were reading excerpts on the Internet.
The president's relationship with Lewinsky was recounted in lurid, semi-pornographic detail designed to strip Clinton of all respect and render a picture of him as a sex-obsessed degenerate or pervert. The blue dress had been only a preview: there was the phone sex, cigars as sex toys, the president masturbating in a closet, receiving oral sex while he talked to congressional leaders.
“This is about trying to destroy me as a person,” Bill told his friend Terry McAuliffe. James Carville's outrage was, as always, quotable: “The core of the entire conspiracy lies in a few blow jobs. No phone was tapped, no one's office burglarized, no tax return audited. You can't elevate a blow job to anything more than a blow job.” Much of the report cited raw grand jury evidence that, under the Constitution, could never have been used in a court case without cross-examination of witnesses.
Meanwhile, Bill continued what some of his aides variously described as the “contrition tour” or his “repentance tour”âthey believed the attitude was genuineâseeking forgiveness, retreating into the arms of preachers and confessing his sins, and trying to stay in office.
Hillary went to work.
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EPTEMBER
17, 1998, Betsy Ebeling and Diane Blair were both staying at the White House to give Hillary moral support.
“So Hillary had us for five days,” said Betsy. “I mean I had only seen the president once since August 17, and it had to have been terrifying for him to know that his wife and her two best friends were coming together that weekend,” which was also the weekend that House Republicans and Democrats were arguing over whether to release the videotape of the president's grand jury testimony, and other taped evidence, including phone calls between Monica Lewinsky and her confidante Linda Tripp.
Though the president and his wife were “moving on separate schedules without doing more than briefing each other,” said Diane, she didn't doubt, even then, that they would remain together. “I mean it's love, but it's also [that] they're dependent upon each other, and have been for over twenty-five years in ways the rest of us can only begin to understand if we have that kind of marriage ourselves.”
The visit, said Betsy, was “surreal,” and highly revealing of Hillary's way of coping.
“It was business as usual,” said Betsy. “She was very busy. Very busy. But also Hillary wanted to make sure Diane and I had things to do: could we do this, and could we meet for dinner?âwhile people on the Hill were dueling on releasing the tapes. And we had no idea how much she knew of what was going on because she was not reading newspapers, and she was not watching TVâ¦. Hillary was out doing three or four events in the afternoon. Diane and I sat up in the Solarium that afternoon trying to figure out what we were going to do, and I think we finally decided that we would just go with whatever cues she was giving us, and whenever the three of us got together we would have a good time and, if she wanted to,” only then would they discuss the Lewinsky turbulence.
The day before, unbeknownst to Diane and Betsy, Stevie Wonder had attended a state dinner in honor of Czech president Václav Havel. “And, evidently at some point,” said Betsy, “he came up to Hillary and said, âI have had this song going through my head for the last couple of days, and I cannot complete the song unless you help me with the words.' So she said, âSend me a tape, I'd be more than happy to listen to it.' And, he said âNo, no. You don't understand. I will not leave Washington until you give me the right words.' So she arranged for him to come upstairs.
“When the phone rings up in the Solarium it's Capricia Marshall, Hillary's secretary, saying, âHillary would like you and Diane to join her this evening at six o'clock in the residence. Stevie Wonder is coming to sing.' Diane and I are in my room and we have the TV onâno one has said to us, no, you can't watch TV. It's very quiet in the house. Very quiet. I mean this is a pretty intense atmosphere staff-wise, and the help, and throughout the houseânobody is talking. And we're standing in this room and we have the TV on waiting to hear when they're going to announce that they're going to release these tapes, when the phone in my room rings againâ¦. âMr. Wonder's here, you've got to come down.' âOkay.'
“So we go down, and there's nobody there. You know, the two of us standing near the piano. We're looking around. And I said, âOh my gosh, think of the stuff they'd have to move if they have to leave here.' I mean it was justâ¦it was very weird timing, and we were very emotional. And all of a sudden in comes Capricia, and then in comes Stevie Wonderâ¦like one of the most handsome men I have ever seen, and his manager, and his teenage son, who's about six-foot-two. You know: Walkman, the whole bit. Introductions all the way around.
“And then in comes Hillary, she's late, and we sit down. And he sits at the piano, which she assures him has been tuned that day. She's the hostess, so she sits next to him, in a chair by herself. Diane sits with the son. I sat with the manager. And Stevie starts to talk about why he is here, and what he is doingâ¦. So he sits down, and plays this song, the whole the me of it being forgivenessâ¦and every once in a while he'll go âdada-da-da,' because he doesn't have the words. And I'm watching Hillary sitting in this chair while Diane and I are just lostâ¦. And, un be knownst to us, she had paged the White House photographer to come up, who gets a 911 call. Well, he has no idea what's going on. The photographer comes up and Stevie now is singing this song with his heart, and this beautiful melody, and it's all about what forgiveness is, and Hillary has moved her chair all the way over now to where she is right next to the piano. He finishes the songâ¦and, I mean I have never heard anybody put it into words, and with such feeling. He obviously touched her, but she was dry-eyed. I don't know how she did this. He finishes the song, and they talk about the nature of forgiveness. And what it does for the soul.” Contrary to Betsy's account, Hillary, in a brief mention in
Living History,
says her eyes had filled with tears.
Stevie proceeded to play a second song, also about forgivenessâ“No One Walks on Water”âwhich, for a while, Diane thought was “No One Likes Cole Porter.”
“So, Diane is laughing at this point and I'm looking at her. It's like, âWhat is your problem?' So, he finishes that song as well, and Hillary looks over at us and she says rather jokingly, âI have to run to this event, but I hope you will stay and cheer my friends up.'”
Wonder did not want Hillary to leave yet. He had an idea, which Hillary did not mention in her eleven-line account of the musical interlude in
Living History:
“His idea was that they would write this song together, and the royalties would go to women's shelters. So off Hillary goes to this event, and before she leaves she looks at both of us and she says, âNow don't go out. Don't be out late because I'm going to be home and we'll sit up tonight. Have a good time.' And that was pretty much what the weekend was likeâ¦.
“Truthfully between the two of us, I never saw her angry. There's other ways of expressing anger.”
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HE FOLLOWING DAY,
September 18, Congressman Jim Moran of Virginia called Hillary. “If you were my sister, I think I'd just grab him, pull him behind the house, and break his nose,” he told her.
She sounded happy to hear from him. Bill had regarded Moran as a crucial Democratic ally, assuring him back in January that he hadn't been involved with Monica Lewinsky. Moran had believed him and stuck with him, until a television interview on September 8 in which the congressman said, “The fact is that he lied to the American people as he did in the court. I think that that is a major problem that is going to undoubtedly necessitate impeachment proceedings.” Now he told Hillary that her husband was “a philanderer” and “a liar.” As much as Moran respected Bill's abilities and commitment to public service, he was “offended at what he's done to you, not to mention all the people who supported him.”
Hillary responded that rightist elements opposed to what Bill had been trying to do all his life were behind the impeachment drive. It was important for the country that they not win, she said. They talked for another fifteen minutes. Moran agreed to back off for the moment.
Hillary said she had become the general in charge of Bill's defense and that she believed in him.
She was braced for the inevitable release of Bill's videotaped grand jury testimony, which the House agreed to that same afternoon. News stories, perhaps based on a few transcribed excerpts of the session and leaks from the Office of the Independent Counsel, suggested that the tape would show him erupting and snarling at the prosecutors.
The release of Bill's taped grand jury testimony, on the afternoon of September 21, was a turning point in the history of the Clinton presidency. The networks initiated a thirty-second delay in their transmissions to enable excision of sexual content, if necessary. But what viewers saw was something far different than anticipated, and enough felt offended by the prosecutors' conductâand the release of the videotape itselfâto change the dynamic of the struggle. There was something prurient about what Starr and the Congress were doing that seemed to offend more people than Clinton's conduct had. At least that was what the polls were showing.