A Student's Dream (Twisted Cogs Book 1) (26 page)

“
I couldn’t get my Storm to work,” Elena said.

“
Try again. With less of the talking-things-through nonsense. Just use your Storm.”

Elena closed her eyes again, imagining the buzzing in her temples, the prickle across her fingertips. She tried to build a De Luca in her head, first imagining a personality, then adding bits and pieces onto it, adding relationships with other studios, with his students. She had flashes of ideas and thoughts, but the Storm stubbornly refused to cooperate.

“
I can’t,” she finally said, “I just can’t. Maybe my Storm is just random, and there will never be a way for me to control it.”

“
If you expect me to believe that, you’re both far more lazy and far more stupid than I imagined of you,” De Luca snapped, his cheer and fatherly tone gone.

Elena blinked, stung by the sudden shift of tone. “It
could
be true, no one knows exactly-”

“
But
I
know, I know that it’s an excuse. You want to be a garzona in this studio? You really want to? Did you think it would be easy?”

“
I’ve always wanted to be a De Luca garzona!”

“
Then
try
. Try again, try
harder
.”

Elena grit her teeth and tried again, tried so hard that her head spun and her face grew hot. She pictured the boy De Luca must’ve been, forced that boy to grow in her mind. What choices must he have made, what factors must have influenced him to reach this point? How had De Luca become De Luca, and what part had his Storm played in shaping him into De Luca?

It was no use. She was starting to get a headache, but beyond that her temples didn’t feel any different, and they certainly weren’t buzzing.

“
It’s random. Or it won’t come when I call it, only when I need it,” she said, “however it works, I can’t get it to work now.”

“
More excuses.”

“
It won’t work! I’m trying!”

“
You know, we get garzoni like you in here every now and then.” De Luca leaned forward, not a scrap of pity in his eyes, “usually Pietro or Bea will catch them, but once in a while a good enough actor comes along and fools them. You don’t actually care about art at all, do you? You couldn’t care less about graduating to journeyman.”

“
I do care-”

“
The real reason you’re here is two months of soft beds and luxury, feeding off of this studio. You took the spot that other Stormtouched, true artists, would’ve done
anything
to have. You’re wasting the time and money that could’ve been spent training them into great artists, all because of your selfish wants.”

“
That’s not true!” The tears were flowing now, and Elena didn’t know if they were tears of anger or despair, “I care! I care about art more than anything!”

“
Then you’re doing a poor job of showing it. If you really care about art,
prove it.
Use your Storm.”

“
I can’t! But that doesn’t mean I don’t care about being a garzona!”

“
Words, useless words. Use your Storm and speak with actions.”

“
I’m trying!”

“
Elena Lucciano,” De Luca roared, standing from his chair and towering above her, “your continued presence in this studio is based on the understanding that you are like no Fabera we’ve ever seen. If you can’t justify that, if you are unable or, more likely,
unwilling
to use your Storm now, then it is clear that Bea’s faith in you...MY faith in you, was misplaced. Use your Storm, Miss Lucciano, or get the hell out of my Studio and don’t bother returning!”

She bit back her tears and clamped her eyes shut. She wasn’t going to get kicked out of the studio, not now, not when she had lasted so long, not when she was finally starting to make friends with the full garzoni. It was everything she had dreamed of, friends and laughter and making art. She wasn’t going to give Leanarda the satisfaction of seeing her leave, she wasn’t going to disappoint Niccolo, and she was definitely going to prove to De Luca that she was a true artist.

Elena focused so hard that her arms and shoulders began twitching, her hands clenched so tight that the fingernails bit crescents into her skin. She focused so hard that everything became dull around her and faded away, her jaw ached, her fingers hurt, but one question remained in her mind like a single point of light that she flew towards like an arrow: “what is De Luca’s power?”

The Storm refused to come.

Elena collapsed into the chair and gasped, unaware that she had been holding her breath until her lungs rebelled. Her shoulders shook with sobs that wracked her so completely that she couldn’t even make a sound to go with them.
I’m finished. Chance after chance, close call after close call, and this is all there is. I’m done.

“
Elena! Elena listen to me, I’m not kicking you out of the studio,” De Luca’s voice seemed to come from far away, but they jolted her out of her misery.

“
You’re....you’re not?” she sniffled.

“
Of course not. You guessed that perhaps your Storm only worked when you needed it, and that wasn’t a bad idea. There are some Stormtouched whose power works only at certain times, or under certain conditions, so I thought I would test that theory out.”

“
It was a test?” Elena asked, unsure of whether to let herself hope again.

“
It was an attempt to help you figure out your powers,” De Luca said gently, “one which unfortunately didn’t work, but of course you’re still in the studio. Of all of my garzoni, everyone knows how much you love art, Elena. I’ve always known how much being a garzona means to you.”

“
You were just trying to help me,” Elena said, weak with relief.

“
That was very cruel,” Ele’s voice had an edge of hostility in it, and he was glaring daggers at De Luca, “I’ve never heard of a Stormtouched suddenly figuring out more about their Storm by being bullied, or by thinking they lost the thing they cared about the most.”

“
Ele-” Elena began, but De Luca held up a hand.

“
It’s alright, Elena, he is quite right. It
was
cruel, Ele. But I happen to know first-hand that such a Stormtouched exists. Elena’s Storm is not mine, but...let us just say we may be different, but I think we are similar in many ways as well. I had hoped what worked for me might’ve worked for her...ah well. I think I have tormented the both of you enough for one day. Elena, you may go now. You and I will continue working on figuring your Storm out, but I don’t think we’ll try this tactic again. We’ll find a gentler way to explore your Storm.”

“
Thank you, Master De Luca.” Elena’s legs wobbled when she stood, and she had gone all the way to the doorway before a question suddenly occurred to her. “If my Storm wasn’t working when I guessed, then what is the real reason you live in Milia? You’re one of the best, why
don’t
you stay in Florenzia?”

“
Oh just because your Storm wasn’t working doesn’t mean all of your wild guesses were wrong, Elena.” The wizened man carefully opened his book to the place he had been reading, but he gave Elena a friendly smile that made the corners of his eyes wrinkle. “I am far too dangerous for royalty to risk being around me for too long.”

The days of late autumn were still just a bit too hot during the daylight hours, but the nights had begun to take on a chill that warned of the fast-approaching winter. After checking with Bea and Pietro, Elena had found a store of extra blankets in the studio, and now she lay in her bed under three of them, trying to come up with ideas for a bow.

“
What if we put something sharp on the bow itself, so Niccolo could use it as a melee weapon if someone got too close?” Ele suggested from his chair in the corner. He leaned back and stared at the ceiling, clearly not as enthusiastic about the project as she was.

“
Something sharp will cause actual damage, so it’s not really helpful in the inter-studio battles,” Elena pointed out.

“
It’ll make him look scarier though. Intimidation can be helpful.”

“
But Niccolo is a Saggitari, his Storm only helps him when it comes to ranged weapons. He would be hopeless using his bow as a melee weapon. His Storm might not even work with the bow, since it technically wouldn’t be a ranged weapon anymore.”

“
Is that how it works?” Ele asked curiously, “does a Storm know the difference between a bow that’s used for melee and a bow that’s used for range? You think his Touch would suddenly stop working if it was changed?”

“
I don’t know, Ele, can we just focus on this please?” Elena frowned and tried again to force her Storm into action. Once again it failed her, and she clenched her fists on the bedcovers.

“Your lack of curiosity is frustrating," Ele said, “you used to be just as curious about things as I am, back before we came here.”

“I just have better things to do now!” Elena snapped. “You’ve just been so obsessed with how the Storm works, and meanwhile I’ve been the only one trying to figure something out to keep us in the Studio!”

“No, what you’ve been trying to do is make Niccolo a bow when your Storm is clearly trying to tell you it’s not interested in doing that. We’re supposed to be getting the Storm to work, and instead you’re trying to out-stubborn it.”

“You’re talking about the Storm like it’s a person Ele, instead of a force of nature. The Storm can’t be stubborn if it can’t think.”

“Can’t it? I’ve never known a wildfire or a flood to target certain people, much less to know the difference between a ranged and melee weapon. It certainly gives people powers that I wouldn’t expect from a mindless force of nature.”

Elena wasn’t sure why, but the discussion was sending prickles down her arms.

“It gives people tools that they can use," she said, “you might as well say a hammer is intelligent because houses are built with one.”

“What about Echoes? It’s obvious we have something to do with the Storm, do you think a force of nature is capable of birthing or creating creatures of such vast intelligence?” Even with his joking manner, Ele seemed to be deep in thought, and Elena wasn’t entirely sure what to say. Her Echo had never before voice thoughts about what he was or where he came from. “Anyway,” Ele continued, “all of this is beyond the point of our discussion.”

“
And what was that?”

“
That you need to stop making this bow for Niccolo.”

“
Ele, you can argue all you want, you can’t convince me-” Elena was interrupted by a quiet knock on the door of her room. Sighing at the further distraction, she rose to open it. Waiting in the hallway outside were Niccolo, Vittoria, and Frederica. They looked quite serious and grave, although it was always hard to distinguish one of Frederica’s scowls from another.

“
We need to talk to you, Elena,” Vittoria said, “can we come in?”

Elena nodded and stood aside, feeling for the first time that her room was just a little cramped. Niccolo closed the door and slid to the floor next to it, sitting with his back against the wall and resting one arm on his knee. Frederica stood next to the chair that Ele occupied, her perpetual frown seeming less angry and more her natural expression. Vittoria sat on the end of Elena’s bed, so that when Elena returned to it and sat down she was faced with all three full garzoni.

“
Where are your Echoes?” she asked.

“
They’re out in the hallway and nearby, keeping an eye out,” Niccolo said, “making sure no human or Echo spies on us.”

“
Isn’t it normally your job to keep watch, ‘Hundred Eye’?” Elena joked, but none of the other three garzoni cracked a smile.

“
All my eyes are closed tonight,” Vittoria said, her manner crisp and very different from her normally dreamy and distracted demeanor, “this discussion is too serious to split my attention.”

“
That seems a little somber...is that really necessary?” Elena wasn’t sure she liked how the three full garzoni exchanged glances at the question.

“
Elena, we think that Leanarda and Mella are working together to keep their place in the studio.”

“
Oh! They are,” Elena nodded, “I think I was technically supposed to be a part of that too, but they don’t trust me anymore. Aren’t we all working to keep our place in the studio?”

“
There’s a difference,” Vittoria said, “the rest of us are working hard on our art, those two are working hard at being underhanded.”

“
Frederica overheard them talking to Lorenzo,” Niccolo explained. “Apparently your little design of a bow has given him some new idea for lodestones, but they’re trying to convince him that he should steal your project idea wholesale. ‘Build a better bow than Elena can’.”

“
That’s...not very nice,” Elena said, “but I would sort of expect that of Leanarda. I mean yes, she’s very cutthroat about this whole process, but there are only four slots in De Luca’s studio, aren’t there?”

“
Four slots for the four best artists, not the four people who can most easily tear each other down,” Vittoria said firmly, “those two are much better at destruction than they are at creation, and none of us want to be full garzoni alongside someone like Leanarda, having to watch our backs when all we want to do is focus on art.”

“
She destroyed my bird,” Frederica growled, “if she’ll destroy art now, she’ll destroy it as a full garzona whenever she wants to look good to De Luca.”

“
That bird might’ve been an accident,” Elena said uncertainly.

“
Leanarda was the one who planted the wine, Elena,” Ele broke in. “There was nothing accidental about that.”

“
Planted wine?” Niccolo raised an eyebrow.

“
Someone put a wineskin under my pillow, in my first week here, then reported it to Pietro,” Elena explained, “but Ele, it was Leanarda who warned me about the wine in the first place.”

“
And she warned you right about the time she was trying to get you to trust her,” Ele pointed out, “right after she’d given you a speech about how every one of the garzoni would try to stab you in the back. Think, Elena, if it wasn’t Leanarda, who do you think it was?”

Elena considered the question. Lorenzo was too scatterbrained when not thinking about lodestones, and she couldn’t see Vittoria or Niccolo being so underhanded. Frederica might have tried to get her kicked out of the studio, but she was straightforward and blunt, intrigue wasn’t really her style. The only garzoni Elena could even picture planting the wine was Leanarda, Mella, or..

“
Where is Carlo?” she asked suddenly.

“
Carlo isn’t interested in helping. He doesn’t stick his neck out for anyone,” Elena caught a flash of annoyance on Vittoria’s face, unusual for the typically happy garzona, “but he also doesn’t stick his neck out to hurt anyone. Carla is convinced that as long as they keeps their heads down, they’ll be fine, and he trusts her.”

“
Alright...” Elena stared at the floor, trying to take in all of the information, “...so Leanarda is out to get me, and maybe has been for some time. What exactly should I do about it?”

“
I like to think we’re a little more mature about the nature of being a De Luca garzoni.” It was eerie how serious and grave Vittoria seemed when all of her concentration was in one place; she was obviously so used to multitasking that when she focused she became intense. “We know that De Luca can only have four of us, but it’s not De Luca’s fault, and we don’t have to be enemies here. It’s better for everyone concerned if we don’t drag each other down to get ahead, but rather raise each other up-”

“
We’re here to help you with your final project,” Frederica interrupted, “a bow is a stupid idea.”

“
I would’ve phrased it a little differently,” Vittoria winced, “but essentially, yes, we’re here to talk you out of your idea of making a bow.”

“
That’s what I’ve been trying to tell her,” Ele chuckled.

“
But I’ve made something for all of the full garzoni but you, Niccolo,” Elena said.

“
I can handle being left out,” Niccolo shrugged from the floor, “but a bow, no matter how nice, isn’t going to impress De Luca.”

“
It might,” Elena said defensively, “if it was an elaborate enough bow.”

“
Elena, do you know what the rest of the garzoni are doing for our projects?”

“
I know that everyone is keeping their projects locked away in their rooms. I know Frederica is doing something huge, because I helped her pick out the block of wood.”

“
Frederica is trying to carve a living statue of maple wood. A human statue, like Pietro,” Niccolo said. Elena blinked. It was the thing that mythical Caelator in stories were best known for, after all, but actual human statues were rare. It was mostly Master artists who created them, and if Frederica could pull it off she would be known throughout the city.

“
That’s...that’s amazing,” Elena stammered.

“
Vittoria has been talking to the Bishop in charge of the cathedral near the West gate of the city, trying to convince him to let her bring a team of painters to paint a mural of
Christus
set against a backdrop of a storm on the cathedral belltower...”

“
That would be pretty-”

“
...a painting of which Vittoria would paint the eyes,” Niccolo finished. “She would be able to watch an entire eighth of Milia if she succeeded, any time she chose to focus through them.” Elena’s mouth was suddenly dry as Niccolo continued. “I’m a Saggitari, De Luca will either keep me or get rid of me as the studio needs a Saggitari, but even I’m trying something new. I’m showing off very very thin arrows, sharp enough to punch through stone.”

“
I get it,” Elena said, but Niccolo kept talking.

“
Carlo is trying to paint his first full fresco, something he’s been training for years to do. It’s an image of an oracle, one that will
actually tell him the future
. Not just symbols or signs, if it works it will speak to him and tell him what the future holds. Leanarda and Mella are keeping apart from us, but if they’ve been clever enough to keep the nature of their Storms away from us, they’re clever enough to know what they’ll need to do to prove their worth. Lorenzo...well I’m not entirely sure Lorenzo even realizes that he’s competing. And you...”

“
I was going to bring a bow,” Elena whispered.

“
You were going to bring a bow,” Niccolo nodded. “It was very well intentioned, and I can’t help but smile. I would very much like a bow crafted by my favorite Fabera, but maybe wait until after we both make full garzona, yes?”

“
I can’t believe I was going to bring a bow,” Elena looked back and forth between her three friends. She was still reeling from the sheer magnitude of their undertakings, the raw power of the Stormtouched in the room making her head spin. Her mind jumped to the horrible thought of showing a simple bow to De Luca, of displaying it sheepishly after they all showed off their successes. The thought made her shudder. “I need to think of something awe-inspiring.”

“
That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you,” Ele said, exasperated.

“
It’s alright, Ele,” Vittoria stood from the bed, a dreamy expression slowly coming over her face, “sometimes people need to hear from many different sources before it filters through.”

“
Thank you all,” Elena said as the others stood to leave, “I would’ve made a fool out of myself if you hadn’t warned me.”

“Dammit
, I knew we shouldn’t have come, that would’ve been amusing to watch,” Niccolo grinned.

“
Leave the poor girl alone, Niccolo,” Vittoria smiled, “and of course, Elena. Whatever four make it through, you deserve a fair shot.”

“
I just wish it wasn’t limited to four,” Elena sighed. Vittoria paused at the door as Elena thought aloud. “How could I be happy, knowing that if I succeed it means someone I care about doesn’t? How does someone live with themselves knowing someone else had to fail to keep their own dream alive?”