A Son Of The Circus (47 page)

That week between Christmas and New Year’s, when the first American missionary was due to arrive at St Ignatius in Mazagaon, the Jesuit mission prepared a celebration in honor of 1990. St Ignatius was a Bombay landmark; it would soon be 125 years old – in all these years, it had faithfully managed its holy and secular tasks without the assistance of an American. The management of St Ignatius was a threesome of responsibility, and these three had been almost as successful as the Blessed Trinity. The Father Rector (Father Julian, who was 68 years old and English), the senior priest (Father Cecil, who was 72 and Indian), and Brother Gabriel (who was around 75 and had fled Spain after the Civil War) were a triumvirate of authority that was seldom questioned and never overruled; they were also unanimous in their opinion that St Ignatius could continue to serve mankind and the heavenly kingdom without the aid of any American –yet one had been offered. To be sure, they would have preferred another Indian, or at least a European, but since these three wise men were of an average age of 71 years and eight months, they were attracted to one aspect of the ‘young’ scholastic, as they called him. At 39, Martin Mills was no kid. Only Dr Daruwalla would have judged ‘young’ Martin to be unsuitably old for a man who was still in training to be a priest. That the so-called scholastic was almost 40 was at least mildly comforting to Father Julian and Father Cecil and Brother Gabriel, although they shared the conviction that the mission’s 125th jubilee was diminished by their obligation to welcome the former Californian, who was allegedly fond of Hawaiian shirts.

They knew of this laughable eccentricity from the otherwise impressive dossier of Martin Mills, whose letters of recommendation were glowing. However, the Father Rector said that when it came to Americans, one must read between the lines. For example, Father Julian pointed out, Martin Mills had evidently eschewed his native California, although nowhere in his dossier did it say so. He’d been schooled elsewhere in the United States and had taken a teaching job in Boston, which was about as far away from California as one could get. Clearly, said Father Julian, this indicated that Martin Mills had come from a troubled family. Perhaps it was his own mother or father whom he’d ‘eschewed.’

And along with young Martin’s unexplained attraction to the garish, which Father Julian concluded was the root cause of the scholastic’s reported fondness for Hawaiian shirts, there was mention in the dossier of Martin Mills’s success with apostolic work – even as a novice, and especially with young people. Bombay’s St Ignatius was a good school, and Martin Mills was expected to be a good teacher; most of the students weren’t Catholics — many weren’t even Christians. ‘It won’t do to have a crazed American proselyte-hunting among our pupils,’ the Father Rector warned, although there was no mention in the dossier of Martin Mills being either ‘crazed’ or a proselyte-hunter.

The dossier did say that he’d undertaken a six-week pilgrimage as part of his novitiate, and that during this pilgrimage he’d spent no money — not a penny. He’d managed to find places to live and work in return for humanitarian services; these included soup kitchens for the homeless, hospitals for handicapped children, homes for the elderly, shelters for
AIDS
patients and a clinic for babies suffering from fetal alcohol syndrome – this was on a Native American reservation.

Brother Gabriel and Father Cecil were inclined to view Martin Mills’s dossier in a positive light. Father Julian, on the other hand, quoted from Thomas a Kempis’s Imitation
of Christ
: ‘Be rarely with young people and strangers.’ The Father Rector had read through Martin Mills’s dossier as if it were a code to be deciphered. The task of teaching at St Ignatius, and otherwise serving the mission, was a part of the typical three-year service in preparation for the priesthood; it was called regency, and it was followed by another three years of theological study. Ordination followed theology; Martin Mills would complete a fourth year of theological study after his ordination.

He’d completed the two-year Jesuit novitiate at St Aloysius in Massachusetts, which Father Julian said was an extremist’s choice because of the reputed harshness of its winters. This suggested a proneness to self-flagellation and other chastisements of the flesh –even an inclination to fasting, which the Jesuits discouraged; they encouraged fasting only in moderation. But, once again, the Father Rector seemed to be searching through Martin Mills’s dossier for some hidden evidence of the scholastic’s flawed character. Brother Gabriel and Father Cecil pointed out to Father Julian that Martin had joined the New England Province of the Society of Jesus while he was teaching in Boston. The province’s novitiate was in Massachusetts; it was only natural for Martin Mills to have been a novice at St Aloysius – it hadn’t really been a ‘choice.’

But why had he taught for 10 years in a dismal parochial school in Boston? His dossier didn’t say that the school was ‘dismal’; however, it was admitted that the school was not accredited. Actually, it was a kind of reform school, where young criminals were encouraged to give up their delinquent behavior; as far as the Father Rector could tell, the means by which this was accomplished was theatrical. Martin Mills had directed
plays
wherein all the roles were acted by former felons and miscreants and thugs! In such an environment Martin Mills had first felt his vocation – namely, he d felt Christ’s presence and had been drawn to the priesthood. But why did it take 10 years? Father Julian questioned. After completing his novitiate, Martin Mills was sent to Boston College to study philosophy–that met with the Father Rector’s approval. But then, in the midst of his regency, young Martin had requested a three-month ‘experiment’ in India. Did this mean that the scholastic had suffered doubts about his vocation? Father Julian asked.

‘Well, we’ll soon see,’ Father Cecil said. ‘He seems perfectly all right to me.’ Father Cecil had almost said that Martin Mills seemed perfectly ‘Loyola-like,’ but he’d thought better of it because he knew how the Father Rector distrusted those Jesuits who too consciously patterned their behavior on the life of St Ignatius Loyola – the founder of the Jesuit order, the Society of Jesus.

Even
a
pilgrimage could be a fool’s errand when undertaken by a fool.
The Spiritual Exercises
of St Ignatius Loyola is a handbook for the retreat master, not for the retreatant; it was never intended to be published, much less memorized by would-be priests – not that Martin Mills’s dossier suggested that the missionary had followed the
Spiritual Exercises
to such an excess. Once again, the Father Rector’s suspicion of Martin Mills’s extreme piety was intuitive. Father Julian suspected all Americans of an unflagging fanaticism, which the Father Rector believed was emboldened by a frightening reliance on self-education – or ‘reading on a deserted island,’ as Father Julian called an American education. Father Cecil, on the other hand, was a kindly man – of that school which said Martin Mills should be given a chance to prove himself.

The senior priest chided the Father Rector for his cynicism: ‘You don’t know for a fact that our Martin wanted to be a novice at St Aloysius because he
sought
the harshness of a New England winter.’ Father Cecil further implied that Father Julian was only guessing that Martin Mills had hoped to attend St Aloysius as a form of penitential practice, to chastise his flesh. Indeed, Father Julian was wrong. Had he known the
real
reason why Martin Mills wanted St Aloysius for his novitiate, the Father Rector
really
would have been worried, for Martin Mills had desired to be a novice at St Aloysius solely because of his identification with St Aloysius Gonzaga, that avid Italian whose chastity was so fervent that he refused to look upon his own mother after taking his permanent vows.

This was Martin Mills’s favorite example of that ‘custody of the senses’ which every Jesuit sought to attain. To Martin’s thinking, there was much to admire in the very notion of never again seeing one’s own mother. His mother, after all, was Veronica Rose, and to deny himself even a farewell glimpse of
her
would certainly be enhancing to his Jesuitical goal of keeping his voice, his body and his curiosity in check. Martin Mills was very much held in check, and both his pious intentions and the life that had fueled them were more fanatically shot through and through with zeal than Father Julian could have guessed.

And now Brother Gabriel — that 75-year-old icon collector – had lost the scholastic’s letter. If they didn’t know when the new missionary was arriving, how could they meet his plane?

‘After all,’ Father Julian said, ‘it seems that our Martin
likes
challenges.’

Father Cecil thought that this was cruel of the Father Rector. For Martin Mills to arrive in Bombay at that dead-of-night hour when the international flights landed in Sahar, and then to have to find his own way to the mission, which would be locked up and virtually impenetrable until the early-morning Mass … this was worse than any pilgrimage the missionary had previously undertaken.

‘After all,’ Father Julian said with characteristic sarcasm, ‘St Ignatius Loyola managed to find his way to Jerusalem. No one met
his
plane.’

It was unfair, Father Cecil thought. And so he’d called Dr Daruwalla to ask the doctor if he knew when Martin Mills was arriving. But the senior priest had reached only the doctor’s answering machine, and Dr Daruwalla hadn’t returned his call. And so Father Cecil prayed for Martin Mills in general. In particular, Father Cecil prayed that the missionary would not have too traumatic a first encounter upon his arrival in Bombay.

Brother Gabriel also prayed for Martin Mills in general. In particular, Brother Gabriel prayed that he might yet find the scholastic’s lost letter. But the letter was never found. Long before Dr Daruwalla drifted into sleep, in the midst of his efforts to locate a movie star who resembled the second Mrs Dogar, Brother Gabriel gave up looking for the letter and went to bed, where he also fell asleep. When Vinod drove Muriel home – it was while the dwarf and the exotic: dancer were considering the vileness of the clientele at the Wetness Cabaret – Father Cecil stopped praying, and then he fell asleep, too. And shortly after Vinod noticed that
Inspector Dhar and the Towers of Silence
was about to be launched upon the sleeping city, Father Julian locked the cloister gate and the school-bus gate and the gate that admitted entrance to St Ignatius Church. And shortly after that, the Father Rector was sound asleep as well.

At approximately 2:00 in the morning — that very same hour when the poster-wallas were plastering the advertisements for the new Inspector Dhar movie all over Bombay, and when Vinod was cruising by the brothels in Kamathipura – the airplane carrying Dhar’s twin landed safely in Sahar. Dhar himself was at that moment sleeping on Dr Daruwalla’s balcony.

However, the customs official who looked back and forth from the intense expression of the new missionary to the utterly bland passport photograph of Martin Mills was convinced that he stood face-to-face with Inspector Dhar. The Hawaiian shirt was a mild surprise, for the customs official couldn’t imagine why Dhar would attempt to conceal himself as a tourist; similarly, shaving off the identifying Dhar mustache was a lame disguise – with the upper lip exposed, something of the inimitable Dhar sneer was even more pronounced.

It was a U.S. passport –
that
was clever! thought the customs official – but the passport admitted that this so-called Martin Mills had been born in Bombay. The customs official pointed to this evidence in the passport; then he winked at the missionary, as a way of indicating to Inspector Dhar that
this
customs official was nobody’s fool.

Martin Mills was very tired; it had been a long flight, which he’d spent studying Hindi and otherwise informing himself of the particulars of ‘native behavior.’ He knew all about the salaam, for example, but the customs official had distinctly
winked
at him – he had not salaamed — and Martin Mills hadn’t encountered any information regarding the wink in his reading about native behavior. The missionary didn’t wish to be impolite; therefore, he winked back, and he salaamed a little, too, just to be sure.

The customs official was very pleased with himself. He’d seen the wink in a recent Charles Bronson movie, but he was uncertain if it would be a cool thing to do to Inspector Dhar; above all, in dealing with Dhar, the customs official wanted to be perceived as cool. Unlike most Bombayites and all policemen, the customs official
loved
Inspector Dhar movies. So far, no customs officials had been portrayed in the films; therefore, none had been offended. And prior to his service as a customs official, he’d been rejected for police work; therefore, the constant mockery of the police – the prevalence of bribe taking, which was basic to every Inspector Dhar movie — was adored by the customs official.

Nevertheless, it was most irregular for someone to be entering the country under a false identity, and the customs official wanted Dhar to know that he was hip to Dhar’s disguise, while at the same time he would do nothing to interfere with the creative genius who stood before him. Besides, Dhar didn’t look well. His color was poor – he was mostly pale and blotchy – and he appeared to have lost a lot of weight.

‘Is this your first time in Bombay since your birth?’ the customs official asked Martin Mills. Thereupon the official winked again and smiled.

Martin Mills smiled and winked back. ‘Yes,’ he said. ‘But I’m going to stay here for at least three months.’

This was an absurdity to the customs official, but he insisted on being cool about it. He saw that the missionary’s visa was ‘conditional’; it was possible to extend it for three months. The examination of the visa elicited more winking. It was also expected of the customs official that he looked through the missionary’s belongings. For a visit of three months, the scholastic had brought only a single suitcase, albeit a large and heavy one, and in his ungainly luggage were some surprises: the black shirts with the white detachable collars – for although Martin Mills wasn’t an ordained priest, he was permitted to wear such clerical garb. There was also a wrinkled black suit and about a half-dozen more Hawaiian shirts, and then came the
culpa
beads and the foot-long whip with the braided cords, not to mention the leg iron that was worn around the thigh; the wire prongs pointed inward, toward the flesh. But the customs official remained calm; he just kept smiling and winking, despite his horror at the instruments of self-torture.