A Sinful Vow: Inked Angels MC (8 page)

It was kind of surprising how long this little clash had lasted at all. I’d been the world’s biggest asshole to her, and even though she fought back, there was always part of her that wasn’t fighting. She’d wanted it—I could spot that shit from a mile away. That part made it hard for me to leave.

But it just wasn’t worth it anymore. I’d tell Croak that he’d have to find another way to bury the hatchet with Luke, because this was just too fucked to keep going. Then I’d rinse my hands of the whole damn mess and go get a nice buzz, pound some clubhouse whore, and get back to my normal life.

I stopped off at a gas station along the road to phone Croak.

“Eh?” answered Steezy when I dialed the president’s office line.

“Steez, I need to talk to Croak,” I said.

“He ain’t in.”

“It’s important.”

“Yeah, well, he ain’t in, brother. Not much I can do about that.”

“Where’d he go?”

“Hell if I know.”

“Any idea when he’ll be back?”

“Nope.”

“You’re just full of helpful information, aren’t you?”

“No need to be a wise ass, Blaze,” he drawled.

“Better than a dumbass like you,” I retorted. Steezy chuckled, then hung up. What a bastard.

I set the phone back on the hook and walked out. Guess I’d have to do the getting drunk part of my plan before I let Croak know that the marriage was no longer an option.

I found my way to a dusty country bar with boarded windows, set off the road a bit. My kind of place. The music was loud enough that I didn’t have to hear any of the other poor bastards drinking alone at the bar. Me and my friend Jack Daniels could keep to ourselves, have a real nice conversation without being forced to deal with the dregs of humanity that always found their way to me when I was having a shitty fucking day like today.

I slapped the bar counter as I pulled up a stool. The bartender, a wrinkly old son of a bitch with callused knuckles that had probably split their fair share of skulls wide open, meandered over.

“What’ll ya have?” he asked.

“Whiskey, neat,” I told him. “Matter of fact, leave the whole damn bottle.”

“Whatever you want, kid,” he told me.

I sat and poured myself glass after glass until there was a good buzz going in my stomach and thoughts about Olivia had faded to the back-burner. I’d deal with that shit tomorrow. Right now, all I wanted was the next sip.

A while later, someone plunked down in the seat next to me. I looked over and was surprised to see Croak. He pointed to my bottle and told the bartender, “I’ll have what he’s havin’.” The bartender nodded and brought him a fresh glass.

“So, Blaze,” he said to me as he poured himself a few fingers of whiskey from the bottle. “You left your old lady out alone.”

I didn’t bother asking how he knew what had happened. Croak had eyes on everything. He always knew shit like that.

“She ain’t my old lady,” I growled. “That shit wasn’t real.”

“Looked pretty damn real to me,” Croak replied. “Y’all had the I dos and the parts about being with each other forever, all that stuff. Lotsa people there to witness. Don’t see how you can really fake that.”

“I don’t give a damn,” I said, taking another sip. “Wasn’t real. That’s no marriage.”

Croak thought a while before he said anything else. He just sat there stroking his damn beard. He knew that shit drove me insane.

“Out with it, old man,” I told him after I’d gotten sick of waiting for him to speak up.

He chuckled. “Well, it just seems to me like you made an eternal promise. You got yourself hitched to an old lady, and then you went and left her by her lonesome? Somethin’ about that just don’t seem right to me, son.”

I didn’t like where this was going one bit. “What’re you gonna do, order me to go back there?” I raised my voice. “You’re my prez, and I’ll honor the patch, but you can’t make me go fuck her or nothin’. The most you can do is make me interrogate her about what that fuckhead brother of hers is up to. I’ll do what it takes to keep my brothers from getting killed. Aside from that, I don’t owe you or the club anything.”

Croak shrugged. “No, no, I wouldn’t do anything of the sort,” he said to me. “Wouldn’t dream of taking a man’s independence from him. That ain’t the Inked Angels way.”

He poured himself another glass as he continued. “The thing is, though, that there ain’t really another option. The way I see it, if you don’t do your part here, a lot of men could get hurt. Just heard some intel from one of our guys we’ve got planted down south,” he told me. “Lobo and the Diablos are really raring at the bit to dip their fingers into what we’ve got goin’ over here. They think this new drug they’re cookin’ up is really something. They think they can come waltzing into our territory with it, and that we won’t be able to do anything about it.”

He looked at me side-eyed. “The worst part is, they’re right. We just don’t have what it takes to keep him back if they decided to make a full-scale push into Texas.”

My hand curled into an angry fist. Croak had me cornered, and he knew it.

“So,” he went on, “like it or not, we need the Austin charter. They’ve got the upper hand on weapons, not to mention the manpower we need to keep the Diablos down where they belong.”

This wasn’t news to me. I knew the situation, just like he’d laid it out the first time. The news that the Diablos were prepping to make a big move didn’t surprise me either. But it meant the stakes were higher.

“There’s more to it though,” said Croak. “You knew all this already, Blaze. I don’t think you needed to hear it again. So I’m startin’ to wonder whether there’s something else going on with you. Somethin’ goin’ soft in that head of yours? Is there more to it with this old lady of yours?”

I stared him straight in the eyes and lied. “Ain’t a damn thing soft about me, Croak, and if you weren’t my president, I’d have beat that face of yours into a pulp just for making the suggestion.”

A tense silence hung in the air when I’d finished speaking. Croak raised that cryptic fucking eyebrow again, saying everything and nothing at the same time. Damn, if only I could’ve smacked that bastard right off his bar stool.

“Come with me,” he said abruptly, pushing back from the bar. I asked where he was going, but he ignored me as he wound between the other patrons and headed for a back door.

We pushed out the exit and crossed a dusty yard towards another house that sat out back. I didn't know what this place was. The windows were bright and full, and silhouettes moved across them. Croak walked up the steps and knocked at the door. A slit opened at eye level, then shut. The door swung open.

“Croak, baby, so good to see you!” said a curvy older woman wearing a dress and boots.

“Hey, darlin’,” he said to her. “Corinne, this is Blaze. He’d like to see the selection tonight, if you’d be so kind as to show us around.”

“Well, of course!” she exclaimed. “What a good-lookin’ big fella you are,” she said, eyeing me up and down. “One might not be enough for ya!”

I had no idea what in the hell she was talking about, but the way she looked at me, I knew I was in for something.

We followed Corinne into the house, walking into a plush waiting room. Corinne pointed toward an overstuffed chair and told Croak to make himself comfortable.

“Sure will,” he said, easing into the chair and sparking a cigarette.

“This way, Blaze,” she said, gesturing for me to walk in front of her down the long hallway lined with doors on either side. The doors each had a glass panel at eye level. They were foggy, so I couldn’t see much more than vague blurry shapes inside.

I looked back at Croak, but he refused to look at me. Instead, he just sat smoking his cigarette with an unreadable expression on his face, gazing off into the distance.

I turned back towards Corinne. She pressed a switch on the wall, and the lights overhead dimmed into a low red glow. Suddenly, the glass on the doors was crystal clear, and I could see right through. She swept a hand down the hall. “Take a look, babe,” she told me. “Have anyone you like.”

I turned to look through the door nearest to me. Inside was a circular bed, neatly made, and a few pieces of bedroom furniture. Perched on the bed was a dark-skinned brunette wearing six-inch stiletto heels. Her legs were spread wide open, and two manicured nails were rubbing frenetic circles against her moist pussy. I could hear soft moans coming from her wide open O of a mouth as she got closer and closer to coming.

The next door down had a blonde bent over a chair, gently fingering herself from behind. She bit her lip and groaned as the motion picked up speed and intensity.

Each of the rooms was the same—a beautiful, naked girl, brimming on the edge of orgasm after orgasm. The whole house was quivering from the commotion. This was every man’s dream.

But not mine, not tonight.
What the fuck is wrong with you?
I asked myself.
Have any bitch you’ve ever wanted. Curvy, thin, tall, short, blonde, or brunette. Fuck them however you’d like, for as long as you’d like, as many as you can handle at one time.

A man could spend years in here, I was sure, trying everything under the goddamn sun.

But I didn’t want it.

One image kept coming back to me, like it was seared into my eyeballs: Olivia, twirling in that winding leather lingerie, looking up at me and asking, “Do you like it?” That image made my cock harden like nothing else in this house could.

I wondered if I’d ever go back to being me, the old me, the Blaze who fucked what he pleased and didn’t get attached to any bitch. I wondered if marriage had already screwed me over, or if Olivia had done some real voodoo on my brain. I didn’t have an answer.

There was only one thing to do.

“Alright,” I growled to Croak as I stalked past him and out the door. “I’ll finish the damn job. I’ll go back to the old lady.”

Croak didn’t say a word as I left. That son of a bitch.

* * *

I pushed open the door of the room. It was dark inside, with moonlight seeping in through the thin lace curtains. I saw Olivia curled up on the bed, her bare back gently rising and falling with every breath. I padded across the room, taking off my boots, my jacket, my jeans.

I stood still for a moment and watched her sleep. I’d never before experienced this feeling of wanting to protect something and break it at the same time. I wanted both to pull her close and fuck her senseless, all at once. This shit was maddening.

I took a deep breath, then slipped under the covers next to her. She stirred slightly, then scooted her ass back against my hips, never waking, just letting her body’s desire pull her where it wanted to go—next to mine. I wrapped my arm around her waist.

Alright,
I told the voice in my head, just like I’d told Croak in the whorehouse.
I’ll ride this out
.

It was about to be a ride I wouldn’t ever forget.

Chapter 5: The Beach
Olivia

The whole world was moving. The bike between my legs hummed, Blaze’s back in front of me rose and fell with each deep breath, and the scenery flew by on either side of us in long streaks of color. The ocean chased us to our left. I saw dolphins breaking the water and waves lapping the shore. On my right, rocky hills lumped up and down.

My body was sore from hours on the motorcycle, hunched over against the wind. I tapped Blaze on the shoulder and mouthed, “Can we stop?” He grunted and we pulled into the next gas station.

I let out a long sigh as I stretched my legs. My muscles were tense and aching, but I couldn’t lie—the vibrating motorcycle felt good between my thighs.

“Only an hour or so left,” Blaze growled.

Thank God. We’d left Houston the day before yesterday and it had been two hard days of riding. We were on our way to a villa that the Inked Angels MC owned on the Gulf Coast. It was a tradition for Inked Angels and their old ladies to take a honeymoon of sorts. I hadn’t even bothered trying to fight it, I knew there was no chance of convincing Blaze to buck tradition.

Besides, as much as I thought Blaze was a huge asshole, part of me wanted to stay near him. It was causing a bizarre fight internally—my body wanting to be close to him, while every word he said just made me feel more and more like I was losing control of myself, giving all power over to him. It felt like falling. I wondered when I would wake up.

I also wondered what the next few days would be like. Just Blaze and me, trapped in this sham marriage, but stuck together in a tiny villa with no one else for miles around. I thought back to the night in the bed and breakfast, just after the wedding. How he had just left me alone. At first, I’d been thrilled about it. After that scene in the lingerie shop, when he’d thrown me to the ground and pressed himself on top of me while I lay damn near naked underneath him, it felt good to be by myself for a little bit.

I’d always said that I wanted to be independent. I hated when Luke told me what to do, even though I’d put up with it my whole life. What I was struggling with was the fact that when Blaze was on top of me, owning me with just his eyes, I loved it. I wanted more.

I looked at Blaze as he walked out from the store. He had such a bad boy swagger, and that cocky grin that never left his face. He didn’t even have to talk to make my body start to hunger for his. All it took was a single glance.

“Ready?” he asked as he approached.

“Ready,” I told him. It was getting harder and harder to hide the turmoil raging inside me.

I shook my head and reminded myself he was an asshole. I wasn’t going to let him anywhere near me—not this weekend, not ever.

We climbed back on the motorcycle. It purred to life, then we took off down the highway.

* * *

Blaze pushed open the door to the room. I walked in after him and dropped my bags to the floor.

The place was stunning—a huge suite, with an attached bathroom where a granite counter top stretched for what seemed like miles in front of a glistening mirror. The shower was encased in glass. In the bedroom, a massive bed waited with pristine silk sheets.

I stepped forward onto the porch, which took up an entire wall. The balcony looked out straight over the ocean. White sand beach swooped in a delicate little bay, bordered on either side by low mountains.The crash of waves was soothing and quiet. I noticed with a gulp that the whole scene was contained in itself. There was nothing else as far as I could see.

We were alone.

I turned back towards Blaze. “First things first,” I told him, screwing my face into a sassy little pout. I was going to be the one making decisions around here, not him. “I’m not sharing that bed with you.” I crossed my arms and waited for his response.

But he didn’t say anything. He just stared at me for a moment, then walked out onto the porch to see the view for himself. The wind tousled his hair gently. I saw him take a deep inhale of the salty air, sighing like it was delicious in his nostrils.

God, he was so handsome. Why did he have to be so dominating? The way his chin stuck out, sharp and strong. His biceps, bulging with one long, winding vein, even though he was simply resting his hands on the railing. His eyes that glinted with so much intelligence and wit.

The thoughts played out over and over. I had to ignore them. “So?” I demanded. He still hadn’t said anything. “Say something, c’mon,” I said.

He didn’t even look at me. I walked up and pushed him in the shoulder. “Say something,” I repeated. “Say anything.”

Slowly, he spun his gaze in my direction. I swallowed hard, immediately regretting my decision to prod for a reply. His eyes took me in, turned me over and over in their depths. The breeze played across us, sending wisps of my hair swirling in front of my face.

The fierceness of my attitude had lost some of its edge. It was exactly like when I’d walked home from school five years ago and seen him looking at me from the porch of his house. There was no way I could know what he was thinking. So much was moving in his eyes—hunger and confidence and strength and the barest hint of violence. I’d never met a man before who could look at me and show all of that without saying a word. I felt awed by it. For a moment, my will to push him away from me wavered.

We looked at each other for what felt like forever. He was calm. His breath came in slow, even sighs. I tried hard not to watch how his muscular chest strained against his shirt with every inhale and exhale. In the distance, the waves kept crashing and birds chirped.

What the hell was I supposed to do with this beautiful man? He seemed so intent on breaking me. How could I let him? But more importantly, how could I stop him?

“Whatever you want,” he finally said.

Whatever I want?
Blaze was definitely trying to drive me insane. He knew he was so hard to read and he knew that it made me batshit crazy to be teased and confused like that.

“What kind of an answer is that?” I yelped. “Whatever I want? You don’t have to be so mysterious all the fucking time, you know!”

I thought I had started to understand him. Just a couple days ago, I’d woken up for a moment in the early hours of the morning during our night in the bed and breakfast. I was sleepy, but I could’ve sworn that he’d had his arm draped gently over me. He’d been holding me, not like some piece of property to be used and cast aside, but like something else…like his wife.

Now, though, looking into his eyes, I wasn’t sure whether I had dreamed the whole thing. Maybe I’d made it all up. Maybe I’d just wanted to be held by him, to believe there was more to him than the son of a bitch who’d dressed me in that lingerie and paraded me in front of him like I was his whore.

I poked him again, demanding an answer. I needed more than this. I had to know what he was thinking, what was going on inside of him, what he thought of me, what he wanted from me. He was impossible to predict or even to understand. Did he want me as his old lady? Did he just want to fuck me? Or did he want nothing to do with me at all? I had so many questions that were dying to be asked, but I didn’t even know where to begin; what’s more, I couldn’t let him know he was doing all of this to me. If there was any chance of me making it out of this fake marriage with my sanity intact, I had to keep it together while I found a way to break open this maddening man.

My shove did nothing. He brushed me off of him and turned back to face the ocean. I pouted for a moment, then stalked back inside.

“I’m taking a shower,” I announced over my shoulder.

Blaze didn’t bother answering.

Inside the cavernous shower, steam rose in spirals from the hot water. It was probably coming out of my head, too, based on how mad I was.

That son of a bitch owed me answers. I couldn’t be locked in this godforsaken villa with him for the next three days if things kept going like this.

The problem was, I just couldn’t decide what I wanted.

I looked down at my body. Wet hair clung to my pale shoulders, which were dusted with light freckles. My breasts were big but still firm to the touch. I caressed one nipple, letting it peak slowly under my attention. I felt the sensation of little murmurs rippling through my body as I traced soft circles.

My other hand edged slowly down my side, past where my ribs swooped in to my thin waist, feeling the curve of my ass as it swelled outward. The skin there was also firm, thanks to years of running and lifting weights. I moved my left hand from there towards the hip bone that jutted out, and then further, to the soft rectangle of hair that sat above my slit. The fingertips of my right hand maintained their steady rotation on my nipple, letting the waves keep churning across my skin.

That bastard. He lurked at the corner of my thoughts, silent and frustrating, but so sexy. I wanted to feel his hands where mine were. I wanted to peel that sweaty shirt off his body and watch how his abs shined in the light. I wanted that tongue of his to wander down my neck, between my breasts, and explore how wet I could get for him when he played with me.

My left fingertip touched tentatively against my clit. The shower was hot, but it felt so good pounding against my neck. Now both hands were moving in circles—one on my clit, the other gently kneading my breasts. I let my right arm fall to my side, and then, eager to coax more out of the pleasure trickling through me, the soft fingertip of my right middle finger moved to the opening of my pussy.

I was soaking wet now, both from the shower and the thoughts of Blaze that grew more and more intense as I leaned against the tile wall to support my weight while the hand on my clit began to move in faster rings. Slowly, biting my lip and trying not to gasp as I did so, I pushed one finger inside myself.

I could feel the wetness, stickier and denser than the shower stream, slide down past the knuckles as I fingered myself delicately. My eyes were fluttering closed while I pictured Blaze, his hand doing what mine was doing right now; his tongue painting my inner thigh with delicious ease; his cock, wavering at the edge of my lips.

“
Blaze
”
I panted.

“Oh, what is this I see?” laughed the one voice I didn’t ever want to be caught by in an embarrassing situation like this. Blaze had wrenched open the shower and saw what I was doing.

My hands shot away from where they had been toying between my legs. Trying to stand up straight, I felt my footing slip on the slick tile. I would have tumbled to the ground if it weren’t for his strong hand, which grabbed me right as I was about to collapse.

“It wasn’t anything,” I exclaimed. His hand on me was so strong. I wondered what else it could do if only I let him.

“Right,” he chuckled sarcastically, “not anything. Just you fingerblasting yourself and saying my name over and over again. Sure seems like nothing, you’re right.”

“It was nothing,” I insisted. My voice had risen to a pipsqueak. He’d caught me and he knew it, but if I admitted that I’d been fantasizing about him, I thought I would die. I couldn’t leave myself so vulnerable to this bastard who’d had a thousand women and would just treat me like another one to throw on the pile and walk away. I deserved better than that, and I wouldn’t give in to the same treatment he’d showed all the other whores who flocked to the Inked Angels clubhouse.

“Look, babe,” he said to me. “I’ve seen a horny chick before, and the way you were biting your lip and touching yourself told me everything about you that I needed to know. There’s no point in continuing to play pretend.”

“You didn’t see anything,” I lied, knowing I looked foolish but unable to let myself admit to him what I’d been doing.

“Well, then, tell me, Olivia, what did I see?” he quizzed, mocking me.

“You saw exactly what you’ve seen a thousand times before!” I yelled. “Is that what you want to hear? That I’m some whore? Another one for you to fuck and forget? Then fine, that’s all I’ll be! But let’s skip the fucking part and just get straight to the forgetting.”