A Secret Affair (17 page)

And on his side of the line, all the gentlemen.

The orchestra was lively. Feet thumped rhythmically on the wooden floor, a sound that always set his toes to tapping even if he was standing on the sidelines merely looking on. The air had become heavy with the scent of flowers and perfume and human exertion.

The Kitteridges must be breathing a sigh of relief. Their young
daughter was dancing with Viscount Doran, an eligible young gentleman who had doubtless been hand-picked for the occasion, and they might deem their ball a grand success.

Constantine and Miss Leavensworth were approaching the head of the line again.

H
ANNAH DANCED
the opening set with Lord Netherby, the second with Lord Hardingraye, a particular friend of hers with whom she could relax and converse at her ease. She was feeling the pleasure of anticipation. She would waltz later with Constantine. She would dance only that once with him, but it would be enough. There was no dance more splendid than the waltz when one was with an attractive partner, and none was more attractive than Constantine Huxtable.

She would waltz with him and then, after the ball was over, he would follow her carriage home, as he had done last evening, and she would go with him to spend the night—or what remained of it.

And this would be the pattern of her days—and her nights—for the rest of the spring. Oh, she wished it would go on forever. For once she was not at all eager for the summer to come. Let it linger. She did not feel guilty about Barbara. She was not going to neglect her friend, after all. They would spend all day every day together.

Oh, this all felt very, very pleasant indeed after the dreariness of the past year. And it
had
been dreary. The duke would not have expected her to pretend that it was not. She had grieved for him—she still did—but grieving in virtual solitude and in
black
for a whole year had been tedious in the extreme. He would have told her to go out and enjoy herself—she knew he would. But she had not done that except to ride and ride about the countryside near Copeland and visit her friends at Land’s End every few days. She had been a faithful wife while the duke lived. She had been a faithful widow for the full year of her mourning.

And now—well, now she was enjoying herself enormously. She
was not even going to pretend that she was not. She had dreamed of this, planned for it, and it was happening. And the best of it was that the duke would not resent it. She knew he would not.

“One would have to say, Your Grace,” Lord Hardingraye said, “that you have been positively
glowing
since your return to town. Indeed, if you were to glow any brighter I should have to don an eye shade, and I would be accused of all sorts of eccentricity.”

“You already
are
eccentric,” she said, smiling at him. “Everyone says so.”

His eyes twinkled back at her.

Constantine was dancing with Lady Fornwald.

Barbara was … not in the ballroom. Hannah looked all about the room, but her friend was nowhere to be seen. She was not even lurking in the quietest corner. She had excused herself after the opening set to go to the ladies’ withdrawing room. But that had been ages ago.

She still had not reappeared when the set was finished. Hannah looked around again at the milling crowd to be sure and then went to check the withdrawing room. But Barbara could not still be in there, surely.

She was, though.

She was sitting in a corner, facing away from the door, ignoring and ignored by a small knot of twittering young ladies who were giggling over something and talking in high squeals. In another corner a maid sat silently waiting to help anyone who needed a torn hem mended or an errant curl returned to its coiffure.

“Babs?” Hannah went to sit beside her. “Are you unwell?”

Barbara would not look at her. She was twisting a handkerchief in her lap. There was no sign of tears on her cheeks, but she looked on the verge of weeping.

“You are going to hate me,” she said. “You will not trust me ever again.”

“Babs?” Hannah said again.

“I betrayed you,” Barbara said. “I
know
how much you value your privacy, and I betrayed you.”

Extravagant words. Hannah waited for an explanation.

“I told Mr. Huxtable the name of our village,” Barbara said. “I told him about S-Sir Colin Young. I almost told him about … about
Dawn
. I stopped myself just in time. And I told him Sir Colin was a distant relation of the Duke of Dunbarton.”

“And this is
betrayal?”
Hannah said after a brief silence. “Did you pour out all this information uninvited, Babs?”

“No,” she said. “He asked me. And I told him. I am so
sorry
, Hannah. I do not know how you will ever forgive me. You will not even allow me to mention those names to you. And yet I blurted them out blithely to your—To Mr. Huxtable.”

“Were they idle questions?” Hannah asked. “The ones he asked, I mean?”

“I don’t believe so,” Barbara said, and tears welled in her eyes and spilled over onto her cheeks. “No, I don’t believe so. He wanted to know, and so he asked a country bumpkin unwise in the ways of the
ton
. I am so
sorry.”

“Silly goose,” Hannah said, setting one hand against the back of Barbara’s bowed neck. “You told him nothing but facts he could have discovered some other way with the greatest ease. You did not exactly inform him that I was a murderess or a bigamist or a … What else might I have been that would have made for a ghastly revelation indeed?”

“A highwayman?” Barbara suggested through her tears.

“Or a highwaywoman,” Hannah said. “You told him almost nothing at all. And really, there is not a great deal to tell anyway, is there? Only a lot of sordid nonsense. There is no grand secret. If I have guarded the details of my past, it is only because I have chosen to do so. I have nothing to
hide
. Or to hide
from.”

“Then why—” Barbara began to ask.

“I am not in hiding, Babs,” Hannah said. “It is just that I am living a new life now and like it infinitely better than I liked the old. I choose not to look back, not to listen to any reminders, not to do
anything
to revive that life.”

“You are angry,” Barbara said, and her tears flowed faster.

“I am,” Hannah admitted. “But not with you, Babs.” She rubbed her hand harder across her friend’s neck. “I am angry on your behalf. I am angry with a certain gentleman who is going to have to find another waltz partner this evening. He certainly will not be waltzing with me.”

Barbara dabbed at her eyes and blew her nose.

“I should have left here sooner,” she said, “and gone back to the ballroom and
smiled
. You know I do not approve of your liaison with Mr. Huxtable, Hannah, but I would not be the cause of any dissension between you.”

“If there is dissension,” Hannah said, “
you
are not the one who has caused it, Babs. Oh, goodness, your eyes are red. Even your
nose
is.”

“I do
try
never to weep,” Barbara said. “This is what always happens when I do, especially the red nose.”

Hannah laughed suddenly.

“Do you remember,” she said, “how we used that fact to our advantage on more than one occasion when we were children? When we broke a window of the greenhouse by playing ball too close to it, for example, and the gardener was stalking toward us breathing fire and brimstone?”

“You told me to cry,” Barbara said, smiling through her tears.

“Your face turned almost instantly red,” Hannah said. “Everyone immediately took pity on you. And how could they punish
me
if they were petting
you
and assuring you that it was an accident and you must not upset yourself.”

“Oh, dear,” Barbara said, “we were quite shameless.”

They both laughed. Indeed, for a few moments they sounded remarkably like those very young ladies who had already returned to the ballroom. Music was playing there. The third set was in progress.

Hannah stood up. She had distracted Barbara’s mind slightly, but
she
was still angry. Furiously so, in fact.

“We will go home,” she said. “I am tired, and you have a red nose. Those are reasons enough.”

“But Hannah—” Barbara looked instantly dismayed.

Hannah was speaking to the maid, though, and the maid was scurrying away to have the duchess’s carriage brought up to the doors.

“Let’s go home,” Hannah said, turning to Barbara with a smile, “and have a cup of tea and a comfortable coze before we go to bed. I will not have you with me for very much longer—unless you want to write to tell your vicar that you have changed your mind about being a vicar’s wife and have decided to remain with me forever and ever, that is.”

“Oh, Hannah—” Barbara said.

“No,” Hannah said with a mock sigh. “I thought you would not. And so I must make the most of your company while I have it.”

“Are you going to … to end your connection with Mr. Huxtable?” Barbara asked.

“I shall deal with that connection
and
with Constantine Huxtable tomorrow,” Hannah said as she swept from the room.

Barbara went after her.

T
HE
D
UCHESS OF
D
UNBARTON
was playing games again, Constantine decided. She disappeared early from the ballroom. When he strolled into the card room after the fourth set—the waltz they had agreed upon was next—she was not in there either.

Miss Leavensworth was missing too.

He stayed until the end of the ball. He danced every set, including the waltz. And he went straight home afterward and slept for what remained of the night.

Let her play her games.

But she would make the next move. He was certainly not going to run after her.

She made the move early. There was a note from her beside his
breakfast plate the following morning, along with the lengthy weekly report from Harvey Wexford, his manager at Ainsley.

The duchess had bold, rather large handwriting, he saw. And she wrote very much as she spoke. There was no greeting at the top of the note, only his name on the outside.

“You will join my other guests for tea this afternoon,” she had written, “and then you will drive me in the park. H, Duchess of Dunbarton.”

He pursed his lips. She did not invite. She commanded. Were the notes to her other guests similar to this one? And would all obey?

Would
he?

But of course he would. He was not ready to let her go yet. He was enjoying her as a lover despite the shock of that first night’s discovery, and there was a great deal more sensual satisfaction to be had from their liaison before he would be content to see her go. But more than that, he was unexpectedly intrigued by her. He wanted to know more of what lay beyond her apparently shallow exterior.

Why would a woman give up ten years of her life solely for the acquisition of position and wealth, only to give away a large portion of that wealth to unnamed “causes”? And why would she remain faithful to a sham of a marriage? And even give the impression now that she might have been
fond
of the old duke? Why would a worthy woman like Miss Leavensworth have remained faithful to their friendship all these years? And why would the duchess write to her weekly, keeping up a friendship that could be of no material value to her?

And
why
was his head so full of such questions?

No, he would not give her up yet. He would answer the summons and go to Dunbarton House for tea this afternoon.

And he would drive her in the park afterward.

And tonight? Well, they would see.

In the meanwhile, he turned his attention to Wexford’s report, which he always devoured whole and then went back over to read more slowly and with greater attention to detail.