A Place of Hiding (3 page)

“Architectural plans. That's one of the reasons I thought of you right off for the second ticket. Architecture. It's right up your alley.” Cherokee returned to the table, swung the chair around this time, and straddled it backwards.

“So why doesn't the architect take the plans over himself? Why doesn't he send them on the Internet? There's a program for that, and if no one has it at the other end, why doesn't he send the plans over on a disk?”

“Who knows? Who cares? Five thousand bucks and a free ticket? They can send their plans by rowboat if they want to.”

China shook her head and went back to her salad. “It sounds way fishy. You're on your own.”

“Hey. This is
Europe
we're talking about. Big Ben. The Eiffel Tower. The frigging Colosseum.”

“You'll have a great time. If you're not arrested at customs with heroin.”

“I'm telling you this is completely legit.”

“Five thousand dollars just to carry a package? I don't think so.”

“Come on, China. You've
got
to go.”

There was something in his voice when he said that, an edge that tried to wear the guise of eagerness but tilted too closely to desperation. China said warily, “What's going on? You'd better tell me.”

Cherokee picked at the vinyl cord around the top of the seatback. He said, “The deal is . . . I have to take my wife.”

“What?”

“I mean the courier. The tickets. They're for a couple. I didn't know that at first but when the attorney asked me if I was married, I could tell he wanted a yes answer so I gave him one.”

“Why?”

“What difference does it make? How's anyone going to know? We have the same last name. We don't look alike. We can just pretend—”

“I mean why does a couple have to take the package over? A couple wearing business clothes? A couple that've done ‘something to their hair'? Something to make them look innocuous, legitimate, and above suspicion? Good grief, Cherokee. Get some brains. This is a smuggling scam and you'll end up in jail.”

“Don't be so paranoid. I've checked it out. This is an attorney we're talking about.”

“Oh,
that
gives me buckets of confidence.” She lined the circumference of her plate with baby carrots and tossed a handful of pepitas on top. She sprinkled the salad with lemon juice and carried the plate to the table. “I'm not going for it. You'll need to find someone else to play Mrs. River.”

“There
is
no one else. And even if I could find someone that fast, the ticket has to say River and the passport has to match the ticket and . . . Come
on,
China.” He sounded like a little boy, frustrated because a plan that had seemed so simple to him, so easily set up with a trip to Santa Barbara, was proving to be otherwise. And that was one hundred percent Cherokee: I've got an idea and surely the world will go along with it.

But China wouldn't. She loved her brother. Indeed, despite the fact that he was older than she, she'd spent part of her adolescence and most of her childhood mothering him. But regardless of her devotion to Cherokee, she wasn't going to accommodate him in a scheme that might well raise easy money at the same time as it put both of them at risk.

“No way,” she told him. “Forget it. Get a job. You've got to join the real world sometime.”

“That's what I'm trying to do here.”

“Then get a
regular
job. You'll have to eventually. It might as well be now.”

“Oh, great.” He surged up from his chair. “That's really
terrifically
great, China. Get a regular job. Join the real world. So I'm trying to do that. I have an idea for a job and a home and money all at once, but that's apparently not good enough for you. It has to be the real world and a job on exactly your terms.” He strode to the door and flung himself out into the yard.

China followed him. A birdbath stood in the centre of the thirsty lawn, and Cherokee dumped out its water, took up a wire brush at its base, and furiously attacked the ridged basin, scrubbing away its film of algae. He marched to the house, where a hose lay coiled, and turned it on, tugging it over to refill the basin for the birds.

“Look,” China began.

“Forget it,” he said. “It sounds stupid to you. I sound stupid to you.”

“Did I say that?”

“I don't want to live like the rest of the world—eight-to-five working for the man and a lousy paycheck—but you don't approve of that. You think there's only one way to live and if anyone has a different idea, it's bullshit, stupid, and liable to end them up in jail.”

“Where's all this coming from?”

“What I'm
supposed
to do, according to you, is work for peanuts, save the peanuts, and put enough of the peanuts together so I can end up married with a mortgage and kids and a wife who will maybe be
more
of a wife and a mother than Mom was to anyone. But that's
your
life plan, okay? It isn't mine.” He flung the burbling hose to the ground, where water flowed onto the dusty lawn.

“This has nothing to do with anyone's life plan. It's basic sense. Look at what you're proposing, for God's sake. Look at what's been proposed to you.”

“Money,” he said. “Five thousand dollars. Five thousand dollars that I God damn need.”

“So you can buy a boat you know nothing about running? To take people out fishing God only knows where? Think things through for once, okay? If not the boat then at least the courier idea.”

“Me?” He barked a laugh. “I should think things through? Just when the hell're
you
going to do that?”

“Me? What—”

“It's really amazing. You can tell me how to live my life while yours is a running joke and you don't even know it. And here
I
am, giving you a decent chance to get out of it for the first time in what . . . ten years? more? . . . and all you—”

“What? Get out of what?”

“—can do is put
me
down. Because you don't like the way I live. And you won't see the way you live is worse.”

“What do you know about the way I live?” She felt her own anger now. She
hated
the way her brother turned conversations. If you wanted to have a discussion with him about the choices he'd made or wanted to make, he invariably turned the spotlight onto you. That spotlight always became an attack in which only the nimble-footed could emerge unscathed. “I haven't seen you for months. You show up here, break into my house, tell me you need my help in some shady deal, and when I don't cooperate the way you expect me to, suddenly everything becomes
my
fault. But I'm not going to play that game.”

“Sure. You'd rather play the one Matt's got going.”

“What's that supposed to mean?” China demanded. But at the mention of Matt, she couldn't help it: She felt the skeletal finger of fear touch her spine.

“God, China. You think
I'm
stupid. But when the hell're
you
going to figure things out?”

“Figure what things? What are you talking about?”

“All this about Matt. Living for Matt. Saving your money ‘for me and Matt and the future.' It's ludicrous. No. It's sure-as-hell pathetic. You're standing right in front of me with your head so far up your butt that you haven't figured out—” He stopped himself. It seemed as if he suddenly remembered where he was, with whom he was, and what had gone before to bring them both to this place. He stooped and grabbed up the hose, carrying it back to the house and turning the water off. He coiled the hose back to the ground with too much precision.

China watched him. It seemed to her suddenly that all that was her life—her past and her future—was reduced by fire to this single moment. Knowing and not, simultaneously.

“What do you know about Matt?” she asked her brother.

Part of the answer she knew already. For the three of them had been teenagers together in the same ramshackle neighbourhood in a town called Orange where Matt was a surfer, Cherokee his acolyte, and China a shadow cast by both. But part of the answer she had never known because it had been hidden in the hours and the days that the two boys had gone alone to ride the waves in Huntington Beach.

“Forget it.” Cherokee moved past her and returned to the house.

She followed him. But he didn't stop in the kitchen or the living room. Instead, he walked straight through, swung the screen door open, and stepped onto the warped front porch. There he stopped, squinting out at the bright dry street where the sun beat down on the cars parked there and a gust of wind
whoosh
ed dead leaves against the pavement.

“You'd better tell me where you're heading with this,” China said. “You started something. You might as well finish it.”

“Forget it,” he said.

“You said pathetic. You said ludicrous. You said a game.”

“It slipped out,” he said. “I was pissed off.”

“You talk to Matt, don't you? You must still see him when he visits his parents. What do you know, Cherokee? Is he . . .” She didn't know if she could actually say it, so reluctant was she in truth to know. But there were his lengthy absences, his trips to New York, the cancellation of their plans together. There was the fact that he lived in LA when he wasn't traveling and there were all the times when he was at home but still too busy with his work to make a weekend with her. She'd told herself all this meant nothing, placed in the scales against which she measured their years together. But her doubts had grown, and now they stood before her, asking to be embraced or obliterated.

“Does Matt have another woman?” she asked her brother.

He blew out a breath and shook his head. But it didn't seem so much a reply to her question as it was a reaction to her having asked it in the first place.

“Fifty bucks and a surfboard,” he said to his sister. “That's what I asked for. I gave the product a good guarantee—just be nice to her, I said, she'll cooperate with you—so he was willing to pay.”

China heard the words but for a moment her mind refused to assimilate them. Then she remembered the surfboard all those years ago: Cherokee bringing it home and his triumphant crow, “Matt
gave
it to me!” And she remembered what followed: seventeen years old, never had a date much less been kissed or touched or the rest and Matthew Whitecomb—tall and shy, good with a surfboard but at a loss with girls—coming by the house and stammering an embarrassed request for a date except it wasn't embarrassment at all, was it, that first time, but rather the sweaty-palmed anticipation of collecting what he'd paid her brother to possess.

“You
sold—”
She couldn't complete the sentence.

Cherokee turned to look at her. “He likes to fuck you, China. That's what it is. That's all it is. End of story.”

“I don't believe you.” But her mouth was dry, drier than her skin felt in the heat and the wind that came off the desert, drier even than the cracked scorched earth where the flowers wilted and the rain worms hid.

She felt behind her for the rusty knob of the old screen door. She went into the house. She heard her brother following, his feet shuffling sorrowfully in her wake.

“I didn't want to tell you,” he said. “I'm sorry. I never meant to tell you.”

“Get out,” she replied. “Just go.
Go.
”

“You know I'm telling you the truth, don't you? You can feel it because you've felt the rest: that something's not right between you and hasn't been for a while.”

“I don't know anything of the sort,” she told him.

“Yeah, you do. It's better to know. You can cut him loose now.” He came up behind her and put his hand—so tentative a gesture, it seemed—on her shoulder. “Come with me to Europe, China,” he said quietly. “It'll be a good place to start forgetting.”

She shook his hand off and turned to face him. “I wouldn't even step out of this house with you.”

December 5

6:30
A.M.

ISLAND OF GUERNSEY
ENGLISH CHANNEL

R
UTH
B
ROUARD WOKE WITH
a start. Something in the house wasn't right. She lay motionless and attended to the darkness as she'd learned to do all those years ago, waiting for the sound to repeat so as to know whether she was safe in her hiding place or whether she should flee. What the noise had been she couldn't have said in this moment of strained listening. But it hadn't been part of the nighttime noises she was used to hearing—the creak of the house, the rattle of a window in its frame, the soughing of wind, the call of a gull roused out of its sleep—so her pulse quickened as she worried her ears and forced her eyes to discriminate among the objects in her room, testing each one out, comparing its position in the gloom with where it stood in daylight, when neither ghosts nor intruders would dare disturb the peace of the old manor house in which she lived.

She heard nothing more, so she ascribed her sudden waking to a dream she couldn't remember. Her jangled nerves she ascribed to imagination. That and the medication she was taking, the strongest painkiller her doctor would give her that wasn't the morphine her body needed.

She grunted in her bed, feeling a bud of pain that flowered from her shoulders and down her arms. Doctors, she thought, were modern-day warriors. They were trained to battle the enemy within till the last corpuscle gave up the ghost. They were programmed to do that, and she was grateful for it. But there were times when the patient knew better than the surgeon, and she understood she'd arrived at one of those times. Six months, she thought. Two weeks until her sixty-sixth birthday, but she'd never see her sixty-seventh. The devil had made it from her breasts to her bones, after a twenty-year respite during which she'd got sanguine.

She shifted her position from her back to her side, and her gaze fell on the red digital numbers of the clock at her bedside. It was later than she'd thought. The time of year had utterly beguiled her. She'd assumed from the darkness that it was two or three in the morning, but it was half past six, only an hour from her usual time of rising.

From the room next to hers, she heard a sound. But this time it wasn't a noise out of place, born of dream or imagination. Rather, it was the movement of wood upon wood as a wardrobe door was opened and closed and a drawer in the chest was handled likewise. Something thudded quietly on the floor, and Ruth pictured the trainers accidentally falling from his hands in his haste to get them on.

He would already have gyrated his way into his bathing suit—that insignificant triangle of azure Lycra that she thought so unsuitable for a man of his age—and his track suit would be covering it for now. All that remained of his bedroom preparations were the shoes he would wear on his walk to the bay, and those he was putting on at the moment. A creak of the rocking chair told Ruth that.

She smiled as she listened to her brother's movements. Guy was as predictable as the seasons. He'd said last night that he intended to swim in the morning, so swim he would, as he did every day: tramping across the grounds to gain access to the outer lane and then fast-walking down to the beach to warm up, alone on the narrow switchback road that carved a tunneled zigzag beneath the trees. It was her brother's ability to adhere to his plans and to make them successful that Ruth admired more than anything else about him.

She heard his bedroom door closing. She knew exactly what would come next: Through the darkness, he'd feel his way to the airing cupboard and pull out a towel to take with him. That procedure would take ten seconds, after which he'd use up five minutes to locate his swimming goggles, which he'd have placed yesterday morning in the knife box or draped over the canterbury in his study or shoved without thought into that corner dresser that listed against the wall in the breakfast room. With the goggles in his possession, he'd be off to the kitchen to brew his tea, and when he had it in hand—because he always took it with him for afterwards, his steaming ginkgo-and-green reward for another successful dip into water too cold for ordinary mortals—he'd be out of the house and striding across the lawn towards the chestnuts, beyond them the drive and beyond that the wall that defined the edge of the property. Ruth smiled at her brother's predictability. It was not only what she loved best about him; it was also what had long given her life a sense of security that by rights it shouldn't have had.

She watched the numbers on her digital clock change as the minutes passed and her brother made his preparations. Now he would be at the airing cupboard, now descending the stairs, now rustling round for those goggles and cursing the lapses of memory that were becoming more frequent as he approached seventy. Now he would be in the kitchen, she thought, perhaps even sneaking a pre-swim snack.

At the point at which Guy's morning ritual would be taking him out of the house, Ruth rose from bed and wrapped her dressing gown round her shoulders. She padded to the window on bare feet and pulled aside the heavy curtains. She counted down from twenty, and when she hit five, there he was below her, coming out of the house, dependable as the hours of the day, as the December wind and the salt it blew off the English Channel.

He was wearing what he always wore: a red knitted cap pulled low on his forehead to cover his ears and his thick greying hair; the navy running suit stained at the elbows, the cuffs, and the thighs with the white paint he'd used on the conservatory last summer; trainers without socks—although she couldn't see that, merely knew her brother and how he dressed. He carried his tea. He had a towel slung round his neck. The goggles, she guessed, would be in a pocket.

“Have a good swim,” she said into the icy window pane. And she added what he'd always said to her, what their mother had cried out long ago as the fishing boat pulled away from the dock, taking them from home in the pitch-black night,
“Au revoir et adieu, mes chéris.”

Below her, he did what he always did. He crossed the lawn and headed for the trees and the drive beyond them.

But this morning, Ruth saw something else as well. Once Guy reached the elms, a shadowy figure melted out from beneath them and began to follow her brother.

 

Ahead of him, Guy Brouard saw that the lights were already on in the Duffys' cottage, a snug stone structure that was, in part, built into the boundary wall of the estate. Once the collection point for rent from tenants of the privateer who'd first built
Le Reposoir
in the early eighteenth century, the steep-roofed cottage now served to house the couple who helped Guy and his sister maintain the property: Kevin Duffy on the grounds and his wife, Valerie, inside the manor house.

The cottage lights indicated that Valerie was up seeing to Kevin's breakfast. That would be exactly like her: Valerie Duffy was a wife beyond compare.

Guy had long thought that the mould had been broken after Valerie Duffy's creation. She was the last of a breed, a wife from the past who saw it as her job and her privilege to take care of her man. If Guy himself had had that sort of wife from the first, he knew he wouldn't have had to spend a lifetime sampling the possibilities out there in the hope of finally finding her.

His own two wives had been true to tedious type. One child with the first, two children with the second, good homes, nice cars, fine holidays in the sun, nannies, and boarding schools . . . It hadn't mattered: You work too much. You're
never
at home. You love your miserable
job
more than me. It was an endless variation on a deadly theme. No wonder he'd not been able to keep himself from straying.

Out from beneath the bare-branched elms, Guy followed the drive in the direction of the lane. It was quiet still, but as he reached the iron gates and swung one of them open, the first warblers stirred from within the bramble, the blackthorn, and the ivy that grew along the narrow road and clung to the lichened stone wall that edged it.

It was cold. December. What could one expect? But as it was early, there was still no wind, although a rare southeast promised for later that day would make swimming impossible after noon. Not that anyone other than he would likely be swimming in December. That was one of the advantages of having a high tolerance for cold: One had the water all to oneself.

That was how Guy Brouard preferred it. For swimming time was thinking time, and he generally had much to think about.

Today was no different. The wall of the estate to his right, the tall hedgerows of the surrounding farmland to his left, he strode along the lane in the dim morning light, heading for the turn that would take him down the steep hillside to the bay. He considered what he had wrought in his life in the past few months, some of it deliberately and with plenty of forethought, some of it as a consequence of events no one could have anticipated. He'd engendered disappointment, confusion, and betrayal among his closest associates. And because he'd long been a man who kept his own counsel in matters closest to his heart, none of them had been able to comprehend—let alone to digest—the fact that their expectations of him had been so wildly off the mark. For nearly a decade he'd encouraged them to think of Guy Brouard as a permanent benefactor, paternal in his concern for their futures, profligate in the manner in which he assured those futures were secure. He hadn't meant to mislead any of them with this. To the contrary, he'd all along fully intended to make everyone's secret dream come true.

But all that had been before Ruth: that grimace of pain when she thought he wasn't looking and what he knew that grimace meant. He wouldn't have realised, of course, had she not started slipping away for appointments she called “opportunities for exercise,
frère
” along the cliffs. At Icart Point, she said, she was taking inspiration for a future needlepoint from the crystals of feldspar in the flaky gneiss. At Jerbourg, she reported, the patterns of schist in the stone formed unequal grey bands that one could follow, tracing the route that time and nature used to lay silt and sediment into ancient stone. She sketched the gorse, she said, and she described with her pencils the thrift and sea-campion in pink and white. She picked ox-eye daisies, arranged them on the ragged surface of a granite outcrop, and made a drawing of them. She clipped bluebells and broom, heather and gorse, wild daffodils and lilies as she went along, depending on the season and her inclination. But the flowers never quite made it home. “Too long on the car seat, I had to throw them out,” she'd claim. “Wild flowers never last when you pick them.”

Month after month, this had gone on. But Ruth wasn't a walker of cliffs. Nor was she a picker of flowers or a student of geology. So all of this made Guy naturally suspicious.

He'd foolishly thought at first that his sister finally had a man in her life and was embarrassed to tell him so. The sight of her car at Princess Elizabeth Hospital had brought him round, however. That in conjunction with her grimaces of pain and her lengthy retreats to her bedroom had forced him to realise what he didn't want to face.

She had been the only constant in his life from the night they'd set off from the coast of France, making good an escape left far too late, on a fishing boat, hidden among the nets. She'd been the reason he himself had survived, her need for him a spur to maturity, to laying plans, and to ultimate success.

But this? He could do nothing about this. From this that his sister suffered now, there would be no fishing boat in the night.

So if he had betrayed, confused, and disappointed the others, it was nothing in light of losing Ruth.

Swimming was his morning release from the overwhelming anxiety of these considerations. Without his daily swim in the bay, Guy knew that the thought of his sister, not to mention his absolute impotence to change what was happening to his sister, would consume him.

The road he was on was steep and narrow, thickly wooded on this east side of the island. The rarity of any harsh wind from France had long allowed the trees to prosper here. Where Guy walked beneath them, the sycamores and chestnuts, ash and beech, made a skeletal arc that was grey etched on pewter in the pre-dawn sky. The trees rose on sheer hillsides held back by stone walls. At the base of these, water flowed eagerly from an inland spring, chirping against stones as it raced to the sea.

The way switched back and forth on itself, past a shadowy water mill and a misplaced Swiss chalet hotel that was closed for the season. It ended in a minuscule car park, where a snack bar the size of a misanthrope's heart was boarded and locked, and the granite slipway once used to give horses and carts access to the
vraic
that was the island's fertiliser was slick with seaweed.

The air was still, the gulls unroused from their nighttime cliff-top resting places. In the bay the water was tranquil, an ashen mirror reflecting the colour of the lightening sky. There were no waves in this deeply sheltered place, just a gentle slapping of water on pebbles, a touch that seemed to release from the seaweed the constrasting sharp odours of burgeoning life and decay.

Near the life ring that hung from a spike long ago driven into the cliffside, Guy set down his towel and placed his tea on a flat-surfaced stone. He kicked off his shoes and removed his track suit's trousers. He reached into his jacket pocket for his swimming goggles.

His hand came into contact with more than just the goggles, however. Inside his pocket was an object that he took out and held in the palm of his hand.

It was wrapped in white linen. He unfolded this and brought forth a circular stone. It was pierced in the middle in the fashion of a wheel, for a wheel was what it was supposed to be:
énne rouelle dé faïtot.
A fairy's wheel.

Guy smiled at the charm, at the memory it evoked. The island was a place of folklore. To those born and bred here, of parents and grandparents born and bred here, carrying the occasional talisman against witches and their familiars was something that might be scoffed at publicly but not so lightly dismissed privately.
You ought to carry one of these, you know. Protection's important, Guy.