A New World: Sanctuary (24 page)

“Here, crush one of these up and sprinkle it on,” I say pulling another antibiotic pill out before Lynn applies the dressing.

She takes out her knife and crushes the pill on the counter, sprinkles it on the scratch and covers it with the gauze and tape.
 
Watching her with the tenderness and worry brings out another feeling within.
 
The post adrenaline, close call, and watching her, well, brings about a certain desire.
 
The problem is that we aren’t out of the danger zone yet and won’t be until the sun comes up, let alone the fact that there are others close by.
 
Ugh!

She puts the last of the tape in place and looks up at me through the mirror.
 
“Jack, I know that look,” she says quietly with a small smile.

“Mmmm hmmm,” I reply just as quietly with a tired yet mischievous smile.

“We can’t here,” she says looking to the broken doors propped up against the bathroom doorway.

“I think you’re looking the wrong way,” I say looking to the other door leading into the far bedroom.

She looks longingly at the opposite door then shakes her head.
 
“Jack, you have no idea how much I want to but we can’t,” she says with a sigh.

I mimic her sigh, “I know but you’re in trouble when the sun rises.”

“Deal,” she says with a larger smile.

“Come on sunrise,” I say playfully and rinse my knife off in the sink.

“Yeah, no shit,” she says with another sigh.

Lynn looks at the white gauze and tape at my neck.
 
“I think it’ll be okay.
 
It only burns a little but not overly so,” I say answering her worried gaze.

I give Lynn a kiss which threatens to develop further before we head back to the room after extinguishing the candles and donning our NVG’s.
 
Seeing us enter the hall, Robert lowers his muzzle.
 
Passing by my kneeling son, I pat him on the shoulder.

“You doing okay, Dad?”
 
He asks looking up through his goggles.

“Yeah, thanks.
 
How are you doing?”
 
I ask in return.

“Tired, but okay,” he answers.

“Good.”

Returning to the bedroom, Lynn and I sit next to where Bri is kneeling with her M-4 aimed across the bed.
 
I ruffle her hair, “How are you doing, hon?”

“I’m okay, Dad,” she responds looking up.

I smile back at her.
 
A flood of warmth and love for both of my kids flows through me
.
 
I am so proud of them but there is also an underlying fear for them given our situation.
 
I wish I could just wake up and we could be back to the world we knew before; worrying about which fireworks show we were going to go see rather than which building is going to harbor night runners, when the next assault will occur, or how we are going to stay supplied.

“We can’t continue like this,” I tell Lynn.
 
“We can’t keep facing massive assaults like this.
 
We’ve just been lucky so far.”

“And sometimes less than lucky,” I add remembering the loss of the entire Delta Team.

“Jack, we won’t have to worry about that so much once we get the sanctuary built and secured,” Lynn responds.

“We’ll still have to go into buildings for supplies until we become self-sufficient.
 
I mean, they have been in mass in almost every, single building lately,” I say.

“Is it safe to come out?”
 
Kelly asks from the closet with a whisper.

“Yeah, we’re okay for the moment,” I answer.

Brian, Kelly, and Jessica emerge from the closet and stand by the entrance.
 
Brian takes a step forward.
 
“Hey, I just wanted to say sorry and thanks man,” he says in a whisper.

Oh sure, now he whispers
, I think.
 
“You know, I think it’s best that you not speak to me right now.
 
You put my loved ones at risk and I’m not too keen with that,” I reply and he steps back to the closet entrance and plops down against the wall.
 
Kelly squats next to him and they begin whispering in the dark.

“Then don’t go into buildings,” Lynn says picking up our conversation.
 
“Maybe it’s you.”

“Very funny,” I say.

“Seriously though, Jack, what choice do we have?”

“Well, I know we can’t continue in this manner; with these kinds of encounters.
 
We are being reactionary.
 
It’s going to bite us in the ass harder one of these times,” I answer.

“What are you thinking?”
 
Lynn asks.

“I am thinking we have two choices.
 
Well, three but the third isn’t an option.
 
The first is to build our haven, walls and all, then hunker down and let both us of live in our own environments.
 
Let them have the night and we’ll have the day,” I answer.

“And the second?”
 
She asks taking in what I said and nodding.

“Exterminate them all within our area,” I answer.

“That’s the riskier solution in the short-term but maybe worth it.
 
I’m not sure we have the manpower to do that though.
 
So, which one are you thinking about?”

“I’m not sure yet,” I reply.

“Just curious, what was the third option?”
 
She asks tilting her head to the side.

“Give up,” I respond.

“You’re right, that’s not an option,” she says knowing I wasn’t being serious.

A muffled cough from Robert’s M-4 interrupts our conversation and startles all of us.
 
Jessica lets out a small squeal.
 
Lynn and I immediately jump off the bed, go to a kneeling position facing the front door, and shoulder our weapons.
 
Nothing is moving at the door.
 
It remains silent outside.

Robert is in the line of fire so Lynn and I keep our muzzles lowered but ready to move up and engage if something enters the open doorway to our front.
 
Not wanting to risk the additional noise of talking halfway across the bedroom, I move up to his side, leaving Lynn in place to help Bri cover the back door.
 
I am anticipating a round two of our previous bout but the lack of shrieks doesn’t indicate one.

Kneeling by Robert I ask, “What’s up?”

He doesn’t move his eyes or carbine from the front door as he answers, “One just poked its head around the side of the door.”

“Did you get him?”
 
I ask watching and listening for additional movement.

“I think so,” he answers.

I think about going up to the door to check; not only to see that the one night runner is down but to see if others remain outside.
 
However, I don’t want to stir up trouble if there are others out there.
 
If they are content to stay outside and leave us in peace, I am perfectly content to stay in here and leave them in peace.
 
I listen for any sounds or calls both near and far.
 
The night is as quiet and as void as deep space.

I pat him on the shoulder again.
 
“Nicely done,” I whisper into Robert’s ear.

“Thanks,” he whispers back.

“You doing okay here for a bit longer?”
 
I ask.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” he answers.

I walk back into the bedroom past Brian, Kelly, and Jessica.
 
Both Kelly and Jessica whisper their thanks for coming down to which I tell them no worries.
 
I can tell Brian wants to say something along the same lines but wisely keeps quiet.

“Okay everyone, we need to stay quiet as we’re not through this yet and there are bound to be more around.
 
I think we’ll be okay in here as long as we keep absolutely silent,” I say plopping back onto the bed where I begin to silently load my empty mags.

The apartment chills with the night air circulating through the open doors.
 
I worry about our scent carrying outside however the rest of the night passes by without incident other than the scratch on my neck continuing to burn.
 
We take turns resting and covering the entrances.
 
I take several more antibiotics with Lynn undoing the tape and sprinkling more directly on the wound.
 
The outside lightens with the coming dawn signaling a return to the safety of the day.
 
We have survived another night; another encounter.

With the dawning of a new day, we all relax.
 
We toss our goggles in the Humvee and I gather Robert, Lynn, and Brian and we begin removing the bodies from the hall, kitchen area, and front door.
 
I wouldn’t worry about clearing the apartment but it’s impossible to get out without stepping over and on them.
 
I want to at least clear a route out.
 
We toss them over the front balcony railing into the front entryways of the apartments below.
 
Brian heaves a few times as he and Lynn cart several night runners that have been ripped open by rounds hitting them and tumbling, creating a mess.
 
Blood and fleshy bits of night runners, some of the flesh still having hair attached, covers the tiled floor as we make our way down to the last layer of bodies.
 
We slip a few times on the slick floor carrying the bodies out.
 
The entry way below fills with corpses as we toss body after body over the railing.

I look up at the shattered door of the apartment above us as Robert and I throw the last body over.
 
I think about going up to investigate, as the sun peeks over the apartment building across from us, but decide not to as there is really nothing to be gained by going in there.
 
With a sigh, I head back inside with Robert.

“Pack up anything you want to bring but try and keep it to the essentials,” I tell Brian, Kelly, and Jessica.

“Make sure you keep them on track if you don’t mind,” I ask Lynn.
 
“I’m going outside for a breath of fresh air.”

“Will do,” she responds.

I head outside after we wash up and sit on a curb behind the Humvee away from the bodies and the smell.
 
The sun is shedding its light on the parking lot over the buildings.
 
I sit on the hard concrete feeling exhausted.
 
With my M-4 resting between my legs and the sour scent of my own body odor assaulting my nose, I ponder the previous night.
 
I feel like I unnecessarily put my loved ones at risk yet again.
 
I feel like I make mistake after mistake and know I can’t afford to keep doing that.
 
The mistakes I feel I made were bringing my kids down even though I thought I needed them to bring a 130 back.
 
I don’t know if that was from an earnest need or just a desire to have a plane nearby.
 
There was also a selfish part of me that wanted them close but if that were indeed true, I would have brought Nic too.

I relive the night going over where my mistakes were and where I could have done better or done things differently.
 
The only thing I come up with is that I should have been more forceful quieting Brian.
 
Not shooting him as that would have made noise and is perhaps too extreme.
 
However, his being unconscious would have kept him quiet.
 
I resolve not to let anyone else put my loved ones in harm’s way in that manner again; or in any manner for that matter.
 
Robert walks out and joins me, sitting by my side.

“That guy is a real jerk,” he says.

“Yeah, I should have done something about it before it got to the point it did,” I reply.

“There was nothing you could have done.”

“I could have sent him to dreamland,” I state.

Robert chuckles, “Yeah, there’s always that option.”

“Do I smell as bad as you?”
 
I ask smiling.

“Worse,” he replies with an answering smile.

“You did a great job in there.
 
Thanks for watching my back,” I say.

“That was some scary shit,” he says.
 
I notice a change in him.
 
He is no longer shaking or referring to his being terrified but more relating to the event rather than himself.
 
His confidence is increasing.

“You are not shitting with that.
 
I thought we were done for a couple of times.
 
Thanks again for watching my back.”

“I did too and no worries,” he says looking at the ground.
 
Our silence continues for a few moments as we each relive portions of our experiences.
 
Lynn walks out a short time later and joins us.

“It was all I could do to keep from laughing when you told that guy off,” she says to Robert.