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Authors: Tanya Michaels

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“Thanks for letting me vent,” Faith told her friend. “I should go before he catches me on the phone.”

“Sure, anytime. You know I'm here for you, girl.”

“I know.” And she appreciated it. But calling to bitch to Morg wasn't the same as having a bona fide family.

Chapter Eleven

Since Pam had the day off from the salon, she'd planned to go to the house and work on renovations after leaving Nick's. She headed to Aunt Julia's to change her clothes, but ended up sitting on the foot of her bed, lacking the motivation to get moving. Even though she knew rationally that part of what she'd witnessed from Faith was over-the-top drama, a sign of the girl's age, some of the pain she'd seen had been real.
And I caused it.
Either by leaving in the first place or by coming back.

“Well, hello there,” Julia said from the doorway. “I didn't realize you were home.”

“I swung by to change clothes, with plans to work on the house tonight.” Pam spread her hands. “You can see how far I got.”

Julia clucked her tongue. “You've been out there so much that we hardly see you. Why not take the afternoon off? I was going to run into town. We could make it a girls' trip—hit the craft store and stop for high tea.”

Pam grinned. “High tea in Mimosa?” The local cafés sold more fried pickles than scones.

“You just have to know where to look. Come with me?”

What had Nick said earlier?
You sound like you
regret the missed opportunities with your mother. So maybe keep your eyes open for future opportunities with other people.
“I'm in.”

Her aunt clapped her hands together. “Wonderful! Let me go put my face on.” That consisted of penciling in darker eyebrows and applying lipstick. Then she announced that she was ready.

Pam got into the passenger seat of her aunt's car, grateful not to be driving. She lacked the mental energy.

“Are you all right, dear?” Julia asked. “I don't mean to sound insulting, but, well, you've looked better.”

“I've felt better.” Pam studied her fingers on her lap, wondering where she should start. “You know that Nick came by your house once to see me? Faith, our …”

“I know who she is,” Julia said quietly.

But Pam was determined to get the word out, to acknowledge her own child, even if the person who needed that acknowledgement most wasn't around to hear it. “Our daughter. My daughter. She wanted to meet me. We had what I thought was a very nice conversation over milk shakes one day, but it got more complicated after that. Nick asked me to come over today and talk to her. She's been having some discipline problems.”

“Anything serious?” Julia asked, looking worried.

“Not yet. She's a good kid, just confused. And ticked off. I guess not having a mother will do that to you.”

Julia mashed the brake harder than necessary at a stop sign and turned pointedly to her niece. “Some kids with mothers have it pretty rough, too, as I'm sure you recall.” She didn't speak again until the car started rolling, her tone calmer and sounding more like herself.
“Beating yourself up does neither you nor Faith any good.”

Pam stared out the window, watching Mimosa pass by, noticing all the tiny, paradoxical ways that the town had both changed and stayed the same. “I know you're right, but there are times when it's hard not to beat myself up. This afternoon was draining, but it was only a couple of hours in my life. Nick goes through that every day. I wish things had been different for him, I wish I'd told him no when he asked me to marry him. If I'd had any sense at all, instead of torpedoing his college plans, I would have begged you and Uncle Ed to consider adopting Faith.” She seemed to recall that her aunt and uncle had long ago tried to have children.

“We wanted to adopt you.” Julia's words were so quiet that Pam thought she must have misheard them.

“What?”

Julia swallowed, keeping her gaze straight ahead, glued to the road. A rosy flush climbed her cheeks. “I've never been sure whether to tell you this. There's a chance you'll think I sound like a jealous, bitter shrew. But I think what scared me is that there's an equal chance you'll be mad at us for giving in and not trying harder.”

“Aunt Julia, you and Ed have been wonderful to me since I came back to Mimosa. Nothing you say is going to change how thankful I am for both of you.”

Sniffing, Julia turned onto a side road Pam didn't recognize. “Ed and I tried to have children of our own. I got pregnant twice over the course of six years, and miscarried both times. And for her to …”

“Her, who? My mother?”

“I shouldn't speak ill of the dead. I don't want to
tarnish whatever good memories you might have of her.”

“All two of them?” Pam asked wryly. “I don't harbor any illusions that Mae was a saint. There were some times over the years when we laughed together or that she told me I was beautiful or that she surprised me with a home-cooked feast, but those weren't the norm. Whatever you have to say, go ahead and get it off your chest. Maybe we'll both feel better afterward.”

“All right.” Julia took a shaky breath. “Your mother didn't want you, at least not at first. She saw being pregnant as a burden. And I was incensed with rage that she would be so cavalier about the gift of life, especially knowing that I'd already lost one baby—the second miscarriage came later. Mae was always the life of the party, but the hard drinking and sleeping with other women's husbands didn't start until after your father left. She fell through a stained-glass window at a Christmas Eve celebration when you were four. It was then that I truly started to worry. Ed and I tried to help her, but it never worked.”

“You can't help someone until they're ready,” Pam said. “That's something I know personally.”

“We reached the same conclusion, that we couldn't help her if she didn't want our help. But we thought maybe we could help you. When you were eight, you stayed after school for a special choir rehearsal and she forgot to pick you up. Nobody could find her, and the music teacher called me to come and get you. When Mae finally thought to come looking for you hours later, I was furious, even threatened not to give you over to her and she laughed! ‘Why, Julia Lynn, that's kidnapping.' Ed and I scraped together money and consulted with a lawyer, but this was right after my second
miscarriage. The legal advice was that we didn't have strong enough grounds for the state of Mississippi to separate a girl who hadn't been harmed from her rightful mother. We were also told that, in court, Mae's attorney would paint me as a grief-ridden, hormone-addled woman out to steal someone else's child because I couldn't have one of my own.”

“Oh, Julia. That's awful.” Pam heart squeezed as she thought of what her aunt had been through. And then, after everything else the woman had endured, her teenage niece accidentally got pregnant.
Insult to injury—like mother, like daughter.
No wonder Julia had so often seemed bitter; she'd had cause to be.

“I should have fought harder,” Julia lamented, “instead of leaving you with her. I was angry and ashamed. On some level, I was afraid the lawyer was right about me.”

“He wasn't. You were trying to look out for me. The same way you're always trying to look out for Uncle Ed with that awful tea and the bacon that isn't really bacon,” Pam teased gently.

Julia gave her a watery smile. “Thank you for understanding. I promise the place we're going has excellent tea and real clotted cream.”

Considering Julia's confession in the car and Pam's draining encounter with Faith, tea could have been a dreary affair. Instead, it was charming. The Royal Cup was fanciful in its setup, as if the entire café was a little girl's dress-up tea party. Stuffed animals lined the shelves of one wall, and the china dishes were of high quality but all mismatched. Julia and Pam were offered a feathered boa and a sequined scarf upon arrival.

“Don't tell me you have a silly side,” Pam muttered to her aunt.

“Nonsense. I only come here because of the antioxidants in the tea. Don't let's mention this to your uncle.”

They had tea with actual cubed sugar and scones with cream and fruit. Considering what a wonderful time Pam was having, it was strange that her thoughts went in the direction they did.

“Julia, I was thinking that maybe, just for the time being, I'd move out to the house. But I wouldn't want to hurt your feelings. You and Ed have been so good to me!”

Her aunt set a rose pink cup down in its saucer. “This isn't because of anything we've said or done?”

“No, ma'am. Part of it is a convenience issue. I'm usually so tired by the time I finish at night, I might as well sleep at Mae's. But more than that, I want to prove to myself that I'm honestly making the place inhabitable. Of course, to actually inhabit it, I'll need some furniture basics. I suppose I
could
use a sleeping bag, but I'd rather not.”

Julia waved a hand. “Your uncle runs a furniture showroom. We are not letting any niece of ours sleep on the ground, for heaven's sake. If you're sure this is what you want, we'll help.”

“I'm sure.”
I think.
“Oddly enough, feeling closer to you gives me the confidence to do it. If that makes sense.”

“You feel closer, so you're ready to move farther away? No, dear, no sense whatsoever,” her aunt said fondly. “We'll talk to Ed over dinner about some furniture options. And after this weekend's big jewelry show in Waycomber, my schedule slows down until the holiday craft fairs start up in November, so I'll be able to come over and help paint or wallpaper.”

“Thank you. God knows I could use the assistance.”

“Done, then.”

Once they'd finished their tea, they progressed to a nearby craft store in much higher spirits. Julia said she needed more “crimp beads,” which Pam gathered to be some sort of fasteners to keep stones in place so that a piece of jewelry hung properly. But no sooner did they get to the jewelry-making section of the store than Julia's shopping list exploded from one item to ten.

“We may be here a while, dear.”

“No hurry,” Pam said indulgently. “I think I might want to commission you to make a couple of things.” Before she left town, she'd like to give presents to Trudy and Dawn. Maybe a necklace for the older woman and earrings for Dawn, something that wouldn't get in her way or catch on her smock buttons at the salon.

Julia made a little murmuring noise to show she was listening as she rounded an aisle, never lifting her gaze from a row of red stones that were so alike in hue and size that Pam had no idea how her aunt could tell them apart. Sometimes, watching her aunt work, she thought that Aunt Julia's hobby required vision and dexterity as precise as piloting a plane for the air force.

“Did you have specific colors in mind?” Julia asked. “Because if you do, we could get materials while we're here.”

“No, I was mostly thinking out lou—” Pam stopped and nearly knocked into her aunt, who'd made another turn to investigate a rack of clearance inventory.

Right down the aisle from them stood Gwendolyn Shepard and one of her bridge club friends. The minute Gwendolyn saw them, she sucked in a breath, clearly
affronted by Pam's presence in the store. Or on the planet.

“You.” Gwendolyn's eyes were her son's, without any of the warmth. Her gaze was blue ice. “I heard you were in Mimosa, but I don't think I really let myself believe it. Deep down, I didn't think anyone would really be that brazen.”

Suddenly Aunt Julia was standing between them, crimp beads and semiprecious stones forgotten as she faced down Nick's mother. “This town was Pamela Jo's home and she has family here, same as your son. She has every right to visit whenever she wants.”

“Even if her being here is detrimental to an innocent child?” Gwendolyn demanded. She looked over Julia's shoulder, once again skewering Pam with the force of her contempt. “I hope you're happy! You've been here a matter of weeks, and already you've ruined that girl.”

Ruined?
And I thought the twelve-year-old was melodramatic.

“That terrible haircut,” Gwendolyn sneered, taking in Pam's own short hair. “Ditching class, running around with inappropriate boys!”

“As inappropriate as your son was as a teenager?” Julia interjected with saccharine sweetness.

Wow.
You go, Aunt Julia.
Pam was shocked to hear her aunt stick up for her so forcefully. Still, the last thing she wanted was an over-fifty catfight in the craft store.

“Ladies, why don't we all agree to disagree and go our own separate ways?” she said. Would Nick tell his mother about this afternoon? No doubt Gwendolyn would add the blame for Faith's outburst atop Pam's other sins.

“Separate ways is a fine idea,” Gwendolyn said.
“Keep that in mind, and stay away from my granddaughter and my son.”

“Nick's a grown man now,” Julia said. “You can't control him anymore. Not that you did such a great job of it even when he lived under your roof.”

With that Julia spun on her heel, and Pam quietly followed suit. They left the store without having bought anything. Once they'd reached the parking lot, Pam said, “Not that I don't appreciate your taking my side … but what you said wasn't particularly nice, Aunt Julia.”

Her aunt glanced up sheepishly from the remote that unlocked the car. “You're right. But it was tremendously fun. Are you disappointed in me?”

Pam finally released the laughter that had been building ever since Julia had rendered Gwendolyn Shepard speechless. “Disappointed? If I ever win the lottery, I'm having a statue built in your honor. That was awesome!”

Julia smiled beatifically. “Drink more tea and eat less salt, dear, and we'll call it even.”

N
ICK MARVELED AT
the unspoken family politics that allowed his brother-in-law, A.J., as man and wage earner, to sit in the living room and unwind while the women cleaned up, yet Nick—also a male breadwinner—was expected to help with the dishes. Not that he minded working in the kitchen. On the contrary, if he could get Leigh and his mother to go in the next room, the cleaning job would be downright peaceful.

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