Beattie left it until after ten o'clock before she went to rouse her upstairs neighbour.
âYou shouldn't have bothered,' Vanessa complained, squinting at the breakfast tray. âI think I'll lie in for a while. I had a really diabolical night, awake for hours and hours. My poor head simply pounds.'
Beattie addressed a space above the pounding head. âToday you'll need to check on your fridge and cupboards; make out a shopping list. Else you'll go hungry.'
What a disagreeable old person, Vanessa thought, a delicate hand across her eyes.
A sort of washerwoman, standing there all lumpy, intent on organising her into distasteful activities. What on earth would she suggest next?
âIsn't there someone who could come and stay with you for a few days? â until you're feeling more ready to take over for yourself.'
âNo, there isn't. I'm not so fortunate as you, with that sweet daughter of yours. Where
is
Rosemary? I thought she might have called in this morning.'
âGone to work, I suppose. She can't take any more time off to sort things out. And she's not my daughter. Just a young woman I've grown very fond of over the years.'
âNot
yours?' Vanessa struggled feebly to sit up, then thought better of it. âI'm sure everyone thinks you're related. But it's true, you're not in the least alike.'
She ran a distracted hand through her corn-silk hair. âIn which case, I wonder if she'd consider â¦'
âConsider what?' Beattie asked suspiciously. âShe has her own life to lead, you know.'
âOf course. But if she's on her own ⦠as I am ⦠And I could do such a lot for her â¦' Vanessa struggled again to sit up
against her pillows. âTake her about; up to town. Show her things. Go to theatres; shopping. A young girl like that â and she's really quite pretty. But she could make so much more of herself. She should be mixing with more interesting people; not hiding away in the country.'
Beattie's jaw set. Give the wretched woman half a chance and she'd be aping the Edwardian chaperon, living off a debutante's brief season. If she'd tried to push that existence on to Sheila, no wonder she went in the opposite direction and opted for gardening. Really, Vanessa was impossible.
âYou'll find Rosemary enjoys life as it is. And she's plenty of friends at work.'
âThat's what poor Sheila thought, but she was wrong. Choosing such an unsuitable occupation! If she was so keen on flowers, her father could have bought her a little shop somewhere pleasant, like Knightsbridge. Life would have been so much more fun for us both. But that
garden
place! And employing quite unpleasant people. That was asking for trouble.'
âHer dad was really proud of her,' said Beattie defensively. âI'm sure you'll find she âad lots of admirers.'
Vanessa didn't seem to be listening. âWhat's to become of me?' she wailed. âI'm utterly alone now. I can't stay here. I simply won't.'
Beattie settled the tray on the bedside table. âBreakfast's there if you want it. It's still there if you don't. Please yourself. But then you would anyway. I've got me ironing to get on with downstairs.' And she padded out.
Left on her own, Vanessa lifted the cover on the two crisply grilled rashers, halves of tomato and buttery scrambled egg. She shuddered delicately, pushed away the duvet and gingerly reached her feet to the floor.
Perhaps she might manage the tea. It looked pale enough., and there was a little bowl with thinly sliced lemon. All it needed was some life added. She thought there must still be a
half of single malt in the drawer with her tights. Just a smidgen, to make the tea drinkable.
Hugging the bottle close she climbed back into bed, poured a cup and doctored it. It tasted strange: not her preferred brand of tea. She lifted the lid and unsteadily poured the liquid back into the pot, then refilled her cup with the last of the whisky.
Drinking it exhausted her. She lay back, the day yawning before her. She'd gone out by taxi yesterday to have her hair and manicure done. She must think of some other place to go. If only someone would whisk her away.
Rosemary could drive. It would be more sensible for the girl to move in, just for a while. Then little by little she would discover the advantages. She could rent out her own flat, and just think what a saving that would be. There must be a way she could be prevailed upon at least to try it. She didn't seem to have an important job. Maybe, if it was pointed out, she'd see the point of giving that up too.
The girl was too fond of that old woman downstairs. Stroking her fine eyebrows, Vanessa nodded at herself in the mirror doors of the wardrobe. She would explain how it could save Beattie's poor old feet on the stairs if someone was on the spot to do all that was necessary.
The thought itself seemed to lift the burden a little. She found the energy to shower and dress. When she had made up her face to complement the coral-flecked tweed trouser suit, she remembered the other person who should be concerned for her welfare.
Dr Fenner was in a seminar and had forgotten to switch off his mobile phone. The call cut across an oral presentation by a young student who always doubted his own ability. He hesitated, spluttered, lost the thread of his argument and stammered to a finish.
âDon't be put off,' Fenner ordered. âIt's nothing important.' He glanced at the number that had come up and promptly switched off. It wasn't familiar, but he recognised the area
code. If Superintendent Yeadings wished to discuss his daughter's death he could find a more convenient moment.
An hour later, when he was free for lunch, Fenner remembered and returned the call. Vanessa answered, starting in at once on a catalogue of complaints. He cut her short.
âThere's just one thing you should know, Vanessa. Sheila has named me as her executor, so you will shortly be hearing from my solicitor about your inheritance. Her entire interest in Greenvale Garden Centre is bequeathed to you. You will need to take advice on how best to deal with that. What you choose to do is no concern of mine, but there is no reason why you shouldn't arrange to have a regular income from it to keep you in comfort for the rest of your life.'
âWhat would I want with that place?' Her voice was querulous. âWhat did she leave you?'
âQuite rightly, nothing. Beyond the business, she had little enough to leave. There are one or two small personal bequests to staff and friends, but beyond that everything comes to you.'
Vanessa replaced the receiver with his voice still ringing in her head: âNothing.' Gabriel had been left
nothing!
Despite that pointless correspondence which he'd kept up with Sheila over the years, here now was what she'd really thought of him! It was gratifying, and more than made up for any disappointment over her own, paltry legacy.
She paced between the drawing-room windows, arms crossed and hugging her breasts. Sheila had lumbered her with the garden business and this godforsaken country apartment. She would sell both and get back to London. She'd always fancied one of those modern penthouse flats in docklands. She'd have it done up in vibrant colours by a fashionable designer, throw out all the traditional stuff she had now and go minimal. Inside, it would be huge. Marvellous for parties. She could fill it with fascinating people: actors, directors, artists, writers. It would be a new life. Who knew what it might lead to? She felt liberated, euphoric with hope.
From one of the front windows she saw Sheila's silver car appear from the side of the house and depart by the long drive. She found her hands were shaking. Something was wrong about that. Sheila was away, wasn't she? That's what all the fuss had been about yesterday. If she'd gone already how could she be leaving now?
Vanessa felt her way towards the nearer sofa and fell against it, holding her head with both hands. This was one of her silly turns. Sometimes things got so muddled. For quite a while, days sometimes or longer, it didn't happen. Then, without warning, she just couldn't tell where she was, because her memory was all jumbled. It was hard to work out the order things had happened in. Or even
what
had happened. Sometimes time seemed to go backwards, or bits were left out. Life became unreliable, mocking her.
At times she suspected that events she'd been most sure of had maybe never occurred. That was the worst part: being afraid that nothing which mattered had ever been real; only a sort of puffball fungus in her mind, or a half-remembered part of a play, but much more sinister than let's pretend. It was like being a puppet, with no script. Isolated in â in a void.
It wasn't just her hands shaking now. Her whole body was possessed by the tremor. She had to lie down, cover herself up, shut out the fear. Stop being, she told herself. If she couldn't force herself to fall asleep, maybe it would just happen on its own. As it had done, several times before.
Â
She awoke at about three o'clock. It was still light, and after a few minutes she thought she could recall fragments of the morning. She was almost sure she'd been talking to Gabriel, but had no idea of what he'd said. Something vaguely pleasing, and that wasn't the feeling she usually got from thinking of him. Yet the idea floated up; a little island appearing out of a misted lake.
Mist. Yes, for days now there had been mist. Around this godforsaken house it lay over the water meadows like sheets
of fine, fine muslin. But outside this mist there was something she'd meant to do. See somebody? Who, then?
Rosemary! Yes â Rosemary, who was going to move in. But not here. Somewhere else. They had a new plan. She tried to focus on that but it escaped her. Where were they going? No familiar walls came to mind; no floors, or doors leading into rooms she'd lived in before: nothing.
Rosemary. Where was the girl when you wanted her?
Vanessa dragged herself up, went out, walked unsteadily the length of the gallery. She had raised a hand to ring the other flat's bell when the door opened in her face. Not the girl she was expecting, but the boy.
âBloody hell!' said Neil. âSorry, but you startled me. Hello.'
He looked almost guilty, but managed a grin. âI mended Ros's gas boiler yesterday. Just checking it's still OK.'
She stared at him. âCan you drive?' The question came out of itself, unrelated to what she had just been thinking.
It startled him. He guessed she'd caught sight of the car as it passed under her windows. âWell, yes.'
She looked odd. Odder than usual, actually; awkward, as if she'd forgotten how she meant to go on. Maybe he could swing her round a bit; get himself off the hook. âIt's a great car.'
His hopeful smile reached her, and for a moment she remembered what had pleased her before. Gabriel, left nothing. âThe garden centre,' she said. âIt's mine now.'
âAh. You'd like to go and see it?'
Mafeking relieved!
With luck he'd get to drive the car again, and this time with her blessing.
She wasn't sure. She'd been expecting Rosemary, and this young man confused her. But if that was what he wanted, why not? He was a charming youngster. Graciously she gave him her hand.
âYou'll need to put something warm on,' he said. âI'll bring the car round to the front, shall I? You come down when you're ready.'
Briefly, as they drove, the oyster sky showed fragile strips of turquoise, but evening was closing in. The mists from morning still hung under clumped trees, faintly bluish like thinned milk, waiting to creep out and take over the open fields again. Even in the car there was the faintest, smoky taste of fog. As they turned into the drive to Greenvale, coloured lights of welcome suddenly sprang out, turning the outer dusk into dark.
âGetting geared up for Christmas,' the boy said. He wondered if Marty would still be away by then. The sooner he went, the better chance that they'd get Christmas together. It shouldn't matter. Christmas was just another day in the calendar, but they usually made something of whatever it was supposed to stand for. Childishly he liked the extra eating and drinking; wrapping and opening presents. So now he was all for the coloured lights and gilt angels, however tawdry and vulgar.
Passing through the glitzy entrance, Vanessa observed the queues at checkout points. People's trolleys were crammed with evergreens, pink or scarlet poinsettias, potted cyclamens and azaleas, plastic garlands, vases, tubs, small conifers, boxes of fancy crackers.
The whole huge glasshouse shimmered with red, green and blue lights. It reminded her of childhood visits to the pantomime. This was the Transformation Scene summoned in a flash of magnesium at a wave of the Fairy Queen's wand. (Santa's Grotto was already being constructed behind screens beside the lift which would provide âFlight by Airship to Lapland': children £2; 1 adult accompanied by a child FREE.)
With every step into this wonderland Vanessa yielded more to the enchantment. And this was all hers: this bustling activity, the myriad stacks of goods for sale, these uniformed assistants, the customers with their cash and cheques and credit cards. Her empire â all perfectly functioning on its own, with Sheila gone.