A Company of Swans (34 page)

In the morning there was an unexpected development. Grisha and some of the Russian girls, going down before breakfast to meet the Bernadette as she docked, returned to say that Olga had not been aboard, nor had the crew any idea of her whereabouts.

"It is extremely strange," said Grisha, returning to the Metropole dining room where the rest of the company sat at breakfast. He turned to Harriet. "Monsieur Verney sent some men to fetch her from the Gregory, I think?"

"Yes, he did," said Harriet, and beamed at the ballet master because he had pronounced Rom's name. "I'm sure of it."

Grisha shrugged. "I suppose she has decided to wait for us in Belem," he said, and instructed Tatiana to pack Olga's things and see that they were put on board.

The rest of the day passed in a bustle of last-minute shopping, packing, promises and plans. Harriet bought farewell presents for her friends: a deceptively demure nightgown for Marie-Claude and a blouse for Kirstin. She also bought a record of "The Last Rose of Summer" for the Indians and found for Rom, in a dusty shop full of maps and oleographs, a book with pictures of the tapestry of "The Lady and the Unicorn"—a wonderful stroke of luck, for above the golden-haired virgin and her obedient beast were embroidered the words: Mon seul désir—and these were the words which Rom had whispered to her two nights ago as she lay in his arms.

By the time she returned with her purchases, the preparations for Simonova's removal were already under way. Two orderlies were coming from the hospital to lift her onto the stretcher and carry her to the ambulance; a nurse had just arrived and was sterilizing her instruments in the kitchens prior to giving the ballerina the pain-killing injection which would enable her to endure the unavoidable jolting as they drove to the quay.

Under these circumstances Harriet would not have attempted to seek out Dubrov, to whom she had not yet said goodbye, but as she made her way across the hall she was waylaid by the harassed stage manager. "If you're going past his door, could you give this to the boss? It's just arrived at the theater, sent on by the London office, and looks as though it might be important," he said, handing Harriet a letter with a Russian stamp and a massive and elaborate seal.

Dubrov was not in his own room, but Harriet's quiet knock brought him at once to Simonova's door.

"I came to bring this letter, Monsieur, it's just arrived. And to say goodbye—and thank you."

He put up a hand to pat her cheek. "There's no need to thank me. You have worked hard and could have been—" He paused, the blue eyes suddenly sharp, took the letter and quickly broke the seal. "Wait!" he threw over his shoulder at Harriet, and carried the heavy embossed paper over to the window.

"Well, what is it?" came Simonova's fretful voice from the bed.

Dubrov, however, was unable to answer. It was necessary for him to mop his eyes with his handkerchief several times before he could trust his voice. Then: "It is from St. Petersburg," he said. "From the Maryinsky." Another sniff, another dab at his watering eyes… "From the director, the man who dismissed you."

"And?"

"He asks… he invites you… to dance at a gala for the Romanov Tercentenary! To dance Giselle before the Tsar!" Dubrov abandoned the effort to check his tears, which now ran unhampered down his cheeks. "The honor! The incredible honor! Now, at the end of your career! We will keep it always, this letter. We will frame it in gold and hang it on the wall and when we sit in our armchairs in Cremorra—"

"Armchairs? Cremorra?" Simonova's voice pierced like a gimlet. "What are you talking about? Give the letter to me!" And to Harriet, tactfully edging her way out of the door: "You will remain!"

The letter which caused Dubrov to weep, overcome by pride and the tragedy of its timing, had an entirely different effect on Simonova.

"Let me see," she murmured in a businesslike manner. "March the fifteenth… Nine months. Ha! Only two other ballerinas are invited—that will teach Pavlova to desert her native land. Think of it—all Russia will be en fete for the Tercentenary! The Grand Duke Andrei asked for me specially—he remembered!"

"Ah, dousha, the honor! The distinction of having been asked!" Dubrov was still awash with emotion. "We shall never forget that you were invited… that you could have—"

"What do you mean, could have? Why are you always so pessimistic? Just because I have wrenched my back a little—I have done it a hundred times—and I have told you already that I will not mulch! Now let me see, we will go to Paris, yes, but not to that idiot specialist—to buy clothes! There will be a reception at the Winter Palace without a doubt and several balls. Then straight on to Petersburg to work with Gerdt. No performances, just work, work, work!"

"Galina, I beg of you, be reasonable." Dubrov was aghast at this new turn of events. "You are severely injured. The doctors—"

"The doctors? Do you think I care about the doctors?" This woman who had not lifted her head from the pillow since her fall had now propped herself up on her elbow and was—incredibly—sitting up! "Send Grisha to me at once, and the masseuse. Chort! I'm as weak as a kitten and no wonder, lying here for two weeks. After Gerdt I shall work with Cecchetti on my port de bras, and if he's with Diaghilev he must leave him and come to me." She had pushed back the sheet, put her long, pale legs to the ground. "Ah, to see Masha Repin's face when she hears of this!"

"Your back!" cried Dubrov in desperation, rushing forward, for she was pulling herself up on the arms of the chair, was actually standing!

"We will no longer discuss my back," said Simonova regally. Still needing the support of the chair she showed, however, no signs of serious discomfort. "For heaven's sake, stop fussing, Sasha, and take that stupid stretcher away. How the devil am I supposed to move with it lying there? Now listen, you must immediately send a cable to the Maryinsky to say we accept. And then come back here quickly, because I have had a new idea about the Mad Scene. You know where I bourrée forward and pretend to pick up the flower? Well, I think it would be better if—" She broke off, her charcoal eyes now focused on Harriet. "Ha!" she said.

"Those shoes I gave you yesterday—there is a lot of wear in them still and they are perfectly broken in. Go and get them, please. At once!"

It had already been dark for some time when Harriet made her way quietly up the avenue of jacaranda trees toward the house.

Saying goodbye to her friends had been hard, but she was home and had been really brave living without Rom for nearly two whole days, but now needed to be brave no longer. For as she walked past the acacia with the flycatcher's nest which Rom had shown her on that first day, crossed the bridge over the igarape, she felt not only the intense joy of the coming reunion but for the first time some confidence in the future. Rom had been so certain that he did not want her to return with the Company, and there had been no further talk of Stavely. There were probably weeks still to be with him, even months—and perhaps the journey back to England. Surely one did not say, "Mon seul désir" in quite that way to a person one intended to part from soon.

What's more, she had saved at least two extra hours to be with him. Dubrov had insisted on getting the Company aboard early to avoid Simonova exciting herself any further and—coming off the ship after her farewells—Harriet found herself hailed by the Raimondo brothers aboard their rackety launch and offered a lift to Sao Gabriel. She knew the brothers, knew the speed of the Santa Domingo. It had taken her only a few minutes to scribble a note to Furo, due to meet her at the Casa Branca at eight, and dispatch it by a seraphic-looking urchin. Then she had been aboard.

She was approaching the first of the terraces. Light streamed from the downstairs windows of the house and from one window which she had not seen lit up before. Moving quietly, but hurrying now—already in her imagination stretching out her hands to Rom—she began to climb the steps.

Something was standing by the balustrade: a small white shape half-hidden by a stone urn filled with tobacco flowers. Not one of Rom's tame creatures… A little wraith? A ghost?

Then the wraith gave a squeak of purest joy and ran down the steps into her arms.

"Henry! Oh, Henry—I don't believe it!"

"It's honestly me, though!"

They clung to each other, as overjoyed to be together as if they had been lifelong companions instead of having met once in an English garden.

"I knew you would come before I went to sleep; I just knew," said Henry, his arms tightening around her neck. "I wanted to see you so much!"

"And I you, Henry!" She had been right to love him; there was nothing else to do with this child. "Only how did you get here? I had no idea—" They had moved a little, so that the light of the terrace lantern was on his face. "Are you all right, Henry?" she asked, startled. "You haven't been ill?"

"I had the measles, but I'm all right now. We came this morning and a nice man called Miguel brought us here in a little boat and I saw an alligator right close to, truly I did, and everything is absolutely marvelous, Harriet, and it's all because of you."

"Why me, Henry?" She drank in his soapy smell, put a hand on his ruffled hair. Soon it would come, the next bit, but she had a few moments still to relish his presence and his happiness.

"Because you found him—the 'secret boy'—you told him about us and that we needed him. He knew all about Stavely and it was because of you, he told me. And Harriet, he's bought it—bought Stavely, did you know?"

"No."

"You can do that," explained Henry. "You can buy places without being there. You send a cable and it goes snaking out along a tube at the bottom of the sea—and then the bank gives people money and you buy their houses. He did it just as soon as you told him about us, and it's because of you that someone else didn't buy it first. I told Mummy you'd find him; I told her!"

"She's here then, your mother?" asked Harriet, noting her own idiocy. Where else would she be, the mother of such a child? The pain was beginning now—not unendurable yet… just mustering.

"Yes! And she's so happy! She hasn't been cross all day—well, only when I asked Uncle Rom a lot of questions, but he said I had a refreshing mind." Henry paused and beamed up at her. The discovery that he had a refreshing mind had set the seal on this joyous and successful day. "He's so nice, isn't he—Uncle Rom? He's just right for a 'secret boy,' even though he's grown-up. I thought uncles might be… well, you know, uncles… but he isn't. He showed me the manatees and some poisoned arrows he got from an Indian and the coati took a nut from my hand." His attention caught by something in her expression, he said anxiously, "You do like him too, don't you, Harriet?" ' "Yes, Henry. I like him very much."

"Because he likes you a lot. He said we had a… mutual friend and that was you. And, Harriet, he told me all the things he's going to do at Stavely. He's going to make a tree-house, only not in the Wellingtonia because it's too high; not that I'd be frightened, but it's not convenient for it to be so high. And he's going to get a huge dog—a wolfhound—and show me how to train him—and he's going to get rid of awful Mr. Grunthorpe and let old Nannie come and live in the house again. He told me all that while Mummy was resting, and it's all because of you, Harriet—otherwise someone else might have bought Stavely first, but you found him and you made everything come right."

"I'm glad, Henry." The pain could definitely be said to be limbering up. She had imagined it often, but there seemed to be aspects that one could not in fact anticipate and the physical part was beginning to be a nuisance: the nausea, the trembling that assailed her limbs—and needing cover, she moved away a little so as to be out of the brightest rays of the lamp.

"Mummy said I could stay awake and tell you all about it as long as I didn't bother Uncle Rom." Henry paused, remembering his mother's unaccustomed gentleness as she put him to bed. "She said I could watch out for you and tell you everything because you've been so kind to us." He moved closer to Harriet because there was still one anxiety that he needed to share with this best of friends. "When she was saying good night, Mummy told me that she had to marry my father when she was young because he made such a dreadful fuss when she said she wouldn't, but now he's dead she can marry Uncle Rom. Only Harriet, when she marries him he'll be my stepfather, won't he? Like Mr. Murdstone in David Copperfield and all those cruel step-people in fairy stories. And Mr. Murdstone was nice to David before he married his mother, but then he was awful. Only I don't see how Uncle Rom could be awful, do you?"

One last effort and then she could let go… crawl away, be sick, howl like Hecuba…

"Henry, if you don't mind my saying so you're being a little bit silly," said Harriet, managing to make her voice matter-of-fact—almost reproving. "Surely you have read the Jungle Book?"

"Yes. Yes, I have." She made no attempt to prompt him, but waited quietly until understanding came. "You mean Mowgli!" cried Henry. "Mowgli had a stepfather!"

"Exactly."

"Yes, he did, didn't he? An absolutely marvelous stepfather! A proper wolf!" Henry was radiant. "Oh yes—and Uncle Rom's a bit like a wolf, isn't he—sort of brave and wild?" As he smiled up at her she noticed that the gaps in his teeth were almost filled; it was three months since they had met in the maze. "Would you like to come and see Mummy?" he went on. "She was in the sitting room just now, hugging Uncle Rom and everything, but I expect they've stopped now." He broke off, his russet head tilted in concern. "Are you all right, Harriet? You're not getting the measles?"

"No, Henry. I'm… perfectly all right."

"I'd better go back to bed then or Mummy will be cross." He put up his arms and she kissed him for the last time. "You're sure you're not getting the measles?" And as she nodded, "I'll see you in the morning. You're my best friend in the whole world, Harriet."

"And you are mine."

At the top of the terrace he turned. "Do you know what I'm sleeping in, Harriet? A hammock! Uncle Rom said I could—honestly!" said Henry and pattered away toward the house.