A Christmas Bride / A Christmas Beau (49 page)

Judith, watching his beaming face and Amy’s glowing expression, felt as if warmth was creeping upward from her toes to envelop her. If anyone on this earth deserved
happiness, she thought, it was Amy. And there would be nothing at all wrong with that match. Nothing.

“Mama!” Rupert was patting her leg and talking quite as loudly and excitedly as any of the children. “Did you hear me? I got to carry the lantern for part of the way. And I am going to walk to church with Ben and Stephen. They said I may.”

“ ’Ow’s my nipper?” Daniel was demanding loudly, and Kate wriggled to be set down from her mother’s arms.

There were more refreshments and a great deal more noise in the half hour that remained before it was time to go to church. The marquess’s aunts and Sir William and Lady Tushingham would ride to church in the sleighs, it had been decided. Lord and Lady Clancy would walk, though the marquess offered to have one of the sleighs return for a second trip.

Three of the smaller children, including Henry, gave in to the lateness of the hour and the long excitement of the day and the novelty of having the big house to sleep in and agreed to stay with Mrs. Webber and be put to bed. Kate, after several huge yawns, was persuaded to stay with them.

And so they set out into the crisp night air, the distant sound of the church bells ringing out their glad tidings of the birth of a baby in Bethlehem and the coming into the world of a savior.

“It is so easy to forget,” Judith said, finding herself walking beside the marquess and taking his offered arm. “There is so much to do and so much to enjoy that sometimes we forget what the season is all about.”

“Yes,” he said. “Going to church on Christmas Eve is rather like walking into the peace at the heart of it all, is it not? But we will be reminded again tomorrow. The children will be performing their pageant between dinner and the start of the ball.”

“Yes,” she said, smiling.

She liked him. She admitted the amazing truth to herself at last—not only that she liked him but that he was a likable person. And she wondered if he had always been so or if he had changed in eight years. If he had always been like this, she thought, then …

She stopped her thoughts. She did not want to be sad on Christmas Eve. She did not want to look back in regret on all that she might have missed. Besides, there were Rupert and Kate. Her years with Andrew had not been all bad. She had not wasted those years of her life. There were her children.

The sounds of the church bells pealing out their invitation grew louder as they stepped onto the village street. People were flocking to church, many of them on foot, some by sleigh.

T
HE
M
ARQUESS OF
Denbigh smiled to himself. The singing at the village church was not usually noted for its volume or enthusiasm. And yet tonight, with the familiar Christmas hymns, the whole congregation seemed infected by the spirited singing of the children. And the rector, no longer rendering a virtual solo, as he was usually forced to do, lifted up his rich baritone voice and led his people in welcoming a newborn child into the world once more.

There was no time like Christmas, the marquess thought, to make one feel at peace with the world. He could not for the moment think of one enemy whom he could not forgive or one enmity that was worth holding onto. The one spot of darkness on his soul he pushed from his mind. It was unbecoming to the occasion. And he was filled with that unrealistic dream that infects all of the Christian world at that particular season of the year that love was enough, that all the problems of the
world and of humanity would be solved if only the spirit of Christmas could persist throughout the year.

He smiled inwardly again. He knew that it was a foolish dream, but he allowed himself to be borne along by it nevertheless.

Judith shared his pew to the right, his aunts and Rockford to his left. His other guests sat in the pew behind, the children behind them again. His neighbors packed the rest of the church. It was a good feeling of well-being. He turned his eyes to the right as the congregation sat for the sermon and watched Judith clasp her hands loosely in her lap.

And he indulged in his other dream for a moment before turning his attention to what the rector was saying. She was his wife and had been for several years. Their children were at home in the nursery or sitting behind them with the other children. They were celebrating Christmas together.

He knew that there was something about her, about his relationship to her and his plans for her, that he needed to think through. There were perhaps some adjustments to make in light of new evidence. But not at present. Later he would think.

Judith, sitting beside him, was trying to remember a Christmas when she had felt happier. There had been the Christmases of her childhood and girlhood, of course. They had always been happy times. But since then? Surely the first year or two after her marriage had brought pleasant Christmases. Certainly Ammanlea had always been full of family members and children. There had been all the ingredients for joy.

But she remembered that first Christmas, when she had still been in love with Andrew. He and his brothers and male cousins had spent the afternoon and evening of Christmas Eve going from house to house wassailing and using the occasion as an excuse to get themselves
thoroughly foxed. Andrew had fallen asleep several times during church while she had prodded him with her elbow with increasing embarrassment. And all the next day at home they had continued to drink.

And that had been the pattern for all the Christmases of her marriage and for the first of her widowhood.

It was little wonder, she thought, that she was feeling so happy this year. So unexpectedly happy. She had been horrified when Lord Denbigh had trapped her into coming to Denbigh Park. She had still been convinced that he was a harsh and unfeeling man and that he had issued the invitation only to punish her for humiliating him eight years before.

She had never dreamed that she could come to like him, and more than that, to admire him. She had never dreamed that she would stop fighting the strong physical attraction she felt for him.

She had stopped fighting, she realized. She had stopped that afternoon, if not before. She could still feel the warmth of his hand on hers beneath her muff—the hand that was now spread on one of his thighs. She glanced at it. It was a slim, long-fingered hand, which nevertheless looked strong.

It was strange to realize that for a two-month period eight years before she had been betrothed to him. They had been within one month of their wedding when she had run off with Andrew. What would marriage to him have been like? she wondered. Performing those intimacies of marriage with him. Bearing his children. Sharing a home with him in the familiarity of everyday living.

She shivered and turned her attention to the rector.

Halfway through the lengthy sermon there was a slight rustling from the pews where the children sat. A few moments later Rupert wriggled his way between his mother and the marquess, yawned widely, and tried to find a comfortable spot for his head against her arm.
She smiled down at him and marveled at how well all the other children were behaving. It was a long and a late service after a busy day.

Rupert’s head fell forward and Judith lifted it gently back against her arm. Her son looked up at her with sleepy eyes. He should have stayed at the house with Kate, she thought. But of course he would have been mortally offended had she suggested any such thing.

And then the marquess’s arm came about the boy’s shoulders, drawing him away from her, and his other slid beneath Rupert’s knees and he lifted him onto his lap and drew his head against his chest. Rupert was asleep almost instantly, his auburn curls bright against the dark green of Lord Denbigh’s coat.

Andrew’s child, Judith thought. Her husband’s child cradled in the arms of the man she had jilted and never faced with either explanation or apology. The man who might have been her husband, the father of her children. She felt an almost overwhelming longing to move closer and to close her eyes and rest her head against his shoulder.

She was falling in love with him, she realized with sudden shock. No, perhaps it was already too late. She had fallen in love with him. With the Marquess of Denbigh. It was incredible. But it was true.

There was no longer any thought in her mind of the suspicions that had troubled her in London and again here at Denbigh.

“T
HE DEAR LITTLE
boy,” Miss Edith Hannibal said to the marquess as the congregation spilled out of the church after the service and exchanged cheerful Christmas greetings while the church bells pealed again. “He is fast asleep.”

The marquess was carrying Rupert, the child’s head resting heavily on his shoulder.

“You must give him to me,” Miss Hannibal said. “I shall take him home in the sleigh, Mrs. Easton, and his nurse will have him tucked up in bed in no time at all.”

“Thank you, ma’am,” Judith said, smiling.

“And I shall take that little one on my lap,” Miss Frieda Hannibal said. “It was a very long service for children, was it not, Mr. Cornwell? But they behaved quite beautifully. They could teach a lesson to several of the children of our parish, who are allowed to fidget and whisper aloud in church. Edith and I find it most distracting.”

“Thank you, ma’am,” Mr. Cornwell said, and he waited for the marquess’s aunt to seat herself in the sleigh before laying in her lap the little girl who was sleeping in his arms. “This is Lily, ma’am. If she should wake up, you may assure her that her sister is quite safe with Mrs. Harrison and will be home in no time at all. Lily becomes agitated when separated from her sister.”

“Then we must squeeze her sister in between us,” Miss Edith Hannibal said. “There is plenty of room, I do assure you, Mr. Cornwell. Come along, dear.”

Violet climbed gratefully into the sleigh.

In the meantime, Sir William and Lady Tushingham had singled out two little boys whose eyes were large with fatigue and who, Lady Tushingham declared, reminded her very much of two of her dear nephews, now twenty-two and twenty-four years old, and had taken them on their laps in the other sleigh.

Mrs. Harrison arranged the remaining children into pairs and led the way home. There was loud excitement over the fact that they were to spend the night and all the next day and night at Denbigh Park.

“It’s the feather pillows wot tickles me,” Toby told a
younger child. “Your ’ead sinks right through ’em to the bed.”

“Last year we all ’ad gifts,” Val said. “But I daresay the guv spent all ’is money last year.”

“I remember the mince pies,” Daniel said. “I ate ’leven.”

“Ten,” Joe said. “I counted. It was ten.”

“It was ’leven, I betcha,” Daniel said, bristling. “You want to make somethin’ out of it, Joe?”

“It was ten,” Joe said.

“Someone is going to be hanging by ten toes over the nearest snowbank in a moment,” Mr. Cornwell called sternly.

“I tell you what,” Mr. Rockford said, walking among the children and sweeping up into his arms one little boy who was yawning loudly. “Tomorrow whenever you eat a mince pie, Daniel, you let me know and I will keep count. We will see if you can stuff ten or eleven into yourself.”

“Twelve,” Daniel said loudly. “I ’ave to beat last year’s count, sir.”

“His lordship’s cook may well be in tears,” Mr. Rockford said. “No mince pies left by the end of Christmas morning. Yes, lad, rest your head on my shoulder if you wish. Now I could tell you a story about mince pies that would have your hair standing on end.…”

Amy took Mr. Cornwell’s offered arm and walked behind the children with him.

“You must be tired, Amy,” he said. “You have had a busy day and have done more walking than anyone else.”

“Yes, I am,” she said. “But I do not believe I have ever lived through a happier day, Spencer.”

“Really?” he said. “You do not find it intolerable to be surrounded by children all day long, listening to their silliness and exasperated by their petty quarrels?”

“But I think of what their lives were like and what they would be like without your efforts and those of his lordship and Mrs. Harrison,” she said, “and I could hug them all until their bones break.”

“Impossible!” He chuckled. “You are just a little bird, Amy. You would not have the strength to crack a single bone.”

“I have always hated even thinking of the poor,” she said. “Their plight has always seemed so hopeless, the problem too vast. And I could cry even now when I think of all the thousands of children who might be with us here but are not. But there are twenty very happy children here, Spencer, and that is better than nothing.”

“You like children,” he said, patting her hand. “I have watched you today talking with them. That is sometimes the most neglected part of our job. There is always so much to do and so much talking to be done to them as a group. I do not always find as much time as I would like to talk with them individually.”

“They have such fascinating stories to tell,” she said.

He looked down at her. “And all of them quite unfit for a lady’s ears, I have no doubt,” he said. “I should not have encouraged you to spend a day with us.”

“A lady’s ears are altogether underused,” she said, provoking another chuckle from him. “Perhaps we should be told more of these stories by our governesses or at school and spend a little less time dancing or sketching or learning how to converse in polite society.”

“My dear Amy,” he said, patting her hand again, “we will be making a radical out of you and scandalizing your family.”

“Is caring about children being radical?” she asked.

“When the children are from the slums of London, yes,” he said.

“Well, then,” she said briskly, “I must be a radical.”

“All in one tiny little package,” he said. “But of
course,” he added, grinning at her when she looked up at him, “diamonds are small, too, and pearls and rubies and other precious gems.”

“Flatterer!” she said. She looked back over her shoulder suddenly. “Where are Judith and Lord Denbigh?”