2 To Light A Candle.13 (66 page)

"A proper answer. Do so," Redhelwar said, rising to his feet to indicate that the interview was finished. "Then make matters known to Dionan. And Leaf and Star guide and counsel you."

Kellen rose to his feet and bowed.

ELSEWHERE in the vast camp—it was as large as the larger Elven cities, by now—Jermayan sought out Vestakia on an errand that would, he knew, require all his arts of tact and persuasion.

If they were to find the rest of the enclaves of the Shadowed Elves quickly— or determine with reasonable certainty that there weren't any, something Jermayan doubted was likely—the only efficient method was for Vestakia to search for them from dragonback. It would certainly be the safest method as well, for in that way he and Ancaladar would be able to protect her from nearly anything that might seek to harm her.

All he had to do was manage to obtain Vestakia's agreement to the plan— and he knew the child was terrified of flying.

There were only a limited number of places she might be; having tried the more obvious places to no avail, Jermayan tracked her down at last in the Flower Forest. Vestakia would have been shy of crowds even without the added handicap of her Demonic appearance; having spent the first seventeen years of her life with little more company than a herd of goats, she sought solitude whenever she could.

Before the First War, the Flower Forests had covered all the world, and before the Great War they had still been thick upon all of the Elven Lands and much of that terrain that was now bleak and sterile wasteland. Now all that remained of the great Elven forests and their vast diversity of species existed only in the lesser woodlands that adorned the Elven cities. It was said that one day, when the En-darkened were utterly defeated, the Flower Forests would begin to spread once more, but Jermayan wondered if perhaps that day was not meant to come.

It was winter, but at every season the Flower Forest was lush. Jermayan followed the faint tracks in scattered snow and blown leaves deeper into the forest until he found Vestakia moving carefully through the wood. Her gathering basket was already half-filled—Idalia or one of the other Healers must have sent her here for supplies and some much-needed solitude.

She stooped to gather a handful of winter mushrooms from the base of a tree, then rose to her feet, turning to face him.

"Jermayan," she said. She sighed, and her shoulders slumped. "I know why you have come," she said forlornly.

"I suppose you must," Jermayan said. "Yet I would not even ask, were the need not so grave. And I shall do no more than that."

"But the others—they would think I was such a dreadful coward, if—if I did not do it!" Vestakia burst out. "And it's true, of course—if I were just to fly over the Elven Lands, and see if I could sense the Shadowed Elves, everything would be much faster. It might be the only way! But it is so very high—and I could fall, and—"

She was speaking very fast, and her voice had gone thin and high with fear. Jermayan stepped over to her, took the basket from her arm and set it on the ground, and gripped her shoulders gently.

"Vestakia. It is very high. But you will not fall. Neither Ancaladar nor I will permit it. Nor is it the only way. Ancaladar and I believe it to be the safest, but that matters not if it will not work. You must be calm and easy in your mind to be able to sense the Shadowed Elves, and I do not believe that will be so if you are in fear of falling from my Bonded's back."

Vestakia managed a weak giggle. "No. I guess not. But…" She hesitated for a long moment. "Maybe we should just go look at him?"

"Indeed," Jermayan agreed, picking up her basket. "We shall go and look at Ancaladar."

THE dragon was waiting beside the ice-pavilion that Jermayan had created two nights before, his great body dwarfing the structure completely. For a few moments Vestakia's attention was distracted by the glittering structure of ice, but she knew why she was here, and her attention quickly returned to Ancaladar.

She'd seen him before, of course, but that was before she'd actually considered getting on his back.

"He's very tall," she said faintly.

"I am not so tall when I am airborne," Ancaladar assured her gravely. "And once I am in the sky, my flight is as steady and level as you might wish, my lady, though I cannot control the winds. Jermayan will be sure to pick only the calmest days for flying, though, I am sure."

"That I should," Jermayan said. "And Ancaladar can sense the weather and how it will run from a great distance, you know. There is very little possibility that we might fly into a storm unexpectedly. And there are all manner of ways in which we can secure you to his back."

"Would we have to fly… very high?" Vestakia asked in a very small voice.

"The higher the flight, the more serene the winds," Ancaladar replied. "But we would fly at your direction, Lady Vestakia. No one else's."

"I don't know from how far away…" Vestakia whispered, almost to herself. She looked pleadingly at Jermayan.

He shook his head.

"I cannot tell you that you must do this thing. And I cannot tell you that you may not. Perhaps you would be comforted to take tea in the pavilion and consider matters further. It will also give you the opportunity to inspect Ancal-adar's saddle."

"Hmph," the dragon snorted. "It is your saddle, Jermayan. I have no need of a saddle."

"But your Bonded is a weak and feeble thing," Jermayan responded with a fond smile, "who requires many such aids. And it is a work of art, very fair to look upon."

"Thank you," Vestakia said. "I would very much like a cup of tea."

TO her surprise, it was quite warm inside the tent of ice. There were carpets upon the floor—just like in the pavilion she shared with Idalia—and lanterns hung from the walls, for despite the fact that the day was bright and the ice was very clear, its thickness made the interior of the ice-pavilion a bit dim.

One corner of the room was taken up with what must be Ancaladar's saddle, and just as Jermayan had promised, it was a work of art—though Vestakia hadn't yet seen anything made by the Elves that wasn't, and privately she thought they wasted a good bit of time on making things beautiful that only had to be serviceable. She inspected it more closely while Jermayan brewed tea.

She knew by now that every Elven Knight chose—or had chosen for them— a particular color of their own. Jermayan's was dark blue, so she was not surprised to see that the saddle and everything about it was in that color. The leather was stamped with a pattern of tiny stars, some subtly burnished with gold and silver leaf, some merely indentations in the leather. It was heavily lined with thick fleece, both where the rider sat and where it would rest upon Ancaladar's neck. Several sets of wide padded straps went around the dragon's neck, and there were footbraces for a rider—very much like the horse stirrups she was already familiar with—set into two sets of the straps.

The saddle itself was similar to a destrier's saddle, except that it was higher in the back and in the front, and a second seat behind—which explained the second set of stirrups. This must be how Kellen had ridden to the Fortress of the Crowned Horns. And when there was no passenger, Jermayan could carry things there.

Continuing to inspect the saddle, she encountered a set of very wide straps, one set for each seat. She picked one set up, wonderingly. They were too short to be part of the girth-straps, but she couldn't quite figure out what they were for.

"That is so I do not fall off," Jermayan said, not turning from his tea preparations. He'd heard the faint clinking, of course; Elven hearing was sharp. "It would be foolish not to take every precaution—though I am certain Ancaladar could catch me if I did fall."

"I could," Ancaladar said, poking the end of his nose through the opening of the pavilion. "I would always catch you, Jermayan. And you, Lady Vestakia. But the straps are strong. And more could always be added, as many more as you thought might make you feel secure."

"And the tea is ready," Jermayan said, gesturing to Vestakia to come and sit beside him.

"What will—I mean, do you know—" She stopped, frustrated by her inability to phrase her remark as anything other than a question. Kellen made it sound so easy!

Jermayan smiled, and handed her a cup of tea.

"For the next sennight—at the least—Redhelwar will consult with his commanders—of whom I am not one, thank Leaf and Star—to decide what tactics will serve us best when we next engage our foe. Perhaps new weapons will be needed, and those must be made, and we must train in their use, as well as in the best way of confronting the enemy. All these things will take time. And we do not know what those who oppose us may do. Should they do anything at all, our plans will change."

Vestakia sipped her tea. And it is all up to me. I must tell them where to go— where the enemy is. Or… not.

She knew she was the only one who could find the Shadowed Elves. The Wildmages had all tried—even Jermayan, whose power worked so differently from that of the other Wildmages—and none of them could sense where the enclaves of the Shadowed Elves lay. Only Vestakia had the power to sense Demon-taint and find the Shadowed Elves.

I must try. She had led Kellen to the Black Cairn, though that had been the most terrifying thing she had ever done in her life. She had gone down into the cavern of the Shadowed Elves, and that had been worse. And there had been true danger both times; the threat of immediate death from an enemy who was trying to kill her.

But neither venture had made her sick with fear the way the thought of climbing onto Ancaladar's back and soaring into the sky did.

Once, when she was a child, before Mama had died, she had gone with her, accompanied by Aunt Patanene, to the Icewild River to fish. The river had been in full spring flood, and she had been far too young to be of much help, so while Mama and Aunt Nene worked the nets, she had wandered away and walked out onto the slippery river stones.

And fallen in.

Her heavy cloak had soaked through at once, pulling her toward the bottom, as the swift river current swept her along below the surface. Fortunately she had been upstream of the nets, so Mama and Aunt Nene had been able to rescue her before she drowned, but ever afterward she had remembered the cold of the river and the airless choking darkness.

The thought of going up in the sky brought the memories back sharply. Flying made her think of drowning, and her heart beat faster with fear.

If she did not agree to fly upon Ancaladar's back, she knew, Jermayan would not rebuke her. But if she did not agree to fly, they would have to search for the caverns on foot. It would take moonturns instead of sennights.

"Do what you can do. You can do no more than that"

Suddenly it seemed as if Mama was beside her, speaking in her ear. Mama had always said that—and after she had died, Aunt Nene had said it for her.

It was as if Mama had given her the right words to say now.

"If I am… too afraid, up in the sky," Vestakia said slowly, "then I will not be able to do what you need. But maybe… we don't need to do it all at once? If we could just practice a little? To see if I could get used to flying?" Her voice trembled, and she stared hard down into her teacup, hoping that Jermayan could not see how terribly afraid she was to say even that much.

"Yes, of course," said Jermayan calmly, as if this were the simplest thing in the world. "Today you will watch me put the harness upon Ancaladar, and sit upon his back. He and I will help you get in to and out of the saddle as many times as it may take to make you feel comfortable with doing so. Then, tomorrow, as the weather will hold fine, we will take a short flight, if you like."

FINDING a white unicorn in a snowfield might be a difficult task, but not when you had a sticky fruit-bun left over from breakfast tucked into your tunic.

"Is that for me?" Shalkan asked, coming up silently behind Kellen.

"Of course it is," Kellen said, unwrapping the treat and holding it out for his friend.

"Um," Shalkan said, finishing the bun in three bites. "Next time get one of the marzipan-stuffed ones. I think they're serving them at dinner tonight."

"Uh-huh." Kellen had no idea what Shalkan's sources of information were, but they were always accurate, especially when it came to sweets. "I need to talk to you."

"You're even less happy than usual—and that's saying a lot," Shalkan observed, falling into step beside Kellen.

"Redhelwar offered to make me an alakomentai," Kellen said bluntly. There was no reason to mince words, not with Shalkan. Thank heavens. At least there were a few beings in this army he didn't have to do verbal dances with for hours before he could get to the point!

"And you accepted? Or… not?" the unicorn asked.

"I'd have to ride a horse! Unless—?" Kellen said hopefully.

"No. There are limits," Shalkan said firmly. "Which horse?"

"He offered me Mindaerel."

"She's a good choice," Shalkan said. "Gentle and well trained. She'll give you a lot less trouble than Valdien does. And you know how to ride. Not very well, but you probably won't fall off."

"But—"

Shalkan stopped and nuzzled him gently. "We're not forever, Kellen. Or even for as long as a pair like Petariel and Gesade, you know. I will always be your friend, but—I will give you full honesty, here—a year and a day bonded to you will be quite enough for both of us. And we both know that if you want those stiff-necked Elves to listen to you, they've got to see what you're made of. Red-helwar is offering you a good place to start. Just don't think he's offering you an easy one."

"I don't," Kellen said. He'd expected Shalkan to object—he realized now that part of him had been hoping that Shalkan would object. But Shalkan thought it was a good ideas as well. And that, Kellen knew, meant he was going to do it.

He'd ordered Jermayan around, on the way to the Black Cairn. He'd led the rescue party on the first expedition to the caverns. He knew he could do it… in the abstract. But this was all real and immediate and a little daunting. And much more formal than anything he'd ever done before. He wasn't good at being formal: discussing tea and talking about the weather, the way the Elves seemed to expect their military leaders to do even when there was a war on. Give him something to hit with a sword, sure, he was fine, better than fine, but the rest of it…