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When I had finished reading, I looked up at the rabbi, who smiled and nodded. And I looked at Patrice, who gave me a big thumbs-up. And I glanced at my mom and dad, both beaming and dabbing away tears.

Rabbi Weiner leaned into my ear and whispered, “Do you have the speech?”

I took a deep breath. My hands were shaking. The Hebrew was just memorization. But the speech had always been the hard part. And even though I had tried, I had never been able to get a good draft down on paper. Suddenly my heart was pounding hard.

“No,” I said. “But I still have something to say.”

He smiled, a big proud smile. “Then say it!”

With that, he went back to his chair.

There was my family, all gathered in this unlikely building in this unlikely town, and there was my one friend who had put up with me and stood by me, and there I was. I had survived the divorce and the move to Indiana. And in the process I had learned a whole lot about who I was. Maybe I could say something about that?

But just as I opened my mouth to begin, I heard a beeping sound. Then the basement door creaked and Archie's mother peeked in. Everyone turned to look. “I'm so sorry,” she whispered, and she held the door open. There was a whirring noise and Archie came in, looking pale and sitting in a motorized wheelchair. He saw everyone staring at him, and I could tell he was mortified. Patrice immediately got up and moved a chair away from the table so Archie could sit there, and I realized that if I started talking, everyone would stop looking at him.

So I did.

This is what I said:

I'm supposed to talk about being a man today. The problem is that I don't feel much like a man. For the past two months, I haven't even felt like a person. I thought I knew what
my life was, with my mom and my dad in our apartment in Manhattan and all my friends, and all that's changed now. Everything.

I guess I used to think that being a man meant that I would be old enough and smart enough to do anything. Like if I were really a man, I could just make everything go back to the way it was. If I were really a man, I wouldn't be in Appleton, Indiana. Or the star quarterback would be my best friend. And Mom would drive a BMW and live in a mansion. I'd be the Brain—the guy who knew everything, who everyone looked up to. If I were really a man, I wouldn't have to be different. I wouldn't even have to be Jewish. Anyway, that's what I used to think. That being a man means being able to make the bad things go away.

But if I can't make the bad things go away, what does that make me? In the last couple of months, I've realized that people are going to let each other down, people are going to lie, and people are going to get sick. And I can't stop any of that from happening.

It's weird. According to Jewish law, you hit thirteen and you're automatically supposed to be smart and responsible. You're supposed to
know things. But I really don't have any answers. Not good ones anyway.

But I'm here. I read the Hebrew. So I must be a man now, right?

I didn't think you'd all be here today, but now that you are, I'd like to ask you a favor and I hope you'll say yes.

Walk behind me. Make it so that when I don't know where to go, I can turn around and you'll be there pointing the way. And if I fall down, somebody just come pick me up, and don't make me feel like I failed.

Because I pledge to you that I'm going to try to be a man. I'm going to try as hard as I can. But I'm going to need all the help I can get. I think I can do it. But I can't do it alone.

I looked out at my whole family, at my new friends, at this whole cobbled-together version of my new and old life. I heard my mother sniffle. Patrice and Archie were both smiling at me. Rabbi Weiner put his arm around my shoulders.

“Amen,” he said, and everyone repeated it.

Amen.

THERE'S A
lot of other stuff I could tell you—about the Quails losing the championship after all; about Kendra and Lucy getting in a fight when Kendra got the lead in the musical and never talking to each other again; about Angelina and my dad getting married.

I guess I could also tell you about how one night over Thanksgiving break Patrice and I stayed up until midnight playing Scrabble, and after she beat me for the fifth time, I leaned over and kissed her—both lips. And then I did it again.

But really, there's only one other story I want to tell.

In the spring there was a talent show. And Kendra, of course, worked up a big dance number that everyone went nuts for. But then, right after her song, while she was still onstage, the band started playing a different tune, something slow and sort of mystical. And suddenly Archie wheeled himself out, carrying a microphone.

The audience went berserk, clapping and laughing. Then Archie turned to them and asked them to be quiet. Patrice was sitting a couple of rows ahead of me with her dad, and she turned and looked at me and I smiled.

Then Archie cleared his throat, and he sang the song I had heard on his computer six months before, the song that told Kendra that what he wanted more than anything else in the world was for her to notice him and know his name.

Blushing, Kendra stared out into the audience. We hadn't said a word to each other since Brett beat me up, but I wondered if she remembered what she had promised me.

When Archie was done singing the song, there was not a sound in the whole auditorium. Everyone was just staring at Kendra and Archie, lit by two spotlights alone on the stage.

Kendra got up and walked over to Archie's wheel-chair. She smiled.

The crowd whooped and hollered. People started taking pictures with their cell phones.

Kendra kneeled down next to Archie and took his hand. He dropped the microphone and it landed with a thud. He was shaking.

Then Kendra took Archie's face in her hands, and turned it so he was directly looking at her. And there, in front of that whole room, the most popular and most beautiful girl in Appleton, Indiana, kissed Archie.

(But no matter what he tells you, there was no tongue.)

About the Authors

Jason Robert Brown
is the Tony Award–winning lyricist and composer of
Parade, The Last 5 Years
, and
Songs for a New World
as well as the musical
13
, which he collaborated on with Dan Elish. At his bar mitzvah he sang a song he had written about breaking up with his girlfriend, even though he had not at that time ever had a girlfriend. Jason lives in California with his wife and daughter. You can visit him online at www.jasonrobertbrown.com.

Dan Elish
has written television shows, magazine articles, and many books, including
THE ATTACK OF THE FROZEN WOODCHUCKS, THE WORLDWIDE DESSERT CONTEST
, and
BORN TOO SHORT
. He also collaborated with Jason Robert Brown on the musical
13
. At age 13, he attended his best friend's bar mitzvah in a pair of ripped-up sneakers. Dan lives with his wife and two children in New York City. You can visit him online at www.danelish.com.

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The Attack of the Frozen Woodchucks

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