“I was so damn worried about missing all the good waves, especially since he was the
one who had woken me up anyways that morning. I was exhausted from a late night of
partying, and I didn’t even give a shit that my dad was miserable. I kept thinking
that it served him right for getting me up so early, so I was an insensitive ass,
took off to hit the waves, sans my old man. I didn’t even a look back at him. All
I cared about in that moment was getting my daily adrenaline rush and getting rid
of my hangover.”
Mason paused to look down at Harley, expecting to see a look of disgust in her eyes,
but
to his surprise, all he saw was encouragement intermingled with little bit of sadness.
He
swallowed a ball of crappiness in his throat.
“I’d been out there for twenty minutes, I think, and I still hadn’t seen any sign
of my dad.
I was pissed, and I kept cussing him out in my head. I figured he had stayed in the
car after all, so I kept surfing, escaping in the waves. Finally when I got my shit
together and got past my bitterness, I decided to finally go hunt him down,” he closed
his eyes, and the memory tore at his chest. The pain was too much.
“Forty-five minutes later, I found him lying against the front of our car … dead.”
Mason
slugged a wooden beam on the deck, and Harley jumped, a gasp left her mouth. Good,
he wanted to scare her. He was tainted; she needed to know how badly now. “I tried
waking him up, I did CPR, and then I looked over and noticed his cell was in his hands,
that he’d tried calling 911.”
He pushed away from the railing, his hands so tightly balled that he was sure blood
would drip from his nails digging into his skin. “Harley, he was
dying
and there I was, off surfing, not a care in my ridiculously, selfish world.”
The pain was building in his chest; he couldn’t fight it much longer. He sure as hell
couldn’t start balling like a baby. Shit, he never even cried as his dad’s funeral!
Why the hell was he struggling now?
A soft, tentative finger was there under his eyes, catching the tears that had fallen
without his permission. He stared down at Harley’s wet face, and not a trace of laughter
or disgust was on her cheeks. God, she was a blessed miracle that he didn’t deserve.
“We found out later that it was a massive heart attack.” Pity formed in her eyes.
That was
too much. He pushed away from her, walking towards the other side of the porch. He
couldn’t deal with pity. “I should have been there for him! I was too freaking selfish
with my own crappy issues to notice my dying dad, less than two hundred yards away.
I should have been able to save him.” Feeling hesitant and embarrassed from his weakened
emotions, Mason placed his head
into his hands, trying to erase the ache.
It wasn’t working. Hell, it never did! He was forever destined to live in guilt. That
was
how it was supposed to be. He deserved an eternity of misery for what he’d done.
“Jesus, Mason, don’t you dare blame yourself! It wasn’t your fault. Wasn’t that what
you
just told me?” He glanced over his shoulder, almost amused with the way Harley’s pony
tail
flicked back and forth behind her. Then when she was there in front of him wrapping
her arms around his waist, he knew he was both a hypocrite and a goner. She had him
so tightly woven around her finger and into her world that he’d be damned if he lost
her too.
Nobody needed to erase Mason’s guilt especially not Harley. It was the only thing
he had
left that served as a reminder of that day. Hastily, he turned around, pushing her
away by the shoulders. His temper was on the verge of flaring again, and she had to
steer clear of it. “Don’t try to take the blame away from me, Harley. It’s my fault
he’s dead, and no matter what you or anyone else says, my guilt won’t go away.” Harley’s
eyes widened, and her mouth hung open in what he could only assume was shock. At least
she gave him the space he’d demanded.
Truthfully, he loved the way her arms felt wrapped around him and missed it when she
wasn’t there.
Yeah, Mason was probably preaching to the choir. Like he said, he was hypocrite, but
he
could have saved his dad if only he’d been there to call an ambulance, to do earlier
CPR.
Anything – something!
“No, Mason, you don’t get to do this.” The fierceness in her eyes was back, and his
anger
began to lighten. “You don’t get to blame yourself especially when you just told me
that
I
can’t blame
myself
for what happened with my brother or with Aiden.” Her voice rose. She was yelling,
and she was damn sexy doing it.
He was officially losing his mind. One minute he was crying, and the next minute he
was
lusting, desiring.
He was one messed up son of a bitch.
She moved against the railing to stand next to him, shoulder to shoulder, arm to arm.
Together, his equal. Equal. That one word was his final straw. He had to get those
lips of hers back onto his.
He whipped his arms around her waist, and pushed her back against the side of a post,
one hand on each side of her head, pressing his front flush with hers. She tried to
fight him, but the anger that had darkened her eyes was fast replaced with the passion.
He smiled, his breath coming out in pants.
Holy hell, she wanted him too, and he was going to have her.
Their bodies were glued together like they were once before. Both were breathing
rapidly, and the cool fall air did nothing to keep the heat between them at bay. When
her eyes shut, Mason knew it was time to take her over completely.
“No more talking, little beast.”
Her mouth opened as if to do just that, but he grabbed her by the nape of her neck
threading his fingers through those waves and silencing her words. Her warm breath
intermingled with his, and he lost it, finally, crashing his lips down onto hers.
This wasn’t right. His little beast needed to have someone to cherish her like she
was a
breakable treasure. Then she pushed as hard against him as he was her, and he knew
right then and there that he’d made the right choice. No tenderness … pure, animalistic
lust; that’s all this was. That’s what they both needed.
Or was it?
Her tongue pressed against his lips first, and he eagerly accepted, opening wide.
This was
unlike their kisses that night in her bed. If it had been this hot, then there was
no way he would have been able to walk away from her then. With her hand tucked cozily
under his t-shirt on his stomach, she began to trace the lines of his abs with her
finger nails. Mason growled deep in his throat at her teasing and immediately reciprocated,
his own fingers finding a home over the front of her hoodie.
Harley moaned in response and arched into his touch. He was about two seconds away
from throwing her over his shoulder caveman style and depositing her into the backseat
of his car.
A noise sounded in the distance. He probably should have pulled away, but her fingers
were too torturous, too distracting, as they wandered around his stomach and up his
chest.
He couldn’t stop now if she begged him to.
“Get your God damn hands off my sister, you stupid shit!” Crap. Okay, that’ll ruin
the
moment. Mason pulled away gasping only to stare down at Harley’s still closed eyes.
Her cheeks were red, and her mouth was swollen from his kisses. Wow … he had no word
to describe her as other than stunning.
David cleared his throat, and instead of looking shocked when her eyes reopened, Harley
looked pissed – raging, mad pissed. Mason stared back over at her brother, his heart
still racing as he took in David’s hatred filled face. The dude may have been in a
wheel chair and legless, but he had arms the size of cannons and a temper that’s seemed
to exceed his own.
Harley turned around. All the calm, cool collectedness was gone as she walked towards
her brother. Evil intent was in her steps as she slapped her feet against the wood.
Mason held back a bubble of laughter. He’d gone and fell for one hot, murderous girl.
“David you better shut the hell up, before I make you.” His little beast was back,
and
fiercer than ever. He smiled, ear to ear. “Now wheel your ass back inside so that
I can pretend you never came out here.”
David paled at her words and responded with an I’ve-been-put-in-my-place kind of
frown. “God, Harley. Mom just wanted me to tell you that the pancakes were ready,
jeez…” He whined, crossing his arms over his chest as he slumped low in his chair.
Harley in return
whispered something back, smirking the entire time. David frowned harder and responded
with a roar. “What do you expect, Har? The dude’s hands were all over you, and I don’t
like seeing his tongue in your mouth. It’s …just … nasty…”
With one last hate-fueled look towards Mason, David left. Mason smirked at his backside
before his stomach began to clench with unease. Shit … now he had an enemy on his
hands.
“Umm … so … where do we go from here, Mason? It feels to me that we’re kind of
going somewhere when we kiss like we just did,” Harley purred as she slowly traipsed
back over to him.
She was all vixen that girl, totally un-Harley like. Mason graced her with his own
one
sided smile. He liked this side of her. Oh, the things he could do with that side
of her. Then when she finally reached him and began running her fingers along the
cording of his necklace that lied snugly around his throat, Mason almost lost control
again.
“You know what I want, little beast.” Mason uncharacteristically stammered. A slight
raspy tone echoed in his voice as he grabbed her hips. He was losing it … losing his
heart and it was scary as shit but undeniable and glorious all at the same time.
Shit … glorious? That wasn’t a manly word. What the hell?
“Well could you possibly refresh my memory then, Mason? I never can seem to
remember anything when I’m with you. You’re rather … distracting.” Damn, was she sexy,
but
he had to give her time to think this through.
Sure they had one hell of a good time kissing. They meshed together like they belonged
to each other, but Harley wasn’t thinking with her head. She was thinking with her
heart and apparently her new found hormones too…
He grabbed her hands in an attempt to ward them off his body. He was done ravishing
her
body in the wide open. He wanted her alone and in some place a little more private
the next time he decided to lose control. “Well, I’ll tell you what, little beast.
I’m going to let you stew on that kiss for a day or two. When you figure out what
it is that you want, you come find me.” His grin was playful, and he positioned his
hands against her side before tucking his own into his pocket.
He leaned forehead and kissed her forehead, the warmth of her head on his lips made
his body sizzle. Their eyes met as he pulled back. Confusion and desire was there
in her eyes still, and he needed to leave before he changed his mind.
He turned away, his body screaming obscenities at him as he did. He just hoped he
hadn’t
pissed her off with his cryptic response.
Like he said before, the girl needed time to decide because rushing into a relationship
with him wasn’t something she could take lightly. Hell, he had his own thinking to
do. He had things to figure out like how in the hell would he be able to part from
her when he left to go back to Cali.
The constant up and downs of the past week had taken its toll on Harley’s body. She
was
truly sick now and had been since Wednesday afternoon; right after Mason had so easily
escaped from her front porch.
She was feverish. She was snotty. She felt like shit. A simple head cold was feeling
like it was going to kill her. She was sure of it. She had missed the rest of the
school week because of it and was so out of sorts that she didn’t even know what day
it was until Abigail came waltzing into her room, beauty torture devices in hand.
Dammit. Was it Saturday already? That only meant one thing – it was dance day. How
was she going to make it through an entire dance when she could barely get out of
bed?
“Knock, knock!” Abigail’s all too cheery voice said it all. Harley groaned, pulling
the
covers over her head. “None of that grumpiness, girlfriend! This should be a happy
day. Well, except for that nasty cold you have going on,” Abigail pulled the covers
back. Harley let her, but her pouty lips were going to make it known that she wasn’t
happy about the intrusion.
It was pointless to fight Abs though. She always won, no matter the battle. “Man,
you
do
look like crap!” Her bluntness sucked, but Harley was used to it. It was actually
the one and only Abigail characteristic that she could love and hate at the same time.
Abigail sat down next to her on the bed, as she pinched her chin with her thumb and
forefinger. She sighed, “It’s going to take a lot of work to make that swelling disappear
under your eyes, Harley Ann, and I don’t have the time or the money to call in the
plastic surgeon.”
“Whatever, Abs. Just tell me what the first order of torture is.” She pushed Abigail’s
hands away and sat up. “Nails, hair, make-up? One of those mud mask thingies?” Harley
hid her giggle with her fingers as Abigail’s frown spread across her lips.
“Well, smarty pants, I was thinking hair first, and then make-up, and then a light
pink
iridescent polish for the toes and fingers. Whaddya say?”
Harley rolled her eyes. “Whatever. You know I don’t give a crap about that kind of
stuff.” It was the truth. Well, at least partially.
A little piece of Harley wanted to look hot for herself and, yeah, maybe even for
Mason.