This Is Paradise (3 page)

“He’s an actor,” Cora says excitedly. Cora is majoring in theater at University of Hawaiʻi. She’s our group’s academic. “His tattoo is the Greek tragedy mask.”

Lani shakes her head. “Da lef’ wrist, like look.” Just above his watch we glimpse another mask, this one unmarred by tears and wearing a smile.

“Comedy,” Cora says, but the rest of us shake our heads. Cora grew up in Kailua. She can be so naive sometimes.

“Smile now, cry later,” Lani says.

Prison
, the rest of us explain.
Prison ink
.

Cora’s face turns pink. “We should go get her.”

Lani shrugs as if she doesn’t care. She’s a Nānākuli girl and likes to pretend she’s tougher than the rest of us. But we know better. Whether someone claims Mākaha or Waimānalo or Wahiawa, once they move to town, they lose some of their edge. These days Lani would never play with men headed to or coming from prison.

Cora starts to march toward the dance floor, but we stop her.
Let Lani handle dis
, we say. Cora isn’t known for her subtlety. Lani, however, is a master. She sidles up next to Mel and her man and makes like all three of them are going to dance together. We can tell he’s pleased with this turn of events by the way he spreads open his arms and hands, as if to embrace both women, a world of women.
Mel shoots us a confused look over her shoulder, and with a little jerk of our heads, we tell her to come back to the table. But she has no chance to act on her own. By the time she returns her gaze to the dance floor, Lani has already nudged her into a crowd of our friends—the Aiu boys and some of the band’s crew—and then pushed her along to us.

“Why make me leave?” Mel asks.

“ ’Cause I neva like yoa taste in men,” Lani shoots back, and we laugh.

Mel glances at the dance floor, where her partner is looking for her. “Bryan seemed sweet,” she says. “He moved here from California like me.”

We shake our heads. We can’t believe this guy already has a name. “Did Bryan tell you what he was in prison for?” Cora asks.

“Prison?” Mel says. “I don’t think so.” We tell her about the ink. She tries to protest but she knows we’re telling the truth.

Kaila Kaʻawa, whose two brothers have spent most of their lives in and out of county jail, defends Bryan. “You neva know. Could be nutting serious. Jus’ borrow one car, yeah.”

“You mean steal a car?” Cora says.

“I mean borrow,” Kaila says. “But fo’eva. And neva leave one note.”

We crack up at that, even Mel, and she thanks us for looking out for her. That’s what we do, we tell her. That’s
what any girls would do. We watch out, we keep each other safe. Maybe he’s a good guy, but no sense taking that chance, you know? He’s not one of the guys we cruise with, not a local boy. So no worries. We didn’t offend anyone important.

The band goes on a break, except for the bassist, who pulls out a guitar polished to a brilliant shine. The bassist is a haole boy, blond as his guitar, with a round, freckled face. He doesn’t look legal drinking age. He barely looks old enough to smoke, and Lani sneers, “Tink he one mean guitarist. Like play some emo shit I bet.” Haole Boy takes his time tuning the guitar, loosening the higher strings and humming slightly to himself. Lani looks around for Ricky to ask for the bill, but Kaila is watching our bassist-turned-guitarist carefully. Her father plays everything from uke to guitar to drums, and he dances, too, so she knows this scene well. When Kaila pays attention to a performer, we all do.

At last, our haole strums his open strings, and Kaila laughs to herself. “Ho, Haole Boy tune G wahine? He like play slack?” She shakes her head, as if this is the last thing she thought she’d ever see, and she pulls on Lani’s dress to make her sit down.

The guitarist takes a deep breath, and then his fingers are flying across the strings. He plays “Whee Ha Swing” like he’s Sonny Chillingworth reincarnated, chords and single notes blending tight, so clean and layered that when we close our eyes, we think two guitarists must be onstage.
Lani is watching him. When he takes the tempo up, she shivers with pleasure. “Dat boy is mean,” Kaila whispers.

“That boy is local,” Cora agrees.

“No,” Lani says. “Dat boy is one kanaka.” At this, we laugh. Lani has paid her highest compliment. She has called him Hawaiian.

We continue to watch the guitarist, his fingers jumping quick as fleas, but out of the corners of our eyes we also notice Bryan approach Susan. He leans his elbows on her table and pulls teasingly at her brother’s hat, like he’s family, an older cousin or uncle. Susan giggles, and in the blue light, her maroon dress turns a deep purple. “Not everyone can be local,” Cora says, motioning toward Susan before returning her attention to the guitarist.

Bryan pulls up a stool and sits between Susan and her brother. He rests a hand on Susan’s arm, and she laughs at something he’s said, reaching up to graze his cheek with her fingers. Her brother laughs, too, encouraging Bryan to tell another story. Bryan shakes his head and makes a motion like he wants to smoke. The brother pulls a pack from his pocket, but Bryan shakes his head again. He leans close to the table and whispers a secret. We can guess what he’s proposing.

Our slack-key guitarist finishes with a smile and ducks his head in humility. “Mahalo nui loa,” he murmurs into the microphone. “I thank my uncles Bill and Nahele for giving me this gift I share with you.” We bow our heads,
too, in reverence to this boy’s uncles, his kumu. Yeah, he is one of us, honoring his kūpuna and making his people proud. We respect that.

During the break we head to the restroom, and Susan is there, applying makeup in the mirror. We look at each other, wondering if we should speak to her about Bryan or let her find out by herself. The bathroom is small, slightly cramped, but we all remain, taking turns in the stalls, washing our hands, combing our fingers through our hair, staring at the prints of hula girls hanging on the wall. Finally, we are finished. No more hands can be washed, no more hair adjusted. Lani leans against the door, about to open it, about to leave, when Kaila says to Susan, “Hey, Sista, not my place, but. Da guy you wit’ has prison tatts.”

“I know.” Susan says, speaking to us through the mirror. Her reflection looks at Kaila’s. “He told me all about it. He got out two weeks ago.”

Kaila raises her eyebrows.

Susan laughs lightly. “Don’t worry. He was just in for dealing pot. You know how it is: wrong place, wrong time.”

“Jus’ be careful,” Kaila says. She turns and faces Susan. “You no know him. Yoa brudda no know him.”

“You girls really don’t want visitors to have a good time, do you?” Susan shrugs. “Whatevs.” With a tight smile, she snaps her purse shut and brushes past Lani. The bathroom door swings in Susan’s wake, and we are all left staring at the empty space.

Our final toast is to Kiana’s promotion at the
Advertiser
, and we drain our glasses. “How did it get so late?” she asks. The clock on Bar Ambrosia’s wall insists it’s one in the morning.

How did we drink so much? How did we laugh so hard?
We feel loose and giggly, the way we always feel after a night together.

“How did this bar get so—” Esther pauses, palms upturned as if waiting for an answer from heaven. We study the orange walls, the stainless steel tables, the plasma televisions, the chrome salt and pepper shakers.

“Vegas?” Laura suggests.

“MoMA in New York,” Kiana says.

Modern. Moneyed. Mainland
. We take turns adding adjectives.

“This bar is anything but local,” Paula Gilbert agrees. Paula is the only one of us who’s never lived off island, never left for college. She is the most local of all of us. Paula is also the only one who is married; she has a two-year-old baby boy and is six months pregnant with a girl. In rare moments, we feel a certain jealousy of her.

As a police officer, Paula manages the rookies as they leave the academy for their stints in Waikīkī. Years ago, she asked to be placed elsewhere—Makiki, Kāhala, even downtown—but now she is resigned to her steady flow of rookies and accepts that Waikīkī is her beat, her training
ground and her kingdom. This resignation we view with both scorn and envy. We can’t understand how Paula can accept her inferior posting, yet we wish that we, too, could be content with what we’ve already attained. Perhaps then we’d have the husband and the babies and the home. Perhaps then we’d have more than our careers and our selves.

“Anything but local,” Laura repeats. “That’s why I come here.” We nod our heads in agreement. Here, no tiki decorations hang on the wall. Piña coladas and mai tais are replaced with Manhattans. Reality in space-age pepper shakers.

“Ain’t no Lava Lounge, ladies,” Esther says.

“Thank goodness we’ve graduated from that place,” Kiana chimes in. We laugh as we remember our days there.

How old is that place?
We ask ourselves.
Been around forever. Since before we left for college
.

“Remember the time Esther’s brother was working his first beat as a rookie?” Kiana looks slyly at Esther, and we wait for the punchline, laughing before she says it. “And who comes out of Lava Lounge so drunk she can’t see straight but his baby sister!”

“And who’s the big attorney now,” Laura teases.

Esther hangs her head in mock shame. “Yeah, well, remember when Paula met Jason there?”

“Oh God, that
is
how we met,” Paula says. “I sometimes forget. He and I told our parents we met in church.” She
sends us into fresh laughter. Jason and Paula met the July before the rest of us went into our senior year of college. Paula had just earned her associate’s degree from Honolulu Community. She was already talking about settling down and starting a family, already setting herself apart from us as we set our sights on mainland jobs and graduate programs.

Our voices echo as we leave the hotel bar. In the lobby, we pause to check that we have house keys and sweaters, that no one has to use the restroom, that no one forgot a cell phone or purse. We are standing in the hotel lobby saying our goodbyes when a couple staggers through the front entrance. We can hear the woman’s voice—loud and authoritative—describing a club she visited in Los Angeles. For a moment we study her and the man she’s with: he has high cheekbones and olive skin, full lips, extraordinarily tiny ears; she has a ski-jump nose. We remember the nose. She’s the girl from the ABC Store. Her brother joins them in the elevator. The door closes, and we look back at each other.

“Oh, to be young again,” Laura says lightly.

We kiss each other on the cheek and promise it won’t be so long till next time. Paula reminds us that her baby shower is in one month. “And men are welcome, so bring your boyfriends!” she adds cheerfully.

“I think you got the last good one!” Kiana means to sound playful, but a rough edge finds itself in her voice. How do we admit that finding a man who is as successful
and as driven and as single as we are is not an easy task?

Paula chuckles humbly. “Oh, no. Plenty other Jasons where I found mine.”

“At the Lava Lounge?” Laura asks. We start laughing again. We pause only when the smell of pakalolo wafts over us. We look around the lobby, and the young woman’s brother is already back. His eyes are round and red. We look at each other, eyebrows raised.

“Wonder where he got that from,” Esther says.

“I should probably arrest him,” Paula says, sticking her hands in her pockets. “But I’m off duty right now.” We watch him slink through the front entrance toward Kalākaua Avenue.

“Where’s his sister?” Laura asks.

Esther glances around the empty lobby. “She must still be upstairs.”

Paula frowns. “I hope she knows that man she’s with really well.”

“Probably just met him tonight,” Kiana says drily. “I guess that’s the point of vacation.”

The party begins to break up. Paula offers a ride home to Laura and a couple of others who live on Diamond Head, and they leave. Kiana and Esther linger with the rest of us to talk about Paula’s baby bump and the steadiness of Jason’s job as a photographer. They live in an ʻohana behind his parents’ house. With two kids they’ll outgrow the tiny cottage in no time, but they’ll never be able to afford
their own place. We also wonder about Laura’s resort design, worried that another development will push housing prices further upward, making it harder still for our people to remain on their land. “And what about water usage?” Esther demands. Even in conversation with us, she turns hot-blooded lawyer when the subject of land rights comes up. But Kiana rests a hand on Esther’s shoulder, and the tension dissipates.

We kiss each other on the cheek one last time. We’ve let another half hour slip by. As we reach the front door, we spot the tourist girl and her date exiting the elevator. They breeze by us, their heads bent together, his right arm thrown protectively around her shoulders. They are heading for the back of the hotel, where the veranda overlooks the ocean. From there they can gain beach access. Leaving the carpeted lobby, she trips and falls to her hands and knees. But she’s up again in a second, giggling with embarrassment, and he laughs with her. He slips his arm around her waist and grips her tightly, steering her away from the lobby.