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Authors: Ann Rinaldi

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He smiled at the French baby and then looked at me. Several times while I ate I felt his eyes upon me. Then when he finished, he put his bowl down, thanked the grown-ups, and came to put his hand on my head. "This one is wise," he said. "This one has an old spirit. She has been among us before."

I know I should have been frightened out of my wits, but I wasn't. There was a slight movement to my left, and I knew that Elinora was peeking out of the canvas of the wagon. The
Indian still had his hand on my head. "She will meet the spirits," he said. "And they will know her for her good heart."

Then he turned and walked off into the deepening darkness of the desert. And it was as if he had never been. Everyone went about their business. Nobody spoke of him. I felt as if I had been in a dream.

THE REST OF THE
trip nothing much happened except that, the next day, we saw a mirage.

It was our first, and we all stopped to stare at it.

Then, in the hush, came Elinora's voice. "It's only a false pond. Some say it is attributed to the fact that the sky appears to be below the horizon. Others say it is the effect of gas that comes from the sub-scorched earth."

We continued on our way. Never would I be so glad as to get to Santa Fe and be shut of Elinora.

Just outside Sante Fe, Mrs. French presented me with a new dress and bonnet. I'd seen her sewing them. But then, she sewed all the time, sitting up there in their wagon, when she wasn't reaching over to keep one of the twins from falling beneath the wheels and killing himself.

"I don't know what to say," I told her. The dress was the softest calico, trimmed at the neck with real lace she'd brought from Independence.

She smiled. "You have to look nice for the nuns," she said.

I gripped the dress in my hands, which had gone sweaty. And I knew. I looked into her plain face. The blue eyes, pale as some ancient fire, burned into me, unblinking, telling me. My voice failed, but I managed to get out a proper thank-you. Then I took the dress into our wagon and stuffed it under my quilts. Elinora still had my travel bed.

We arrived at Santa Fe in that mystical hour before dark. The aspen trees, turned gold already, were weighted with the added gold of the sunset. We passed under a great wooden arch. I heard a church bell in the distance, so faint I thought it was in my dreams. It sounded like tinkling broken glass. How long I'd waited to get to Santa Fe! How Mama and I had planned what we'd do here in the two days Daddy had promised us we would stay! I knew I must look at this place. At least for Mama.

I was disappointed. The houses were all small and squat, the color of red sand. Mongrel dogs wandered the streets. Goats and burros napped on the wooden walkways. Everywhere were Indians in blankets, Mexicans in blankets, and women in blankets. But the children, the children, it seemed, ran about in next to nothing.

"There's the Governor's Palace!" Elinora came from the inside of the wagon to push herself between me and Daddy on the seat. "Look!"

"It doesn't look like much of a palace to me," I said.

"There's the oldest church in America! San Miguel!"

Now that looked the part. The walls were cracked and held up by beams.

"Children are not allowed in there," Elinora whispered. "It may fall down. But the priests hold mass there. God won't let it fall on them."

"But he'd let it fall on children?" I asked. "Is that what they believe?"

"Hush, Lizzy," Daddy said. "It's tradition. And she is educating us. Go on, Elinora."

"Thank you, Mr. Enders. There's the central plaza!"

Elinora acted as if she'd been here before. I felt as if I was
already trapped here forever. I looked but couldn't see. Saw but couldn't make any sense of it. The church bell was louder now. "That's 'Ave Maria'!" Elinora said, and crossed herself.

The bell was so loud I covered my ears. But the sound got through, anyway, echoing in my head, my blood, my bones, insisting and insisting on something. What?

Our caravan had stopped in front of a church. "Oh!" Elinora scrambled down, nearly killing herself. And then, out of the grillwork door of a building next-door, through which I could see a courtyard and a garden, came some black-dressed figures.

"We thought you'd never arrive! Thank the Lord! Elinora? Is this Elinora St. Clair?"

Elinora curtsied. "Yes, Sister. And you must be Mother Magdalena."

They embraced. I stumbled down from the wagon, my bones cramped, my eyes unaccustomed to all those red houses, to the sight of the ridges of the foothills in the distance fired up by the sunset and shadowed all at the same time, to the sunset, red and orange now.

"Isn't it lovely?" the woman called Mother Magdalena said to me. "The conquistadores named those mountains that catch the light of the sunset Blood of Christ."

They would,
I thought. But I nodded politely, numbly. Then there were greetings all around, with nuns and girls coming out of the grilled doorway and helping with our things. Mexicans appeared, too, with their everlasting blankets, to unburden and take away the mules, to unload the wagons, to unhitch the oxen. The nuns and girls exclaimed over the Wade boys and the Frenches' baby. They took the sleeping baby inside and led Mrs. French and Mrs. Wade, saying something
about tea. Then the one they called Mother looked around. "But where is your wife, Mr. Enders?"

The story was told, quietly, by Daddy. The Mother crossed herself, then hugged me and called me "dear child." Her black dress smelled musty yet homey at the same time. I allowed myself to be led inside. Tea sounded wonderful. I would even call the mountains Blood of Christ for a cup of tea with real milk, by now.

Rooms were all ready for us, the Mother said. The whole party would stay the night.

WE WERE TAKEN THROUGH
cool rooms with tiled floors, and walls that were plastered with something called
jaspe.
It was very, very white, and against the bottom half of the walls was pasted a calico covering. "So the whitewash doesn't brush off on our dresses," a nun explained. There were settees on which were thrown Navajo blankets. There were deep, deep windowsills, and on every sill was a pot of red geraniums. Candles flickered all over. And whichever way we looked there were plaster saints praying, bleeding, dying, but always with smiles on their faces and their eyes cast to heaven. Some of them were almost life-size.

They gave me a room upstairs with Elinora. It had mosquito netting on the beds, rag rugs on the floor, and, of course, the usual plaster saints and geraniums. Our portmanteaus were on the floor.

On each of our beds was a dark purple dress, shapeless and long. "Oh, the school uniform!" Elinora held hers up, beaming.

A Mexican woman brought in a bowl and a pitcher of water and gestured to them. "Oh, yes, I must wash!" And
without asking me where I'd wash, Elinora pulled off her dress and stood in her pantalets and chemise and commenced to wash herself.

I got down on the floor, opened my portmanteau, and took out the dress Mrs. French had made for me.

"You're not wearing that!" Elinora objected.

"Well, I'm not wearing that stupid purple thing, since I'm not staying."

"It's the school uniform. They wanted to give you a fresh dress. It's an honor to wear it."

"That's why I'm not."

Just then the Mexican woman came in again with another bowl and pitcher of water. I could have kissed her. I wasn't about to wash in Elinora's leavings. Quickly I pulled off my traveling clothes and washed myself, too. The soap was perfumed. And there was some kind of powder as well.

From belowstairs came the tinkling of a bell. "Supper," Elinora said.

I put on the dress from Mrs. French, struggled with the buttons, then followed Elinora downstairs. From another part of the house there came the chatter of young girls. I looked out the window on the landing and saw four or five of them crossing the courtyard. I paused. In the middle of the courtyard was a garden with a little pond. In it were floating lotus flowers. In the garden were many fruit trees.

"My uncle brought them from St. Louis years ago when they were but little switches," she said. "There are trees all over Santa Fe from their cuttings. Isn't the garden beautiful?"

I could not deny it. "What are those?" I pointed to a line of trees against the south wall.

"Tamarisk. They are very old. In the spring their blossoms are lavender pink."

"How do you know so much? Have you been here before?"

"No. My mother went to school here. She told me everything."

Chickens scratched in the garden and dogs slept in the shade. I saw two cats washing their faces serenely. One gray and one black and white. And I thought of mine at home. "Oh, I'd love to pet them," I said. There were benches all around. It seemed quiet and peaceful.

"You can pet them tomorrow. Let's go."

EL I NORA WAS POUTING.
The Bishop did not come to supper.

"He's away," Mother Magdalena said. "He is visiting far-flung parishioners."

"You see?" Elinora nudged me. "I told you he was important."

To my relief none of the other nuns were at the table. Just our caravan party and Mother Magdalena. A Mexican woman served. At least eight candles in very large tin saucers glowed on the long, polished table and made flickering light over the ceiling beams. The dishes were pewter, the bread homemade, the stew mutton. Wine was served to the men. Old Persian rugs were on the floor.

By the time Mother Magdalena said grace and a whispered prayer for my mother, it seemed that I'd been inside that room forever. That I'd been there before, gone away, and left part of myself there, and now had come back to retrieve it.

It was the mutton stew, I told myself. Or the homemade
bread or the cherry wine Daddy allowed me to sip. Maybe it was the sweet-smelling smoke from that strange log burning in the hearth at the end of the room. Its crackling sound mixed with the melodious voice of Mother Magdalena, the faraway sound in a house of someone practicing the violin, the tinkling of glass and silverware, all lulled me into a near trance.

She was telling us about the new chapel that had just been finished. "It took five years and cost the Bishop dearly. And now we discover there was no staircase built to the choir loft. Can you imagine?"

"Oh!" Elinora's fork clanked on her dish. "Where will I sing, then?"

Mother Magdalena smiled. "We've heard about your lovely voice, child. I'm afraid that for now, until we figure out what to do about a staircase to get to the choir loft, the whole choir must be in the back of the church."

"Oh, but my uncle wrote about the chapel being built! I so looked forward to singing in the choir loft. How could they leave the staircase out?"

"Nobody knows," Mother Magdalena said sadly. "It seems that if you don't stand right over these workmen today, you don't get what you bargained for. We are praying on the matter. As a matter of fact, we have started a novena to Saint Joseph."

"I'd like to see what he can do about it," Elinora grumbled, so low that only I could hear.

By that time both Wade boys had to be carried to settees at the end of the room, before the meal was finished. The French baby was set in a nearby cradle. I wondered why they were not taken upstairs. Darkness came upon the land outside,
but the candles sparkled brighter than ever on the table, dripping tallow into the tin saucers. There was a special dessert, some kind of cooked fruit with something sweet glazed all over it. And cookies. I was allowed some coffee. There was foamy milk and shaved chocolate on top of it.

I thought of the black bittersweet coffee on the Trail, the times I had to share my bowl of water for washing with Mama. For a moment I looked to the end of the table at Mother Magdalena and could have sworn that it was Mama's face inside that starched wimple, smiling at me.

"Mama?" I heard myself say it. I know I saw her through the tears in my eyes. The tears that blurred out the faces of the Wades and the Frenches and my daddy.

Soft but firm hands were lifting me then, out of my chair. I was being carried across the room. From outside the windows I heard footsteps, laughter, scurrying feet; then I heard Mother Magdalena's voice behind. "Oh, you girls, if you hear any screams from the street this night, don't be frightened. At night Santa Fe is a different world."

I was mindful of being carried up the stairs in someone's strong arms. I smelled the tobacco my father used.
Why,
I thought,
Daddy's grown another arm.
I knew this place was magic. I sensed we were in the room I was to share this one night with Elinora. Then I was on the bed and someone was removing my shoes and unbuttoning my dress and slipping it off. I was set between sheets that smelled clean, smelled of fragrant cedar, but were rough to the touch. The last thing I heard was Elinora's voice.

"Thank you, I'll put out the candles."

Sleep pulled me into its canyon, which was dark and full of
shadows. There was a light at the far end, and outside I could see cactus with bulbs of yellow growth, yellow butterflies, and olive-yellow birds. There was such a yearning in my heart to reach them that I thought I would die. But I did not have the strength.
Tomorrow,
I thought,
I'll reach them tomorrow.

4

THERE WAS A SCREAM,
long and fashioned out of agony. It pulled me from my sleep. I opened my eyes. The wagon was flooded with moonlight. Was it a coyote? Who was on guard outside the wagon? I hoped it wasn't Daddy. I heard voices.

I sat up. Everything was in the wrong place. Who had moved me to this part of the wagon? I looked around, saw a large chifforobe, ancient and looming. Saw a window. And then I remembered.

"Elinora?" I whispered.

From her bed came the sound of snoring. She often snored at night. I pushed my covers back and got out of bed. The room was chilled with the breath of my own fear. I walked to the window and looked out.

Below me was the Santa Fe street, rich in moonlight and spilled shadows. People were moving around down there. Their voices carried on the night air, even through the windowpanes.

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