The Long Ride (18 page)

Carole shifted the notebook to write on it better. She found that it was resting on a pile of papers she hadn't noticed when she'd first sat down. It wasn't unusual for a pile of papers to appear on the desk suddenly, since Max sometimes left things for her attention. In fact, the office often seemed a little disorganized, much like the tack room that abutted it. It could have been described as disorganized organization. It looked messy, but those who knew the system could find anything.

Carole lifted the notebook to find out what the papers were all about.

They were a form of some kind. At the top of the first sheet was a logo, then the word
application
, followed by some handwritten information.

“That's mine,” Ben said, yanking the papers out of Carole's hand before her eyes could even focus on the contents.

“Uh, sorry,” she said automatically. “I thought Max might have left something for me—”

“It's okay, but they're mine,” he said, cutting her off. He folded the pages quickly and stuffed them into his back pocket. “I'm going for a bucket of Fez's feed. He'll be hungry when he gets here.” Before Carole could say another word of apology—or any word at all—he was back out the door, headed for the grain shed.

Once again Ben had successfully avoided any kind of informative conversation, apparently deferring to the needs of a horse.

Carole glanced down at the desk before replacing the notebook. The envelope for Ben's papers was still there, addressed to him. It had the same logo the application had. It was from the local Horsemen's Association, and under the address was handwritten
Scholarship Committee
.

The pieces of the puzzle slid into place. Ben had graduated from high school a year before. Carole could still remember his embarrassed smile when the Pony Club had given him a card signed by all the members, Carole, Lisa, and Stevie included. Max had told him to take a day off work for graduation, but he'd only been gone for the morning, returning that afternoon in his usual sensible work clothes but with a fresh haircut—no doubt obligatory. Nothing had been said about the graduation itself, and it seemed to mean little to Ben, other than that he could work longer hours at Pine Hollow.

Now, apparently, Ben was applying for the Horsemen's Association's scholarship, which meant he intended to go on to college. There were a couple of colleges in the area that offered good equine studies programs. Carole knew about them because she intended to apply to one or more of them in another year herself. She'd also known about the scholarship from the Horsemen's Association. What she hadn't known was that Ben was applying now.

That was great news. And of course it made a lot of sense. Ben didn't talk much, but he was one of the most naturally gifted horsemen she'd ever known. He'd never have trouble getting work with horses, but a college degree, especially one in equine studies, would make a big difference in the kind of work he'd get.

Since Ben had arrived at Pine Hollow, Carole had seen a lot of him. She'd watched him calm upset horses, train fidgety ones, and tend sick ones. He'd fed them, groomed them, dosed them, exercised them, taught them. He seemed to speak to them in their own language, establishing a primal relationship with them. It was only people Ben couldn't talk to.

And now he wanted to go to college. Carole felt a small glow. She knew a secret, and it was a good one. Ben deserved this. He deserved to go to college, and he deserved all the help that was available. He deserved scholarships and recognition. He deserved everything she and her friends could do for him.

While these thoughts still whirled in her head, Ben returned to the office.

“It's ready,” he said.

“Good. Listen, Ben, I really wasn't snooping, but I want to say how happy I am that you're applying for the scholarship. I didn't know you were thinking about college …”

He didn't say anything, but the look he gave her made her stop talking. Carole blushed. She hadn't said what she'd wanted to say. It made it sound as if Ben were somehow different from other people—not the kind of person who should think about college. That wasn't what she meant at all, but Ben's look told her that that was what he'd heard.

“Well, good luck,” she said, backing off.

“It's not really about luck,” he said, once again turning aside her good wishes.

Carole swallowed any further words that came into her head. There was no point. Ben would turn anything she said into what he expected to hear. That wasn't fair, but she couldn't do anything about it. He thought of himself as a second-class citizen, but she didn't, and she didn't want to be tarred with that brush.

“Right,” she said.

At that awkward moment, they both heard a van coming up the drive to the stable. It had to be Judy Barker with Fez.

“I think our patient has come home from the hospital,” Carole said.

“I hope he's easier to get off the van this time,” Ben said.

Carole laughed. When Fez had first arrived at Pine Hollow, it had taken the two of them, a blindfold, ten carrots, and forty-five minutes to coax the reluctant traveler off the van and into his stall.

This time it was a very different story. Fez was a changed animal. He was submissive and meek. His head hung low with fatigue; his ears, once alert and flicking in every direction, now nearly flopped. He'd lived through a terrible ordeal and had more hard times to go.

“I don't know,” Judy said, shaking her head as she led him down the gentle slope of the ramp. “I've got his leg in a splint. He can stand on it and walk a little. He'll spend most of his time lying down, but he loses muscle tone every time he doesn't use the leg, and it seems to be getting harder, rather than easier, for him to stand. I hate to say it, but I just don't know if this boy is going to make it. He doesn't need medicine now as much as he needs care. He needs exercise
and
rest—in careful proportions. Ben, Max said you have some ideas.”

“I do,” he said.

Carole smiled to herself. Almost anybody else in the world would have then given some idea of what the ideas were, but not Ben. Well, both Carole and Judy knew that whatever they were, they would be good ones, and if he had any questions, he'd ask. Ben would never, ever, under any circumstances, do anything that would hurt a horse.

Ben took the lead rope from Judy and, speaking gentle words into one of Fez's flopped ears, led him back to his stall. Except for his markings, it was almost impossible to recognize the horse. All the spark, all the fire, all the character that had made him both difficult and great were gone. Carole bit her lip, holding back the almost overwhelming emotion she felt watching the broken horse nearly stumble back to his home.

“We can take care of the paperwork,” Carole said, inviting Judy into the office.

Judy sat down across the desk from Carole and handed her the medical records. She also gave her medicines that Ben and Max could administer to Fez and carefully described how they should be used. Carole took notes and stored the medicines in the small refrigerator near her desk. She closed the notebook, shelved it, and invited Judy to take a final look at her patient.

Walking along the hallway at Pine Hollow with Judy was always an experience. The vet never missed a chance to check on all her patients.

“I see Barq's been eating better,” she said, rubbing the Arabian's nose and admiring the horse's recently more rounded belly. “And look, the scarring is almost all gone on Penny's flank. What's the matter with Nickel?”

“Nothing, as far as I know,” Carole said, suddenly alert to a possible problem.

“He looks tired,” said Judy.

“Oh, right, tired. Of course he is,” said Carole. “The youngest kids were working on gait changes in class today. Poor old Nickel went from a walk to a trot to a canter about four hundred times. I'll see to it that he gets an apple tonight and a little molasses in his feed tomorrow.”

“He'll thank me for that!” Judy said. “Hi, Starlight!” She patted his nose. “Oh, Belle, don't be jealous.” She patted Belle's nose, too. “PC? How's it going?”

“It was his big day today,” Carole said.

“Right. Callie was on him, wasn't she? How'd it go?”

“She was as tired as Nickel.”

“I'll bet. And how did it go for Stevie?”

“Tough,” said Carole.

“It would be,” said Judy. “Now, Fez, are you glad to be home?” she asked, stopping outside his stall.

The horse lifted his eyes to take a look at his doctor. Ben stood by him, still murmuring gently, reassuringly. When he'd finished saying whatever he was telling the horse, he turned to Judy.

“We'll do fine together,” he said.

“Tell me what you've got in mind for him,” Judy said.

Ben unsnapped the horse's lead rope and moved to the stall's door. As he did so, Fez began a slow and pained descent to a lying position. Carole winced for him.

“Is it okay for him to do that?” she asked.

“Some,” said Judy. “He shouldn't be putting too much weight on the leg for a while yet. The problem is that if he lies down too much, he'll lose all his muscle tone and he may never be able to get up again. He really needs to move as much as he can.”

“That's what I want to work on,” said Ben, latching the stall door behind him. “I was testing to see if he was well behaved enough to remain standing as long as I had him on the lead. It worked, and that means I should be able to walk him a little each day. Then, later, maybe more than a walk. I made a kind of chart.” He reached into his back pocket. “I'll show you.” He pulled out the clutch of papers he'd taken off Carole's desk and unfolded them, turning to the third or fourth sheet.

He and Judy studied them together while Carole let the cobwebs clear out of her head. It only made sense that the Horsemen's Association scholarship application would require a competitive submission that would give the committee an idea of the skills the applicant already had. It had seemed odd, but now Carole understood why he'd pulled the application away from her so abruptly. It wasn't just his future that was on the line, it was his ego, too.

Ben had to show the papers to Judy. She'd have to oversee and approve his project. But he could keep his plan from Carole. That was all right by her, too. She didn't need to see exactly what he had in mind. The only thing she really needed to do was help him, though he wasn't likely to ask for help. She'd just have to give it to him—whether he realized he needed it or not.

Back when Carole, Lisa, and Stevie had first formed the group they called The Saddle Club, they had decided that, unlike a lot of other clubs, this one should have just two rules. The members had to be horse-crazy—which was the way they'd described themselves in those days—and they had to be willing to do anything to help their friends. Every time they'd rolled up their sleeves to pitch in, they called it a Saddle Club project. But Lisa was a continent away. Stevie was working on her own project. This would be Carole's own personal Saddle Club project—whether or not Ben wanted it.

“This is good, Ben,” Judy said when they'd finished going over the program. “You've planned for slow but steady progress, and you can be flexible if your patient either slows it down or speeds it up. The thing you don't know—can't know, really—is whether your patient will be able to cooperate at all. He's uncomfortable, even in pain a lot of the time. It's going to take a good deal of drive for him to move beyond the point he's already reached.”

“He's going to be okay, isn't he?” Carole asked.

Judy shrugged. “I wish I could say yes, but I can't. It's a miracle he's alive right now. Almost any other horse with almost any other owner would have been euthanized at the scene of the accident. It was a bad break in a bad place. But the Foresters wanted me to do everything I could to save him. I always have mixed feelings about that. I mean, we're making progress every day in veterinary healing, and this gave me an opportunity to try new techniques and medicines, working with the clinic at the cutting edge. But the result …”

They all looked at Fez. He seemed more resigned than healed.

“Is he in constant pain?” Carole asked.

“No, I don't think so,” said Judy. “If he were, there would be no question what I would recommend. He would have to be put down. I can't allow one of my patients to suffer constant pain. He gets sort of edgy sometimes, which I think means more discomfort, so I give him a sedative. Ben, you and Max can use it, too, if you sense he needs it.

“I'm worried about three things for him now, and everyone who looks after him will have to be aware of these. The first is that the bone has to complete its healing. It's not quite done, and it hasn't happened as fast as it ought to. That's why he's still got that splint on. Next, and Ben is focusing on this, Fez has got to build strength in all his muscles. Third is the possibility of a secondary infection. He's been through an enormous amount of work to get to the point he's reached, and it tends to lower an animal's resistance. He's okay now. He's stable, or I never would have brought him over here. And I don't like to have to say this, but if he doesn't—”

“Don't say it, Judy,” Ben said, cutting her off. “And don't worry. That's not going to happen. I've got a lot at stake here.”

“I know, Ben. I know that. But you've got to remember that your success or failure as a trainer in this project is separate from the success or failure of the project.”

“Failure?” he asked, saying the word as if he'd never heard it before. “No. We won't fail.”

“Good luck,” Judy said, offering him her hand. Ben reached to take it. She looked as if she wanted to say something else when the cell phone in her pocket started to ring. She answered the call, listened for a moment, shook her head, and said, “I'll be there.” She hurried out of the stable before Ben had time to retract his hand or Carole had a chance to say goodbye.