Mam wouldn't like it at all. That's why I didn't tell her I was coming to see Sergeant Jones on my way to Brwyn Coch.
He comes closer and peers at my face. âYour mam does know you're here, doesn't she, Gwenni?'
The black telephone on his desk jangles and we both jump at the noise. Sergeant Jones lumbers back to the desk and picks up the receiver. A voice crackles at him through the earpiece. I can hear it over by the door. âYes, sir,' answers Sergeant Jones. âNo, sir. The holiday has held things up a bit, sir.' He pulls out his big handkerchief and mops his head. âCertainly, sir.' He puts the phone down on its cradle and looks at me. The phone call has made even his bald head turn purple.
I look closely at the poster as I open the door. Goose pimples prickle my skin again. It's lucky there are no murderers around here.
âHave you seen this man?' I hold my poster high up so that Nellie Davies can see it clearly.
âDon't stand on that step if your shoes are muddy,' she says. âIt took me half an hour to scrub the smell of your old tomcat off it this morning. You tell your mam.'
I step back down and try not to breathe in the fumes of the Jeyes fluid. I hold the poster as high as I can. âHave you seen this man?' I ask her again.
Nellie Davies pulls her spectacles down her nose and squints at the poster. âThat's an old photograph,' she says. âWho is it?
âIfan Evans,' I say.
âMr Evans to you,' she says, âand if I'd seen him I'd be telling Mrs Evans, not you.' She shuffles backwards in her big old felt slippers and bangs the door shut.
âThank you, Mrs Davies,' I say to nobody. I take my pencil and my red Lion notebook from the pocket of my school mackintosh and next to Mrs Davies, Number 7, I put a question mark.
I pass Nain's house and our house and climb the steps to Number 4 and hang over the railings to see if Alwenna is coming. I waited and waited for her this morning, she always comes to fetch me in the mornings during the holidays. Mam won't let me go down to the council houses. But the only thing coming up the hill is the jangly sound of music from someone's wireless. I turn to the blue door and knock hard on it until my knuckles sting. Everyone knows that Mrs Thomas goes back to bed for a little nap after Mr Thomas has gone to work. I wait, tapping my foot to the music, and after a while the door opens a little crack and one of Mrs Thomas's bleary blue eyes appears. âOh, it's you, Gwenni,' she says. She opens the door wider. âCome in and have a cup of tea with me.'
Having a cup of tea with Mrs Thomas means making it for her and I haven't got time this morning. âNo, thank you, Mrs Thomas,' I say and push the poster close to her face. âHave you seen this man?'
Mrs Thomas gathers her dressing gown around her and looks at the photograph through narrowed eyes until my arms start quivering with the effort of holding it up. She pats her hair into place and smiles at me. âI wouldn't mind seeing him at all, Gwenni,' she says, âa good-looking man like that. Who is it?'
âIfan Evans,' I say.
âIfan Evans?' says Mrs Thomas. And she narrows her eyes at the photograph again.
âWhen he was young,' I say.
âWho gave you that picture?' she says.
I cross my fingers. âMrs Evans.'
âThat poor woman' says Mrs Thomas, âand those poor little girls left without a father.'
âI'm trying to find Ifan Evans for them,' I say.
âI wouldn't do that, Gwenni,' says Mrs Thomas. âIt's meddling. Are you sure you don't want a cup of tea?' She licks her lips. âI've got a big chocolate cake I made yesterday.'
I shake my head. As she shuts the door I put a question mark next to her name in my notebook. Why can't people just answer my question? I leap down all three steps into the road and land at somebody's feet; I don't know they're Alwenna's until I look up.
âI didn't see you coming up the road,' I say. âWhy are you in your Sunday clothes?'
âThey're not just for Sunday,' Alwenna says. âThis is how I always dress now.'
She twirls around in front of me. Her yellow skirt flares out showing her big net petticoat and throwing out a sweet scent. It's not Evening in Paris. âI have to be very careful not to ladder my stockings,' she says. âYou're not going through any fields, are you? Because I can't go through any fields in these.' She points at her shoes, which are narrow and pointy and have a silly bow on the front.
I shake my head. âNo fields,' I say. âBut we might have to run. Can you run in them?'
âI've given up running,' says Alwenna. âWhy are you wearing that thing?'
âWhat thing?' I say.
âYour school mac.'
âIt might rain, or snow. And anyway, it's got good pockets. Look.' I pull out my notebook and pencil and show them to her, but she's too busy tugging her white jumper down tight over her chest to look. âAren't you cold without your coat?'
âNot much,' she says. âYou won't get a boyfriend looking like that.'
Boyfriend? We hate boys, she knows that. But I think of her laughing with Aneurin and Edwin after Sunday School.
âI don't want a boyfriend,' I say. âI hate boys.'
Alwenna sighs. She pulls her jumper down again. âBoys are all right,' she says. âThey don't come from outer space, you know. They're not aliens.'
âAnd I especially hate our bêtes noires,' I say.
âI think . . .' says Alwenna, then stops and pulls a square of bubblegum from her skirt pocket. She undoes the wrapping and pops the gum into her mouth and begins to chew. My mouth waters.
âWhat?' I say. âYou think what?'
âI think,' she says again, âthat, really, you like Aneurin. And he likes you.'
âNo. Yuck,' I say. âI hate him. He hates me. You're the one who likes Aneurin all of a sudden.'
âAneurin's related to me,' she says. âDidn't you know? Through Mam's second cousin in Dyffryn.'
Almost everyone is related to Alwenna's mam. She's got more relations than Jesus Christ in my New Testament. Maybe that's how she knows everything about everybody. But my family is not related to her.
âI like Edwin,' says Alwenna.
âBut Edwin's stupid,' I say.
âHe's quite good-looking, though,' she says.
Edwin looks like Mrs Williams Penrhiw's old horse. I just stare at Alwenna. She jigs a little dance to the jangly music still sounding in the air around us. âYour Bethan's got a boyfriend,' she says.
âMam won't let her have a boyfriend,' I say. âShe's too young.'
âI've just seen her with that Richard.'
âYou can't have. She's gone to play with Caroline.'
âGone to play with Caroline's brother, more like,' says Alwenna. She twirls again so that her skirt and her petticoat flare out around her and I can see the tops of her stockings. âI can't stay long,' she says. âWhat are you doing?'
I show her the poster, which is already creased and furred after showing it to only two people. âI'm trying to find Ifan Evans.'
âGood riddance to bad rubbish is what my mam says,' says Alwenna. âNobody wants him back.'
âHis little children want him back.'
âI don't know why. That little Catrin's always scared of him.'
âWe'll have to go round together, because I've only got one picture of him,' I say.
Alwenna studies the poster. âNo one'll know him from that,' she says. âThat must have been taken ages ago. He was good-looking when he was young, wasn't he?'
âIt was the only one I could get,' I say.
âWhere did you get it?'
âFrom Mrs Evans. Yesterday.'
âShe gave it to you, just like that?'
âNot exactly,' I say. âI sort of borrowed it.'
âYou'll get into trouble,' says Alwenna.
âCome on,' I say. âOr we'll never get round the whole town.'
I knock on the door of the next house. I can hear Miss Hughes grunt as she tries to pull the door open. Across the road the Youth Hostel echoes with voices and light glows in most of the windows. In winter the Youth Hostel is dark and silent and the twisted rhododendron trees in its garden start writhing when you glimpse them out of the corner of your eye.
At last Miss Hughes opens her door, gasping with the effort. âIt's swollen from the damp,' she says, looking swollen and damp herself. âWhat do you want, girls?' A musty smell drifts out from the hallway behind her. I try not to breathe too deeply.
âHave you seen this man?' I show her the poster. âIt's Ifan Evans,' I say.
âWhat do you mean?' says Miss Hughes. âOf course it's Mr Evans. Of course I've seen him. He's one of our deacons, Gwenni. What are you talking about?'
âI meant have you seen him since he vanished?'
âOh, oh, who told you to ask me that?' says Miss Hughes and puts her hand over her mouth. âDoes your mam know you're doing this, Gwenni?'
âWhen's the baby due, Miss Hughes?' says Alwenna.
âOh, oh,' says Miss Hughes again. âYou wash your mouth out with soap, Alwenna Thomas.'
Alwenna blows a bubble of pink gum. It has a juicy strawberry scent. Miss Hughes stumbles around and pushes the door in our faces, pushing and pushing until it shuts.
âWhat baby?' I ask Alwenna.
âHer baby,' says Alwenna. âDidn't you know about it? Everyone knows about it. Mam says no prizes for guessing who the father is. He hasn't run off with her, then.'
âShe'll tell your mam,' I say.
âNo point,' says Alwenna. âBut she's sure to tell yours.'
I pull out my notebook and put a question mark next to Miss Hughes's name. âNo one will answer the question,' I say.
I know that everybody's out at work at Number 2 so I'll have to come back later. That leaves Dafydd Owen at Number 1. âDo you want to knock on Dafydd Owen's door?' I say to Alwenna.
âI'm not knocking on his old door,' she says.
âWe've got to question everybody,' I say. âOr we might miss the one person who's seen Ifan Evans.'
âDo it yourself, then,' she says. âI'll stay here.' And she leans against the wall at the bottom of the steps.
I take a big breath and knock politely on the door.
âHe won't hear that,' says Alwenna. âKnock harder.'
I bang on the door and it swings open.
âNo need to break the door down,' says Dafydd Owen's creaky voice. âWhat do you want, Gwenni?' His pipe is clenched between his teeth and chugs out little clouds of smoke like a train. The tobacco doesn't smell as nice as Tada's Golden Virginia.
I thrust the poster at Dafydd Owen. âHave you seen this man?'
Dafydd Owen takes his spectacles from where they dangle at his waistcoat pocket and pulls out a handkerchief to polish them. The handkerchief should be white and I try not to look at it. He puts his spectacles on the tip of his nose and then peers over them.
âIt's young Ifan Evans,' he says. âWhere did you get this picture, Gwenni?'
Alwenna loudly pops a gum bubble. Dafydd Owen looks around me at her.
âYou're Nanw Thomas's girl,' he says. âYou're just like her. Just as badly behaved.'
Alwenna blows a huge pink bubble that bursts over her nose and chin.
âDisgusting habit,' says Dafydd Owen. He looks at me. âThat picture, Gwenni. I'll have to have a word with your mam.'
The door slams shut and I walk back down the steps to Alwenna. âI didn't do anything,' I say, âdid I?'
âYou're going to be in double trouble,' says Alwenna.
âIt's your fault,' I say, âblowing bubble gum at him.'
âIt isn't the bubble gum,' says Alwenna. âIt's the stockings. He's a dirty old man. Everyone knows that.'
âWhere shall we go next?' I ask.
âI can't come anywhere else. I've got to go now.'
âGo where?'
Alwenna taps the side of her nose with her forefinger. I don't know what she means.
âWe always play together in the holidays,' I say.
âYou're hopeless, Gwenni,' says Alwenna. âThis is a stupid idea, this going around asking people if they've seen Paleface.'
âIt's what detectives do,' I say and then remember to take out my notebook and put a question mark next to Dafydd Owen's name. âI'll have to think of a different way to ask the question. No one will say whether they've seen him or not.'
Alwenna gives a strawberry-scented sigh. âI'm going,' she says. âAnd I can't come to fetch you tomorrow morning. I'm going for a walk with Edwin.'