Take Another Little Piece of My Heart: A Groupie Grows Up (50 page)

in Detective,
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disappearing items and,
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drinking of,
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driving of,
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fan mail of,
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as father,
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father’s death and,
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first marriage of,
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green card of,
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health problems of,
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at Helena’s,
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honeymoons of,
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insomnia of,
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jealousy of,
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Johnson and,
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journal of,
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as “kept prop star,”
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as nondriver,
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other women and,
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Pamela denounced by,
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Pamela pursued by,
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Pamela’s apology from,
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Pamela’s apology to,
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Pamela’s confrontation with,
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Pamela’s correspondence with,
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Pamela’s doting on and catering to,
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Pamela’s marital problems with,
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Pamela’s marriage to,
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Pamela’s meeting of,
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Pamela’s pregnancy and,
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Pamela’s separation from,
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Pamela’s writing and,
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pants ripped off of,
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penicillin allergy of,
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physical appearance of,
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in Power Station,
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refrigerator destroyed by,
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in Silverhead,
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songwriting of,
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spending habits of,
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temper of,
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Thrill and,
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Des Barres, Nicholas Dean (son),
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birth of,
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cars of,
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century cactus barbecue and,
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charm of,
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education of,
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in England,
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Holly Knight and,
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intelligence of,
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Japanese interests of,
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as mini-monster,
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mother’s book and,
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mother’s doting on and catering to,
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music interests of,
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Myer and,
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naming of,
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parents’ marital problems and,
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perfectionism of,
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psychics and astrologers and,
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psychological problems of,
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school bully and,
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therapy of,
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third birthday of,
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Time Tunnel and,
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Victor and,
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weaning of,
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withdrawal of,
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Des Barres, Pamela Miller:

acting career abandoned by,
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acting career of,
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at Al-Anon meetings,
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anxiety of,
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arrest of,
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auditions and screen tests of,
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baby names selected by,
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birth classes attended by,
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birth control methods used by,
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birth of,
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as bourgeois,
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bruised self-esteem of,
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childhood of,
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as a “cocreator,”
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as codependent,
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in commercials,
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dancing of,
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dating of,
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dermabrasion of,
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determination of,
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diaries of,
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diaries and journals

drugs given up by,
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drug use of,
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escapism of,
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exercise regimens of,
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as exercise teacher,
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family background of,
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fantasies of,
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fasting of,
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first orgasm of,
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as groupie,
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in GTO’s,
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health regimens of,
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horny platonic friendship of,
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house hunting of,
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housekeeping of,
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insecurity of,
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interviews of,
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junk collecting of,
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as late bloomer,
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left-wing views of,
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love search of,
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marriage of,
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see also
Des Barres, Michael

as Mary Kay consultant,
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menial labor jobs of,
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in movies,
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in musical,
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as nursing mother,
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open marriage attempted by,
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as optimistic overlooker,
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in photographs,
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physical appearance of,
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poster-selling job of,
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pregnancy and childbirth of,
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pregnancy test of,
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promotion-for-sex offered to,
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in rock video,
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as school mom,
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sexuality of,
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Silent Treatment of,
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smother-mothering of,
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songwriting of,
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spiritual searches of,
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strength of,
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stretch marks of,
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telephone sales job of,
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therapeutic breakthrough of,
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therapy of,
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thirty-eighth birthday of,
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TV appearances of,
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VD-type infection of,
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as victim,
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what-I-want-in-life list of,
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as writer,
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see also Blush; I’m with the Band