Stonewiser (6 page)

“We have very little time.” In a swift motion, he pulled the shift over her head, pushed her back on the blankets, and parted her legs with his knee. All the while, his lips were intent on hers, drinking her breath and filling her mouth with the taste of him, as if he knew she needed the strokes of his tongue to survive.

She slid her hands under his shirt and ran them over the contours of his familiar body. He was tall and powerful, but not bulky with the pretentious extravagance of muscle built for show. Instead, his neck, back and arms were strong from pulling his deck through the Barren Flats. His legs were lithe from jumping and running in the dead water. Her fingers tripped over the scars on his chest. No one knew those scars as well as she did, because some of those were her fault too, and always a stark reminder she had almost lost him once.

“It's been too long,” he mumbled apologetically while he fumbled with his breeches’ ties. “A fortnight. Wicked goddess, I thought I was ailing.”

She knew the thirst and suffered it willingly because the emptiness of their separation, terrible as it was, was better than giving him up. Theirs was an unusual bond, tried and tested, as demanding as a twin stone trance and as fundamental to her existence as breathing air. She didn't try to understand it, not anymore. Her wiser's mind was at a loss to comprehend her heart's mysteries. The lust she couldn't explain either, so she acknowledged it in the only way she could, granting him berth.

He didn't bother with the rest of his clothes. He came into her firmly, claiming occupancy of every space he bore in her body's depths. But his hands were tender when they traced the bruise on her forehead, when they spanned her waist and cupped her breasts with a connoisseur's delicacy. The black and green eyes beheld her as if she was a hard-earned prize. She should have been afraid, knowing full well from her years at the Guild that done roughly the sport could cause her injury, but she was not scared.

Her body was the gift she gave him freely. Raised to serve without a mind for the self, it was no small privilege to her. In the ways of the Guild, she hadn't known parents or kin. She had only known the obligations of her leases, the services required by her masters and mistresses, and the use of her body for others’ pleasure, a bothersome, most often harmless chore which was a part of her duties. Then she had met Kael and everything changed. She thought she knew why.

“May I?” she whispered in his ear.

“Aye, Sariah. Always when we're together like this.”

She pressed her hands against his back. His emotions burned through her palms, reaching out to stroke her mind like the clearest of stone tales.
Need. Lust. Affection
. It had been the flood of his affection that had percolated through the drought of duty and allowed her scorched soul to discover her own reservoir. It was that affection that touched her now, transforming something common and lurid into a gratifying sharing for the generous purpose of each others’ free and willful pleasure.

The clips on his pulling harness jiggled at his pace. His weave chafed against her skin. She could feel the struggle in him, the lust advancing on the affection, not suppressing it, not exactly, but teaming up with his need to burst his restraint.

“When I saw you there—” He couldn't finish.

“I'm here now.” She smiled at her own uncharitable wickedness, relishing the power that a thrust and a twist granted her body over his, appreciating her own boldness, the shivers that shot through him, the pleasures she unleashed.

His eyes narrowed to slits. The furious grin turned up at the corners of his mouth. He pinned her wrists in his hand, cutting her connection to his emotions. It prevented her from outright witnessing the barbaric surge of the beast she cherished. The inevitable collision loomed in his eyes’ luminous horizon. And to think that until she met him, she hadn't known such bliss existed.

She gave herself to the moment, because the moment was all she had. But she knew better. Danger, fear and despair watched undeterred from the dark gallery of her impending fate.

Five

 

W
HEN HER MIND
next reclaimed her senses, they were both breathless and tangled in each other's arms, still joined, satisfied and yet starting again, lips engaged with kisses and tongues.

“We have to stop,” Kael murmured.

She was lost when their mouths parted as a result of his will power, not hers. Curse Meliahs, claiming her service thrice, to the stones, to the legacy, to the only man she had ever wanted to serve of her own accord. The attachment was as grave as a deadly ailment and as debilitating as the stone madness, and yet she, a wiser trained to care only for the stones, relished him like the rarest stone. It was an unthinkable bias for a stonewiser, but at least it was one she had chosen for herself.

He leaned his forehead against hers and exhaled slowly, reclaiming his discipline and hopefully hers. She sensed him escaping her body's clutch. Then he was gone from her arms and she mourned the loss of his touch.

He inspected the eel bite on her leg. “You skipped the salve.”

“Don't fret. It's just a nick. I had a stone, you know. I dropped it like a witless ninny.”

“Witless? Nay.” He rummaged through his sack. “Witless was to dismiss the runners. Witless was to tell Torana not to fetch me. Witless was to leave Ars before I returned.”

“What else did you expect me to do?”

He rolled his eyes, a gesture that always heated Sariah's not-so-tepid blood. “Use your good sense?”

“And blow up our deck and Ars? Get the children killed?”

He pulled out a flat jar from where he scooped a good bit of yellow salve and began to spread it over the eel bite. “Do you know what scares me?”

“Not the executioners, that I know.”

“You believe it.”

“What?”

“That you can manage on your own. Always. That asking for help, or waiting for it, is somehow wrong.”

“The executioners came before their time, that's all.”

He worked the salve into her wound until she winced. “You can't go at this alone. You'll die if you try.”

It was her burden, her duty. And better she than he. “It's not so good for your lungs to run the water as fast as you did. And your leg, you're still regaining your strength—”

“My lungs and my leg are fine. I can do my duty well enough.”

Duty. She hated the word. She had never wanted to be duty to him. Not to him.

He finished with the salve and stuffed the jar back in his bag. “You should have sent for me right away. You should have dallied and delayed. Somebody tipped off the executioners. They knew what they were doing.”

“Ars. That's what they want. And you gave it to them.”

The black-eyed glower was dark like a bad omen. “Do you think so? You're alive. You're with me. We can manage the rest.”

“The deal you made is too expensive, too risky, for you, for your kin, for Ars. We've worked hard, I give you that, but our leads have been weak.”

Light twinkled in his eyes.

Sariah's heart raced. “What?”

“You shouldn't hold me in such low regard when I hedge my bets. I learned from the best. You. Remember?”

Did he know? Sariah probed cautiously. “Have you learned something new?”

“Me?” His chuckle was devoid of mirth. “Not me, not really. You, on the other hand…”

Sariah's breath caught in her throat. She hadn't told anyone, especially not him. “How?”

“You're a bad liar to start. And I live with you. Recall that? I knew you were up to something even as I left.”

Sariah wished she could deny it, but her face was hot like a chunk of flaming coal.

“There's the small matter of your bag.” He gestured toward the pack now stowed among her wares. “The one I found on the stonewiser's deck, packed nice and tidy with a few days’ provisions.”

She gulped dryly.

“Never mind that you sent away my runners. That's a small detail, really. Where were you going, Sariah?” he asked softly, a poor attempt at masking his temper.

“I— Well—”

“North, I think. That's why I started pulling this way.”

How could he have known?

“You packed your heavy mantle.”

“Oh.” She felt like the dumbest wench in the Domain.

“I thought Davenhorn at first, seeing you packed for about four days, but then I spoke to Mia and she said you recently visited with Torana's friend, Agatha.”

Damn the man, there wasn't a daft bone in the whole of his body. Well, she hadn't done anything wrong. She was free to do as she wished and visiting a friend was not a gravity. Was it?

He stared at her with a stern look of disappointment on his face. She hated that look and she loathed the thought of letting him down, but she had no illusions he would understand her reasoning. For good and for bad, he was too righteous to consider life's little nuances, too virtuous to admit to the usefulness of vice, and too pure of mind and heart to embrace something as corruptive and convenient as a touch of deception here and there.

“Nafa, I think.” He startled her out of her thoughts. “Agatha hails from there and you would have wanted to know as much about the settlement as you could. I hope you got good directions, Sariah. The Domain is unforgiving to the unprepared and the foolish.”

“Of course I got good directions. Do you think I'm stupid?”

“Only occasionally.” He quieted her mounting indignation with a finger to her lips. “Why did you lie to me?”

“I didn't lie to you.”

“Even Mia knows better than that. Omission is no less of a lie. Neither does it count as an attempt at half-truth.”

He was right, of course, but she wasn't ready to admit it. Besides, she was no mindless wench, no empty-headed scoundrel running scams for profit. She was a stonewiser, albeit a flawed one, but one who understood her duty and the importance of the legacy she had undertaken. She was trapped, angry and unable to do right no matter how much she tried.

“I'm not your lease and you're not my conscience.”

“But we are one by way of the blanket. And you, you promised me truth.”

Aye, that she had, at death's door, at the foot of the quartering block, no less. For what little credit he gave her, she tried. Misery must have been evident on her face because Kael stopped scolding her and appraised her quietly.

“What's in Nafa?”

“A name.” Small as it was, she jumped at the chance to make up for her lie. “I can show you if you'd like.”

“Later, for sure.” He stood up and began to check the ropes securing their sparse cargo. “We need to go. To Nafa.”

“
I
need to go to Nafa. Not you.”

“Ah.” He crossed his arms and tilted his head, an irritating pose that begged for a good boxing to his ears. “And how will you travel the Domain without me?”

“I was going to hire a puller.” Did he expect her to acknowledge that she was woefully ignorant and unable to navigate the Barren Flats alone, useless, like a blind and lame mule trudging through the quicksand dunes? “I don't want to fight with you.”

“Me? Fight? Naah. You're already doing that.”

“Kael, this isn't your battle. You're needed in Ars.”

“They'll have to do without us for a while.”

“You can't come. I won't have it.”

“You can't stop me.” He paused from checking the knots around the water barrel. “Is it that you don't trust me, Sariah?”

She spied the wounded doubt in his gaze, the suspicion she didn't think him fit or able to assist her.

“No, nay, no. It's not that, it's just that—” She had a vision of him on the quartering block. “I can't—I won't have you hurt. Not again.”

“I see.” The dominance of his black eye softened, allowing the wondrous glimmer of his green eye to overtake his gaze. “It turns out that behind your stonewiser's icy shell, you are made of feathers and roses after all.” He stroked her face. “Spiny feathers and thorned roses, mind you, but soft and sweet-smelling nevertheless.”

She found herself tucked against his breast. His heart's steady beat and his laughter's muffled sound filtered mutedly through his chest. There was peace in his embrace, and warmth. How could she be willing to part from him when all she wanted was him? But how could she allow him to face his own destruction on her account when she cared only for him?

“I'll be fine, wiser, as long as you are with me.”

She never knew what to say when he said things like that to her. “I swear to you. I won't let the executioners have Ars.”

“I believe you.” He tilted her chin up and met her eyes. “You're the surest bet I know, that is, unless you get yourself killed along the way.”

“I'm going to pay you back, Kael. All that coin. In the Guild, a loan is always paid with good profit.”

His eyes swooped down on her like a pair of hunting hawks. “You haven't heard a word I said. You share my blankets, you share my coin.”

“In the Guild—”

“The Guild rot to dung. I don't give a damn how it was done at the Guild. It's different now. Understand?”

Sariah was startled by his reaction. Truth was, despite her efforts, she didn't always understand him. She had trouble conceiving a world where a stonewiser's worth wasn't measured in coin, where her failures were not penalized with debts and punishment, where her person wasn't someone's means to profit or gratification, and where truth mattered. Meliahs knew she wanted to belong to the kinder world outside the Guild, but sometimes, the break between both worlds seemed too wide to breach.