Slow Burn (17 page)

The police investigations came to nothing, causing the Bernstein family more embarrassment and shame in the Jewish community. Mr Bernstein couldn’t cope. Behind the scene, he was arranging for Sarah to be taken to Israel to give birth to her child. He planned to place her with extended family in the homeland, until Sarah and the baby were old enough not to cause raised eyebrows and fuel wagging tongues. That was the reason for her mother`s tears. She would lose her daughter, and her granddaughter in one sweep. Sarah had gotten wind of the plan, and she was feeling as low as she had ever been. Israel was not her home, and it never would be. She was Jewish, not Israeli. The school decided that it was best if she and Richard didn’t attend, and social services tried to locate places at neighbouring schools for them, until the whole thing had blown over, whenever that would be. Sarah didn’t think it would be anytime soon. A couple of her old friends kept in contact, but their phone calls were becoming less frequent as pressure from their parents to cut ties with her began to bite. The rest of her friends cut contact completely, some because she was pregnant, the others because she had made the rape allegations against the coolest guys at school. The majority of her friends and acquaintances knew full well that she was sleeping with Malik, and that she had done sexual favours for the others. No one believed that she had been drugged and raped by the gang. She felt lost and alone.

Sarah was alone in her room, sat on her Holly Hobbie quilt, writing down her feelings in her padded diary. The diary had the same character on the front of it as her bed covers. Beatrix Potter characters stared down from the pine-framed pictures that had suddenly reappeared on her wall. Her father ripped her Duran Duran and Spandau Ballet posters down, and replaced them with her childhood favourites, as if it might bring back her innocence. She felt like she was in a bad dream. Sarah felt isolated and afraid, afraid that things would never be the same again. Her unborn baby kicked, and reminded her that this was no dream. She placed her hand on her belly and a tear ran from her eye. She wondered what was to become of her and her baby when a pebble rattled her window. The noise made her jump and she held her breath and waited. Five seconds went by before another clunk sounded. She held her breath again and looked at the door, waiting for her father to burst in, but he didn`t. She tiptoed to the window and peered around the curtain, her heart was beating like a drum in her chest. It took a few seconds for her eyes to adjust to the darkness outside, and she cupped her hand against the glass so that she could see who was there. There was a black Ford Capri parked across the road from her house. The lights were switched off but she could see that the engine was running, fumes were pumping from the exhaust pipe. A movement closer to the house caught her eye.

 “Malik!” she exclaimed under her breath. Her heart fluttered like a butterfly. She had missed him so much, despite all that had happened; she loved him. She worshiped him. She would do anything that he asked her to do, and there in lay the problem. He waved from behind a Weeping Willow tree and pointed to the trunk. She could make out a white oblong against the bark, and she realised that it was an envelope. He had written her a letter, and pinned it to the tree, how romantic, after everything that had gone on. Sarah could barely contain herself. She wanted to run outside and hold him, but she knew that it was impossible. Her father had placed her on a strict curfew, and she dare not provoke his wrath any further. The front door was locked and barred by seven-thirty every night. Malik waved again and ran down the drive to the waiting Capri. He climbed into the passenger seat, and the Ford screeched away. It travelled a hundred yards before the headlights came on, and then it disappeared around a bend and the road was silent once more.

 Sarah stared at the envelope, and she dreamed of the wonderful things that it would contain. Her imagination went wild as she climbed back onto her bed. She clutched her diary to her chest and smiled. Malik had written her a letter and risked being confronted by her brothers, and father to bring it to her. She loved him so much that it hurt inside, and yet she felt a warm glow deep in the pit of her stomach when she thought of him. Sarah opened her diary and slid the pen from the spine. `I LOVE MALIK, AND WOULD RATHER DIE THAN BE SENT TO ISRAEL. ` She wrote in capital letters, as if they would be more significant that way. She spent that night tossing and turning in fitful sleep, desperate to get her hands on the letter, never once thinking that it would be the last time she ever wrote in her diary. In fact, it was the last thing that she would ever write.

CHAPTER 21

BRUCE MANN/ present day

Bruce Mann was more frightened than he had ever been before, and with good reason too. He was naked, and tied to a wooden chair on the third floor of an old leather hide warehouse, somewhere near the river Mersey. He wasn’t sure exactly where, but he could smell the sea, and the sound of seagulls squawking drifted through the iron framed windows. The windows were at least ten feet tall, and divided into eighteen squares by metal frames; much of the glass was missing and the stars twinkled against the inky black sky. The walls were rendered with thick grey plaster, big chunks of it missing, and the floors were bare wood planks, cracked and splintered by age. There was a dank stale odour about the place. The stench of rotting animal flesh still lingered in the floorboards.

Bruce looked around and tried to fathom why he had been abducted and beaten. He remembered being hit hard from behind, and his attackers punched and kicked him unconscious, all the time asking questions about Malik Shah. His next recollection was being dragged roughly from the boot of a car, and then being manhandled up six sets of stairs separated by wide landings. He guessed two staircases joined each floor, hence, he concluded that he was three floors up. Despite kicking and screaming for help all the way, no one had come to his aid. The building was empty. He knew that he was at the mercy of Malik Shah, alone, and devoid of any hope of rescue. Bruce didn’t know what he had done wrong, but he knew that he was in big trouble.

 Bruce flexed his wrist painfully, a thick plastic cable tie cut into his flesh and his fingers felt swollen and numb. His thumbs ached badly, but they always did, ever since they`d been sliced off with a box cutter blade. That episode of his life was one that he promised himself he wouldn’t repeat, and yet here he was, up to his eyes in shit again. He had done his level best to avoid Ashwan Pindar and his boss, Malik Shah, and he had no conceivable idea what he had done to offend them this time.

`Hadn`t he kept a low profile since? Obviously not low enough`, he thought. His head ached from a combination of inhaling exhaust fumes in the boot of the car, and because of the beating, he had taken. There was congealed blood in his nostrils, and his bottom lip was swollen and bloody. Through the windows on the east, he could see the night sky was lighting up slowly on the horizon. The sun was coming up but it made little difference to the temperature inside the warehouse. He was shivering from the cold. Bruce knew that he had been left alone, bound and naked, so that he would have time to dwell on what was about to happen to him. He was going to be tortured, no doubt about that. What, exactly, it was that he was supposed to know was beyond him. Footsteps began to echo up the staircase from somewhere below. He took a deep breath and prayed that it would be quick.

 It took a full five minutes for the footsteps to reach the third floor. There were no voices, just the sound of multiple footfall approaching. It felt like an eternity to Bruce, and he screwed his eyes closed tight as warm urine ran down his legs, fear held him in its merciless grip. There was a screech as a metal door opened. The door clanged shut and the noise echoed through the cavernous building. The footsteps were in the room and a stinging tear ran down Bruce`s cheek. He was more frightened than he had ever been.

CHAPTER 22

Sarah Bernstein/ School days

Sarah waited patiently at the bus stop after school. It was cold and wet, and the wooden shelter smelled of stale urine inside. The other students had all gone, their number dwindling as a series of green double-deckers buses came and went. Her father would be livid that she had purposely missed her school bus, but she would cross that bridge when she came to it. She had to see Malik. The red public telephone box next to the bus shelter was smashed and vandalised, not that she could call Malik at his parent`s home anyway. He was an hour late.

Sarah sneaked out of the house that morning to retrieve his letter from the tree while the rest of her family ate breakfast. Crumpled up in her school blazer, she had to wait until she arrived at school to read it. Sarah hoped that it would be full of romance and kisses, but it was not. The letter was short, and to the point. Malik said that he needed to see her, and that he would pick her up from the stipulated bus stop at four o`clock. It was ten minutes past five when his cousin`s black Capri pulled up. Rainwater sprayed from the tyres as it screeched to a halt. `The Jam` were blaring a track through the speakers as Malik opened the passenger door and climbed out. He smiled, but there was no warmth in it. His eyes appeared sullen and dark, his pupils dilated. Sarah knew that he was stoned before she said hello to him, and his cousin leered at her from the driver`s seat. Her heart sank.

 “What you waiting for? Get in,” Malik tipped the passenger seat forward to allow her to climb in. His voice was thick and slurred. Sarah wasn`t convinced that it was a good idea. This was not what she had envisaged their meeting would be like in her mind. Sarah was hoping for hearts and flowers, promises of undying love but that wasn’t forthcoming. “Get in.”

The rain intensified, and the wind blew through her school blazer and chilled her to the bone. That chill blast swayed her, and she decided to get in the car. She swallowed her pride and climbed into the Capri. Instead of climbing into the back with her Malik reset the front seat and climbed into it, leaving her in the back alone and confused. His cousin eyed her in the rear view mirror. He made her flesh crawl.

“I thought you wanted to talk,” Sarah sat forward so that she could see Malik`s face.

 Malik lit a joint as he turned to face her. He blew the smoke toward her and the sickly smell of cannabis filled her nostrils. She had smoked it with Malik many times, enjoying the mellow high it gave them. He held it up to her. This was the last thing that she wanted, but life had been so constrictive lately, maybe a little fun was what she needed.

  “Here, chill out, bitch.”

  Sarah hated it when he called her that. He said it was a term of endearment, and that she should be grateful to be his bitch. She didn’t feel grateful right now, that was for sure. Sarah took the reefer and inhaled deeply as she slumped into the back seat. She looked out of the window and tears filled her eyes as she watched the rain run across the glass. How did things get so bad? Malik turned around to face her.

“Here,” he handed her an open tin of Coca Cola. The cannabis resin mix was burning hot and drying her throat. She took the tin and gulped. It was warm and flat but it took the edge off her thirst. By the time she had finished the joint, the Rohypnol in the coke was starting to take effect. Her head felt thick and her limbs were beginning to numb. Sarah looked at Malik and he smiled. It turned into a sneer. Sarah remembered the feeling well, from the night she had been gang raped. Malik had slipped her the drug then, and he had done it again. Why would he do that to her now, after everything she had been through? She asked herself. She loved him, and his baby inside her, and she thought he loved her, in his own way. Sarah opened her mouth to scream but no sound came out. Her face contorted as the muscles tried to contract, but the drug was taking a hold. The Capri stopped at a red light and Sarah looked at the driver in the car next to her. She tried to plead for help with her eyes because her mouth wouldn’t work. The driver turned his attention back to the road as the lights changed to green, and she closed her eyes as her consciousness slipped away.

 “Do you have any idea how much shit you have caused me?” Malik`s voice drifted in her ear. “It`s payback you fucking slut.” 

 It was dark when Sarah began to come round. She was confused and disorientated, alien sights and sounds flashed through her mind. Above her was a gigantic steel arch, illuminated by hundreds of halogen lamps. Yellow streetlights stretched away from her into the distance, and the air was thick with choking diesel exhaust fumes. The suspension bridge above her was enormous, spanning the River Mersey between the industrial towns of Widnes and Runcorn. It`s a landmark that could be seen from miles away. Sarah recognised it somewhere in her befuddled brain. She was sitting upright against the safety railings that lined the pedestrian walkway, out of sight of the passing vehicles. Four lanes of traffic streamed past her in a blur of bright lights, steel and noise.

Her memory began to piece together the last few hours. She was sore and wet between her legs, her face was sticky, and she could recall Malik and his cousin taking turns to have sex with her in the back of the Capri. Their voices echoed in her mind, and the smell of their sex and sweat clung to her. She had no idea how many times they`d used her. She had let it happen again. Sarah stood on shaky legs, gripping the railings to help her stand. Her father would be going out of his mind looking for her by now, and what was he going to find? His slut of daughter stoned and raped....again. No one would believe her. They didn’t the first time why would they now? She got into the car of her own free will. She took the cannabis willingly, and drank the coke that Malik gave her, despite the previous allegations that she had made. Sarah leaned over the rail and vomited into the black abyss, which separated the road bridge and the river, far below.