Authors: C. J. Cherryh
security!"
He stroked her skin. "You be here. You better be here. I got you for a long
time. You better know I do."
More shouting. "Just a minute," he yelled. He got up and limped around putting
his clothes together, staggered out the door fastening his belt.
She sat there on the beer keg with her arms clenched around her knees. She
wanted to throw up.
She thought it through, what her choices were. She listened to the voices in the
bar and she got up and got her clothes from over the heat-vent, she dressed and
she walked out into the bar where he was waiting on a rowdy tableful of
dockworkers.
He gave her a stark, mad look. She went over to the bar and got a drink for
herself and listened to the rude comments from the four dockworkers, the
invitation to have a drink, go to a sleepover with them and do this and that
exotic number.
Attractive notion, considering. But the thought that kept coming through cold
and clear was how fast Terry Ritter-whoever would be on the com to Central.
And with her fingerprints at the scene, the law just needed to get a look at her
black eye and those scratches and to know that she was a transient and an
illegal to get a judge to give a writ for real close questions.
Under trank.
She gave a scowl toward the dock workers. Loaders. Lousy lot. But cleaner than
Terry Ritterman. Maybe even decent types, sober and solo. Terry came up and put
his hand on her hip.
She took it. She leaned on the bar and drank her vodka sip by sip, she stared at
the dockworkers with the thought that any one of them would be a hell and away
better pick.
She walked over and got a bottle, she went over and poured their glasses full
while they protested they hadn't ordered it.
"It's on me," she said, and played a scenario through in her mind, stirring up a
ruckus where a soft little man could get his neck broken by some dockworker. But
that still meant the law. It still meant questions.
So they drank, she played up to them and enjoyed Terry squirming and worrying,
played it all the way and hoped to keep them there till maindawn, when the owner
came.
Terry rang up her charges on his own card, Terry glowered at her and beckoned
her over, but she ignored it until he picked up the phone.
Then she came over to him.
"You go home with me," he said, cutting the phone off then. "You're going to pay
for this."
She said nothing. He pinched her hip. Hard. She stared at the mirrored room and
when he demanded a response from her, nodded.
The dockworkers left, fifteen minutes before maindawn. She poured herself synth
orange while they walked out.
"My place," Terry said. "Understand?"
She nodded again. He rubbed her shoulder. She flinched away and went to sit down
and drink her breakfast, while the owner came and checked out the accounts. The
owner gave her the eye and gave her a laconic good morning.
"'Morning," she said. Probably he was more than suspicious why an orange juice
and toast always turned up on Terry's card. It was that kind of look.
Probably that look followed them when Terry came and told her to come with him,
they were leaving.
"You'll learn," he said, linking his arm through hers. They walked like lovers
as far as the lift. He had to behave himself: there were other passengers in the
car. But he trapped her arm again when he got her off on his floor, over in
Green. He radiated heat like a furnace. He kept squeezing her hand in his soft,
sweating fist. He started telling her in a half-whisper that she'd like him, he
really had to teach her not misbehave, but they could get along, she could stay
in his apartment and as long as she did the things he wanted he'd keep her safe
from the law.
She said nothing, except when he squeezed down on her hand and insisted she say
yes. So she said yes.
He got his keycard out of his pocket. He led her to a dingy door in the dingy
miniature hall that could have been the bowels of some ship, instead of a
station residency. He opened the door and he turned on the lights with a manual
switch and he shut the door again.
It was an ugly place. It was all clutter. It stank of bad plumbing, unwashed
dishes and old laundry. She watched him take his coat off and throw it down on
the table. His hands were shaking.
She watched. She waited till he turned around and reached for her. She took his
hand and twisted around, and he hit the floor. Hard.
"I want to tell you something," she said in that instant of shock. "My ship
name's Africa."
His eyes got wide. He scrambled to get up. She let him. He staggered over
against the wall. There was a phone around somewhere in the filth, she was sure
of that. She gave him a chance to make a dive for it. She leaned on a chair
back, just waiting. But he froze, gone white.
"You're lying," he said, standing there with his hair on end. "You damned whore,
you're lying to me."
"Got separated from my ship when the Fleet pulled out. Just mixed with the
refugees, worked docks a while, talked my way aboard a freighter." She patted
her breast pocket. "Even got myself an Alliance testimonial. Said I lost my
papers. Not too hard to get this far. I was born spacer, friend, that's a fact.
But I was trained marine."
"Go away," he said, waving a fluttering hand. "Get the hell out of here. You got
nothing to gain here. I got no percentage in saying anything."
She shook her head slowly. "Oh, no, friend, you know I'm going to kill you. And
in your case I'm going to take my time."
CHAPTER 4
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Morning, Nan," she said, at the door of the Registry, and Nan looked at her
oddly and tilted her head as she unlocked.
"You're right cheerful," Nan said.
She nodded. And went and had her morning cup of coca, in the back, out of view
of the couple of clients that were coming in the door—that being an employee
privilege.
Rico was going to wonder for maybe an hour this mainday evening, when Terry
failed to show. And maybe he'd call up the apartment and maybe leave a message,
but Terry's kind was cheap, Terry's kind was the sort that showed up to work a
stretch and then got his life in a mess and just dropped out of sight. Rico
might have a new alterday man by mainday next, that was all Rico was likely to
do. Meanwhile Terry's card still had credit in the bank, it worked in the
vending machines—she wasn't fool enough to walk into some restaurant and claim
to be Terrence Ritterman; she just used the machines, just cheap stuff, just to
tell anybody who happened to check the card-use records that Terry Ritterman was
still walking around, no reason for alarm unless someone had specific reason to
be alarmed.
And was it unusual if alterday help in a skutty bar walked out one shift-change
with some piece of ass that might have more money than he did, and just not
bother to tell the owner he wasn't coming back?
She could live off stuff in the apartment, but she wanted to keep the card
active. So she'd had this morning's breakfast out of the dockside vending
machines. You didn't need an access code check for that, you just slipped it in
and out came breakfast. Or lunch. Or dinner. There'd been a little cash in
Ritterman's pocket. Eight cred. She knew where that could turn to a cheap
duffle: she could use that, for when the ship came; that and a few other
necessaries off Ely's cred a day, that she could save now.
She'd left the body in the bedroom, she'd turned the heat off in there, she had
stuffed the vents and cracks under the door and sealed everything up with tape.
It could get real unpleasant in a week or so, but there were no neighbors close
and if people noticed a scruffy spacer coming and going out of Terry Ritterman's
apartment, all they could figure was, she was crazy as he was for hanging around
with him. And nobody much bothered a crazy woman.
She'd washed the jumpsuit, she'd had herself a shower, she'd scrubbed with
perfumed soap and she'd given herself a haircut; and Ely gave her a second look
when he came in. Looked pleasantly surprised to see her scrubbed-up and
cheerful, as if he'd really done something spectacularly good with his charity.
"Looking good, Yeager."
"Adds up," she said back, and grinned. "Few meals don't hurt, stationer-man."
She had a real warm feeling for people like Nan and Ely. They were probably real
happy doing good. And it was really too bad, they were probably going to shake
their heads and have long second thoughts about their helping strangers when
station-law found what was in that apartment bedroom and linked everything up.
Damn mess was what. Get herself a ship out of here, get clear back to Sol if she
had to, change ships where she could, just keep moving far enough and long
enough and stay alive.
The Old Man was operating hell and gone away from here. Africa was still alive,
and maybe she could be lucky enough, sometime, somehow, to match up her course
and the Fleet's. Meanwhile she just hoped to hell to avoid Alliance law and
Mallory's attention. That was the thing gave her the chills, that turncoat
Mallory was out hunting her old friends, and Norway made these ports from time
to time, Mallory being respectable now. The rest of them had come up on the
losing side, that was all, and Mallory was smart, Mallory had gotten herself on
the outs with Mazian, then luck happened and here was Mallory, shiny-new
loyalties and all. Smart captain. Damn good, Bet gave her that. If luck had been
on her own side she'd have gotten snagged up in Norway's company instead of
Africa's and have herself a clear record right now—have credit in her pocket,
have a snug spot and a rack to sleep in, rich as a skut could get. No matter
Norway's captain was a hardnosed bastard who'd gunned down her own troops and
tried to blow Africa to hell—no love lost at all between Mallory and Porey.
They'd fought in space, fought on dock-side, Mallory had arrested three of
Africa's marines and Africa troops had sniped at Norway's on the docks of Pell
before they got to open space. Not to ask what Norway's skuts would do to one of
Africa's if they got her aboard.
Long, long way to die, she knew that.
And if station law caught her they'd hold her for Mallory, who would take a
direct, even personal interest in her.
She shivered. She did her work, she thought about that ship that was coming and
how long they were going to be in port—some three, four days from now. Another
three, four days to fill Mary Gold's tanks—
While the contents of that bedroom got more noticeable, long enough for an
inquiry into that business in the restroom to get damned close.
They said they were going to close down Thule, they were going to blow it and
shove the pieces into the sun so there was no way the Fleet could even mine the
place for metal—so there wasn't going to be a Thule Station for a ship to come
back to, the people were going to be scattered across a dozen lightyears and
maybe they wouldn't even bother about the records, just junk everything, maybe
forget all the old records as useless and she could go on and never worry about
the business on Thule catching up with her someday, if she could just keep it
quiet for a week, keep on using Ritterman's card in places Ritterman might go,
and convince the computers he was still alive. Thule wasn't like Pell, where
there might be relatives to ask questions: the types that had come out to this
armpit of the universe were all loose-footed, the dregs of Pell, mostly; the
sweepings out of Q-section, refugees and nobodies hoping for a break that might
have come but wouldn't, now. And Ritterman wasn't the sort to have a lot of
friends.
Just get the supplies she needed, look respectable enough to impress Mary Gold,
work to the next port, and just try to make herself useful enough to stay
on—anywhere, any port but Pell—that being Norway's port.
That was why she'd told old Kato she was staying, because Ernestine was going
back. And Kato had believed the crap about her wanting to take her chances on
the Rim, but Kato had desperate business to do at Pell and a ship in debt and
Kato left her for a fool, good luck, mate, stay out of trouble, hope you find
your luck.
Hell.
She went back to Ritterman's apartment, she read the messages on the comp, which
was only a notice from station library that tapes were overdue. She found the
ones the library wanted back, she laid them on the table, to take out and dump
in the return the next morning, she looked the address up in the station
directory to be able to find it.
And she kept the vid tuned to station traffic ops, always hoping, while she made
down a comfortable bed on the couch and drank Ritterman's vodka, ate Ritterman's
chips and candy and read Ritterman's skutty picture-books till bedtime.
Back to the docks the next morning, down to the row of vending machines spinward
of the lift. She had her mouth full of cheese puffs when the bell rang, that
loud long burst that meant a ship had just dropped into system; and she gulped