Rare and Precious Things (11 page)

“I
love
my Rover.”
I am so very intimidated by this Rover
. I threw my arms around him and whispered in his ear because we had an audience. “You are crazy for buying such an extravagant gift for me. You must stop.”

He pulled back and shook his head slowly. “Crazy for you is all…and I’ll never stop.”

I knew he wouldn’t, either. The steadfast look in his eye told me so.

I wanted to shake him and kiss him at the same time. He spent way too much money on gifts for me. He didn’t need to, but he’d always been so over
ly generous with me from the first. He spoiled me and enjoyed doing it.

I looked at my new car and swallowed. I had an idea as to its price tag and
knew it was a shitload of money.
Jesus Christ, what if I wreck the thing?
Better yet, how would I drive the damn thing?

“What am I going to do with you, Blackstone?”

“You aren’t doing anything
with
me, but I think you are going to do something with your new car.” He looked worried, like maybe I wasn’t happy with the gift. I couldn’t hurt him though. Out of the question for me to ever do that to Ethan. Plus, he was still a little freaked about my earlier nosebleed problem. I could tell it had triggered something for him. I wasn’t sure exactly what, but sensed it had little to do with my pregnancy, and more to do with his traumatic past. I sighed inwardly and shelved it for now. This was not the time to delve into it.

I stared at him. At Freddy and Hannah, Colin and Jordan,
who waited with smiles for me to take possession of my gift. Zara, bless her, broke the tension and jumped up and down. “I want a ride in it. Let’s go, Auntie Brynne.”

I laughed nervously
for a minute, and then figured, why the hell not? I was married to Ethan now. England was my home, and we had a house in the country. I couldn’t take a train into town. I would need to go out and get things like normal people did every day. I would be a mom soon, and there would be places to go with my baby. Better to learn now, rather than later.

I gave everyone my best
confident smile and went for it.

Channeling Rain Man
here, people
. “Okay…just real slow on the driveway. I’m an excellent driver.”

“Who’s coming first?” Ethan asked.

Zara and Jordan volunteered and climbed in the back. I went to the driver’s side and opened the door, smelling the new-car leather and finding it hard to believe this beautiful piece of machinery now belonged to me, along with everything else.

Ethan, the house, his family, the baby…just
everything
was a lot to take in for my pitiful self, especially in my hormonal state.

I buckled myself in, the seatbelt being the least of my problems as I looked at the dashboard. More like a c
ontrol panel for a stealth bomber. I looked over at Ethan in the passenger seat and held out my hand. “The key?”

He smiled at me. “You push here to start it.”
He reached forward and pointed to a round button.

“Are you fucking kidding me?!”

Jordan snickered. Zara giggled. Ethan rolled his lips as if to keep himself from saying something he would later regret.
Smart husband.
I pushed the damn button.

I only dropped on
e more f-bomb and two or three “shits” in the course of my first, driving-left, sitting-right lesson, with Ethan as my patient teacher.

The kids in the back thought it was hilarious fun, and loved reminding me I needed to
“keep left” on the country road, which was stupid because it was only one lane.

Ethan, wise man
that he is, kept his mouth shut.

I gave him a really nice show of my
appreciation
for my very generous and lovely birthday gift, as soon as we were alone.

4th October

London

“THERE
we are. Baby looks a great deal different this time, yes? About the size of a banana now, and at twenty weeks, you are officially past the halfway mark. Measurements are looking to be right on target for a healthy pregnancy. Umbilical cord, perfect. Heartbeat, strong.” Dr. B narrated details about what we were seeing on screen. The magical sight of our baby moving erratically all over the place, legs and arms pushing and pulling in breathtaking clarity. I couldn’t even take my eyes away for an instant to answer the good doctor. The realism was so sharply improved since the last scan, I couldn’t believe it. I was looking at a little person in full form, with no doubt whatsoever about the humanity of what we’d created.

Brynne stared at the screen with me in utter awe, watching a little thumb pop into a tiny mouth for
a suckle. Just as quickly as it was sucked on, the thumb was released. “Did you see that?” I asked.

“Oh.” Brynne laughed
softly, still staring. “Sucking his thumb… Ethan, he was sucking his thumb—or
she was
.” She squeezed my hand, the shy excitement in her expression making her glow in a way that was new to me. She looked like…a mother.

“I know.” Moments like these showed me just how good of a mum Brynne would be. No doubts whatsoever. I rubbed my thumb into her palm.

“Ahh, yes, I can try to see if I might tell the sex of baby for you—”

“—No!
I don’t want to know, Dr. Burnsley. Don’t—tell me, please.” Brynne shook her head at him. Her decision was final. Any fool could see that, and the doctor was no fool.

Dr. B shot a glance
my way, and then tilted his head in question to ask if I wanted to know. I thought for an instant about saying
yes
, but I shook my head
no
instead.

“
It’s fine, Ethan, if you want to know. I’ll turn away and Dr. Burnsley can look for you.”

Her quiet beauty and utter confidence in her firm decision to be surprised about the sex of our child, was compelling to me. She was so sure about how
she wanted to find out. Brynne didn’t want to know until the baby was born, and that was all there was to it. Whereas I would’ve just shrugged and said, “sure, tell me.” I would know if we had a son or a daughter on the way, and that would be exciting to me.
Thomas or Laurel?

“No, I’ll be surprised with you,” I told
her, shaking my head at Dr. B again, giving him the negative.

Nothing but utter respect for my girl.
I brought her hand up to my lips and kissed it. We shared a look but no words. None were needed.

The doc interrupted,
“Right, then. Surprised it shall be for the both of you.” He printed out some pictures for us, and wiped the jelly from her rounded bump, before shutting off the machine that managed the remarkable business of taking ultrasonic pictures of our unborn baby. Good God, the man was stronger than me. There wasn’t enough brass in the goddamn world to entice me to do his job. “Well, I will tell you both this much with certainty,” Dr. B said dryly, “your baby, will be either a boy, or a girl.”

“HALFWAY
to the finish line, baby.” Over our lunch at
Indigo
, I accepted that I was trying to do too many things at once, and failing at all of them. Checking messages on my mobile, following the football highlights reporting from the TV in the bar on the level just below us, and making conversation with Brynne. Being an arse is more like.

I set down my mobile, tuned
out what the sportscaster was saying about Manchester United over Newcastle, and gave Brynne my full attention. She had that half smile she did to perfection, the quiet observation that told me she was rather amused by my lapse in manners.

“What are you thinking about right now?” I asked.

“Hmmm, just enjoying my view.” She picked up her water and took a sip, her eyes peeking over the edge of the glass. “Watching you working, thinking about Banana Blackstone, wondering when you might figure out I wasn’t answering you.”

“Sorry.
I was distracted by crap that doesn’t matter very much. So the better question is, how are you feeling about what the doctor said?”

“That I need to walk instead of running?”

I nodded. Sometimes Brynne didn’t show much reaction to things. I know she heard what the doctor said about her exercising habits, but I didn’t know what she thought of it.

She shrugged at me. “
I can do some walking. Besides, I have you to give me plenty of exercise to make up for all the runs I’ll be missing. I’m sure I’ll be fine.” Her half-smile grew into a full-smile, with an added sexy little laugh at the end of it.

She wasn’t kiddin
g about the sex, either. Pregnancy raised the libido in a lot of women, and I was really fucking grateful that my woman had a raging one right now. The doc had given his blessing, and so we were shagging pretty much like mad. And loving every minute of it. “You’ve got that right. Dr. B is my new best mate.”

She rolled her eyes
. “Is that so? Typical men’s club stuff with the ‘intercourse is perfectly safe as long as you’re
up
for it,’” she mocked the doctor’s posh speech with a toss of her head, “with the penis-innuendo thrown in. So clever and original of Dr. Burnsley. I wonder how many times he’s dropped that line.”

“I don’t care how many times he’
s said it. Giving the green light on the bang time is all that matters, baby.” I cocked a brow. “And I always am.”

“I know you are,” she whispered sexily, a slight flush spreading up her lovely neck
making me want to have my mouth on her.

The
look she was giving me right now... A sensual, beautiful, fleeting look, from her to me, over a finely dressed table. And I was undone—in a restaurant at midday, having lunch, wishing I could have her instead. It didn’t take any more than that with us. A look, a touch, a whispered comment, and I’d be instantly caught up in thoughts of when and where.

So
I tried to change the subject back to something a bit more appropriate for public consumption. “I also liked what he said about the nosebleeds.” She had been right. Nothing to worry over, just normal side effects. “I’m sorry for overreacting.”

She lowered her h
ead and blew me an air kiss, mouthing the words, “It’s okay.” Brynne put up with my shit with the patience of a saint. I wasn’t under any misconceptions about my rampant arseholery being wearisome a lot of the fuckin’ time. And neither was Brynne. She let me know when I was behaving like a prick, but mostly she just loved me, and soothed all my rough edges. A miracle worker. I was even doing well on tapering off with the smokes. I’d really been pushing myself to finally do it. Ending my nicotine addiction was symbolic of several things. A break with the past, a resolve to live a healthier life, and a commitment to at least two other people who needed me sticking around for another sixty years or so.

I was down to one ciggie a day now.
Almost always at night, right before sleep. The symbolism of that habit was something I wished wasn’t so obvious, but anything I could do to help keep away the dreams and a flashback was useful to me.

Brynne excused herself to go to the ladies, and I returned to the
scrolling ticker for football scores and messages on my mobile. It was looking like I would be heading to Switzerland for the XT Europe Winter Games in January. Normally, I jump at a job like that, but this one had some concerns. Prince Christian of Lauenburg’s qualification in the snowboarding thrilled the young prince, no doubt. His grandfather—the King of Lauenburg—not so much. Royalty was tricky, and in this situation, more so. The grandson was the sole heir. Heirs are
everything
to royals. If that lad got hurt, it would be my reputation shot to hell. And we couldn’t forget the threat of terrorism that gained momentum like clockwork at any high-profile international event that ran. There would be a round of veiled threats put about, I predicted. The crazies couldn’t resist the opportunity for some dependable worldwide press.

I resigned myself
to making the job work out as I always did, but the spark of interest was not really there for me. As long as my traveling schedule stayed clear for February, I’d be good, I decided. Baby wasn’t due until the end of the month, but I wouldn’t take the chance of being out of the country when it was Brynne’s time. I felt my stomach tighten at the thought. If I was honest, I was fucking terrified about the birth. Hospitals, doctors, blood, pain, Brynne suffering, baby struggling. There were a motherfucking myriad of things that could go wrong.

A text from Neil alerte
d me that something required my immediate and undivided attention. We had synchronized alert ringtones for emergencies. I read his text.

And felt my blood run cold.

The news ticker on the TV had switched off sports and over to politics.

No.
Oh, fuck no.

THE
look on Ethan’s face when I returned from the bathroom, told me something was very wrong. I followed Ethan’s eyes to the TV and felt my knees go weak when I saw
his
face. I listened to what the reporter said about
him
. I read
his
name in letters across the screen.

Seven years was a long time.

It had been seven years since I’d looked at his face. More than seven years, actually. I would be lying if I said I’d never thought about him over the course of that time. Of course I thought about him sometimes. Things like, “How could you do that to me?” Or, “Did you hate me that much?” Or, the very best one of all, “Did you know I tried to kill myself over what you did to me?”

The reporter told the whole story
for me with perfect, efficient words that I didn’t want to hear, or be faced with having to comprehend.

Second Lieutenant, Lance Oakley, was one of the critically injured yesterday, when outside the Interior Ministry headquarters in Baghdad, a bomb killed five people and wounded eight more, in what is believed to be a terrorist incident. The bombing came at morning, just as workers were arriving for their day at a block of government buildings, where he was stationed as one of the few remaining US troops working in an ambassadorial capacity on the ground in that country. No terrorist organization has claimed responsibility for the attack as of yet, but that is expected to change due to the nature of Lieutenant Oakley’s connection to the inner circle of US politics at the highest levels. Lieutenant Oakley is the only son of United States Senator, Lucas Oakley, Vice Presidential candidate alongside Benjamin Colt, in the upcoming US elections held in early November, every four years. Colt’s campaign bid for highest office in the United States has been rife with tragedy since its beginning. The death of Peter Woodson, US Congressman, in early April in a fatal plane crash, led to Oakley being vetted as a replacement for Woodson. The Senator is said to be enroute to see his son, who is receiving care at Lord Guildford Hospital in London. Lieutenant Oakley, and the other wounded, were airlifted out of Baghdad to the UK for specialist care and rehabilitation. There are reports that Lieutenant Oakley’s injuries have necessitated the amputation of part of his right leg, below the knee. The news agencies are flooding officials here at Lord Guildford for any information on the status of Lieutenant Oakley. Political analysts are already weighing in, considering the effect this will have on the outcome of the presidential election in the US in less than one month. Reporting live for CNN in London…