Needing Him (11 page)

“Because their idea of who I should be with carries so much weight.  Please.  And no flirting with anyone but me.  Got it?”

“Now who’s jealous?”

“Not denying it.”

He leaned over to whisper in my ear, “You’re the only one who makes me hard with one look.”

“Damn right,” I mumbled.

We spent another hour walking around before heading back to the cabin.  Radek informed me he made us dinner reservations.  He said it was a local steakhouse that got great reviews and was very casual.  It worked perfectly for me.  I was in the mood for low-key after the run in with the chick at the outlets.

My pilot dressed in a faded pair of jeans with a nice pair of sneakers and a t-shirt that clung to his muscles like a second skin.  He threw on his leather jacket and mother of all that was good we almost didn’t make it out of the front door.

I wore a pair of hip hugging jeans with a long-sleeved black shirt and black heels.  Radek was taller than me so sometimes it was nice to get closer to eye level with him.  He helped me get into his truck and within ten minutes we were at our destination.

Stepping inside of the restaurant, the smell that hit me made my mouth water.  Steaks, burgers, the aroma engulfed me.  The ceiling was open to showcase the wooden beams.  There were a few televisions spread around the bar area.  Tables were placed throughout, but they looked far enough apart that you didn’t feel like you were on top of the people dining next to you.

We walked up to a small podium and Radek gave his last name to the hostess.  She looked down to her paper and asked us to follow her.  We wound around tables and ended up in the back corner which was fine with me since we were tucked away instead of being in the middle of the floor.

Dinner was amazing.  The steak was perfectly cooked.  Our conversation flowed well and we kept laughing at various things.  It was easy, like it was before our split.  After our plates were cleared we ordered dessert.  I was stuffed after eating everything.

On the way out a few people looked our way.  I had thought no one had recognized us, but I guessed wrong.  I smiled at them.

Radek drove us to our cabin and helped me down from the truck.  When I crossed through the front door I froze.  The living room furniture had been pushed against the walls and the fire was going.  The rug that had once sat in front of the fire was rolled up and lying on the couch.  Three different vases of red roses were spread throughout the room and music was playing softly.

Taking several steps until I stood in the middle of the room, I took it all in.  Off to the side of the fireplace was a stand with a bucket on it filled with ice and a bottle of champagne.  Spinning, I saw my man standing in the doorway, watching me.

“What is all of this?”

He smiled and said, “I wanted to show you how much I love you.  I still have a lot of making up to do.”

I walked to him and threw my arms around his neck, pulling him close.  Into his ear I said, “No you don’t.  We’re good.  Better than good.  We’re fucking awesome.”

His chest shook against me.  Pulling back, I could see he was laughing.  “That we are.”

He closed the front door and took my hand in his.  Walking us to the center of the room, he stopped and wrapped one arm around my waist while the other held my hand up.

We started swaying to the music.  He twirled and dipped me.  My pilot had some kick-ass moves.  We danced to a few love songs and soon found the perfect groove.  Our bodies felt like one.  Where he moved, I followed.  Who knew I could be so graceful.

I felt like I was floating on air.  Our dancing turned sexual.  Radek had a heated look in his eyes.  His hands started roving over my body while we still swayed to the music.  With speed that rivaled a super hero, my clothes were gone.  He leaned in to take possession of my mouth when I heard my phone ding.  We both ignored it and started kissing.  His hands were cupping my breasts, his hard cock pushing into my belly. 
Ding
.  He froze.

“Do you want to see who that is?”

“No, I want you to keep kissing me.”

Ding
.  His hands released me.  “Oh go answer it, Kasi.  I can’t take it.”

I was pissed.  Whoever was interrupting my time with Radek was going to lose a limb.  Then again, I never told anyone I was leaving beside Aubrey, but really I had no one to answer to.

Stomping over to my purse, I dug around inside to find my phone.  Looking through my notifications I noticed I had not one, but three text messages from Kai.  What the hell?  Not the time Kai, I put the phone back and muted the bitch.

My pilot was waiting not so patiently for me to come back to him.  His arms were crossed and I had a feeling the mood was ruined.  Rubbing my naked body against him, I started nibbling on his ear.  “Where were we?” I all but purred.

He pulled his head away.  “Who was texting you?”

“No one.”  I wanted to stay in the mood.  I needed sex.

“Kasi,” he said in a warning.

Sighing, knowing this wasn’t going to go well, I said, “Kai.  I didn’t read it.  I have no idea what he wants.”

“Does he know that we’re back together?”

“I have no clue what he knows.  I haven’t spoken to him since he left my house.”

“Are you not telling him for a reason?”

The mood just exited the room.  “I haven’t told him because I haven’t spoken to him.  Since we’ve gotten back together it’s been a bit of a whirlwind and honestly he wasn’t on my mind, but if you’d like, I’ll go get my phone right now and text him.  Would that make you happy?”

“Do whatever you want.  I’m going to bed.”  He turned and walked down the hallway.

Like hell.  I followed him and when he got to the bedroom I grabbed his arm and stopped him in his tracks.  He spun to face me and I could see a mixture of anger and hurt.  “You and me,” I said.  “Do you hear me?  It’s only you and me.  We talked about this.  Kai is my friend and nothing more.  Stop getting jealous and don’t walk away from me.  If I wanted to be with Kai I would have.  The door was open only I didn’t walk through it.  Enough of this.  We need to talk to one another.”

“I don’t know if I’ll ever be okay with you being friends with him.  If you didn’t have a history or he wasn’t in love with you that would be one thing, but you do and he is.”

Lifting my hand, I cupped his face and slowly moved my thumb over his cheek.  “I.  Love.  You.  That’s it.  Look at me.  You know I’m telling the truth.  I can’t force you to trust me.  If you don’t, well, I don’t know where that leaves us.”

He closed his eyes and leaned into my hand.  “I do trust you, but that doesn’t mean I won’t be jealous or that I will ever be okay with you talking to him.”

“I’m going to go get my phone and tell him that you and I are back together.  For good.  I’ll be right back.”

He nodded before I left the room.  I had to put a stop to his jealousy and make him feel more comfortable with my friendship with Kai, if that was even possible.  He meant too much to me.  I couldn’t lose him again.

Grabbing my phone from my purse again, I unlocked the screen and went to my text messages.  Three messages from Kai.

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

Also, you can rest easy.  Erin will never bother you again.

Miss you.

Ummm, what the fuck?  Erin would never bother me again?  I needed to reply to that before telling him about Radek and I.  I had to find out what that meant.  Luckily, he answered quickly.

Me:  What are you talking about?

Kai:  Lee and I handled Erin

Me:  What did you do?

Kai:  Nothing you need to worry about.  It’s taken care of.

Me:  Don’t play games with me Kai

Kai:  I’m not.  I never would.  Trust me.

Me:  If you say so

Kai:  I do

Me:  I’m back together with Radek.  When he was seen in Cali with Erin, he was taking care of things too.

Kai:  Are you happy?

Me:  Yes

Kai:  Then I’m happy for you

Me:  Kai?

Kai:  Yeah

Me:  Thank you

Kai:  I’ll always be here for you

Me:  Ditto

I couldn’t say more than that.  I also didn’t want to get into what happened between Radek and Erin when he was in California.  One day I would find out what Kai did to handle her, but today wasn’t that day.  I needed him to know where I stood.  I would always be there for him, but Radek would come first.

I was making the choice to put my pilot above one of my best friends and hoped it was the right decision.  My gut told me so, I just hoped it wouldn’t let me down. Kai always had my back and I had recently gotten back together with the love of my life.  Yes, I said it.  I knew no one could top him nor did I want anyone to.  Radek was it for me.

~ 13 ~

Our mini vacation was over and we were on our way back to my house.  Ace was happily standing on the back seat of Radek’s truck with his nose stuck out the window.  He was so excited to see us he almost knocked me over.  Thankfully, my pilot was standing behind me and caught me.

I told Radek about my brief conversation over text with Kai.  He didn’t seem happy with the fact that Kai said he took care of Erin even though he had previously done so.  I told him I could text Kai again to find out what exactly he meant, but he shook his head and told me not to worry about it.  What I really thought was that he didn’t want me talking to him even though he was curious as to what else was done.

He was jealous and we both knew it.  There was nothing more I could do to ease his mind that I wasn’t leaving.  In reality I was the one who should have been nervous, not him.  He left me, yet I thought he was still worried I wanted Kai more.  The fact that Kai is a rock star was a draw for most women, but not to me.  He was just Kai, my friend.

Radek stayed at my house one night before leaving for work.  He was gone for five days.  Five fucking days.  Even before the break I was never happy to see him go.  Now, after all we’d been through, that need to always be with him was much stronger.  I was being selfish and wanting him to myself all of the time.

When he returned my body lit with a fire as it did every time we were apart.  He came through the front door with his familiar duffle bag and the sexy quirk of his lips that I adored so much.  We didn’t make it far.  I was on him in seconds, ripping the clothes from his body.  Our love making was fast and oh so good.

We settled in for the night and ate an early dinner.  After eating, we sprawled out on the couch and watched a movie.  I promptly fell asleep only to be awoken later in my pilot’s strong arms as he carried me up to bed.

When he was gone I didn’t sleep well.  I tossed and turned all night, only sleeping in small intervals.  The first day I would be good, but by the second day the lack of sleep caught up with me and I would nap in the afternoons.  Only when he came back did my body fully relax and feel whole again.  I slept soundly, never waking during the night.

He placed me gently on the bed and began to cover me up.  I gripped his hand making him jump.

“I didn’t know you were awake.  Go back to sleep.”

Shaking my head I said, “No.  I want you.”

He smiled.  “You already have me.”

“True, but right now I want your body.  I want your cock inside of me.  I want you to tell me how much you love me while you thoroughly fuck me.”

He gave me an inquisitive look.  “I think I can take care of that for you.”

“I know you can.  Now clothes off and cock out.”

Chuckling, he said, “You’re very demanding for someone so small.”

“This isn’t news to you.”

“No, it’s not.  I happen to love that about you.  There is something very sexy about a woman who knows what she wants.”

“Well I must set your body on fire then.”

“Baby, you have no idea.”

With that he shed his clothing and stalked toward me like a man on a mission.  I gave him said mission and he happily accepted.  His hand was on his dick, stroking it slowly as he approached.  He stopped when he was standing near my head.

Leaning over, I took his cock into my mouth.  I sucked him in deep and cupped his sac.  My nails very gently moved over it causing him to shudder.  He pulled from my mouth and climbed onto the bed over me.  He straddled my head, lining his head up with my pussy.

Not hesitating, his mouth went to work on my clit.  I returned the favor by continuing to suck on his hard length.  Every time I moaned around him he pushed deeper into my mouth.  Lifting my butt off of the bed, I rolled my man over so I was on top.  I pulled myself from his mouth and turned my body around.

Licking over his sac, cock, up and over each ridge of his stomach, I made my way to his solid chest, to the delicate skin of his neck, finally resting on his ear.  I brought the lobe between my teeth, nibbling on it, then took it into my mouth.  Chills spread out over his body.  I could feel the tiny bumps under my fingers.

Sitting up, I faced away from him, and gripped his cock.  I slid myself down on top of him.  The feeling of being filled left me weak.  I was riding him in reverse.  Leaning forward, I moved up and down, putting more pressure where I needed it.  He was hitting me so deep inside that I had to resist the urge to come after just a few movements.  I was beyond worked up from his tongue.