Authors: L. A. Banks
“Uhmmm, hmmm . . .”
Damali's gaze drifted toward the bathroom, and Marlene rubbed her thigh with a supportive, maternal touch.
“Carlos is in your system,” Marlene murmured. “I know. I don't need second sight to tellâit's a woman thing. Knowledge, regardless. But I would never,
ever
violate that space in your head. Know that. Because it's private, and I don't want it done to me . . . or any of the guys.”
Damali's gaze immediately found Marlene's. “How did you know I was concerned about that?”
“I'm a mom . . . and a woman. Remember? Plus, I can see some things written all over your face whenever the man's name is mentioned.”
She could feel herself smile as her face began to burn with embarrassment.
“I want you to take a white bath every night. Let me put a ring of salt and sage around your bed, and hang garlic . . . even over the showerhead.” Marlene winked at her. “Just a lucky guess. I wasn't prying.”
Damali conceded with a nod, looking away, too ashamed to speak on the subject.
“Once you make your decision to be with someone, it will be difficult but not impossible to fight the pull. You will get to a place where your mind and your spirit will arrest your body,” Marlene said in a quiet tone. “You get to a point where your eyes will see what is necessary to see before you act, and you will have the strength of will to garner patienceâand you
will acquire a level of truth in your choice that will take away the burn . . . but you will always simmer. That's life.” Marlene smiled. “Ask me how I know.”
Damali studied the pattern in the gold bedspread as she spoke, unable to meet Marlene's knowing gaze. “Some days . . . it's . . . well . . .”
“I know,” Marlene said. “You're burning too hot to even thinkâyour mind is frying. Look, even if it ain't a vamp pull, there's stuff and people out there, these days, that can kill you. Be prudent, despite the burn. Everybody needs to chill, and get back to basics. The old way.”
“But, Mar . . . for real, for real . . . I mean with everything around youâand . . . How do you just chill, make it go away, and move forward without thinking about it sometimes? Wondering, you know . . . even when you know it could be bad for you?”
She cast her gaze to her finger as it made a new pattern within the comforter pattern. How could she just come out and say itâto a mom-person? How did you just tell a mother that this guy was in your head, in your dreams, made you wet your panties just thinking about him, and that every time you closed your eyes you wanted to be with him? How did you explain that this very basic instinct
was
the basics at the moment, that it rode shotgun with the other things you had on your mind, and traveled with you while you did everything else necessary in your life . . . that it was on you like a habit? Rather than speak, she let her breath out hard again instead. Carlos wasn't a vamp, but he had a pull like one.
Marlene sat quietly for a while, watching Damali draw invisible swirls on the bed. “I know it's hard, and I'm not going to lie to youâI don't have a secret potion for that.”
Marlene chuckled. “
You
have to do that.
You
know the life
he leads, and
you
know the outcome of said life. If you think a pull to Carlos is bad, wait till a master vampire gets into your brain during a lair hunt. That's what I'm concerned about, baby. If you can't get a mere human attraction out of your headâwhen you know it's not good for youâthen, I have my very realistic worries. It means you aren't ready. Carlos is . . . just a guy,” she added with a sigh. “Coulda made something real positive of himself, had all the attributes to make him really an asset, a community treasure . . . in fact, he was guardian material, once.
But
for whatever his reasons, and we all have a long story, he chose to go down the wrong roadâone you are very far removed from. Got it?”
When Damali looked up and gave Marlene a mournful glance, Marlene laughed.
“If it's that bad, maybe I can cook something up.”
Damali chuckled and shook her head, blinking back sudden tears, not sure where they came from. “I'm cool.”
“Yeah, right,” Marlene scoffed. “Whooo boy. Okay. Listen. I want you to get to a very still place in your head. I want you to go past the primal, the physical level, and think about the future. What do you wantâlong-term? What is importantâlong-term? What can you build that is positive?”
Marlene sighed and forced Damali's chin up with a gentle prod of her finger. “If it is damaging to your spirit, to your mind, or your soul, I want you to fight it and step away from it with everything that we have all taught you thus far. I don't care if the pull is to something human, or otherwise. These are the basics, young lady. And I will trust that you'll do that, even though the mere thought of just stepping back and watching you decide all by yourself gives me white knuckles.” Marlene chuckled softly. “Girl, I'm getting the hives from this mess.”
Marlene continued to chuckle quietly as she stood and walked
in a circle. “Shoot, if we only had to worry about a mere human on your trail, and just a hood, we'd react the same way! The fact that Carlos is a community predatorâeven if he ain't a vampâwe'd still trip. Shabazz has been itching to roll up on homeboy to call him out anyway.”
Marlene took a battle stance, making Damali laugh hard now as she imitated Shabazz's deep voice. “Could you see your big brother rolling up on RiveraââYo, player, player, if you lookin' for a woman, Sleepin' Beauty will tighten you up. Don't get it twistedâmy li'l sis is off-limits.
Chill
.”
The way Marlene swaggered around the room with an invisible Glock in her hand made Damali burst out in a new round of laughter as she fell back on the bed. When Marlene put both hands on her hips, Damali waved her away so she could recover. “Shabazz would freak.”
“Yeah, and picture him and Big Mike meeting
hombre
in an alley. Okaaay.”
“No, stop,” Damali wheezed. “Okay, okay, okay, I get your point. Dude has issues. I know,” she said, chuckling, “But . . . but he's
so fine
. . . God. Why couldn't he have just gone down the right road?”
“He wanted money and power, and wasn't patient to figure out another wayâso pick a different guy. I don't care if he's not bearing fangs, and is
all that
looks-wiseâsexy Latino voice, smooth vibe,
what-eva
. His lifestyle is just as dangerous as a vamp's. Carlos Rivera is not a good choiceânot a smart one. Not for you.”
“I know . . . been knowin' that. But, dang . . .” Damali shook her head; the mirth began distilling into despair again. “But I also thought it was my choice.”
“It isâbut you can't blame us for wanting to stack the deck
in your favor . . . which is to steer you away from guys like him.”
Damali sighed and nodded. “You can stack the deck, but just remember I hold the cards. Okay?”
“All right,” Marlene conceded. “But men are crazy.”
“Mar, tell me something I don't know.”
They both looked at each other and laughed.
“You think I'm lying, girl?” Marlene sucked her teeth. “These young men out here have no respect, no decorum, don't know how to run a householdâwouldn't give a hoot about just stop, drop, and rollin' you. Pullease. I have issues, daughter. I have
serious
issues with the world today, and have no problem posseing up, as a mom, to protect my investmentâyouâfrom anything, or anyone, that might steal your joy, that might take the sparkle from your eyes, that might break your spirit and your heart. Brotherman doesn't have to be a vampire to do thatâjust an emotional predator. Oh, it's on, now, daughter of mine. I will kick his natural ass if he hurts you. That's why I'm doing heavy anointing tonight.”
“Okay, okay.” Damali laughed as Marlene began to chuckle in a peevish tone. “Go get the stuff for the white bath.”
“Humph! The guys in the weapons room have no idea about the worries of a mother. Shabazz and Big Mike and them ain't got nothin' on a mother's mad,” Marlene fussed as she walked toward the door. “Yeah, I got something for Rivera. I'm make you shave, too. And I'm bringing henna.”
“Shave?” Damali was laughing so hard now that she had to wipe her eyes as she peered under her armsâwhich were whistle clean. “That's
out
, Marlene! No way! You are not putting a whoo-doo henna chastity belt on my stuff. You've gone too far!”
“Don't play with me, girl. You know what I'm talking about.
By the time I finish anointing and putting on symbols of protection, any man, dead or alive, is gonna need a battering ram to get through Marlene's work.” She gave Damali a wink. “All right, if you feel that strongly about it, no henna. But all of us could use a renewed seal of prayer protection from a white bath. Just go with me on this one. Run a hot tub, and stop looking at me like thatâand stop laughing.”
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He lifted his head from Raven's throat and pushed away from her with sudden disdain, spitting out the last swallow of the blood.
“What's wrong, lover?” she murmured, sounding anxious. “There's more. I'll just feed again, and you can have moreâor we can go hunting together to bring down fresh kill, baby.”
“Shut up!” Carlos stalked away from her, closing the front of his ripped pants, his hands roving over the tears in them and sealing their ragged condition with sheer thought. As he did so, a heavy six-pointed gold ring materialized on his finger. Amazing. After he'd fed, it appeared.
He walked a distance, leaving Raven behind, and tried to remove the ring that was stuck on the fourth digit of his left hand. Unable to get it off, he brought his hands to his head and then he covered his ears with the heel of his palms. African chants, bells, and drums pierced his inner ears. Thick smoke choked himâfrankincense, myrrh, roses, garlic, sageâpolluted his nose. His breathing became erratic, and he slapped Raven's hand away when it touched his shoulder, and then he moved deeper into the forest, angered that she'd followed him.
Carlos shut his eyes, and tilted his head to the side, trying to focus and hear beyond the drums and flutes. “Leave me,” he ordered and turned on her abruptly. “They said they would
house and feed you. That was the deal. Now leave me alone!”
“When you want me to come back,” she whispered, snarling with disappointment, “all you have to do is call in the night.” Her feet became thick, black smoke, and then she disappeared, leaving a sulfur haze where she had stood.
Carlos walked deeper into the woods. In the back of his mind, he could still hear his Lexus's engine running. The smells, the sounds, the sulfur, made him want to retch. He closed his eyes, a new fear coming over him as the awareness took root. He was damned. Heaven help him.
As the last thought echoed in his mind, the nausea suddenly abated. He kept his eyes closed and leaned against the trunk of a nearby tree, his balance unsteady. What was he going to do? What had he committed himself to? They'd tricked himâpartlyâand there was no turning back.
Damali . . . How would he protect her from himself? He could see her behind his lids. Naked, peaceful, but well guarded by the white light. Carlos dug his claws into the thick redwood bark as an old hunger overtook him with the vision. He breathed in deeply, and the scent now made him nearly insane. Her skin was damp, warm, golden bronzed by the light of the candles. Her face was serene, music and words were in her head and heart. Saliva built in his mouth, and he swallowed it away, the taste of her now on his lips. He could hear her breathing, watched her breasts rise and fall. The sound of her human heartbeat echoed in his skull, and the tiny brown pebbles at the ends of her small, perfect mounds were hardened by wafts of air . . . were that he was the air, brushing them. A shudder consumed him at the thought.
The sensation forced him to tilt his head, and he again inhaled deeply of the scent that was driving his torture. His breaths now frigid pants, he leaned his head back against the tree again, letting
go of it to hold her in a phantom embraceâbut immediately dropped his arms as the mental touch of her burned him. Fury ripped through him, and he took out a chunk of the tree with one swipe. They'd surrounded her, and not even his thoughts could get through!
“Hey, playa. Frustrating, isn't it?” a voice said from the distance.
Carlos spun and glared at the tall, black-hooded entity. Only gleaming red slits could be seen from a cavern inside the robeâeven with his new powers, he couldn't make out a face. This thing had no face, just glowing orbs that hovered beneath its hood. Its crooked, skeletal finger pointed at him in a beckoning motion. It waited patiently for Carlos to respond, like a tall, thin harbinger of death. Were it not so tragic, Carlos would have laughed. This thing was too late. He was already dead.
On guard, Carlos circled the threat and snarled, bearing fangs. “What are you? If you came to collect the living, you're too late. I'm a dead man walking.”
The entity laughed. “You have much to learn. . . . Soon you'll even be able to speak the old language.”
“Where are you from? Who are you?!”
“From the same place you've been, recently. Hell.”
The urge to kill whatever it was before him made Carlos's muscles twitch. “If you stay here, I'll gladly send you backâin pieces.”
“Why don't we go together, my new brother?” it hissed. “The Vampire Council of old would like to have a word with you. I'm just a messenger. Let's take your complaint to them.”
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