Love Inspired May 2015 #2 (33 page)

Becca bit back a smile at the grimace Toby made at Jared's explanation. Jared had a talent for getting in the heads of kids. The teen would have a tough time sneaking out with the vehicle if it was in the parsonage garage.

Half an hour later, Becca was standing in her dining room admiring the sideboard and how well it went with the rest of her dining room set. Whether intentionally or not, Jared had given her an out by planning to work on the truck with Toby. She hadn't had to come up with a good reason they couldn't spend the afternoon together. She should have been thankful. So why was she peeved at him?

Chapter Twelve

S
he couldn't believe the Nortons would do this to her. Becca held the letter from Family Court in her shaking hand, glad, for once, that the kids were at Matt's. They were taking her to court. And here she'd been foolish enough to think she had things under control with him and his parents. Apparently, it didn't matter that she'd done almost everything they'd asked concerning the kids, including hiding her feelings for Jared. Who did they think they were?

Becca collapsed on the couch. Better question. Who was she to allow them to do this to her? Not the parent she was trying to be. Ari's sad face when she'd asked last night if she
had
to go to her father's again wouldn't leave her head.

Matt had called Wednesday night, saying he “needed” the kids this weekend. Evidently, his boss had invited him and his family to his summer home on the shore, and Matt thought it would look bad if he didn't have the kids. She'd felt she had to say yes. He was supposed to have had them last weekend when she went to the estate sale but hadn't taken them. And now he was suing her for custody.

She kicked off her flip-flops and pulled on her athletic shoes. She had to get out of the house or she'd explode.

Picking up speed across the meadow, she ran until her lungs burned. At the sound of an engine, she slowed her pace until she could stop. Bending over, she rested her hands on her thighs and slowed her breathing. When she'd caught her breath, she straightened and looked out over the meadow toward her house. Jared was speeding around the perimeter of his property. At least she thought it was Jared. But he wasn't riding his green street bike. She watched the rider circle around toward the road. He turned and roared down the hill, flying over the gully. Her breath caught until he landed perfectly on the other side. The way the rider melded with his vehicle, it had to be Jared.

He curved around again in a tight circle, seemingly oblivious to her and everything else and started weaving a figure eight. As he completed his second pass, he raised his hand in a wave, grabbed hold of the hand grip again and gunned the engine. Watching him barrel toward her, she relived her ride home with him on the bike, the exhilaration, the feeling of power and freedom. Jared finished with a fifty-foot wheelie that ended a few feet to her left. He tore off his helmet and grinned.

“Show-off.”

“It's what I've spent years getting paid to do.”

“And you loved it.”

He turned sheepish. “Yeah, I did.” He swung off the bike and laid it down. “No kickstands on racers,” he explained.

“Are you going to miss it badly?”

He shrugged. “I can do exhibitions to scratch the itch.”

“Like the race last week? Brendon said you won.”

“Exactly.” He grinned again. “But I don't need the validation of cheering crowds and winning anymore. I haven't in a while. And once the track's built, I'll be racing with the kids. I think I'll get a lot more satisfaction from that. If I need more excitement, I can come over and race for myself whenever the track isn't in use. One of the perks of being the owner.”

Jared spoke as if the racing school and track were a done deal. Confidence spurred by his ride, or did he know something she and the Zoning Board didn't know yet?

“I know the school is an off subject between us, and I'm not trying to sway your vote.” He ran his hand over his already-tousled hair. “But I have some information from GreenSpaces that might interest you. Anne's sent it to Tom.”

Becca sucked in a breath and released it slowly. “I'd like to hear it.”
Especially if it will help me vote in good conscience for the track and against the Sheriff.

“The DOT came through with its report. Its engineers have recommended a way of rerouting traffic to bypass Conifer Road altogether and lessen the potential traffic on Route 9.”

“No roundabout?” she asked.

“No roundabout. And I'm working with the Girl Scout Council to donate some of my property to make a bigger buffer between the track property and the camp.”

“That's great. It resolves two of your opposition's major points of contention, the reasonable opposition, that is.” Excitement for Jared bubbled up inside her. Without thinking, she threw her arms around his neck.

He dropped his hands to her waist and tilted his head. “I know I'm not supposed to do this.” He lowered his lips to hers.

“No, you're not.” She accepted his kiss, leaning into the solid wall of his chest. But anything that felt this right couldn't be all wrong.

Too soon, he lifted his head, bringing her back to reality. He gazed down at her with a softness in his eyes that contrasted sharply with the angular features of his face and masculine stubble of a beard that shadowed his chin. A softness that empowered her and made her believe that by relying on God's direction and with Jared's strength supporting her emotionally, she could stand up to anything Matt and his parents could throw at her.

* * *

She was so beautiful, with her dark hair gleaming in the sun and a hint of a blush on her cheeks.
The untouchable Becca Morgan Norton in his arms.

He swallowed the lump in his throat. “I've wanted to do that again.”

“Me, too,” she said, her voice as wispy as the summer breeze passing over the meadow.

Her brown eyes misted, dulling the euphoria that had filled him when she hadn't stopped his kiss.

“But it doesn't change things,” she said.

He lifted his finger and wiped the tear that ran down her cheek. Another followed it.
Nice work, Donnelly.
He couldn't leave well enough alone. “What's wrong?”

“Everything.” She buried her face in his chest.

He hesitantly smoothed his hand over her hair. He'd thought things were looking up for him, for both of them.

She stepped away and rubbed her palms over her cheeks. “It's not you, this.” She dropped her hands in an open-armed gesture. “Us.” She crossed her hands on her chest and took a deep breath. “Matt's suing for custody of Ari and Brendon and permission to move them to Florida. My mind is such a jumble. One minute I think I can handle him and his parents, that I have everything under control. The next...”

Jared bit back a word he shouldn't say. “After the way the Sheriff and his wife treat you and all of the hoops you've jumped through for them and Matt, he's suing you for custody? On what grounds? Your kids couldn't ask for a better mother.”

She gave him a watery smile. “Thanks. As the saying goes, you can sue anyone for anything. It doesn't mean you're going to win.”

“I'm not part of this, am I?” He had to ask.

“No, not specifically.” She rushed on before he could ask her to clarify that. “Matt and his attorney are contending that Matt and Crystal have a more stable
two-parent
household. Crystal doesn't work outside the home. He makes a comfortable living.”

“What century are they coming from? If that's their tack, how do they justify him not sharing that comfortable living more equally with you for the kids? Gram told me about your need to work this summer. I can't imagine it's for things for you.”

Becca raised her hand to halt him. “Matt also accuses me of using my nonwork time for socializing rather than spending time with Brendon and Ari, of dumping them with Ken and Debbie. That's ironic considering Brendon and Ari complain that Matt isn't home or is entertaining clients at the house half of the time when they're there and that Crystal constantly tells them to go play or watch TV in their rooms.”

Jared clenched his hands into tight fists. It was an unchristian thought, but he'd like to break something or someone.

“I thought Debbie and Ken liked to watch the kids for me. They always asked for Matt's weekends before Matt started using his visitation rights this summer.” She threw up her hands. “And where do I socialize? I sometimes go to the once-a-month meeting of the Singles Group at church. Last year I chaired the Career Day at school. That required me to attend a few evening meetings. And I've been to two Zoning Board meetings.” She laughed a harsh laugh. “After the Sheriff suggested I fill the vacancy on the board.”

“When did he suggest you join the board?” he demanded.

“Shortly before the meeting where the board decided that we needed a public hearing before we could vote on your project.”

His chest tightened. “The timing. It has to be at least partly about me or about getting back at my family and me. Ken Norton has always disliked us. I suspect it's something between him and Dad.” He ran his finger down her cheek. “You know I wouldn't intentionally do anything to hurt you or Brendon and Ari.”

“I know.” She hung her head and shook it.

Her defeat fueled his anger. “What about Matt's drinking, that you suspect he's abusing alcohol when the kids are with him? Equal game. I know the Sheriff is using my supposed alcohol use against me, talking up that I'm just like my father to anyone who'll listen. The gossip paints you, too, if you associate with me.”

“No, I can't go there.” She stood ramrod straight. “I have the information about Matt's drinking only from Brendon. I won't make him speak against his father, even if it's only to the court-appointed law guardian to share with the court. I'd rather he and Ari not be dragged into it at all. Nor should they have to. It's highly unlikely the judge will act on revoking my custody. Besides, Matt and Crystal don't want the kids there full-time. He as much as told me so. It would interfere with their lifestyle. We'll end up taking up the court's time to work out a new visitation agreement to accommodate Matt and Crystal's move, something we could sit down with our lawyers and do.”

“So taking you to court is all a power trip.”

“Pretty much. Matt and the Sheriff revel in the grandstanding, being in charge.”

“In their minds.”

Becca frowned.

He shouldn't have been so caustic. Jared knew Becca had been through this before. More than once. But it seemed like she was ready to roll over and give in to the Nortons again.

“It's so wearing on me and hard on Ari and Brendon. They hear everything from their father and grandparents as if it's a done deal, and come back to me confused and upset. I thought we had everything worked out the last time we went to court. It's been three years. Why now, again?”

“Because of Matt's move to Florida?”

“I don't know. It started earlier in the summer, before Matt got the offer in Florida.”

All feeling drained from Jared.
Earlier in the summer. Like when I returned to Paradox Lake.
The last thing he wanted was to cause problems for Becca, to be responsible in any way for placing her in a position where she'd have to fight to keep Brendon and Ari.

Becca looked toward her house. “I need to get going. Since the kids are at Matt's, I volunteered to help Karen shop and set up for your grandmother's surprise birthday luncheon at church tomorrow during coffee hour. I ran out to blow off some steam. I didn't intend to be gone so long.”

“I can give you a lift.” He nodded at his bike.

“You only have one helmet.”

“You can wear it. I trust myself to get us up the hill to your house safely.”

“I didn't mean...”

“I'm teasing,” he said, adjusting the strap on the helmet before handing it to her.

“I am a little nervous,” she admitted. “I've only ridden a motorcycle once, with you, on the road.”

“Hey, I'm a professional. And, truth be told, the ground is more forgiving than the pavement.”

She gave him a mock-stern look. “Nothing tricky on the way.”

“Nothing tricky on the way,” he echoed. “I promise.”

He lifted his bike upright and seated himself, steadying the vehicle for Becca to climb on behind him. She slid her arms around his waist, his abs tightening at the touch of her fingers. He could get used to this.

“Hang on.” He turned on the engine and took off in low gear, holding the bike back. As he'd said, he'd never do anything to hurt her.

Jared came to a slow stop in her driveway in front of the garage and glanced up the road, half expecting the Nortons to arrive as they had the last time he and Becca had run into each other in the meadow. He shook off the bad memories, clamped his hands tighter on the grips than necessary and planted his booted feet on the driveway so she could climb off.

Becca released him and took off the helmet. She walked to the front of the bike, grinned and placed it on his head. A warmth that had nothing to do with the summer morning filled him as she adjusted the strap under his chin and snapped it to the helmet. He smiled as she ran her finger between the strap and his chin, testing the fit.

When she was satisfied, she stepped back. “Thanks for listening to me. I know it's not your problem. See you at church tomorrow.”

He sat with the bike off until she was in the house. She was wrong there. It was his problem because he was part of the cause. He cranked on the motor and jetted back over the fields to the pull-in where he'd parked his truck and trailer. And he was going to do something about it.

As he slammed the door of the trailer shut behind his bike, Jared looked up at the cloudless sky.
Lord, this may be the hardest and most selfless thing I've ever done. I won't come between Becca and her children. Please give me the strength to leave Becca before I'm too in love with her to go.

* * *

Shopping and setting up for the luncheon didn't take nearly as much time as Becca had expected. She'd had plenty of time to do all her weekend chores as well. With the kids gone to Matt's so much this summer, the house had never been cleaner—or emptier. The letter from Family Court shouted at her every time she walked by the bill-and-mail holder by the telephone in the dining room. She'd talk with Matt on Monday after the kids were back with her.