Live and in Living Color ...
After Parker took a quick peek into his son's room and paid the babysitter, he settled in for the night. “Damn,” he mumbled. He kicked PJ's Tonka truck to the side as he walked through his living room and headed to the extravagant gourmet kitchen, which he never used. He loosened his silk tie and opened the refrigerator in search of relief. He popped the cap of his favorite ice-cold beer and turned the bottle up to his mouth. It didn't quench his real thirst, but it was a good temporary distraction.
He polished off half the bottle in a few long swigs as he walked upstairs to his home office and settled into his worn leather chair, ready to check his e-mail. He looked around the mahogany paneled room and thought about his encounter with Victoria. It had been the third time he'd seen her in one week. He shook his head and smiled, thinking about how, despite the fact that so many years had passed between them, she still managed to take his breath away.
When he first saw her a week ago at Hilda Barrett's house, during his son's Jack and Jill playdate, he'd been shocked when she entered the room. She was the last person he had expected to see. At first he thought his eyes were deceiving him, repeating the same cruel trick they had played on him countless times over the last six years. There had been several occasions when he thought he saw Victoria walking down the street or sitting in a restaurant, only to find that it was a look-alike, who, upon closer inspection, never measured up to the genuine article.
But when he saw the tall, beautiful woman standing in Hilda's living room and then looked down to see the little girl standing beside her who was a cream-colored version of her spitting image, he knew it had to be Victoria. He wanted to go over to her and speak, but she was engaged with another group of women, one of whom was his friend's wife, Roberta. And knowing Roberta the way he did, he was sure that she was giving Victoria the lowdown on his life. He decided to approach her once the meeting ended, but she scurried away, as though someone were chasing her. He knew her pattern, and he knew that she was avoiding him.
Then, a few days later, he was standing in the admissions office of his son's new school when he heard the door open and smelled the undeniably sexy scent of the only woman who'd ever made him want to settle down and recite vows in front of an altar. When the admissions officer called out Victoria's name, he turned around to find her standing in front of him, looking as beautiful as he'd ever seen her. He could tell that she was shocked to see him again, too, but he also saw a soft glimmer in her eyes when he shook her hand. He purposely hung around so he could talk to her after her meeting, and that was when he knew that the fire was still there. It wasn't what she did, but what she didn't do, that gave him hope.
He knew from past experience that Victoria could be cold and distant if she was pushed to the edge, and considering the way their relationship had ended, he knew she was perfectly capable of treating him like yesterday's leftovers. But she didn't do that. She wasn't welcoming, but she didn't completely push him away, either. And being a methodical thinker, he sensed an opening and took it. He handed her his business card, and to his surprise and delight, she took it.
It had only been recently that he'd finally given up hope of running into Victoria one day. He'd thought about her on many occasions since the last time he'd seen herâa time that even today he knew she was completely unaware of.
Sitting at his desk, mindlessly scrolling through his e-mails, Parker sighed as he thought about life's irony. When he had come to Victoria in those dark nights five years ago, it was the closest he'd ever felt to her, yet the most far away she'd ever been....
On the day his son was born,Victoria had been heavy on Parker's mind. As he looked at his new “mini me” lying in the hospital nursery, he was overjoyed. But in that joy there was also sadness, because although he instantly loved PJ on sight, he knew that having rebound sex with Pamela had been a bad idea.
He had regretted it almost from the start. They'd hooked up a few weeks after Victoria had gotten married. Seeing her wedding announcement in the newspaper had sent him into a mild state of depression, a very sobering experience for a man as admittedly confident and ego driven as he was.
After moping around and shutting himself off for days, he decided that he had to get on with the business of living. He knew he was a damn good catch and that he could have practically any woman he wanted. After all, who wouldn't want a tall, handsome, Harvard-educated surgeon who was cultured in the ways of the world, sophisticated in his taste of the finer things, and who knew how to please a woman in the bedroom?
Parker decided that the best way to get back out there was to throw himself headfirst into the sea. When he ran into Pamela one night at a mutual friend's housewarming party, she chatted him up and they agreed to have dinner the following evening. Over the course of the next week Pamela worked her charms, skillfully applying just the right amount of emotional salve to his wounds, helping to ease his painful breakup with Victoria. She pulled out all the stops, luring him back into her bed. That night was a blur for Parker after too much cognac and too many sweet whispers in his ear, but Pamela knew exactly what she was doing. A month later she announced that she was pregnant.
Even though Parker clearly wasn't in love with her, he wanted to do the right thing by Pamela, so instead of giving her the engagement ring she'd been hoping for, he presented her with a carefully structured legal document that spelled out his financial commitment to their unborn child. Pamela was furious but kept her true feelings tucked away while she patiently plotted to get the ring and marriage proposal she so desperately wanted.
During the months leading up to her delivery, Parker was ever diligent and caring, attending all her prenatal appointments and joining her at Lamaze classes. Pamela's enthusiasm about her impending bundle of joy began to wane as she grew bigger with each passing month, an emotional state that her ob-gyn attributed to stress. So Parker took it upon himself to order the crib, shop for baby supplies, and even decorate the baby's room in her house. “I don't want you to worry about a thing,” he'd told her. “Our baby is going to be happy and healthy, and I'll do everything I can to make sure you have a safe delivery.”
When the big day finally arrived, Parker was overjoyed to cut the umbilical cord of his newborn son. His mother and Pamela's mother had come to town and were equally as happy to welcome their grandchild. For them, it was a dream come true because the two women had been best friends for over forty years. They'd been making wedding plans for Parker and Pamela since they were children building sand castles on the beach when their families vacationed together during summers on Martha's Vineyard. Now they were ecstatic because they saw their new grandchild as the bridge that would finally unite their two children in matrimony. Everyone had high hopes except Parker, because he knew that his heart still belonged to someone else, even if she was married to another man.
The day after PJ was born, Parker noticed a new baby in the nursery when he went to visit his son before starting his morning rounds. The baby was a tiny, beautiful little girl who trembled from head to toe inside an incubator. Normally, he would have paid no attention to any baby other than his own, but there was something about the helpless, angel-like infant that drew him in. He walked up to the side of the plastic encased bubble and stared at the little girl inside; then he looked at her name tag and realized why she'd captured his attention.
“Nurse,” Parker called out to the floor nurse on duty. “Can you pull the chart on the Thornton baby?”
After reading Alexandria's chart, Parker immediately became concerned. She'd been delivered by cesarean section due to placental abruption. She was full term but underweight, and was suffering from severe jaundice, fluid buildup in her tiny lungs, and a weakened immune system. But his worry subsided a little when he saw that Keith Bloomberg, one of the best pediatric surgeons on the East Coast, was already on the case.
“She was delivered early this morning,” the nurse said as she stood near Parker, attending to another infant. “She's a tiny little thing, and she's got some breathing problems, but she's a real fighter.” She smiled. “She gets it honest. I think she and her mother will both be all right. She's a fighter, too.”
Parker froze but kept his outward expression calm and casual. He knew he had to find out the extent of Victoria's condition. Placental abruptions could cause major bleeding and serious complications for the mother. After some quick snooping, he learned that she'd hemorrhaged badly by the time she arrived at the hospital and even more during the emergency cesarean. Her blood pressure was dangerously low, and she was still in intensive care.
Parker searched the floor for her room and finally found it. As he approached, he glimpsed Victoria's mother and heard the unmistakable baritone of her father booming through the room. John Small had always been an intimidating figure, but hearing him speak now, Parker could feel the worry and fear in the older man's voice. He wanted to rush in and let John and Elizabeth know that Victoria would be just fine, that he'd make sure of it. But he knew it would be a bad idea to insert himself into the situation, especially since he had no doubt that Ted was in the room with them. He tugged on his stethoscope and eased by the open door, looking inside as he passed. Ted was sitting at the edge of Victoria's bed, while her parents were camped out in two chairs against the window.
Late that evening, long after visitors' hours had ended, Parker found his way back to Victoria's room. He remembered that she'd always been a sound sleeper, and now, with the help of sedative drugs, she was out for the count.
He stood watch as she slept, checking the updates on her chart and monitoring her vital signs. He even ventured to hold her hand, then kiss her lightly on her forehead. This became his nightly ritual until she was released, safe and well....
As Parker logged off his computer and went into his bedroom to undress, he felt a heavy weight sitting in the pit of his stomach. He reached in his pants pocket and fished out Victoria's business card, which he'd picked up from the gift table at the wedding reception. He looked at her business address, phone number, and e-mail, committing them to memory before sitting the card on his nightstand. He let out a small sigh. Just when he thought he'd finally gotten Victoria out of his system and off his mind, she was back again, live and in living color.