Faithfully (15 page)

“What the fuck
?” It happened to wake the rest of the room. There was no sleeping in, but it was already eight in the morning, and for me that was close enough to sleeping in.

Sunday wasn’t as relaxing. I had to get lesson plans done
, so I left the girls there with everyone as I went to the school to complete them. Luckily there was only two days before break. Lexi had to fly out that afternoon to see her parents in Florida for the holiday week, so she left to go home and pack.

When I got
back, I saw Lily with Johnny and their guitars. Josie was reading to Alex while Sam and Jasmine were baking cookies. I went into the kitchen to watch them. I pulled up a stool to the island. Jazz was eating more batter than she placed on the baking sheets.

I wanted to bring up the morning, but wasn’t sure how
to in front of Jasmine. My mind was going over all the different ways to covertly bring it up, but nothing that wouldn’t bring up questions from Jasmine.

“I see those wheels turning
. Don’t even bring it up.” Sam knew I wanted to talk about it.

“
What, you have something on your mind?” I smirked.

“Nope, nothing I need or want to share with you.”
She pointedly raised her eyebrows at me.

“Oh, but you will.” I winked at her and stood. I walked into the other room
after giving Jazz a kiss on the top of the head to see what the other girls were up to. I listened to Josie read while Lily played the guitar for me. She was getting a bit faster at stringing cords together.

After
dinner, I told the girls to get ready because we had to head home. Alex quickly interjected his brilliant idea. He thought we could or should stay at his house the next few nights, since we would be staying anyway when Derek got into town on Wednesday. I was very reluctant, but I agreed. I quickly ran home and grabbed the girl’s backpacks and my school bag. I grabbed a few things because I wasn’t really sure what was in my closet at Alex’s. The only things I ever looked for were lounge clothes.

When I got
back, the girls were all showered and on the couch with Alex. He was reading them a few books. I sat on the floor in front of them, resting my head on the couch. When he was done, he informed them it was bedtime. There was no whining or bargaining like they did when I put them to bed. I followed them up the stairs and had them go into their respective rooms. I had them pick numbers as to decide the order of who would get tucked in first.

When I was done, I was feeling tired. I walked into Alex’s room to take a shower. I needed the hot water to beat
down on my back because it was sore from the slumber party. While I was in the shower, I heard the door open and close. I thought Alex came in to grab something, but he was sliding back the shower curtain and climbing in with me.

“Are you fucking crazy? The girls are probably still awake.” I was holding my hand on his chest and not allowing him in the water stream or close to me.

“The twins are asleep and Lily has a flashlight under her blankets reading a book, so we are safe.” This completely broke my house rules I had designed for us, but we weren’t at my house, and I had a feeling he thought they didn’t apply here.

“What if she come
s to the room to get me?” I had a slight fear of being caught by the girls in an inappropriate position.

“The door is locked,
so relax.” He removed my hand from his chest and pulled me close. We were front to front, and he had his hands wrapped around my body, rubbing my lower back. It felt so good that I had no choice but to moan in the appreciation. “See, you can’t do this yourself.” He had a point, but he was still putting me in an uncomfortable position.

After a
while, he turned me and rubbed my neck and shoulders. Alex was digging into my neck, and it hurt so good. I had knots and he was getting rid of all of them. When time passed, I wrapped my arms behind us both, grabbed his butt, and started massaging it. The more I rubbed, the more I pulled him in closer to me. His hands on my neck were replaced with his mouth, kissing, licking and biting. Even in the hot water I was getting chills down my body. Alex’s hands were traveling up and down my body. He groped my breasts, grabbing my nipples, rolling them between his fingers. My hands left his ass and traveled to his front, stroking him slowly. I started to face him, but he stopped me.

Alex’s right hand left my breast while his left hand continued squeezing a
nd rolling my nipple. His left hand came around my neck, pulling my head back and to the side to meet his mouth and tongue. When I tried again to turn, his hand spanked my ass. It had enough force to sting, but also turned my insides on fire. I was now craving him, all of him. I caught myself whimpering because I needed him.

“Show me what you want
,” Alex whispered in my ear. I tightened my grip on him to let him know what I wanted. “No, show me.” Alex took my hand and guided it to the inside of my folds. I was feeling self-conscious about playing with myself in front of him. I’d obviously masturbated before, but not in front of anyone.

Slowly,
I started moving my finger inside myself, taking time to play with my clit. Both Alex’s hands started moving up and down me again, grabbing and squeezing where he wanted. I felt Alex move down as he trailed kisses down my back. I was shocked when he bent me over. I felt his tongue between my ass checks. Nobody had ever kissed or touched me there, and I was uneasy about it. I had stopped playing with myself to protest the move, but Alex redirected me with a hand. “Relax, trust me.”

This had nothing to do with trust
, or so I thought. Alex was right, it was a different feel, but my senses were going crazy. My fingers were working my insides and I was hitting all the spots I had become familiar with the last few years, while Alex continued to lick me from behind. I came hard, my legs were shaking and they were about to go out from under me until Alex grabbed me by the waist and held me up. When I was done, Alex pulled my fingers out and licked them clean. I was completely turned on again.

I went to turn
again, and again Alex stopped me. Instead he bent me over at the waist and entered me from behind. My hands were placed on the side of the shower so I could help myself stand and also have a little force to push back into him. Alex had my hips and was thrusting into me deeply and slowly to start, but he started thrusting faster. I was pushing back with as much force as I could. I could feel his grip tighten and I knew he was getting close. I moved a hand to my clit and started playing with it. Quickly, I was starting to climax again. Alex was digging into my sides, and his thrusts went deeper and slower. He let out a small growl and I knew he was there.

When Alex released
me, he sat on the bottom of the shower and placed me on his lap, this time turning me so I was facing him and straddling him. His breathing had started to slow and he rested his forehead on mine.
              “God, you are fucking amazing,” he said as he kissed my forehead.

“Funny how I was thinking the same thing about you.” I kissed his forehead. “We need to put some house rules
in place here. As much as I enjoyed myself here, we have to stop having sex when the girls are in the same house as us.” I needed him to agree on this with me.

“So you are telling me the twins were conceived when Lily was out of the house
?” Alex pulled back to look at me, water running down his face.

I felt I was walking into a trap. “No, well, I don’t know, possibly.” I wasn’t sure actually.

“You’ve never had sex when the girls were home, ever?” He was looking at me and I couldn’t lie.

“No, but it’s different.” I knew I was trapped in some sort of logic he had weaved in his head.

“Different because you were married?” I didn’t want to answer. I wasn’t going to. I went to stand, but Alex grabbed my waist. “I’m not starting a fight, just answer the question please.”

“Yes, different because I was married and that was their dad.” I felt like a bitch saying it. I looked down
because I didn’t want to look at him.

“If you would let me marry you
, we would be too, and as far as I’m concerned I’m already their dad. I might not be biological, but I love them like they are mine.” I looked at him now and he had sadness in his eyes.

I put my hands on both sides of his face and had him look at me. “I love you, but I need time for my mind to catch up to my
heart, and as for those girls, they love you like a father. You spend more time with them and do more for them than a lot of dads I know. I’ve never questioned your love for them.” I didn’t know how to put his mind at ease. “Basically, I’m crazy and I can’t shut my mind off. I know I need to trust and let go of the fears, but my mind can’t let go of the fact it’s only been five, almost six months.” These were my hang-ups and I knew it. “You are perfect, and I don’t know how I got lucky enough to get you to love me.”

Alex grabbed the back of my head with his hand
s and pulled me toward him to meet his mouth. Our mouths met with a type of hunger and need. I needed him to know I loved him and he needed me to let go and trust him.

             
We finished the shower in a comfortable silence. I knew I wasn’t giving him everything he wanted right now, but it was all I could give at the present moment. I hoped time would put both of us at ease.

~14~

             
The next morning I woke to the smell of coffee by my face. Alex set my coffee next to me on the nightstand and crawled back into bed with me.

“I still can’t grasp how you are a morning person. I’ve always hate
d people like you.” I had tried for years to be a morning person. I tried getting up, working out in the morning, and just getting up and having coffee and watching the news, but I just couldn’t get my body to enjoy it, or even get used to it.

             
Alex didn’t respond. He simply grabbed his coffee and chuckled. I sat up and started sipping mine. I leaned back on the headboard and started enjoying my coffee. “I guess if you keep bringing me coffee I can grow to love the fact you are a morning person.”

             
“You have fucking loved it the minute I started waiting outside your bathroom door like a puppy every morning with your coffee.” He had a point.

             
“True, but I wouldn’t call you a puppy. You are just whipped.” I laughed into my coffee cup as I was about to take a sip. I heard Alex set his down and I was out of bed with the cup on the nightstand before he could grab me.

             
“Where are you going? I was about to show you whipped.” Alex was lying across the bed, slightly sprawled out.

             
I went to walk toward him, but realized I needed to get to the bathroom, because my monthly visitor was here. I started to walk across the room when Alex started talking to me over my shoulder.

“What?” I think he thought I was pissed.

              “Well, the good news is we won’t need to fight over house rules for the next few days. You are on dry dock.” I walked into the bathroom and I was shutting the door when I heard his response.

             
“I’ll call your dentist to see if your mouth still works.”

              I wanted to laugh, but didn’t want to give him the satisfaction.

             
I knew I didn’t pack anything. I had completely forgotten about my period and didn’t think to bring anything. I knew he wouldn’t have thought of picking up anything to keep here. I riffled through the drawers in the hope of being wrong, but it was hopeless. I ended up walking out of the bathroom in hopes that Sam had some. I walked into her room, but she wasn’t there. I didn’t know where she was, but knew I didn’t have time to go looking for her. I wanted to scream. I felt like it was a sign telling me I shouldn’t have stayed here, but my own house instead.

             
When I walked back in the room, Alex was getting dressed. “Where are you going?”

             
“The store, because obviously you can’t. Get in the shower. I’ll be back before you get out.” I was not letting him go to the store to get tampons for me.
              “Please, like I’ve never bought them before.”

             
“Really, you have?” I was surprised he had bought them before.

             
“No, but it’s not a big deal. Now go get in the shower.” He kissed me on the forehead before turning me towards the bathroom door. I willingly walked in and started getting ready for my shower.

             
Alex came back when I had finished drying my hair. “Okay, it is harder than I thought. Why are there so many different kinds, and what is the difference in regulars and supers? Also, there are different types of maxi pads out there.”